Chapter 169CleoI don't believe that I went to school to go study how to crack secret I didn't go to school to study how to grade secrets however I went to school to learn how to uncover them and expose the truth I kinda like have Scorpio in my chart that the Scorpio in inPluto so yeah it's at the right place as much as I have bright side I do have a dark side too but I don't know what you call it when you are able to balance both your dark and bright side but I'm starting to believe that I can do that but sometimes the one or the other takes over and when that happens I just have to embrace and I go in order to achieve some sort of balance because if I hold onto something then it defeats the purpose of me feeling whatever I need to feel to go through whatever I need to go through and this time I don't think I'm going through anything that I can't handle that I can't handle.Yesterday I was suffering the after-effects of what I had done and I did it for a good reason first things fir
Chapter 170AngeloThere's been times when I've been mad my better half and there's been times when I don't know how to feel because I'm feeling everything and nothing at the same time I don't understand why she did what she did and it's not like he cheated on me but she did really made me look like I was incompetent and she doesn't see it that way he sees it as her trying to knock some sense into me because I'm busy protecting my other family it's my other family it's part of me I'm a combination of both gangs that happened to be enemies so why the hell should I be treating them any different more specifically my aunt who I know will strike at any given moment and at any given moment at my family, they say keep your friends close and your enemies closer and that's what I'm doing but she doesn't get that I'm trying to protect her.Yesterday evening when I tried to talk to her she had to work and I'm jus
Chapter 171 Cleo Angelo reads like a book and he is a practical guy. If something's wrong he usually finds the solution to the problem. He's not that emotional but he reads like a book so if he sees something wrong he is resolution-driven to fix it he must have seen something or he must have heard something for him to do what he did this morning because it's already evening and he's pulled the Radio silence card on me . When called the kids this evening to say goodnight to them and ask them how their day went they told me that the day went well and that they saw their father physically and they got to spend some time with him but he was behaving strangely and part of me knew that Michelangelo went to go see the kids and he saw the kids inebriated. I was angry at him for what he did I was angry at him for doing what he said that he would do which is go back to using alcohol to cope with feelings that he supposed to communicate to me about there's nothing wrong with our marriage it'
Chapter 172AngeloThere have been days when I filled it up and wished that I didn't wake up. Those were the days before I met my wife and even though she was my girlfriend why and he saved every part of me that seemed to be drowning in seas of darkness she's always been the one person that has always made sense. I sometimes feel like I don't deserve what I have and I always make a mess of things. I know that she loves me and I know that she would never keep stuff from me that is important I just had to go digging and I found what I was looking for without looking for it I should have just locked out of the work email and not open the email that was sent to her because she knows how to give me the news that I need good or bad gently.I had no business snooping. I know when I'm wrong and whichever way you look at it be it up down sideways in between or straight, fact of the matter is that I was wrong and I didn't want to
Chapter 173CleoIf there's one thing that my relationship with my husband told me was that I should always have everything in order and I should always be on high alert question everything that's been put on the table and don't take anyone's word as the honest truth because sometimes things don't look like they seem and sometimes you need to just step back take a break and then get back to how things used to be but in a different way what's a bit of zest .When I called my mother to tell her that I needed her to make sure that my kids were ready because we were flying out and if you wanted to come to her come to you but she respectfully declined and asked me if my head was in the right space for me to make such decisions because Michelangelo had come through to see the kids and he was in a sad state and when the kids asked what was wrong she had to tell them that their dad wasn't okay in the head but he will be better a
Chapter 174 Angelo There are more things that I can forget that the one thing that I forgot was that this week was a special week for my wife , it was her birthday week and I forgot on top of that instead of being on my best behavior I was on my worst behavior. I know I wasn't supposed to go snooping but I went snooping and the end result was me finding out what I didn't want to find out what I was supposed to know when my wife told me but instead I accused her of being dishonest and not being upfront with me about the truth. It was up to her if she was going to tell me and what I should have done was wake up gently because I knew that she was tired and she was working overtime, talk to her but what I accidentally saw when I was logging into the work website and possibly give her an explanation as to what happened but no; I decided to think that she was keeping important information from me and I ghosted her the whole day indirectly hurting her and I did the one thing that I promise
Chapter 175Cleo I know for a fact that I always have to keep my guard up no matter where I am even though I am with friends and friends are there to help me when I need help. I know that I always have to be on high alert. As much as I don't want to admit it to myself I am only a heavy sleeper when my husband is around because I know that we are safe and the kids are safe to and nothing will happen to us because he is around however the past couple of days have been the most challenging to say the least because and he just exploded out of nowhere and decided to Ghost me.When Angelo is angry his explosions come in devil's and ignoring me and not answering my calls getting me worried and doing things that are out of character or his way of communicating to me that he is truly in fact angry at me for something that I might have said or did was on there that didn't say and in this case it's something that I didn't say. I wasn't aware that he was angry over information that I had not pro
Chapter 176 Angelo If there's one thing I know about my wife is that she is forgiving and she has of a giving heart but there are times when I feel like I don't deserve her and there are times when I know I deserve her because she picked me and she wouldn't have picked me if she didn't think that I was worthy of her love I know that I've always got to record to prove myself to her but lately I've just been doing wrong things and the wrong things I have and doing all because I wasn't communicating properly with her. Traveling to the island that I love so much which is Zanzibar by the way was not a mission for me little safety to get all the paperwork that I needed to get together but it was all worth it because the first thing I did when I woke up the next day was get cleaned up and I didn't realize that my daughter was up and about walking around the house. Ava takes after her mother and she is a very cute kid and the one thing I love about her is that she doesn't care whether or no