Seren’s kisses were turning out to be more than I could ever have expected. They were turning my body into one raging desire. This matebond had a lot to answer for. I don’t think I had ever looked at her this way before… had I? I don’t know. But, I knew that in this moment, and likely ever again, I was looking no where else. My wolf had been right, the affect she was having upon me was like nothing else I had experienced before.
With every delicate touch of her fingers along my skin my body shivered with sheer pleasure… the need for her coursing through me. I had unhooked the delicate lace bra she was wearing, uncovering her entire body to me. Allowing me to see all of her. And she was, in short, perfect. I could see the nerves within her eyes as I took within her body, so I made an appreciative moan to let her know how much I liked what I saw. Seren had nothing to be embaressed of, yet she tried to cover herself with her hands, so I moved her
Rippling with a new surge of confidence, I wandered from the bed to the bathroom where Lachlan had headed to clean up. Everything we had shared had been so much more than I had expected. Lachlan had been so much more. He had been different. He made me feel wanted. Needed. I liked it. I wanted more.‘That is what a mate does.’ Maia urged me. I was unsure the confidence I felt as I walked across the room, still naked was from the way Lachlan had made me feel, or the boost of confidence provided by my wolf. Either way, I liked feeling this way. If this was what being with Lachlan was like, then I wanted it more often. It was good for me. He had to see that, right?I could hear the water running, and the door was slightly ajar, so I snuck into the bathroom, Lachlan, was standing in front of the mirror, his once naked body now half wrapped in a towel slung heavy on his hips. He looked good, though I think, having seen him naked, I preferred him
I laid there trying so desperately to allow sleep to find me, but it would not. My mind was playing games with me, and simply would not allow me to rest. There had been too many things happen today that I was thinking over. Analyzing. Mmy head was beginning to hurt, and I felt like my mind wanted to self-implode. Instead, I tossed and I turned, hoping that repositioning myself would help. But there was nothing. With every movement I was fully aware of the heat from Lachlan that radiated from beside me, as his breathing had slowed and sleep passed over him.I desperately wanted to wake him. Talk to him. Kiss him once again. Know that all we had done was nothing more than my imagination. Because, as crazy as it seemed, it still felt surreal to me. It did not feel real. It did not feel like Lachlan would want me in that way. But that look within his eyes was forever burned within my soul. I wanted him to look at me that way forever. That was the way a mate should look to their one. The o
I woke with a start, reaching over for Lachlan, hoping to find the warmth of his body next to mine, having thoughts of him flood my sleep. But, as I reached out, my hand was met with emptiness. Coldness. I forced my sleepy eyes open, and was met with an empty bed. I listened carefully, wondering if he was in the bathroom, but there was nothing but silence. My heart fell. He had left me.‘Lachlan?’ I mindlinked.‘What?’ was the short and sharp response I received, making any warmth I had lingerig within me sliver right away.‘I was just wondering where you had gone. I had hoped to wake up with y…’ I began.‘Yeah, well you shouldn’t be hoping anything. You knew we had to be up to see Marcus. Get yourself ready he is already here.’ Lachlan interrupted, and again I was chilled by his coldness.The warm and fun Lachlan of the night before had seemingly gone, and that left a hollowness in my chest. A heaviness in my gut. Something did not sit right with me. But, I knew I did not have long t
I saw Seren frowning at me. Confusion written all over her delicate features. I mean the fact she was saying there was nothing else to stay for instead of offering herself to me like she had been doing previously implied she had figured out last night was better as a one off, right? We had both allowed ourselves to experience the matebond. The connection it brought us. Yes, that had been fucking mindblowing, of that I can't even lie. I had experienced nothing like that before. And I had a feeling I likely never would again. But, I know the feelings I held toward Seren, the resentment, the hatred, would mean a relationship would simply not work. Not in the real world. Matebond or not. She may be young, but she had to know that right? She hated me too, I was sure of that.“You decided we made a mistake?” I said calmly, hoping she would take this okay. I mean she had been relatively calm so far. She had been amazing last night, and I did not want to spoil that. I wan
The pain in my chest was unreal, but I needed to hear no more, and I had no need to say any further words. I walked away without looking back. Lachlan had seen me as a mistake. Fulfilling the destiny of our matebond was little but an error within his mind. No matter how he appeared to enjoy it, he saw it all as a blunder. A fuck up. He had surrendered to the desires he was feeling, and now he regretted it. I had been used. I should have known better. He had already made it clear that he saw our matebond as nothing but an error from the moon goddess herself, and that we would not work. I had been naïve to cling to any hope of anything else. Well, not any more. Now was time for change.I strode away from Lachlan's family home with irritation pulsing through my body, and tears stinging at the back of my eyes. I had truly believed he had changed. How rediculously foolish of me. That ass was not capable of change. But I was. I could change. And I was going to. I was not about
I had been given no chance to rest, nor to allow my mind chance to proccess everything properly. I had been called into the office to help deal with the situation with the warrior. Seeing him punished would be good for me. I needed to see him get the harsh reality he deserved. The sick scenes I had walked up to last night still replayed within my mind and they enraged me. He was lucky he still breathed. But, I had done the responsible thing. The thing expected of me as Beta.I glanced down at the notes given to me, taking another sip of my hot coffee as I did. I was tired. My brain was a befuddled mess. This was not good. And now, I had Marcus talking at me once more, while I was struggling to focus. I had no clue, yet again what my friend had said to me, and I think it may be beginning to irritate him. We were meant to be working on this side by side. As Alpha and Beta of our pack, and one of his major bug bears was people not listening to him, but today I
I turned to look at my friend with a roll of my eyes. I swear since he had settled down with his mate he had grown soft. If he thought for even a moment I was about to go into details about how I was feeling he was wrong. We had never sat around and discussed feelings, and I was not about to start now.“No.” I said emphatically.Marcus shrugged slightly. “I know you are like me bro, we look out for her like family. It had to have been hard on you walking into that last night. I would have wanted to kill him.”Hearing Marcus say that, at least I could say I was not the only one. Maybe it had not simply been the matebond that had caused that response as I had initially assumed it was. It could be the connection we all shared from growing up alongside one another. From being as close as family. Marcus was right. We did all look out for one another. For one another’s families. That was just the way we were. The way we were brought up. But still, I
The moment I had focused my mind, and wiped my eyes, I took a deep breath, standing from my space upon the floor. This had to be a chance to move forward. I now knew what it was that I wanted. The hopes I had clung to were discarded as they should have been in the beginning. There were no hopes when it came to Lachlan Lamont.I made my way to my bed, kneeling down upon the floor there, sliding out the storage boxes that sat underneath it, so they were now in front of me. I found myself yawning, as I stretched. I was beyond tired, unsurprisingly so considering the very little sleep I had received last night, but in this moment I was on a mission. Sleep could wait a moment longer. There were things that I needed to do, and I was going to do them.I lifted the lid from the first box, rummaging for the memory box that I sought. Realising it was not in this box, I pushed the box to the side, and reached for another. Quickly finding the pale blue gift box q
The drive to pack was awkward and near silent. The occasional uncomfortable glance from my brother made me wish I had found an excuse to stay on campus rather than return home this weekend. It was only as we neared the gates that he chose to speak up, and I knew in that moment what was laying heavy on his mind.“I think it is better you don’t mention anything about the situation with you and Lachlan while you are home. It hurt a lot of people that neither one of you spoke up about it. Secrets among family are not right, let alone going against pack beliefs…” Cole’s tone was tense, and irritation built within my body at his words, but I held back. I knew when I agreed to keep silent about the matebond that it would hurt those close to us. I knew the damage it could do, but I made the agreement with Lachlan all the same,and now we were fcing the consequences.Cole did not wait for a response as he continued brusquely. &ldq
My first week of classes had been hectic. Meeting all my new tutors and, of course, all my new class mates. I was learning the new schedule that would become my new normal for the coming months. All while I learned my way around campus. And, I had to say I loved it! The place was massive, like a maze if you did not know your way around, but it was so fun, and there was so much to do. I could not be happier to be here...In truth, I had surprised myself with how easily I had settled in, and how equally easily I had made friends. Within my first two days of class I had met Laila and Charlie, both girls were within my General medicine class, and we instantly hit it off. We had so much in common, and when put together to work alongside one another we bonded over our love of music. We chatted as we worked, laughing so much, to the point we got ourselves in trouble! But, I loved every moment of it. And, the girls had barely left my side since.Most evenings after classes had
I had no clue how long I had sat there, my Uncle by my side, and tears filling my eyes. My mind wandered with thoughts of the potential things my Mum may think of me… feel toward me… what if she resented me? That was a thought I had never considered before. But, I had never believed for a moment that my own mother could be scared of me until now. What if she remained scared of me over all these years? That was not something a mother should feel toward her son. The very thought sickened me. Our closeness had always been something that brought me comfort after my Dad died. She was all I had left. Now I could not help but question if that connection we shared had simply been an act? All through fear?It was only as Uncle Harry’s hand touched my back in an attempt to bring some form of reassurance that I snapped out of the pained filled daze I was in. “Crying may do you some good son.” He rubbed my back gently. “I cried like
I do not know how many days have passed since she went. All I know is Seren is no longer in pack. And any lingering presence of my wolf have drifted further into the ether of my mind. I think he has weakened further without her. Seemed my plan to simply manage without her may not have been the best one… I remained at the cabin. I was of no use to anyone at present, I knew that, and it appeared neither Marcus nor Cole were in any rush to come and find me. I believed by now they both knew where I was, so if either one wanted or needed me they were more than capable of coming to find me. But at the same time I knew they were both angry at me for my treatment of Seren. Cole, understandably so as her brother, but Marcus too, as not only her Alpha but in a big brother type way too, having grown up alongside her. I had managed to fuck things up in one foul-swoop. What frustrated me more than anything w
Having shared food with Marcus and my brother within my new home, I now found myself alone and oddly unsure of my new surroundings. The moment the two of them had left me to return to pack I had busied myself with unpacking the few things that needed unpacking, and rearranging things to how I would like them. But, because my Mum and my Aunts had done so much there was very little for me to do; and very soon I found my way to the sofa with a deflated sigh...I felt an unease settling over me as I sat down. No matter the way my family may have gone to the effort to decorate the new home to resemble my old home, I was in an unfamiliar place, and it was making me feel a little on edge. But, I was sure that was just the thought of the new things I had facing me in the coming days. Also, I knew my wolf was unsettled by this new beginning I had chosen for us, despite it not being a long term choice, it was one purely for my education, my wolf evidently did not agree with my decision. I did n
The campus was busy. Busier than I had expected when I had imagined it, I think. Though, we had arrived on a day that there was a sports match taking place, so from what I understood that did add to the capacity of people that passed through. Who knew? I sure did not… Maybe I had led a somewhat sheltered life having lived within the pack, so being brought to this chaotic new surrounding may take more than a little getting used to.I could see my older brother’s eyes darting around as we moved to the small area of campus in which my apartment sat, and he still had that same displeased expression upon his face. I did not think he was going to have anything but a disgruntled expression on that face of his the entire time we were here in all honesty, because he did not think this was the right decision for me. But, Marcus was trying harder to be postive.“The sun is shining, that tells you the moon goddess is blessing you with her prese
The car ride was going to be awkward. My whole body trembled the moment I lowered myself into the seat. My heart was beating so hard from standing up to Lachlan, and I could not lie, it also ached from the fact I had walked away from everything between us so easily… okay, maybe not so easly. It had taken a lot of thought over the previous days. Maia was whimpering at the back of mind as we drove away from him, and as I turned back to look at him through the window, he remained where we left him, simply stood with his hands by his sides, his eyes upon the car as it drove away. His eyes dark and blank. Very much looking like a broken man. How had things come to this?‘Don’t go.’ Maia whimpered. ‘Let him speak.’ She urged. I knew she was fighting every natural urge a wolf had when it came to their fated mate, but she had also spoken of her need to protect me. She had fought everything within her to help me heal, and she knew
It had tore me apart hearing that Seren was leaving pack. When I had been all but forced to agree to not seeing her, I was comforted by the fact that Seren was in pack. She was being cared for by our own doctors, and some of the best around at that. Plus, she had our families visiting her. I knew, despite not being able to see her, she was close, and she was well. Hearing she was well enough to be discharged from the pack hospital had been a rush of relief, of course it had, but that had soon been replaced by a flood of pain the moment Marcus told me that he had permitted for her to go and continue her studies in the city. He was allowing her to leave me. Leave our pack. And, I believed his reasoning for that was because of how I had treated her.Marcus was my friend, but he was also a friend to Seren. I believed, considering the way in which he acted around me of late that he found himself torn between the two friendships... perhaps rightly so. We had alway
Marcus and Cole had come to the hospital to collect me. I was finally able to leave. Relief was not a word to describe it. I did not know how to explain it, for it simply felt like time had been paused, yet I had been here for an eternity. The same four walls of a room begin to feel like a prison despite the fact you are not being forced to stay there. I think I knew every part of that room in far too much detail. But, the moment had come for me to be discharged with my body all but healed.There were still the occasional niggling pain, or ache depending upon how I moved, but it was nothing I could not cope with. The doctors had reassured me I was well on the way to a full recovery. I had been told I had been lucky. But, I did not feel lucky. Far from it. I had chosen not to consider all of that though. I had a future to focus upon, and thanks to Marcus, his mate and my planning, I was able to do that.“Still don’t agree with this.” Cole grumbled as h