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"Where have you been yesterday? Why were you absent?" Lisa suspiciously questioned me the next morning, as if I had gone somewhere and did something secretive. Although that wasn’t entirely false.
She scooted all of her straight blonde hair to one shoulder, leaned on her locker, and watched me as I busied myself with mine.
"I.. just wasn't feeling well."
"You never skip classes even if you're already dying."
Lisa and I had been classmates since grade 11. We're close but she's friends with everyone so it's hard to tell my level of importance. I never considered her my best friend. I know she feels the same way about me. I’m famous and all but I never really maintained a huge number of friends or had
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c a t h e r i n e Vernon's amber eyes were deathly hallows--dimmed by the kitchen light and stricken with the varying neon beams of the house’s strobe lights. Immeasurable thoughts were reflected into their mystery that all I could ever worry is what he would say next. I was overpowered by the stings above the sheer linings of my skin, all implanted by the frosts of his glacial look. The rumbling music and the party around were suddenly a thousand miles distant. I didn’t know the meaning behind those seemingly aggravated eyes of his, like seeing me here annoyed him. That’s ironic because I should be the one hating him. He told me he wouldn’t come, yet here he is, bridging a very thin thread, playing mind games with Jackson. "You know her?" Jackson shifted his g
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c a t h e r i n e It was a short ecstatic feeling when our lips met and mine melted against the softness of his. The stale taste of his cigarettes lingered in my tongue until my phone buzzed. Startled, I pulled myself back hastily. My fingers shuddered at the sight of Jackson calling. "I'm going back." I panted before sprinting back to the house party. Vernon ran after me but we parted ways inside. I struggled to find Jackson in the havoc of guests now partying themselves to the fullest. The phone call was of no use for all I could hear was his incomprehensible grunts. "Where are you?" His text message appeared. My nervousness elevated. I stumbled through the cro
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