Chapter 55: I Don't Care If I Crash
LYRIC'S SPENCER POV
The girls' voices overlapped, their demands growing louder by the second. Lana, Catherine, and Hanna bounced on the bed, their matching pajama sleeves flapping as they argued over what counted as a real magic trick.
I blinked at them, momentarily overwhelmed. A real magic trick? What did they even mean by that? I could do a simple card trick, but that wasn't going to satisfy them.
Just as I opened my hands to sign a compromise, a voice interrupted from the doorway.
"I think I can help with that."
I turned my head to find Gavin leaning casually against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest, a smirk tugging at his lips. What was he doing here? I looked over at the clock on the wall; it was fifteen minutes past eight.
The triplets immediately turned toward him, eyes wide with interest.
"You can do magic?" Hannah asked skeptically, tilting her head.
Gavin stepped into the room, his expression confident. "Of course, I can." He knelt in front of them, rubbing his hands together dramatically. "I don't just play hockey, you know. I'm also a world-class magician."
Catherine narrowed her eyes. "Prove it."
He grinned. "Alright, watch closely."
"Okie dokie, we are ready," Lana said.
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a coin, holding it up between his fingers. "See this?" He waved it in front of them before closing his fist around it. "Now, keep your eyes on my hand."
The girls leaned in, completely focused.
Gavin tapped his closed fist with his free hand, then slowly, theatrically, opened it—revealing that the coin had vanished.
Their mouths dropped open.
"Where'd it go?" Hannah gasped.
Lana whipped her head to me as if I had the answer. I just shrugged, just as curious as they were.
Gavin smirked, then reached toward Lana's ear. With a quick flick of his wrist, he pulled the coin out from behind it.
"Ta-da."
Catherine shrieked, slapping her hands over her ear. "How did you do that?!"
Hanna scrambled closer, grabbing his hand to inspect it. "No way! Do it again!"
Gavin laughed, giving me a view of his glorious Adam's apple. "A magician never reveals his secrets." He tossed the coin in the air, catching it effortlessly. "But... I do have one more trick."
The triplets practically vibrated with excitement as he pulled a rubber band from his wrist. He stretched it between his fingers, then carefully threaded it through another band.
"See how they're locked together?" he asked.
The girls nodded.
With a smooth movement, he pulled his fingers apart—and the rubber bands magically slid through each other, separating without breaking.
Lana screamed. "NO WAY!"
Hanna gasped, eyes as wide as saucers. "That's so cool!"
They clapped and bounced on the bed, completely won over.
Gavin leaned back, looking pleased with himself. "Told you I was a world-class magician."
I let out a silent laugh, shaking my head.
The girls were still grinning when Lana turned to me, signing quickly.
<<Auntie, Gavin is cooler than you.>>
I scoffed and shot him a mock glare. He just shrugged, smirking.
Catherine tugged on his sleeve. "Do another one!"
"Yeah!" Lana chimed in. "One more, please?"
Gavin glanced at me, as if checking to see if I minded.
I shook my head. They were happy. That was all that mattered.
With a playful sigh, he ruffled Lana's hair. "Alright, one more. But this is my grand finale."
I sat back, watching as he continued, a warm feeling settling in my chest. I never knew Gavin was good with kids; he always gave off this cold vibe. I didn't think he could even smile at a kid, much less engage them.
The twins hung onto Gavin's every move, their excitement buzzing through the air like static electricity. He shuffled the deck of cards effortlessly, his fingers moving with the ease of someone who had done this a hundred times before.
"Alright," he said, spreading the cards out in a fan, "pick one. But don't let me see it."
Lana eagerly reached forward, plucking a card from the deck, while Hanna leaned in close to peek. They giggled as they examined it together, their matching faces alight with mischief.
"Got it?" Gavin asked.
The kids nodded vigorously.
"Good. Now, put it back in the deck." He held the stack out, and Lana slid the card in carefully.
With a flourish, Gavin shuffled the deck again, his hands moving so smoothly it almost looked like the cards danced for him. He paused for a dramatic moment, then flicked his wrist—causing a single card to shoot up from the deck.
The exact card they had chosen.
Catherine gasped. "WHAT?"
Hanna grabbed the card, flipping it over as if she expected some kind of trick. "How did you do that?!"
Gavin just winked. "Magic."
The twins squealed, bouncing on the bed, completely satisfied with the performance.
I rolled my eyes playfully but couldn't deny how impressive it was. Since when did Gavin know magic tricks?
Lana and Hanna turned to me, their hands moving fast as they signed, <<Auntie, Gavin is a real magician! We should keep him!>>
I snorted, shaking my head. <<He's not a stray cat.>>
"Gavin, can you please stay? You could share a bed with Auntie Lyric!"
My pupils widened at Catherine's suggestion, and I shook my head firmly against it, hoping my face wasn't flushed. Catherine didn't like it when Wren stayed over for dinner; why was she so open to Gavin?
It must be his charm.
Gavin grinned. "I mean, I wouldn't mind staying. You guys have better entertainment than I do at home."
His words were lighthearted, but I caught the hint of something beneath them.
The moment lingered for a second longer than it should have.
Then, suddenly, a loud knock at the front door made the air shift.
The laughter in the room died instantly.
I tensed.
So did Gavin.
Miss Spencer's voice carried from the living room, tight with nerves. "Dinner is ready!"
At the mention of dinner, the girls wore their flip-flops and rushed to the parlor to eat. Catherine came back, a smile hanging on her lips, "At the dinner table, I will sit next to you, Gavin."
Gavin mirrored her smile. "Sure."
After she left, it was only the two of us in the room. The last time he was here, I was whimpering shamelessly under him. I couldn't help but blush at the memory.
I turned to my table, grabbing anything. It was a comb. I needed to hide my red face from him. I pretended to comb my hair, keeping my eyes on the table. I hoped he would take the hint and leave. Unfortunately, he didn't.
I must have sensed him approaching because my fingers twitched around the comb.
"You can keep pretending I'm not here," he said, his voice calm and steady. "But we both know that won't make me disappear."
I pulled out my phone, my fingers moving fast over the screen before I held it up for him to read. *GO AWAY*
"Lyric."
I picked up a dryer, plugging it in. The sound of the dryer echoed in the room. I started to dry my hair, humming to myself.
"Lyric, please." His voice grew louder over the dryer. I continued.
"Okay," he sighed. "Then don't talk to me. Just... listen."
My jaw tightened, but I didn't pull out my phone again.
I don't know why. I unplugged the dryer and glanced at him.
He ran a hand through his hair, frustration flickering across his face. "I was a dick to you. I know that. What happened between us... I didn't handle it right."
I let out a slow breath through my nose but kept fidgeting with my dress.
He pushed on. "It wasn't because of you. It was because I was too much of a coward to face what I was feeling."
That made me stop.
I turned to face him, keeping my expression carefully neutral as I typed.
*And what exactly were you feeling, Gavin?*
He swallowed, shifting his weight like he wanted to run but had nowhere to go.
"Like I wanted to stay. Not for the night, forever."
I froze. My fingers trembled over the screen.
"Like I was falling," he repeated, his voice quieter this time. "And I didn't know how to stop."
My breath caught in my throat.
He took a step closer, his eyes locked on mine. "And the worst part?"
I didn't move.
Didn't type.
Didn't breathe.
"I think I wanted to fall. To stay. To hold you in my arms. I have never felt that before, and it scared me."
The world around us faded; I could only see, hear, Gavin. Was this a love confession?
I looked down at my phone, my heart hammering as I typed out the only question that mattered. A flutter settled in my chest.
*And now?*
He exhaled sharply, the weight of everything between us settling deep in his chest.
"Now I don't care if I crash."
Chapter One: Nineteen is the Goal **Lyric POV** **Flashback** I remember the red and blue lights of the cop cars flashing like strobe lights, the constant wail of sirens piercing the air, and the golden-haired paramedic gently pulling a cloth over my shoulder. He carefully immobilized my leg while another paramedic held a tiny flashlight, peering into my eyes. “She looks healthy, aside from a few scratches here and there. The fracture will heal in a month or so. She will be fine,” he announced, but I paid no attention to his words; my eyes were glued to the ambulance. I stared at the stretcher, horrified as an arm rolled off it and hit the ground. One of the paramedics quickly followed, picking it up and placing it back on the stretcher as if it were a loose gumball. I cringed at the sight of my favorite candy ring adorning her index finger. I had given her that ring. “What is your name, sweetie? Who is the lady on the stretcher?” he asked. I gave him no re
Chapter Two: Bad idea It had been barely twenty minutes since I arrived at school, and someone was already yelling at me. As if it were my fault that they decided not to use the pavement and chose the pedestrian path. At the entrance, I was taken aback by the poster of the school hockey team, the *Velmont Sharks*. It featured a group photo of six hockey players and their coach, all wearing huge smiles for winning the Stanley Cup three years ago. That win did great things for our town; it basically put Velmont on the map. Despite being a town of farmers and bikers, it was known by the world as a town of hockey. Three recruits from our school played exceptionally during the playoffs. It went viral online—we had memes, posters, everything leading back to our tomato-bearing Velmont. I sighed, making my way to my locker, when I suddenly felt someone slam into me, and I crashed against the locker. Pain reverberated through my body, and I bit my lip to deal with it.
# Chapter Three: Gavin Hawkins was an Asshole The first hours of school went on smoothly until literature, when the teacher talked about the bullying she had suffered back in school. It made me remember when I was younger. I had been a shy and quiet kid, but my mutism had made me an easy target for bullies. They called me "silent treatment" and said I was "ignoring" them, even when I was trying my best to communicate. They pushed me around, tripped me in the hallways, and even stole my lunch money. This was college, and so much had changed. Some people had realized it was a disorder and not my doing; only Emilia had changed. I shook my head, trying to get those thoughts off my mind. "Are you okay, Miss Spencer?" The literature teacher, Miss Beth, had inquired, her face contorting in worry. It warmed my heart that she cared about me. Only a few people cared about me. Before I could gesture that I was fine, someone beat me to it. I didn't know who in a cl
Chapter four :I am asking nicely. Lyric 's POV The rest of the math class felt like a blur. Mr. Smith’s voice droned on, but all I could think about was the way Gavin looked at me. I replayed his words in my mind: “She can have mine.” Why did he do that? Was it pity or something else? I didn't want anyone's pity, especially not his. I couldn't believe I liked him. As the bell rang, I gathered my things slowly, still processing the events of the day. I glanced around the classroom, but Gavin was already gone. I sighed, feeling a mix of relief and disappointment. Walking to my next class, I overheard some students whispering. I caught bits of conversation about me—“that girl,” “dumb and deaf.” My heart sank. It seemed like some people would never change. In the hall, I spotted Gavin talking to a brunette girl, Janice from art class. She was pretty and had a good body. I couldn’t help but compare myself to her—she had bigger boobs than me, and her lips lo
Chapter five: You can't let anyone bully you Lyric POV As if on cue, the class of sixty students laughed at my predicament. I could only feel the hole in my chest getting bigger; to think I would get used to all this by now. I guess I am too weak. Last year, we had a big project due, and I worked really hard on it. But when I tried to present, I couldn't speak. The bullies started laughing, saying I was "faking it" and "just trying to get attention." The teacher didn't do much to stop it, and I felt like I was all alone. I started to doubt myself, wondering if I was indeed "stupid" or "weird." I began to skip school, afraid of facing the bullies again. Now it was happening again. I could not go a day without berating myself. Maybe my sick mind loved the twisted attraction. As I stood there, paint dripping down my face, I felt a mix of humiliation and anger. Gavin's eyes widened in surprise, his expression shifting from confusion to concern. "Are you oka
Chapter Six: Apologize! Lyric POV "Shame on you, Miss Spencer, hitting your fellow students barely after school hours." It was Miss Lia; she caught me with my fist midair. Quickly, I typed it down as a text and sent it to her number on WhatsApp. Me: It isn't what it looks like, ma'am. "Really?" She scoffed. Her eyes narrowing at me, "These girls are hurt because of you, and I saw you hitting Janice, but you are denying it. Is it because of the art room incident?" "Please don't blame her, ma'am. She is just angry and gets frustrated because she can't use her words," interrupted Janice, feigning innocence. If I weren't here when it happened, I would have thought I was lying too. As expected, Miss Lia bought it. She swayed her face towards mine, menace evident in her eyes. "What do you have to say for yourself, Miss Spencer?" "What can she say, Miss Lia? Please don't punish her. It is difficult living life the way she does." Living life like m
Chapter Seven: Pizza n Stuff Lyric POV I insisted Wren leave instead of following me into our house. We might have known each other since middle school, but Wren had never been into our house. I prayed it remained so. You never know when my drunkard of an uncle would run out of money and return home. That meant he would take out all his frustrations on me, and I don't want Wren getting involved. Wren was a sweetheart; she would want to protect me and might get hurt. I don't want that. I would only have to protect myself from him until I turned nineteen. Nineteen was the goal. I went home, cooked, cleaned, and did the household laundry. Tired, after doing my assignment in mathematics, I lay in my bed, my mind fleeting at the events of that afternoon, after making sure my door was locked. Gavin had supported his girlfriend and kissed her in my presence. The boy I liked kissed another girl in my presence. It hurt like hell. I wanted to forget. The tears b
Chapter Eight: The Not Happening List Lyric POV On my way out of Pizza n' Stuff, I turned on my phone so the messages could rush in using the restaurant WiFi. Employees only got to use it during breaks and after hours. I did not expect a lot of people to contact me since my circle was limited to Wren and J, but we don't talk anymore. I wondered how he was doing. J was my pen pal from back when I was living at a group home. We separated, and he gave me an email to contact him. It was his grandmother's, while I used my father's. We used to talk every day until college when he stopped replying to my messages, and I stopped texting. Adulting was awful. My eyes widened at the sight of a familiar figure leaning against a green truck owned by one of the workers at my restaurant. Half of her face was hidden from my view, but I could tell from the hoop earrings and short skirt that it was Janice. What was she doing here? For some reason, it piqued my interes
Chapter 55: I Don't Care If I Crash LYRIC'S SPENCER POV The girls' voices overlapped, their demands growing louder by the second. Lana, Catherine, and Hanna bounced on the bed, their matching pajama sleeves flapping as they argued over what counted as a real magic trick. I blinked at them, momentarily overwhelmed. A real magic trick? What did they even mean by that? I could do a simple card trick, but that wasn't going to satisfy them. Just as I opened my hands to sign a compromise, a voice interrupted from the doorway. "I think I can help with that." I turned my head to find Gavin leaning casually against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest, a smirk tugging at his lips. What was he doing here? I looked over at the clock on the wall; it was fifteen minutes past eight. The triplets immediately turned toward him, eyes wide with interest. "You can do magic?" Hannah asked skeptically, tilting her head. Gavin stepped into the room, his express
Chapter 54: This is the end for meGAVIN HAWKINS POV The sun had dipped lower in the sky by the time I arrived at her house after practice. I couldn’t wait until the next day to talk to her—to make things right. I didn’t fully understand what I was feeling, but I knew one thing: I wanted to see her again. The thought of her hating me didn’t sit right. Stepping out of my Jeep, I hurried toward the Spencers’ front door. The garden was in full bloom, fresh flowers sprouting up from the neatly kept beds. The neighborhood was lively with the distant sound of dogs barking, the occasional chatter from passing pedestrians. When I reached the porch, I noticed the door was slightly ajar. I raised my hand to knock but froze. The thought of turning back echoed in my head. Instead, I stayed. Something felt off. Cautiously, I pushed the door open, its slow creak sending an eerie chill down my spine. The moment I stepped inside, an instinctual alarm went off in my head.
Chapter 53: lovesick idiotGAVIN HAWKINS POV I stood frozen, watching as Lyric walked away. My fingers clenched around my exam paper, but it might as well have been nothing. She had barely looked at me—barely acknowledged me. But those marks on her face? The scratches on her arms? That wasn’t nothing. Before I could think twice, my feet moved on their own. I shoved my results into my bag and followed her out the door, weaving through students who had no idea that my heart was hammering like a drum in my chest. Lyric walked briskly down the hall, her bag slung over one shoulder, her posture tense. She knew I was behind her. I could tell by the way her fingers twitched, tightening around the strap of her bag. I didn’t care. I wasn’t letting this go. “Lyric.” My voice was quiet but firm as I caught up to her. She ignored me. “Lyric, stop.” Nothing. She was heading toward the main doors—probably planning to leave. But I wasn’t letting he
Chapter 52: Stay away from her. GAVIN HAWKINS POV Today's practice sucked. I couldn’t bring myself to focus at all, no matter how hard I tried. We had a game in three days—I wasn’t supposed to be slacking off. Grabbing a bottle of water, I sat in the locker room, trying to rehydrate before heading home. My muscles ached from the drills, but my mind felt even more exhausted. The door swung open, and Aaron walked in, drenched in sweat. A towel was draped over his torso and another around his neck as he wiped his face. He was obviously heading to the showers. "You played dumb out there today. Is something on your mind?" he asked, his brows furrowing as he studied me like I was some puzzle he wanted to solve. Good luck with that. "No doubt, Sherlock," I grumbled, twisting off the cap and downing the rest of my water. The cold liquid was refreshing, but it did nothing to clear my head. Aaron scoffed, running a hand through his damp hair. "I don't even wa
Chapter 51: I could keep you Lyric's POV The streets were eerily quiet, the distant hum of traffic the only sound breaking the silence. My breath came in shaky exhales, my mind racing as I walked. Every shadow felt like a threat, every passing car made my pulse spike. I had no real plan—just a desperate need to act. I tapped my phone screen, my fingers trembling as I typed a message. Uncle, where are you? It’s urgent. No response. I tried again. And again. Still nothing. Panic tightened my chest. If Alessio’s men were after him, they had probably already tracked his usual spots. If I could think like them, maybe I could stay a step ahead. It could all be a huge waste of time, but I had no choice. But where would he go? Despite being an asshole, my uncle had a lot of friends—or frenemies. Any one of them could be harboring him. Or he could be out of town. Hell, he could be out of the country as we speak. But I had to try. I stood at the n
Chapter 50: I had to find himLYRIC SPENCER POV According to Principal Holloway, we were to start our punishment at the drama clock at five after school. I had rushed home to prepare lunch for the kids. When I arrived, my aunt was sitting on the floor in tears, her clothes torn, and the house was a mess. Water leaked from the sink, broken shards of glass covered the floor, and the stench of cigarettes filled the air. I dashed to her, falling to my knees beside her. My skin scraped against the glass, but I ignored the pain. I tapped her softly, urging her to meet my eyes. > I signed, desperate for answers. No reply. She stared blankly at the other side of the room, lost in a daze. Then, I remembered the kids. My heart pounded as I scrambled to their rooms, nearly tripping over the curtains at the door. I pushed the door open—empty. My heart sank. I clasped my palm over my mouth, my stomach twisting at the thought of
Chapter 49: What Are You Doing? The principal’s office smelled like old books and burnt coffee. The air was thick with silence, aside from the ticking clock on the wall. I sat stiffly in the chair, my injured arm stinging, but I refused to look at it. Across from me, Emilia sat with her arms crossed, her cheek still red from my slap. She didn’t look scared. If anything, she looked amused. With the power her father had over Velmont, it was expected. Gavin stood beside me. Too close. His fingers twitched like he wanted to reach for me, but I ignored him. Principal Holloway sighed, rubbing her temples. Curly gray hair touching her shoulders, "Fighting? Again?" Her tired eyes swept over all of us. "This is becoming a pattern with you, Miss Davidson." Emilia smirked. "I was attacked." I tightened my grip on my phone. Liar. Wren scoffed, leaning forward. "Oh, please. She tried to slap me first." "She’s right," Aaron added. "Lyric only defended her fri
Chapter 48: You don’t get to ask that After class, I went back to ignoring him. His phone buzzed, but instead of responding, he let out a quiet sigh. "Lyric," he said, barely above a whisper. "Please wait—" I ignored him. Grabbed my bag. Stood up. I was halfway out the door when he caught my wrist. I froze for a full minute. His touch wasn’t forceful. It wasn’t rough. But it sent a jolt through me, like my body still remembered what it felt like to be held by him. What it felt like to tremble under him, how he tasted. How badly I had bitten into his back to stifle my moans. This was messed up. I didn’t need him anymore. Slowly, I turned back. He released me the second our eyes met. I expected him to look cocky, maybe even amused. But he looked… lost. Like he didn’t know what to say. Like he wasn’t sure if he should say anything at all. It was a first for the great Gavin Hawkins. His shoulders slumped, his eyes pleading. '' Please talk to
Chapter 47: I'd Keep My Storm LYRIC SPENCER POV For the rest of the class, I refused to acknowledge him. My brush moved in frantic, sharp strokes, splattering paint with more force than necessary. Each color I chose—deep reds, bruised purples, slashes of black—felt like they bled straight from my chest. Gavin didn’t speak. He didn’t text. But I could feel him watching, like a storm brewing just out of sight. It wasn’t until the teacher announced clean-up that he finally moved. He stretched lazily, his broad shoulders rolling back as if this whole thing was just a game. "Nice painting," he murmured under his breath. I shot him a glare. It was a mistake. His eyes weren’t teasing anymore. They weren’t smug. They were searching—serious in a way that made my stomach tighten. I tore my gaze away, shoving my brushes into the cup of murky water. "Everybody, drop your brushes," Miss Lia announced. Her gaze turned stern when it met mine but relaxed wh