Alexis
Ignoring Aaron; has been the best decision I have taken in a while.
I have no drama in my love life , no Mary Hannah Brooks talking down on me , no name calling , or waking up in rooms that I don't know. I've been home for the past couple of days and the Complex I stay in has an indoor swimming pool which I haven't gone to since the fall . I was invited to a pool party but I declined because I was having nightmares about the day I fell into the ocean. Tina was getting married and Gavin her husband had planned everything except for what she was wearing on the day. Gavin was Aaron's business partner and they both ran the Sports tech company .In fact he fell in love with Tina when Aaron was travelling . Tina and I were friends and she had mentioned in passing that Aaron couldn't stop talking about me. I didn't take her seriously at first but after Cape town happened I did. Tina had asked me to be her maid of honor, and I happily agreed. I knew Bryan was Gavin's best man because they have been best friend's since they were in their dippers .I had arrived at the estate late Thursday evening and after triple checking that everything was in order I hit lights out hard .Gavin gave me a check list and by the time I woke t up Friday morning , everything for the wedding ceremony and reception was set including the contingency plan because rain was predicted for later on that afternoon ... however the reception was in the glass room overlooking the mountains so we were covered.
Both Gavin and Tina decided to have their bachelors and bachelorette party together. They both decided that they would rather celebrate their time together before they were together for life. So instead of parties they would just break bread with their close family and friends. Sarah was my next door roommate and she was Bryan's plus one . We talked about what had happened with Simon and I. She told me she suspected something was wrong when I went missing in action for a year . Simon was also around and we barely talked to each other which was okay with me because the last time we talked I ended up in hospital. I had time to kill before the party so I decided to take a walk in the forest,before I came back to my room to get ready . I had picked out a red and black maxi dress since the theme for the night was red and black and tomorrow's scheme was silver and white . My dress was an A line backless silver dress with straps for proper support .The dress was sewn beautifully . When we did our fittings the seamstress told me she didn't have any trouble cutting it to my body shape and type .Which was my main worry because I had broad shoulders and hips , she had picked up that I was a bit insecure but what she made blew me away,and don't get me started on the wedding dress . Tina is going to look like a goddess .
There was a lake by the far end of the forest and I wanted to sit on the edge of the dock and dip my toes in the water; for fun and also to get over my fear of any body of water . I didn't feel like climbing the tree but it was quiet enough when I slipped off hiking boots and dipped my feet in the water . I had my phone with me in case of any emergency . The moment I took a deep breath and took in the mountain view I heard sniffles . I looked around only to realize that they were coming from the tree. I spotted a pair of black superger's that had a white D on the left and a B on the right foot . I knew who it was question was why was he crying ,and what was wrong?
I looked at him and saw his blood shot red eyes , he looked away and started sobbing again.
" Hey buddy ."
He looked at me and a ghost smile spread across his face.
" Hey Ali ."
" What's wrong sweet pea?"
" I am too embarrassed to tell you."
He sniffed and wiped his face with his palm.
" I know we haven't spoken in two weeks but I consider you as my friend."
" I consider you as a friend too."
" when you hurt I hurt too and when you're happy I'm happy too ."
" Did dad send you?"
" No I don't even think he knows I am here . "
DB jumped from the tree and as soon as he was stable he gave me a hug and I hugged him back I was still barefoot so I went back to where I was sitting and he sat next to me also dipping his feet in the lake .
"Ali ; I am going through something that I can't even tell dad I'm going through."
" I'm here and I pinkie swear it will stay between us ."
I lifted my hand with my pinky out and he linked his pinky with mine and let go.
" I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I am constantly teased at school because of my condition."
" You haven't told me what it is bud.."
" I'm scared you will run away like the others . "
" I promise I won't."
" So the other day at school I ran out class screaming."
" why what happened ?"
" The bang sound scared me and I ran to the boys toilet. When I returned to class everyone laughed at me. I've been called names and taunted . "
"why do I get the feeling that ; that's not all?"
He started crying again and looked at me.
" Someone found the video of the night my mother died . It was passed around school and the part where I am crying and screaming for my dad is been played on repeat. I don't want to go back . I want a new school . Aunty Mary has been unavailable and dad is hung up on you. "
I leaned over to give Dave a shoulder to cry on and a hug I was soothing him when I felt and energy I knew .
" I am so sorry angel. Is there anything I can do to help?"
David pulled back and nodded; he pulled his sleeve up showing me bruises and my heart was breaking for him.
"Please tell my dad I don't want to go back to school. I can't go back there. He listens to you ."
" Dave how did you get those ?"
"I was protecting myself when I was getting kicked around. The teacher came to my rescue. Dad has been busy with work and I didn't want to tell him. I am scared of him."
" Why angel; what did he do?"
" He has a scary temper when provoked . I was shocked he didn't beat Simon up two weeks ago. He is changing and it has to do with you."
" I've been avoiding him."
" He's trying to be the dad I knew. He was concerned about me on the way here, but I kept quiet when he asked me what was wrong. You are easy to talk to. I feel like I can talk to someone who gets me. Dad has feelings for you and I can see why..."
" Where is your dad?"
David looked up and froze . Fear set in his eyes and he gave off panicky vibes.
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Alexis🚨🚨smut content warning. Moderate 🚨"Dad... please don't be mad."I looked up and I saw Aaron. He had grown a beard and his eyes reflected pain and hurt. An indication something was wrong. Dave stood up and looked at him pleadingly and he nodded"I'm not mad my boy. I need to talk to Lexi alone; Uncle Gavin and Aunty Tina are waiting for you at the restaurant ."David gave Aaron a hug and he hugged him back kissing the top of his head."I love you dad."" I love you too Dave. We will talk later okay?""Yes sir."When they broke their embrace; David smiled, waved goodbye to me and I waved back . My feet were still in the water, reason being it was quiet hot and the cold water was helping. As soon as we were left alone I felt a tad bit scared with good reason, because Aaron sat next to me and said nothing for the first couple of minutes. He was uncomfortably silent, and I knew I w
AaronI cannot believe what just happened . I seriously can't ...When I drove up with Dave this afternoon ; I tried to ask him what was wrong and if there was anything I could do ?. He shook his head and kept quiet. When we pulled up at the estate at three in the afternoon, he dropped his bags in the hotel room we were booked in and ran out . I knew he wouldn't be far but I had installed a tracker in his phone without his knowledge so when I located him I followed the trail to the lake on the other side of the estate . I thought he would be alone but he wasn't .He was talking with Lexi and she was listening . I wanted to ask him about his bruises but he shut me out . He showed his scars to Lexi because he trusts her . He didn't open up to anyone and he hasn't until I saw him crying and I made a few calls to the school... it turns out he was being bullied and taunted. A video of him when the explosion happened had gone
AlexisTrauma has a way of coming back to haunt you when you're unaware. Post traumatic stress may be the cause; but getting over something that altered how you live,doesn't happen overnight.No amount amount of pills, alcohol, distractions or episodes of anger outbursts can be enough. The fruit of my trauma is; my inability to stay stable, trust anyone, go into shell shock, and above all the most viable evidence of my audeal is the post traumatic stress and scars .Any banging sound , scenes of violence, unexpected surprise greetings , sudden shocks, knocks you off kilter.For someone who doesn't understand ; they may think you are troubled , have issues , or my favorite term she's weird.Fact is that I am not weird. I have visible and invisible scars that are trying to heal. The most noticeable ones are the laceration stitches that are on my tummy . The scars se
AaronWe all have walls that we put up. Some are so high that it takes forever to break down. Some walls are made of ; glass , metal bricks , or the hardest one of them all titanium.I fell for an amazing woman in a short space of time... over a period of time to come think of it, and I love her unconditionally.David also clicked with her which is a surprise because he never liked any woman I introduced to him; he was just always angry too when I was with Mia , and when I caught her physically and verbally abusing him I called it a day on a year long relationship. My boy has been through a lot and I know he's keeping something from me. He opened up to Lexi and Caleb...I wonder what I'm doing wrong that they are both doing right. Caleb has told me about Lexi's dad and how he almost killed her unintentionally. I asked her yesterday what really happened and she told me that her dad came back home one day after a night out wi
AlexisWeddings are a blessing and a gift that keeps on giving when you plan your marriage. It is a union of two souls that are meant to be together. As a body you are one and when two become one; you not only bare witness to someone's life, but you become a team.I had woken up early on Saturday morning but Abro was fast asleep. I had fallen asleep next to Aaron and it felt right . When he woke up he; kissed me good morning and I wanted to wake him up properly but he stopped me . Disappointed as I was he more than made up for stopping me in the shower this morning . He feels really good although we are due for a proper session he had to double up . Don't get me wrong the quality was good but we could never be too careful and protection is the rule of thumb when we have sex... We both agreed.I had to leave first with Sarah and then go downstairs to meet Tina . We helped her get ready and the gl
AaronAs a person you know when you have found something that is absolute. I thought Alexis was going to call me a freak for stalking her ; but she didn't, I thought she wasn't going to give me a shot but she did and I don't want to mess things up. For the first time in a long time Dave and I are on the same page. Before the main event he came clean about his abuse, both at school and when he was staying in CapeTown. He also asked me if he could change schools and I said yes.The wedding was amazing. I kind of went back to the day I said ; I do to Laura and the pain that came with saying; I will give you a divorce. I thought that was it for me that I was doomed to have failed relationships... until Lexi happened on a day I had given up all hope. The emergency landing was a blessing in disguise. I saw what she did for Dave and I will say it again I don't want to mess things up. I knew she had switched h
AlexisI try to remember a time when my life flashed before my eyes ... Its happened a couple of times; but I come out alive every time it happens. I do know that I am alive on purpose and that whatever the reason is I am so grateful. When faced with danger ; your you are programmed as a human being to either run , fight or freeze . I didn't see the crash coming ... therefore my response time was no response at all .I had just finished watching the video Mary sent and I didn't respond . What I did however was schedule a message to go out Sunday Morning to Aaron. In the long text I told him how I truly felt and that the morning we got frisky , I had my mind made up already . I also apologized for not keeping my promise. The promise I made him twice because he needed to be sure that I wasn't going to bail. The night before Tina's wedding I felt a rare feeling. The same feeling I had felt with Simon but it faded after
AaronThis by far has been the longest month and emotionally I am trying to cope but truth be told I can't. I pretend to be okay for David but as soon as the lights go off . I cry. I blame myself for Lexi bein in hospital . I can work from anywhere ; so for the past four weeks I've been working from the private room Alexis was in. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor. He lost control of his car and the weather was also to blame. My routine had changed but as long as I could be here when Lexi wakes up I will have no regrets .I wake up; get ready for work and make breakfast for David that's if Mary isn't up before me we eat together as a family, Mary leaves for work before I do, I drop Dave at his new school , and make my way to the hospital. Mary picks Dave up and I go home for dinner later. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor
Chapter 51AaronBalance is the most fundamental aspect of life. whether you want to admit it or not every action or event ;evokes some sort of balance. At a point where I thought everything was coming together again, everything started falling apart. I knew my son was angry when he found his mothers pictures in a box of things I kept of Lara. I was going to give it to him on his birthday , but he found it when he was looking for something . The first question he asked was ; why did Alexis have similar features to his mother. I told him ; it was a coincidence. He snapped out of the blue and told me I was lying, he said; you are a sick selfish human being. I sat him down after his rant and I told him everything with regards to what happened when he was five years old. I also told him that I fought hard to get him back , and that I was sorry . We were still on moody terms with each other. He was moody and irritable if not mean to me until the accident happe
AlexisI am not afraid of dreaming. I am afraid of staying awake and not allowing myself to dream big enough and believe that I can do ,and be anything I want. Even a super shero. I am also not afraid of waking up and dealing with the fact that I have an unfinished life, that I still want to live and make the most out of it…When you are living you constantly ask yourself if you are doing enough? When you are going you ask yourself if you did all you wanted and was it enough. When you’re gone what you never did is done and in between those three steps; your whole life flashes before your eyes.When I rolled down the stairs; I was afraid . I was afraid that I had failed my unborn baby by not keeping him safe, afraid that my relationship with David was never going to be the same , and more than that I was afraid that I had robbed my brother of becoming an uncle and Aaron becoming a father again.
AaronIn a split second everything can change.After leaving Alexis alone to prepare lunch , because Mary was held hostage by her crazy roommate who injured herself . I made the necessary arrangements to bring my sister home and hire in a caregiver to make sure she was stable .I dropped her off at the pent house and told her I would see her tomorrow. On my way back Lexi called me and I told her I was on the way. I had taken a short cut to get to the Estate because I was worried about David.He was behaving strangely this morning before he went to hang out with Angelo. Cleo had also called me to ask if everything was okay with both Dave and me. Truth be told we were not okay. He was mad at me because I apparently do not consider his feelings. When I asked him if he missed Alexis he didn't answer me he just went to the games room ,and to top it all off he locked the door so that I couldn
AlexisWe only appreciate something after it has been taken away from us. We are often told to be thankful for every little thing, and I always say; being thankful should be habitual.Sometimes we don’t know how good we have it until something happens, and your world is turned upside down. I have a theory . “Tragedy” has a way of bringing things into focus. The process is there for a reason and however long it takes; you will learn the lessons that help you either elevate your levels of perception and trust your sixth sense, or open up a door to more questions that lead you to the right answers, and hopefully you can find a way out of the maze you have been trying to navigate. We are here on purpose. Sticking to the task at hand is a given, the only time we falter is when we focus on other peoples blessings instead of ours. Success comes in different phases and forms. Learn to wait your turn and trust in God&r
AaronAlexis is really unpredictable. Her unpredictability can be both exciting and unsettling at times, but it makes sense at the end of the day.When I entered the house Alexis was walking around barefoot in my kitchen looking serious. She got the hint earlier that I wanted her in our home. When she recognized my presence ; she smiled and blew a kiss at me , and for a moment my heart skipped a beat and fell in love again. It was already mid afternoon and I hadn’t eaten so; so I headed to the kitchen to go make lunch for us both.I didn’t have much in the fridge but I had enough to whip up a meal. Usually I would ask Dave what he wanted , and he would order it in. I cooked for him every now and then but, I could tell she missed Lexi as much as I did. She planned meals and she made sure we all ate as a family with Mary included. She took a seat on the comfy stools in front of the counter and loo
AlexisThe toughest conversations are the ones we’ve never had with our heart. Conversations with heart are always honest; pure, real and non pretentious. It is a non judgmental zone where you can bare all without any fear… The heart always knows the truth no matter what condition it is in; your heart will always lead you to the right answer . Your heart will always lead you home.I have had moments when I’ve doubted the very love I believed in.The day Simon Nathan broke my heart was one of them, the other was the day I lost Ben, and now… Now it’s whether or not I love Aaron. For the longest of times I have struggled with letting anyone in or talk about how I really felt about a situation. When I got together with Aaron over the time we were together, I had lost a part of myself. In my head I foolishly believed that true I had to sacrifice a part of myself to be with him. Tr
AaronThree weeks laterMary relapsed again. I blame myself for that happening. Ever since the shooting I have been recovering very well and I am healing.Christmas was different this year though. Mary was okay until she lost it at Cleo for no apparent reason. Sarah was also shocked and as I suspected she gave Lexi hell in Cape Town. Lexi had been away and I hadn’t seen her in a long time a month to be exact and May went as far as blocking her on all accounts. Carl and the Perelli bunch joined us for the Christmas lunch.Alexis was six months pregnant and what hurt the most was missing out on a lot of things. The shooting wasn’t her fault .When I called CT he told me; She was out and she didn’t want to talk to me about anything. I knew that he bought a house just down the road and I had the innate feeling that Lexi was around. Our connection was and is always strong .
44AlexisFeelsFear is the enemy of courage. Courage is what we have, when we look fear in the face and tell it to go to hell and stay there because life is calling. When life calls we answer ; however when life happens we react. How we react can determine the outcome of the situation. Given what was 'going on I couldn’t lose it and become a drama queen. Drama has its benefits when you want to make a statement ,and when you do make the statement make sure you don’t trip and fall on your face… it happens to the best of us when we least expect. Courage and kindness are not really rare traits. They are embedded in us ; we just need to flick the switch. What courage does is give us the power to overcome and with that comes understanding. Through understanding you learn to see a situation for what it is and take a gentle approach in helping someone. Kindness has never lost a battle or war. Coupled with hum
AlexisMan downIt happened so fast. It happened so fast that; I didn’t have time to recognize that I was caught in a cross fire between the guys that Carlo and Aaron were shooting at. All I saw was smoke and Carl swearing. It wasn’t until I heard a loud thud on the floor that my heart stopped. Security had come through and a couple of other guys who had the same ring as Carlo . As soon as the smoke cleared Carl bent down to pick me up and give me a hug.“ Hey honey are you okay?”I nodded and looked for Aaron.“Aaron Carl where is Aaron?”I pulled back and looked at the kitchen island . I couldn’t see him .“Aaron!”Carl let go of me and ran to where Aaron was. My heart was already beating fast but it broke when I saw Aaron lying on the floor with a