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2024-10-29 19:42:56I've started to miss you Pieces of you The fleeting touches I've started to miss them again. This time, I'm not sure if I'll ever not miss them. You stay next to me with me in your arms but your eyes search for somebody else, something else. Do you need more? Or do you need less? Do you need me? Or do you need her?
What do you see when you look at me? Are you looking at me or are you looking at yourself in the mirror behind us? What do you want when you part your lips but never speak? What do you wish for when your eyes shine beneath me but you forget me the next minute? Do you see me? Or do you see another her? I've started to miss your touch, every second every minute. It's poisonous because what do you see when you look at me? Do you see me or do you see another her?
"Are we doing it right here?", he panicked, for the first time, he was so nervous about sex. Why? He had no idea either.
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Justin! Why are you here if you can't do anything properly?", Minjae's scream echoed through the complete shop but fortunately, it was empty. Justin shivered deeply, he swore even Minjae could've heard his heartbeat but what could he do? He was new to working one-on-one with her anyway."I-I'm sorry Ma'am. It's just that this is m-my first time working with you," he stuttered and she took in a harsh breath before clenching her jaw. She tried to calm herself down by fisting her hands but it didn't work either."Stop stuttering Justin, I promise I'm not always this rude. It's just I have a lot of work to be done today and you're not helping it," she mumbled coldly, her upfront forward tone stinging like a bitch but her words weren't as harsh as her tone.As soon as Justin had scurried off in hopes of finding the white chairs she wanted, Minjae sat down on the
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