I don’t know when you’ll be able to read these memoirs, whoever you are. By the time you read them, I could even be dead. That’s one of the reasons I’m writing them, because someone has to know these things. A second reason is that Samuel Moore needs to know what kind of man his father was and the real reason he won’t be seeing his father anymore. A third reason is that writing it will keep me from going crazy while I recover here in this facility, whatever it is and wherever it is. My mind desperately needs something to do while my body heals, which the doctors here tell me will take time, a lot of time.
Fortunately, Rachelle taught me how to encrypt files on my laptop so that they look innocuous if Control sees them and how to foil keystroke recorders. Rachelle is a computer genius. I’d call her a savant. She’ll come into the story soon enough. Do I think Control could be spying on my computer activity here, in a hospital bed, on my own laptop? I know they are. However, when Control looks at my computer logs, they'll see a history made up by one of Rachelle’s pet AIs that includes a lot of solitaire, social media convos, and movie watching. Hopefully, I learned enough from Rachelle to pull this off and write these memoirs under Control’s nose. I’m willing to risk it. Like I said, my mind desperately needs something to do while my body heals or I’ll go nuts.
It all started when a strange man, who would later introduce himself as Mr. X, came by my office after a lecture. I was a college professor back then. It wasn’t unusual for visitors to sit in for a lecture. Some people are old school and come up to me before the lecture starts and ask permission to sit in, but many times, they don't even introduce themselves or speak to me afterwards. That’s totally fine. I always hope those people got something good that day that helped them in some way.
I remember when the strange man arrived that afternoon about five minutes after the lecture had started. Most folks arriving late seat themselves in the back or near the back. Even regular students actually enrolled in the class do this if they are late, even if the back is not where they usually sit day to day. Late people don’t usually want to be seen or make a scene. Mr. X, however, walked down the steps of the auditorium to an empty seat in the very front of the room, interrupting the class with the sound of his hard, very formal dress shoes resounding on each and every step. As all eyes turned to him, the whole class became so completely silent that there wasn’t even the sound of a page of notes turning or of a pencil scratching new notes. It was like no one was even breathing. The man who would later introduce himself as Mr. X was unforgettably unique.
He was dressed as if he had stepped out of the 1800s, with a vest, bow tie, pocket watch, coat with tails, and top hat. He carried a hardback, portfolio style notebook. As he sat down, he opened the notebook, placing it on the desk-like folding armrest of his auditorium seat. Next, he produced an elegant-looking pen from inside his coat pockets. He placed the pen to the paper and leaned forward expectantly, as if planning to record every word I said, looking right up at me, making eye contact.
It wasn’t his clothes that most captivated the gaze of all of us in the room, however, it was his bodily appearance. His skin was albino white. He was bald to the extent of not having any eyebrows. I thought at first, while he was over in the seats, that perhaps his eyebrows were white and simply not noticeable from that distance, However, later, when he was in my office, I confirmed he didn’t actually have any. He reminded me very much of conspiracy theory videos about Men in Black, except that those characters were portrayed as wearing modern suits, not Victorian ones.
When Mr. X made eye contact with me, I became self-conscious enough to realize I had completely stopped my lecture and that the class had come to a halt. This snapped me out of the state of semi-hypnosis the room seemed to be in, and since I was the teacher after all, I recovered and pressed on with the rest of the class period, which went remarkably well and without further distraction by the day’s visitor.
A nice thing about the schedule I had back then was that my office hours were immediately after that class, which was good since that was the class that I was teaching at the time that seemed to generate the most students who wanted to use my office hours. I could handle questions while topics were still fresh in both my and my students’ minds. Only one person came to office hours that day, Mr. X.
My door was open. I was seated at my desk, which was placed on one of the side walls so that I could see both the door to my right and the magnificent wall of windows to my left. Mr. X stepped into the doorway, clutching his notebook and nodding his head in greeting.
“Dr. Leighton, your lecture today was most stimulating.”
“Thank you. I always enjoy it when people drop by to visit the class. To what do I owe the pleasure of your visit today, sir?”
“I represent an organization that would appreciate a man of your diverse talents and experiences. We are hoping that you might consider doing some consulting work for us.”
This was definitely not going to be the conversation I had expected. Then I realized that coming from this guy, I didn’t know what I could have expected anyway. Who was he?
The man I would come to know as Mr. X sat down in the chair across the desk from me. He smiled cordially and seemed friendly. He certainly didn’t fit the Men in Black stereotype of being emotionless and socially awkward.
I was very intrigued by this guy, so I wanted to know everything I could about him and his organization. I didn’t really need the money. I was comfortable financially. But, with money, more is always better, so that could be a bonus, maybe a big bonus depending on what this opportunity really was.
“What sort of consultation are you looking for?”
“We’re looking for more of the same type of work you’ve already done for us, though you may not have known it at the time.”
I waited for a moment for him to continue, which he obliged to do.
“Last year, when you were consulted regarding the differences between different Native American tribal traditions regarding skinwalkers, your insight resulted in the capture of one and the saving of many lives of those who would have been its victims.”
“The capture of a skinwalker?” I was so incredulous that I caught myself being open-mouthed and shut it, quickly composing myself. This guy seemed serious, completely sincere and straight in his delivery.
“Yes, one that has become very infamous to our organization. It has been responsible for at least twenty-one deaths that we know of, probably more.”
“You’re serious.”
“The deaths of twenty-one people are very serious.”
I leaned forward, matching his posture.
“What type of consultation would you like me to work on for you now?”
Mr. X smiled so excitedly that his eyes twinkled, as if I were a celebrity rockstar and he was about to ask for my autograph.
“We’d like you to come and work for us, full time.”
“Full time?”
“Full time.”
“I don’t even know what your organization does.”
“You know we hunt skinwalkers.”
“That can’t be a full-time endeavor,” I said, humoring him. “There can’t be that many skinwalkers in existence.”
“You’re right there aren’t,” he admitted, “But we work cases that are just as fascinating, too. We believe you would be a tremendous asset.”
“As a researcher?”
“No, Dr. Leighton, as a field agent.”
My face must have betrayed my skepticism and disbelief at that point. Mr. X suddenly sat back in the chair and changed to a more serious approach. He didn’t become adversarial or mean, but he had more of the “tough love” demeanor of a strict parent or a coach rather than a buddy or friend.
“Dr. Leighton, you have tried all your life to make the choices that would make your limited lifespan in this world count for as much as possible. You started out in science, with a love of chemistry and biology, until you realized that pursuing that would leave you stuck in a lab somewhere staring at a wall while you juggled test tubes all day, away from people.
“You switched to anthropology for the human connection, and for the possibilities of addressing issues at a societal level since chemistry didn’t seem promising for you to address them at a molecular level. You also considered psychology but you didn’t want to help just one person at a time.You, all your life, have had a broader vision, one that encompasses the world.”
Here, Mr. X gestured for dramatic effect at the large map of the world behind him, which hung there before my eyes in my office constantly. He knew me. It was life he’d been following me around all his life. He continued.
“You are now almost 50 years old and feel stuck here, too. You are at a very important crossroads, Dr. Leighton. You can accept this place you are now in life as you approach mid-life, or you can seize the opportunity I am offering you to finally find a place where your vision for what your potential is, where you can make a difference for the world with your life.”
He stopped and looked at me expectantly, standing up from his chair and handing me a business card all in one fluid motion.
I took the card. It read:
Mr. X
Agent of Control
(800) 555-2141
“The choice is yours, Dr. Leighton.”
I found myself also standing up and taking the card from him.
“Good day, Dr. Leighton,” Mr. X bid me, tipping his hat to me and leaving as quickly and he’d come.
What had just happened? Was this a prank?
I would soon find out it wasn’t.
Physical therapy sucks! It hurts. I’m back in bed now, with my spasms under control enough to keep writing to you, dear reader. One day soon, I’ll probably give you the details of my injuries, but I really don’t want to think about them right now any more than I have to. Writing to you will help keep my mind off the pain. Yes, they give me painkillers in this place, but they don’t block all of it. I’m also writing this time to keep myself awake until dinner gets here. I don’t want to miss dinner because I passed out from pain and exhaustion. Been there, done that. At least the food is good in this place, something to look forward to. Last time, I told you about my encounter with Mr. X that fateful day and the card he left with me. It wasn’t long, maybe a couple of days later, during the weekend, when I called the number. I wanted to ask more questions. To my surprise, Mr. X answered himself immediately after the first ring. I had expected to get some voicemail or an operator, but n
I knew it would happen eventually. Today, the main doctor who sees me informed me that I am deemed well enough to be debriefed about what happened in Dust Bowl. I have an appointment tomorrow morning after breakfast to talk about my experiences there. I won’t be walking to the appointment myself, of course. I’ll be wheelchaired in.I’m actually surprised this hasn’t happened a lot sooner. I’ve been conscious and well enough to answer questions for weeks. I mentioned that to the doctor when he was here in the room. He said that they also wanted me to be in a good state of mental and emotional recovery, too, for the debriefing. I can appreciate that.In the meantime, I’ll be debriefing you some more dear reader, before I slip off to sleep tonight. Last time, I was in the Ford Expedition with Rachelle and was just opening the Dust Bowl, Arizona mission briefing video.The video started with a map of Arizona zooming in on a region northwest of Phoenix, and well off any interstate or highw
I have a confession to make. I skipped making an entry here yesterday. You're probably reading this in its completed form, so you'd never know I skipped a day, but I'm telling you because I want you, whoever you are, to know how much I appreciate you reading this. Writing this record is really helping me process what's happened to my life since I became an Agent of Control (if I even still have that status. It's not exactly clear at this point what's to become of me once I'm all healed up as much as I'm going to get healed up, especially after yesterday.)I have faith that Rachelle’s pet AI will get this file in front of a lot of eyeballs, but I have no idea whether you're taking me seriously or just thinking that you're reading a piece of fiction. Either way, it helps me a lot to know that you're reading this. It's a much nicer way to work things out than what happened yesterday after breakfast.My first debriefing session since I came to be here at the facility was intense. Although
Today, I had a different debriefing interviewer, a much more normal seeming person. Although he wasn’t a Mr. Rodgers level of friendliness, he was calm, professional, and not rude, a huge improvement over yesterday’s guy. But, I'm sure you're more interested in reading about the road trip to Arizona than about me right now as a guy recovering in a hospital room, so here goes.When Rachelle returned from the restroom, she acted like nothing weird had happened, as if a physics-defyingly long electrical cord had not emerged from and then disappeared back into her cargo pants, as if we had always planned to get our meals to go. She smiled a lot, cracked jokes, and seemed in good humor like before, but didn't offer any kind of explanation for the odd occurrence or even acknowledge it.I took my cue from her and conversed back with her normally. Once at the vehicle, I got into the driver's seat and she got in the back for her nap as she had planned. I set my food container on the front pass
I was very surprised today to be visited by Mr. X. This isn’t the sort of hospital where one gets visitors. I’m sure the general public doesn’t even know this place exists. I’ve even wondered, out of paranoia, if the outside world out there even knows I’m alive.Mr. X came by beaming his characteristic unusual-looking smile. I found myself so happy for his company that it didn’t even creep me out like it did before. He was bubbly and effusive. He opened my curtains in the room for the first time in my memory to get sunlight for the small, tastefully-sized vase of flowers he brought me to cheer up my room. There was a small parking lot outside with ordinary-looking cars, as if this was a small hospital or nursing home anywhere in America. So, I was above ground. I made a mental note to get closer to the window as soon as I could to see what state the license plates of those cars were from.Mr. X offered enough information, worked and woven into the one-sided conversation that he had wi
I received a package today from Mr. X. Inside was a phone, a nice one. Attached to the phone was a Post-It Note that read “Use Me. Text HELLO to 555-4545. I did, of course. There’s been no response yet. It’s been about twenty minutes. I’m going to start my writing to you for today and I’ll keep an eye on this phone. It was about five hours from Hays, Kansas to Denver. It would be about eleven hours from Denver to Flagstaff. I awoke from my slumber after sunrise with the vehicle filled with daylight to the sound of my colleagues discussing various eateries we were passing to select one to stop at for breakfast. I felt somewhat refreshed. At some point as the miles had passed in the darkness, my mind had calmed down enough to have actually restfully deep sleep mentally, although physically I was stiff and sore from the seat of a Ford Expedition not being a proper bed. The food question was settled by the sighting of a billboard advertisement for Waffle House. This lifted everyone’s sp
Last night, while I was sleeping, the phone from Mr. X beeped softly. I had it under my pillow so as it beeped, it gently pulled me out of a dream. The paranoia that I have learned as an Agent of Control prompted my choice of keeping it under my pillow. I didn’t want the phone to disappear while I was sleeping and then have to put up with the nice, polite hospital staff around here lying through their teeth at me saying sweetly things like “I’m so sorry your phone was misplaced, Dr. Leighton. Everyone will keep an eye out for it.” I would have to smile and pretend to be polite back and thank them for looking, all the while thinking to myself misplaced, my ass. Is such paranoia justified when one works for Control? Sometimes. In this case, the answer turned out to be yes.My room’s door was closed. As I’ve mentioned before, this isn’t a regular, public hospital with many floors and lots of activity. Even with my door open, there aren’t any noises drifting in from the hallway. At night,
I’m writing entries more frequently now because I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen with my extraction, when and how it’s going to go down, or if I’ll be able to continue these entries to you afterwards. My commitment to getting the word out there as to what’s going on with Control still stands, and if you’ve stayed with me this far, then I feel like you deserve me to either complete this or get as close as I can. So I promise not to slack from here on out, dear reader.I wasn’t sure what I had expected upon meeting a real mage for the first time as we picked up Jonie in Denver. What I came to quickly realize was that we all have probably met mages in our lives and not known it. They look just like anybody else.As we drove into Denver, we turned off the Interstate into the Capitol Hill area. Capitol Hill is known for its eclectic and artistic vibe. It's a historic neighborhood with a mix of Victorian homes, bohemian shops, and diverse residents. The area's alternative culture
Mr. X was pleasantly surprised that I was so healed up and mobile. I got myself onto the gurney without assistance. “Wonderful, Dr. Leighton! I had no idea you were so well-along on your recovery. That will help us immensely as we escape.” Mr. X held up one of the gurney’s patient immobilization straps thoughtfully, then looked at me. “I completely understand your reluctance to use these, even for appearances sake. I am inclined to agree. Should we need to move quickly, abandoning our ruse that I am taking you somewhere as a patient, there won’t be time to unstrap you. I have another idea to make our appearance in the hallway look suitably deceptive.” Instead of strapping me to the gurney, Mr. X, whom I had always thought of as a Man in Black, though in his hospital orderly disguise he certainly wasn’t wearing black, draped a sheet over me, head to toe. “Now, Dr. Leighton, you will appear dead. Dead bodies on gurneys are covered in sheets like this and there’s no need to strap in t
Well, dear reader, it’s been awhile since I added to these files, but something came up that interrupted the flow of this writing, my extraction from the hospital. I’m writing to you now from a different location which I shall not divulge. However, I’m keeping my commitment to you to complete the story of what happened in Dust Bowl as long as I’m around to keep writing it for you. I left off my last entry with our team in Alice’s basement. Alice had been taken by the La Paz County Sheriff’s Office. We were spending the night in her basement with the house surrounded by law enforcement with canines. Liz had used tech equipment from Spitfire’s pocket dimension to contact Control and request extraction. The extraction was denied. I’ll get back to that, picking up from there, soon. First, however, I’d like to explain why I’ve taken so long to write again and what happened with my extraction from the hospital. Not too many days after Spitfire had warned me on the phone given to me by Mr.
Alice didn’t return, at all. Eventually, after thirty very tense minutes according to my watch, Liz’s voice in the dark said, “They must have arrested her. Let’s get out of here. Mont, push the fridge out.” Cautiously, we emerged from our hiding place. The basement light bulbs, dangling from the ceiling, had been left on. The basement looked as we had left it. “I’ll scout upstairs,” Mont said. He pulled his gun. “We’re dealing with a duly authorized sheriff’s office,” Liz reminded him. “Put that away. Don’t go waving a gun around law enforcement if you don’t want to get shot.” Mont nodded with a slightly sheepish expression as he put his firearm back in its holster and covered it up. Liz was right. Whatever they were involved in, they were the sheriff’s office, a normal part of law enforcement and society. We were Control. And what was Control? Was it a secret part of the government? Was it a private entity? Was it even American? Was it international in scope? I wondered why I’d n
I saw there, on the faces of my field team members, one by one, a revelation of what Liz had meant that their particular “personal dirts” would include monsters. Mont, Mitch, and Rachelle each looked somber, but Jonie looked as if she was about to lose her cool. “This Dirt curse can’t possibly bring back Ashley to haunt me.” She sounded as if she were a child, scared of the dark, trying to calm herself by simply affirming over and over “I’m not afraid of the dark. I’m not afraid of the dark.” And, like such a child, she repeated the affirmation a few times until Rachelle came over to the couch, knelt down in front of her, and took her hand comfortingly. “This Dirt curse can’t possibly bring back Ashley to haunt me. This Dirt curse can’t possibly bring back Ashley to haunt me.” “I don’t know,” Rachelle cooed soothingly, “but whatever happens, we’ll face it together. I promise.” Before Jonie could respond, there was a booming knock on the upstairs front door, so resounding that we c
“What do–”, Liz began but Alice cut her off. “Please,” the Dust Bowl native said, “not here. We'll be safer at my place. Voices carry.” So, we walked in silence across the field where something otherworldly had hovered over us before we met this mysterious Alice lady. Mont brought up the rear. I could tell from the way he walked that his hand was ready to pull his gun from its hidden holster if that turned out to be something necessary. Mitch and Jonie walked in front of Mont. Mitch’s eyes were wide open scanning both the sky and the horizon, no doubt looking to see if his Sight showed him something. In contrast, as I saw her face in the moonlight, Jonie’s eyes were nearly closed as she walked. A true mage, she was reaching out with other arcane senses than Mitch possessed. Liz and Rachelle walked behind Alice, Rachelle looking down at her feet, probably concerned, as I was, about stepping into an ankle-twisting hole in the dark. Liz’s face looked as if she were workin
Behind our hotel was a tall wooden fence, about ten feet high. This would have kept folks from casually strolling into the field back there. Upon investigation, we discovered a few loose wooden planks in the fence that were not actually nailed in place. They were propped in place to look from a distance like they were attached normally, but they were not. Someone had obviously moved them on occasion to access the field behind the hotel.Wearing our hiking boots so that our feet would not encounter anything sharp on the field after dark, we entered the field ourselves and began looking for a good spot to observe a potential UFO light show. When I call the area a field, we have to remember that we’re talking about the Arizona desert. A field here isn’t like some farmer’s field in Iowa. It was an open field, sure, but no farmer would have wanted to plant crops there. It had definite boundaries like a field, though. Behind us was the hotel. To our left, quite a ways off, was a road. Ahead
Around noon that Thursday, before the Dirt rolled in, I found myself headed to Parker, the county seat of La Paz county, in the Ford Expedition with Mont, Rachelle, and Spitfire. Our mission was to visit library archives of newspapers and other sources of records for La Paz county. Until the 1970s, Dust Bowl had had its own newspaper. As a precaution, we weren’t all leaving Dust Bowl in case it might become more difficult to return for some reason, such as if the roads back into Dust Bowl became closed, for example. Liz had wanted Jonie and Mitch to stay there since their particular talents made them more useful onsite there in Dust Bowl, such as when Mitch had seen the peculiar aura emanating from the statue of Lt. Sees-Like-A-Hawk. So, it was left to us “muggles” as Rachelle described us, who weren’t mages and who didn’t have the Sight, to slog through old records.Once we got into Parker, we grabbed some burritos from a Taco Bell drive-thru and headed for the county library. We fin
Liz directed a comment to the man who was trying to be chatty. “Pardon me, sir, but you don’t seem local. Are you a tourist like us?”He smiled at her. “Well, I’m not local yet but I’m working on it. I’m a pastor who’s come to see about reviving the old church in this town.”You could have heard a pin drop when he said that. There wasn’t even the sound of someone’s silverware scraping a plate or scooping up a bit of omelet.“My friends and I noticed the burned one when we got to town, but we didn’t see any others.”“There aren’t any, but God called me here to change that.”The waitress came by to refill the pastor’s coffee. She added her two cents to the conversation. “It’s not that there aren’t any Christians around here, Pastor, but no one’s had the heart to have an organized church since the old one burned down. Most of us just follow Jesus in our own way without a church. Maybe your ministry is needed in another town.”“I’ve been praying a lot about it,” he replied “I’ll keep seek
It was my turn to drive as Field Team 42’s Ford Expedition rolled into Dust Bowl, Arizona. According to the dashboard readout, it was 101° outside. I was thankful to be born into a time period with air conditioning technology. It was about an hour before sunset on Wednesday night. The Dirt was due to blow in at midnight on Sunday night. There were no ROAD CLOSED signs out yet. The hotels we passed all had VACANCY signs. Apparently, it was a few days before the town would begin turning away strangers. Things were still normal, whatever normal was in this place for fifty-one weeks a year without the Dirt blowing in. We were greeted at the city limits by a huge billboard capitalizing on the town’s UFO reputation featuring a scene in which a Gray alien with an exaggeratedly large head smiled down at a huge plate of pancakes, urging us to eat at a local establishment.Liz instructed me to drive all around the town once so we could scope out the place. She said that doing that once wouldn’t