The tears held all this way

Ayden gazed at Brianna's teary eyes, she retained the urge to cry but she didn't want to.

She had cried way too many times because of him, every time she thought about him, and the words he said.

His words were hurtful, and she wasn't going to let him take advantage of her again.

Brianna clenched her jaw trying to restrain herself from losing it. Turning on her heels. She turned to leave.

Ayden grabbed onto her wrist and pulled her against the wall once again.

Brianna in a fit of rage didn't bother to filter her voice, she just let out how she felt.

"Ayden blade let go of me or I'll file accusations against you for harassment"

Ayden stared at her in disbelief. "Harassment?".

He asked.

Ayden could only replay what Brianna just said in his head.

Every night ever since he left he'd always think of her.

All he thinks about is her, late at night the thoughts of their life together, her smile. Her smile.

Now all she looked at him with was hatred.

Hatred, that word never existed in their relationship.

They had been good friends and that day he departed he had no choice.

Brianna's absence had only pushed him to be stronger.

The thought of not having a say when he left the country, was the most irritating part.

"Brianna I have never intentionally hurt you and you know that".

He has left for a long time, striving to become successful hoping that they'll be good, he thought of how her reaction would be when they met, but when they finally meet she's treating him like a complete stranger.

Sigh sigh

In the dead silence, all that could be heard were a few noises in the distance.

Ayden finally spoke breaking the silence once more.

"Bria"

"I have told you". Brianna said with glaring eyes.

Her eyes were bloodshot, Okay now he has never seen her this mad.

" You have lost whatever right to call me like that. If you think we can be how we were before then you must be less busy".

Brianna knew Ayden was hurt by her choice of words, after all, he had fallen in love with her because of her words and personality and he liked it whenever she spoke to him, but now those same words were savoring his bones.

Ayden tried his best to calm down like he always did.

He wasn't going to go on with this topic again cause he knows any more provoking words he is asking for a storm.

Not that he fears she'd put him in jail or anything like that.

He just finds her cute when she is angry, but now she was way beyond cute.

Trying to turn the tables he said.

"Now why are you getting angry at me like that I mean this isn't entirely my fault. It's your fault too"

Brianna almost shouted at the top of her voice.

"My fault!!!!"

"Yes if only you had just asked me to stay I would have been really happy to!! " He stated as a matter of fact.

And he was right, she only asked if he could stay, she never really asked him to.

"What part of I'm really happy for you did you not understand? I asked you to stay!!!!!! "

"Exactly you asked if I could stay but then you said that you're happy for me, I was going to reconsider"

"Reconsider, I said I was happy for you, like I said you couldn't read meaning to my lines"

"Read meaning to what. How am I supposed to read to read meaning to that"

"I was being ironic"

"About an issue like that, well guess what your irony sent me across oceans! "

Ayden howled at her. He also didn't want to leave her but he didn't have a reason to.

If only she would have just said that she wanted him to stay.

He would have convinced his mother to talk his father out of it.

But she protested with just a few words and supported his whole trip with the rest.

"Now I see that you might be smart and all but your EQ is just as foolish.............."

"If you were a true friend and you understood me and my feelings you'd know I didn't want you to leave me just like that!! "

Now the tears came pouring down.

"I was so sad and I couldn't help myself. Whenever I fucking think about you I can't stop myself from crying! "

The tears ran down her spotless cheek. Her face was hot in the cold night.

She would always burn up whenever she got angry.

Ayden strode closer to her closing up the prior of space.

While brianna cried he reached out his hand to wipe her tears.

His slightly rough palm caressed her cheek. It was cold as a result of the cold night.

Ayden took off his jacket where his defined god-like body was revealed, he covered her with his jacket, bending over he whispered to her.

"Hey,............ if you missed me so much, you could have just said so"

His voice was husky causing brianna to feel goosebumps in the cold night.

"And besides how was I supposed to know that.............., you sounded so happy"

He paused.

" .......... I can't read your mind. Brianna you gave me your full support when I needed your disapproval the most".

"I vouch of not for your words I wouldn't have held through till now"

"Yes I'm glad you supported me, ...........but I also wanted you to ask me to stay, even just once, .........but you didn't"

His deep voice sounded in her ear in the lonely quiet night.

Brianna raised her head to look at Ayden's deep black eyes which only looked deeper like a sea in the cold night.

They were more to see in his eyes, and brianna knew if she looked any longer she might get lost in the deep black sea.

Breaking eye contact with him she sniffed. Taking in a deep breath, her angry nerves started relaxing.

" But still I was also happy" Ayden proceeded with explaining himself.

"...... happy that you stood by had always stood by me and till that day you stood by me. It wasn't what I wanted but you still supported me".

He told her how he has been feeling for the past five years, five years without her..........

He took her hands which were cold as a result of the cold and her anger.

The two of them were certainly fierce with each other.

But what brianna did not understand was why she was thinking this way.

I mean initially after she had come to her senses after a few months of cursing him, she thought to herself.

That was a great opportunity, I mean look how successful he is now.

But is this how she felt deep down, all this while she was just lying to herself that she didn't care when she did care so much?

She was putting up a facade for her own self.

She finally spoke while holding back the new batch of tears that wanted to come pouring down.

"Ayden........ I don't want to talk to you right now".

Though her words were pushing him away. Just hearing his name from her mouth was the sweetest thing he could ever ask for.

Allison understood if she did continue she might shed all the tears she had been holding these years.

" Really, we haven't spoken in five years and you're just gonna push me away in a heated conversation once again "

Brianna tried to move away from him but he didn't budge, she tried once again but he just stared at her petite figure.

The next thing he knew was that she was pounding on him.

Brianna stared at his defined figure and had the urge to feel it.

She used her tiny fist to try to get through but she was just making a joke of herself.

As she hit on him gradually tears started to run down her cheek once more, her hits slowly started to get harder and faster.

In the next second loud cries could be heard. Allison wailed from her childhood pain.

Ayden whispered to her. "Let it out".