Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakahinga ng maayos matapos marinig si Rafus na magsalita. Inaasahan ko na talaga na hindi siya magsasalita at iiwas ang tingin sa akin pero hindi iyon ang nangyari! At ang marupok kong puso ay kinikilig na naman!
"Anak, tulungan mo muna ako."Kung hindi pa siguro ako tinawag ni Nanay ay hindi pa ako babalik sa huwisyo. Mabilis akong tumalikod kay Rafus na sobrang lakas ng kabog ng puso ko at hindi iyon dahil sa pagkaripas ng takbo papunta kay Nanay kundi dahil dulot niya.Inapakan niya na ako't lahat lahat pero gustong gusto parin siya nitong maharot kong puso! Ang hirap ang pagiging marupok!"Slaine, anak okay ka lang ba?""Po? Uh-opo naman Nanay.""Kanina pa kasi sumasandok diyan na hindi naman bukas ang kaldero ng kanin.""Ay sorry po, Nanay." Sabi ko at binuksan ang kaldero. Napakagat labi ako at mahinang binatukan ang sarili sa katangahan.Umayos ako at sumeryoso sa pagtulong kI feel uncomfortable the whole lunch because I can feel their stares at me. I can't even lift my head because of embarrassment, and I bet my cheeks are burning red.Demonyo kasi itong si Rojas! Tanong nang tanong kila Nanay at Tatay tungkol sa pagkabata ko! Halata namang iniinis niya lang ako sa malapad niyang ngisi! Sarap niyang sapakin sa mukha! Ano naman ang makukuha niya kapag nalaman niya ang nangyari noong bata ako, aber?"Damihan mo pa ang kain hijo, huwag kang mahiya." Rinig kong sabi ni Nanay at doon lang ako napaangat ng tingin. Guess who my mother is talking to? Damn, does Nanay know that he'll be her future son-in-law? And the fuck I'm hearing wedding bells right now?! "Masarap talaga iyang sinigang kasi si Slaine ang nagluto.""Nay!" Suway ko at nang tingnan ko si Rafus ay tamang tama naman na nagkatagpo ang mata namin. Mas lalong uminit ang pisngi ko kaya umiwas ako at minabuting yumuko nalang."Ang sarap po ng pagkain ninyo Tita, pa
"I hope you understand that we're doing this for you Crezst. Helen and I are concern for you. If ever, what happened to Ate Reive may happen to you, we will do the same we've just done. We don't want people to shame you or even attack behind your back. We don't want to invade someone's privacy and vice versa. I'm sorry for shouting earlier, I shouldn't have done that."We heard her chuckled lowly. "I should be the one apologizing here. Frankly speaking, I'm not going to ruin Reive's life. She's been kind to Slaine since the day she started working as a part timer. Sometimes, I even asked myself why I'm being harsh on Reive, and guess what? Maybe I'm just envious of her in some aspects."Malamlam ang mata kong napatingin sa kaniya. Natahimik kaming pareho ni Helen. I didn't know about this, in what aspects she envy Ate? Honestly, I admire Crezst personality because she's brave enough to express and fight her side. It's like she fears nothing and cannot be hurt easil
Hindi ako mapakali at pinagpapawisan ang kamay ko dahil sa kaba. What I feel right now is so familiar, and I hope that I could have a chance. I know I made a deal to myself that I'll keep my distance to Rafus once he likes someone else, but... I just can't miss the chance and try all my luck."What do you want to talk about?" A familiar manly voice asked behind me. I jolted from where I was standing and awkwardly turned to him."Hmm, it's not 'that' important but... I want to talk about our future... together." I bravely said and smile never left my face.His face stayed serious and stared at me with intense eyes. Napatikhim ako at sumeryoso nalang din."Sorry for the corny joke... The reason why I chatted you was because I wanted to give you this." Inilahad ko sa kaniya ang silver gift box. Sandali niya iyong tinignan at tinanggap rin kalaunan. "I know it's not that expensive but I thought of you the first time I saw what's inside the gift." Pag
Pagsapit ng hapon ay hinatid ko ang tupperwares ng graham balls sa mga nag-order sa akin. Kahapon ko iyon ginawa at inabot na ako ng gabi dahil sa dami ng nag-order sa akin, mabuti nga at kasya ang lahat ng ginawa ko sa ref namin. Gusto pa nga akong pakainin nila Crezst at Helen ng mga handa nang inihatid ko ang graham balls sa kanila, at tanggi ako nang tanggi. Kung hindi pa ako dumahilan na kakailanganin ako sa bahay, hindi siguro nila ako paaalisin na walang laman ang tiyan.It's eight forty five in the evening when I decided to left the house. Gusto ko sanang sabay kami ni Shey na pupunta ng simbahan kaso mukhang ayaw niya kaya hindi ko nalang pinilit pa.I'm wearing a white full sleeve top with two unbuttoned spots and paired it with brown denim skirt then finished it off with my white sneakers. I let my hair flow and didn't bother to wear make up. Isinuot ko rin ang reefer coat na iniregalo ni Lavigne dahil malamig ang simoy ng hangin.Daming tao sa simbahan maging sa labas nito
After an hour and half the movie ended, some of my cousins were already asleep in cold floor and I find Mitchel and Pido's sleeping position in couch uncomfortable. I bet they'll groan because of body pain tomorrow.Tumayo ako para ibigay ang ispasyo kay Mitchel para maging komportable siya sa pagtulog. Tuloy parin ang inuman at pagbi-bidyoke sa labas. Hindi ko na nakita si Shey mula nang magpaalam siya sa akin kanina na lalabas.Lumabas rin ako ng bahay nila Tito at naghanap ng tahimik na lugar. Dinala ako ng mga paa ko sa pool side. Kumuha muna ako ng isang throw pillow sa mahabang sopa bago ilublob ang paa sa malaming na pool.I looked at my wristwatch, it's nearing three in the morning. I wonder if Rafus was still awake? I unconsciously took my phone out then created a message for him.Ako:Merry Christmas, baby!After waiting a few minutes for his respond, my phone finally vibrated.Rafus:Merry Christmas.
"Slaine? What are you doing?" Dan brows furrowed and keeps on putting distance between us. Imbis na kumalas ay mas lalo kong hinigpitan ang pagkapit. I may be look like a leech right now, but I need to save Crezst."Uhm wala naman Dan. I'm just surprised that you're also here." I said with a sweet smile, but actually my knees are trembling because of nervousness. Shit we'll be caught!Sa isahang hila, tuluyan siyang nakalayo sa akin. Napatulala ako dahil mukha siyang galit pero kontrolado naman iyon. "Slaine..." Nahihirapan niyang sambit sa pangalan ko. "I'm in a relationship with your best friend and I love her so much. You're aware of that."Nanginig ako dahil sobrang seryoso ang pagkasabi ni Dan niyon. Feel like I was caught by a strict professor doing ruckus in class. I swallow hard as if there's a lump on my throat, my forehead is dispersing cold sweats."Dan, it's not what you—""This is not a place for the drama. Move aside, you're
Even though the performance proper had started and there's a tribe performing in front, my attention wasn't there. My eyes were still pinned on Hatryx.Yes, I have heard rumors back then that Rafus has an older brother. But since Rafus was the only one who was oftenly seen in the Cattaneo's mansion, those rumors got burried. It's not that I don't appreciate Hatryx's existence, it's just that I'm still shock and trying to process the revelation I have found out right now.The most embarrassing thing I've done today was that, I got stunned when the MC's announced that Hatryx's a Cattaneo while I was on call with Rafus! If only the soil would diverge and ate me alive. Then I won't have to worry about what Rafus will think of me."Are you okay, Slaine?" Jangkit worriedly asked and it made me regain my senses. I looked at him then smiled, "I'm okay, Jangkit."I'm trying hard not to look at Hatryx and focused my attention on the performers, an
I hugged myself as the cold wind brushed against my skin. I've been staying here for couple of minutes, waiting for the tricycle while watching people from different direction who walk passed by me.My heart almost jumped out of its ribcage when the car beeped in front of me. It's a steel gray coupe car. I was really annoyed. The driver was rude, does he or she knew I'm already on the side— on the side walk?The passenger's window slowly moved downwards and my brows furrowed when I was welcomed by Rojas' smirk."Hey there beautiful, are you going home?" He asked and the smirk never left his face. If he's not Rafus' cousin, I swear I have already punched him hard. "Oh, you seem to be in a bad mood?""Sige nga, ikaw tumayo dito sa kinatatayuan ko at bigla kitang bubusinahan. Tingnan natin kung masisiyahan ka, siguro nga ay baka humagalpak ka pa sa katatawa." Puno nang sarkasmo kong sabi at hindi ko maiwasang mapairap."Pasensiya ka na sa pa
"Baby..." I heard Rafus spoke and I felt his presence in the bathroom.I stayed silent and acted oblivious. I don't want to talk with him at the moment because I know it'll end with screaming and fighting."Let's talk, I'll explain everything to you." His voice is cooing, and I just found him behind my back. His clothes are already soaking wet but he didn't left not until I faced him."Later... let's do that later." I said almost a whisper."No," he shook his head. The wet shirt is tracing his built. "We have to settle this now. I don't think I can last another second knowing something's off between us."My lips remain in thin line. I'm staring at him because I'm waiting for the words that will come out his mouth."That night when you finally gave me and our relationship another chance, kagagaling ko lang no'n mula sa dinner kasama ang pamilya ko at pamilya ni Aurora." He sighed and held my waist. His eyes were pleading and fille
"Be with me," Rafus whisper to my ears.The sunlight's already spreading everywhere, yet we're still here lying on my bed, both naked beneath my comforter.I hummed then buried my face more on his chest. "Where to?"He tightens the hug before kissing the top of my head. "Palawan. I brought a vacation house from Sienna, and I wanted to visit it with you."Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. I don't think I can get used to his handsomeness that will welcome me when I wake up in the morning. "Kailan ba ang plano mong bumisita roon?""Two days from now. Is that alright with you? We'll just fix what we needed to be fixed in the corporation, then I'll ask Rojas or Amadeus to look after the business for a while."I gasped audibly and blinked twice. "You're still friends with Amadeus?""Baby, what are you talking about? Of course, I'm still friends with Amadeus." Natawa si Rafus at inangat ang pang-itaas na katawan para kubabawan
I groaned when my clock alarmed loudly. I covered my face with the blanket, hoping that my sleepiness would visit me again, but failed.Marahan kong iminulat ang mata ko at ngayon ko lang natanto na walang sinag na tumatama sa mga mata ko dahil natatakpan ng kurtina ang sliding glass door na nakakonekta sa balkonahe.Natutop ko ang labi nang maalalang sa sofa ako kagabi, papaanong nandito na ako ngayon sa kwarto? I scanned myself, and I also found out that I'm wearing comfortable cotton oversize shirt, not my office clothes.I shook my head. Damn he's doing this again! Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. It's beating wildly as if something triggers my system to feel those feelings again.I climbed off my bed then help my way towards the bathroom and fixed myself ready for work. Hindi na ako nag-abalang magluto ng agahan dahil dadaan nalang ako sa café mamaya."Good morning."My heart leaped. Kalalabas ko lang ng apartment ay siya agad an
I fixed the belt on my trouser and left the two buttons of my long sleeve top open. I wore tube beneath, so I won't get to receive any lewd stares from anyone.Napakurap-kurap ako nang lumuhod si Rafus at siya mismo ang nagpasuot ng ankle strap sandals sa akin. I felt the gentleness as he held my feet and carefully assuring that the strap was perfectly locked."Rafus, don't treat me like this please..." I said almost begging.I don't want him to treat me like I'm valuable. Damn, I don't want to get hurt by the same person again! Nawasak ako dati at ayokong mawasak ulit. His gestures and the way he treat me brings the feelings I used to feel for him."Let's clearly draw the line. I don't have any hang ups with you, and yes, we had sex. I think that's normal for us, don't try putting another meaning of what happened last night when it's clearly lust and sexual desire."His expression became stoic and later, he laughed at himself. "Damn, bab
We're both silent the whole ride. I refuse to utter a word because I'm trying hard to control myself after remembering all the memories we had here, and Rafus' perfume never change over the years.Damn, even if I don't admit it, I know to myself that I still have hangs up for him.I don't know where Rafus is taking me. Nagdrive thru lang kami ng pagkain tapos tumulak uli kami. I looked at my wristwatch, it's nearing five thirty already."Seriously speaking, where are you taking me Rafus?""You'll see, we're almost there, just hang on for few minutes."I sighed and shut my mouth. He won't tell me, period. Why did I kept on trying since earlier then? Rafus' unbending, what's new about it?After an hour of driving, finally the car stopped. I didn't wait for Rafus' cue and help myself got out of the car."What are we doing here?" I seriously asked him with my arms crossed over my chest.Kalalabas niya lang ng kotse
"Come in," he announces and after a moment, a guy enter his office."Mr. Cattaneo, I'm here to inform you that the partition and curve table is already here. We'll just going to install it here in your office."Rafus nodded, "Okay, and do finish it as fast as you can."Naalerto ako nang hawakan ni Rafus ang kamay ko at pinagsiklop iyon. Nakita ko rin ang pagsulyap ng employee sa kamay naming dalawa kaya ginapang ako ng kaba at nagpupumilit na kumalas."Do inform me if you're done," Rafus formally said to the guy and swiftly picked my handbag on the floor.Lumabas kami ng opsina at doon ako nagkaroon ng lakas loob para lagyan ng puwersa ang pagwaksi ko sa kamay kong hawak niya."It's working hours," I said, not taking my eyes off him. "I believe you do know how to separate personal relationship with work, Mr. Cattaneo."He flashes that smirk, making me feel annoyed. "Well that principle works depending where my woman
I blink couple of times before slowly opening my eyes to adjust to the light that passes through the slightly open curtain.I groaned as I felt pain in my head like it's been hammered multiple times. I travelled my eyes to the whole room and fear starting creeping in my system.This is not my room!I touched my body and that's when I finally felt at ease. Thank God I'm still fully-clothed.I spend few moments of ransacking my head to find answer why I'm here in someone's room, but I only remember that I'm with Ma'am Claireen in the club last night!Before I could finally recognize the familiar scent that fills in the whole room, the door push open and a man step in, making my jaw drop in shock and confusion."Oh, you're awake now..." He calmly said and I got distracted by the sweats dripping from his forehead.I cleared my throat, "Where am I? And why I am here with you?"Mariin siyang napatingin sa akin at doon
"What are you doing here?" My brows furrow and my blood starts to boil. He didn't answer, he just remain there, standing while looking calm and collected.I took a deep breath and almost rolled my eyes on him. Kinuha ko ang grocery bags na nakalapag at binuksan ang pinto ng apartment ko saka bastang pumasok pero bago ko pa iyon maisara, pinigilan iyon ng malakas na kamay."Ano ba'ng problema mo?" Pinigilan ko ang sarili na huwag siyang pagtaasan ng boses.Titig na titig siya mga mata ko at hindi ko magawang umiwas. I can see exhaustion, pain, and longing in his eyes. In a snap, he invited himself in. He took the grocery bags from my hold and shamelessly walked towards my kitchen."Seriously, Rafus? What are you trying to do? Why are you doing this?" I followed him to my kitchen and took the grocery bag to place it on my countertop.I was taken a back when he wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his head between my neck and shoulder
I paid the driver a yellow bill and didn't wait for my change. Lumabas ako ng sasakyan dala-dala ang dalawang duffel bag. Hindi naman siguro ako mukhang haggard mula sa flight dahil malaki ang tiwala ko sa simpleng make-up na inilagay ko sa mukha.I'm wearing a matching plaid trouser and blazer, a black tube top, then white shoes. This is often my office attire, and I never got any complain from my fellow workmates or from Mr. Sorrento.Hindi ako pinigilan ng security guard nang basta-basta akong pumasok. Sa dalawang taon ko ba namang pagtatrabaho dito sa incorporated ay hindi nila ako nakilala."Ms. Aranza!" Gulat na bungad ng receptionist. "Naparito po kayo?"Tipid akong ngumiti, "May problema lang sa resignation ko. Uhm—pwede bang maiwan ko muna dito sa ground floor ang mga duffel bag ko?""Uh sige po," nakangiti niyang tugon at sumenyas sa security guard kaya madaling naipasok sa loob ang workplace ng receptionist ang bags ko.