“At 5:00 a.m.?” the girl exclaimed in disbelief.
“People do that sometimes, you know,” I said, showing him my towel and soap. “Strange people do that,” the girl replied, shaking her head. “I’m Lyra.” She extended her hand toward me. She was going to say my name, but I knew she’d never pronounce it correctly. “Anna.” I shook her hand. “What's with your accent?” the boy frowned. “Leave her alone, Flynn.” Lyra smiled at me before focusing on him again. “Before he—” Lyra pulled him by the hair and kissed him passionately. I looked away uncomfortably. A few seconds later, Flynn was climbing out the window. He took one last look at us and blew a kiss to Lyra. “See you tomorrow at the bonfire,” Flynn whispered and disappeared into the shadows. “Bonfire?” I asked. Lyra looked at me for a second as if she were hesitant to tell me. “Yes, it's a secret celebration. You know boys and girls can't mix in this crazy place, so we have a midnight bonfire once a month where boys and girls can get together and chat.” This place never ceased to amaze me. My grandparents had explained to me that it was an experimental institute, but security was definitely not their thing. “All...the boys and the girls?” “No, obviously only some of us on the first floor who have more freedom.” “Sounds interesting.” “Do you want to go?” Lyra asked. I shook my head shyly. “I haven't been invited.” “I’m inviting you, silly.” She pulled her sweater over her head, and that’s when I noticed the cut scars on her wrists. I stared at them shamelessly. Lyra followed my gaze. “There are many, right?” “I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to—” “Relax, you don't have to apologize,” she gave me a smile. “We all have our shit in this place, so relax.” So, I asked the stupidest question in the world. “Are you OK?” Lyra took off her pants. “According to my psychiatrist, I'm stable; that's as close to well as I can be.” That made me realize that I had never seen her before. “I've never seen you in group therapy,” I commented. “Ah, that's because I never go.” “Oh…” “Okay, curious girl, let's take a shower and get out of here.” She took off the rest of her clothes and got into one of the shower stalls. After undressing and getting into a shower, the hot water began to fall on me, relaxing me. “Hey, Anna,” her voice resonated among the sound of the water and the echo of the showers. “Yes?” I replied, rubbing the soap all over my body. “What are you doing awake so early?” “I could not sleep.” “Insomnia?” “Not really, I just...I…” I paused, not knowing what to say. “Have you had nightmares?” “How do you know?” “Sometimes vivid dreams can be a side effect of antidepressants. Believe me, I know that,” she sighed. “I’ve tried many.” “They will go?” “Huh?” “The nightmares, will they ever go away?” “It depends on your body; I had them for a few months.” After wrapping ourselves in towels, Lyra looked at me and gestured for me to open the door. I took a deep breath, and we headed over to her. We both walked out and started walking back to our dorms. The guard saw us and stood up immediately. “What are you doing in the showers so early? You are not allowed to leave your room from 7:00 p.m. to 6:00 a.m. The schedule is clear.” “We're sorry,” Lyra said, looking down. “And you,” the guard pointed at me. “I didn't report you last night when I found you on the roof, but I'm afraid I can't let you pass this time.” “We're deeply sorry,” Lyra repeated with puppy eyes. “It's not going to happen again.” “I have to report it; I'm sorry,” the guard said and turned to walk away. “Did you enjoy your nap?” I asked. The guard paused, tensing slightly. “If you report us, they'll wonder how we got to the showers without being stopped by you. But of course, you didn't see us pass by, because you were sleeping. Do you think the director would like to know that?” I hadn't meant to sound mean, but I didn't want to go to the second floor. “Are you blackmailing me?” She turned to us once more. Lyra backed away in fear. “Don't you dare think about it. I'll deny it; who will they believe? Me? Or a couple of crazy teenagers like you?” “Obviously, they'll believe you,” the guard smiled. “But there are cameras in this institution, aren't there?” Her smile faded. “I wonder what would happen if they were forced to review all those nights when you slept so much.” “Ah,” she muttered helplessly. “Okay, go to your rooms now before someone sees you.” She sounded annoyed, but I didn't care; Lyra and I walked quickly down the hall. “That was great,” Lyra said, smiling at me. “Thanks.” I stopped in front of my door. “Well, this is my room.” “It was nice meeting you, Anna.” She started walking again. “Hey,” I called in a whisper. “What about the bonfire?” “I'll pick you up tomorrow night; be ready at 10 p.m.” “Okay.” “And, Anna?” “Huh?” “Whatever you tried last night,” she paused, noticing my discomfort. “I'm glad the guard stopped you. Good night.” She didn't wait for my answer and disappeared into the hallway. What was I doing? Since when was I interested in attending social events? I realized that it was the adrenaline produced by the risk of being discovered that was motivating me. Ever since I had arrived at the psychiatric hospital, I had been so perfect and well-behaved; everything had been so gray. Maybe it was time to do bad things. The thought of ending my existence still lingered in my mind, but I was becoming more and more interested in life again; perhaps it was the antidepressants kicking in.A few hours later, I was in class, resting my chin on my hands again. I chose the chair near the window so I could look out whenever I wanted. It was my escape. “Anna,” Emilie whispered behind me. “Yeah…” “You didn't help me with my French yesterday; my evaluation is this afternoon.” “I'm sorry I forgot.” “Can you explain at least some things to me over lunch?” “Okay…” “Thank you! Thank you! You are a sweetheart.” Professor Ryan continued talking about the different religions that exist in the world while I looked at a tree in the garden. “Cowards will not enter the kingdom of heaven…” I remembered the hooded man's words from the night before. Who was he? I was sure he was a patient here, but what was he doing on the roof of the girls' wing? An image came to my mind: his grey eyes and those thick lips. That was all I could see of him. I sighed; I had to stop thinking about this stranger. The rest of the day was the usual routine; more classes. I had a little fun teaching Emi
“Lyra, wait!” I exclaimed as I followed her through the dark hallways of the mental institution. She was walking fast. We were heading for the bonfire, but at that moment I regretted my decision. If we got caught, I doubted I would come out of this unscathed. But the adrenaline was flowing through my veins, and it felt good. The clock was almost striking midnight. “Just hurry up,” Lyra whispered as she continued on her way. I stared at her back as I silently followed her; Lyra had a nice body, I must admit. She was wearing tight jeans and a white long-sleeved t-shirt. She had a small waist and rounded hips. Her black hair was in a ponytail. She looked really good, which made me evaluate my outfit once again. I was wearing baggy pants and a loose purple shirt with a pair of purple Converse. I sighed; looking attractive had never been my thing anyway. “Anna?” “Hey?” “You can see the guard over there.” She pointed ahead; there was a young woman sitting in front of a metal gate. “She
I wondered as I realized I had nothing to do there; I had no friends and only knew Lyra and Flynn. I sighed; maybe I shouldn't have gone there in the first place. I heard some girls laughing, and I remembered my little sister. The way she laughed was unique; I always remembered that. Looking down, I felt sadness wash over me once again. I missed her… a lot. It’s hard when you’re used to seeing three people every day of your life and then suddenly lose them. I sighed; maybe I should just leave. That place wasn’t for me. I stood up and started walking toward the path that would take me to the school’s backyard again. I felt a few stares on me, but I paid them no mind. I looked at the ground, trying not to step on a rock, and crashed into a strong chest. “Ouch!” I exclaimed, taking a step back and rubbing my nose. “Are you okay?” a soft voice asked, and I looked up, staring at the source. There was a blond man, staring at me with big green eyes. He looked so much like Luis, my crush
I was frozen; the hooded boy was there in front of me. I didn't expect to see him. I had so many questions, yet for some reason, I couldn't get a word out. His grey eyes looked deep and intimidating to anyone who looked at them. I lowered my gaze, trying to avoid his. “Anaís.” I looked up in surprise; he pronounced my name perfectly. “That's your name, right?” “How do you know my name?” “I just know,” he shrugged indifferently. “I must say, you're not very good at hiding.” I... “Although you are good at hiding what you feel.” “What? What are you talking about?” “Nothing, forget it.” “What do you want?” I asked, remembering that he had found me, so he had the right to ask me something. He moved his head to the side and then took a few steps toward me until he was close enough for the fragrance of a delicious cologne to brush my nose; it smelled very good. “What do I want?” he asked, pacing around me, making me nervous. I felt like prey about to be devoured by its pred
"Anna!" someone shook me by the shoulders. I slowly opened my eyes and saw a blurry face. "Anna?" I blinked a few times until my vision became clear. "God, it's so hard to wake you up," Émilie added, leaning back. I looked at her in confusion, forced myself to sit up, and looked around, realizing I was in my room. "What happened?" My head ached, memories of the previous night filling my mind. The bonfire… Logan… Xander… the blood… him… Oh my God… I exclaimed, jumping out of bed. "What's wrong?" Émilie asked, surprised. "The blood… I…" I checked my clothes; I no longer had on the purple t-shirt and dark pants that I had put on before going to the bonfire. I was in pajamas. I felt totally disoriented. "Hurry up! We're going to be late," Émilie said, standing up and then walking over to the mirror. "Where is the blood?" “What blood?” Émilie frowned, fixing her red hair. "I... I was... it wasn't a nightmare, was it? I came back to my dorm last night, and there was bloo
“You have a secret admirer!” Émilie exclaimed excitedly after I showed her the little piece of paper. We were having lunch after our morning classes; three days had passed since the day I received that note. "I don't think so," I said, taking a sip of my apple juice. Isn't this just like a romance novel? he said, adjusting her glasses. I mean, he sends you a letter, Romeo and Juliet style. It's not a letter. It looks like a letter to me. Well, it's not, I repeated. I wasn't as excited as she was about it; I had no idea who could have sent that note, and those possessive words gave me chills. I didn't want to think that it was the killer. He couldn't get in here, right? Lost in my thoughts, I stared at my sandwich. It didn't look appetizing; I wasn't a fan of food lately. You're not going to eat that? Émilie asked, worried. Food was a sensitive subject for her. You ate half of your food yesterday, Anna. You need to eat more. I know that, but ever since my parents died, ea
Get away! I asked, trying to escape, hitting his chest. He just chuckled. You're scared of me? Why should I be afraid of you? Why do you steal people's pencils? I don't think so. His smile grew. You are funny. “Well, you’re not,” I said bitterly. He leaned toward me, his minty breath caressing my nose and lips. I tried to push him back, but he remained motionless. Leave me alone, Logan. His eyes widened when I said his name. I immediately covered my mouth with my hand like a child who just accidentally let out a secret. Logan leaned back, smiling. "You know my name," he said triumphantly. "You've been asking about me, haven't you, Anaís?" No! Of course not! I just... happened to hear someone say it. You're lying. I'm not lying! I answered nervously. Without being able to stop it, I was already blushing rapidly. I looked away, embarrassed. One of his hands took my chin, forcing me to look him in the eyes again. I swallowed hard, his thumb brushing my bottom lip, his
Well, when I was a kid, I used to steal some snacks and then hide in the basement of my house to eat them. “Did I mention you’re weird?” I said, looking at all the candy. I hadn’t eaten my lunch, so I was a little hungry for the first time in weeks. Yeah, and we agreed that you're weird too, so it's not a big deal. He offered me the candy. "Do you want some?" I nodded, grabbing the bag. I started eating while Xander was telling some stories about his childhood. I laughed a lot with him; he was a very funny person. Hey, don't laugh! I'm sharing some very personal experiences, he tried to sound hurt. I'm sorry, but did you really try to cure your dog by giving him cough medicine? I laughed at the end of the sentence. Who does that? I was just an innocent child. Excuses, excuses, I muttered, rolling my eyes. You know what, Anna? I think you're bad, he said, sounding childish and then looking away. What? I'm not bad! I defended myself, trying to get his attention. Okay, wo