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2024-10-29 19:42:56~Zia~
Soft surface hugged my body from head to toe, yet my muscles were sore in the worst possible way, as if I’d been lying on solid ground for days.
Slowly, memories of Ashley and Paris came flooding back to me. And Xavier.
Thoughts of my husband, Ashley throwing a grenade towards Xavier, and the ear-piercing explosion that arose had my heart pumping out of my chest. Blinding white lights met my gaze as I forced my eyelids to part.
Groaning, I pressed my eyes close as my hand came up to my forehead. I became vaguely aware of the loud pounding in my head that mirrors the rapid beating of my heart.
“Zia,” I heard Xavier’s voice, which further ignited my desire to open my eyes.
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