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1. Without your love
It is 1:30 pm here in Los Angeles, I am waiting in my apartment since sunrise, a message from her has still not arrived. I hear a sudden knock on the door, I rushed to the door to her. A letter from her, but not her. My heart has been yearning for a reply and here it is, whatever it says, “I still love her”. I tore apart the envelope to find her beautiful handwriting:
Dear Dustin
Ever since I have met you, you have been the light in my heart. I could never take a second of you getting hurt because of me. I want you to always remember that without you there is no me, without me, there will be no you. We complete each other, yet we are incomplete.
Our journey has been the most beautiful one, yet it’s our most painful loss to each other. I love your soul and all that completes you. You always said, “Your scars are my scars”, but your tears and pain are all mine. All of me is all of you. Although we cannot be there for each other, I promise to remember every word, every feeling, and every smile of yours.
It pains me so much to leave you forever. We have promised to stay by each other always, but I leave you today for your sake. You have fallen in love with my darkness, but I have always led you in the dark with me. You deserve every ray of the sun and moon. You deserve to fall in love again with a human just like you.
I promise that you will be mine till the day I leave this world. I love all of you forever. xoxo
Yours forever
Emma
The letter just fell from my hands with a shower of tears from my eyes, and I fell to the ground in despair and confusion. I did not know that she will not show up. Emma was everything to me, my soulmate, my best friend, and the image I wanted to see every day I woke up. I looked at the picture frame of the two of us, and I looked at her beautiful blue eyes, dark brown curly tresses over her shoulders, and her wheatish complexion. She was everything I dreamed her to be. She was always fond of using dresses with flowers during summer, and sweatshirts during winter. When it was time for her to dress up for a special occasion, she was the person to stand out in the whole room.
I stood up from the ground and rushed out the door in search of her. I ran through every street, every café, every clothing store, and every single place I knew her to be. I went to the Blue Moon bar where we had our first date, I met her best friend Sarah Miller. Sarah has no clue where Emma has disappeared. Sarah grew up with her since their diapers and they have been to kindergarten together. They never let each other’s side ever, and even after Emma came to know her dark secret, Sarah stayed by her side till the end.
I rushed back into my apartment with the hope that I will find her there, but all I found was her letter. I looked at the garden on my terrace and the air breathes her soul. My bedroom is full of her tears, the lounge is covered in her laughter, and the kitchen has her scent. She has left every piece of her attachment behind. I have no idea how I am going to live without her love, smile, and laughter. I went to check my phone for a message of hers, and there I see a flashing light with Emma on it. It is a missed call; I immediately rang her number back and the number no longer exists. My heart tore apart as the ocean waves and the thought of her leaving forever keeps appearing in front of me. I feel like I do not exist anymore, my every reason to live has been taken away in one moment.
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