Jordan went to bed that night crying, the last time he had cried was more than a year ago, that time he thought the pain couldn't get worst but nothing prepared him for the pain he was feeling after Liam broke things off with him and left him in the house, it all felt so surreal, Jordan felt he went about the whole situation wrongly, but nothing prepared him for it and nothing also prepared him for the outcome, Liam didn't even give him a chance, Everything just happened so fast that it left him drained and feeling down, he couldn't even get up to pull his clothes, neither did he bother to eat, he couldn't do anything just lay on the bed right after Liam left and cried.He had the mind to go after him and tell him to stay but he couldn't, Liam was backing out for the wrong reasons, even if they make up and Jordan decided to forget the fact that he didn't tell him about his condition all the months they were dating, that won't change the fact that Liam was going to die if he doesn't ha
"Jordan, are you going to get your act together or not? I can't work with you if you are just going to keep spacing out, I already told you you can leave it you are not ready for this,"Phi said shaking Jordan out of his thoughts, Jordan looked at him apologetically, this wasn't the first time he was calling him our for zoning out on him, but Jordan couldn't help it, he didn't get a wink of sleep last night, how could he sleep, he was both heartbroken and in fear of losing the person he loves the most in the world, there was no going around it, after Liam hung up on him, Jordan had cried his heart out, darkness filling his world, he didn't realize just how much in love with Liam he was until last night, he couldn't even do anything about his hurt and he had thought of not coming in for work today, but they had so much going on here that it would be insensitive to just choose not to show up, and that's why he was here, well as it looks it would have been better if he just stayed off."
Dropping the phone, Liam lay on the bed, feeling like hell, he was this close to calling Jordan but each time he tried to turn on his phone, he just end up giving up and dropping the phone, he was too stupid for words, and too much of a coward to get his points across without being defensive, he messed up and should be fixing his meds and not running away and trying to his, like he had been doing since yesterday, he didn't sleep last night, not even after Jordan had called, today, he didn't go anywhere, not even to work and he didn't bother to call that he wasn't going to be at work, he decided he didn't need to work anymore, there was no point in working, he didn't even want to be alive anymore."I will just stay away,"He said closing his eyes to sleep, sleep has never been one of his good traits and it was worst now, no matter how he tried he couldn't fall asleep, he just laid there in a world of his where everything was blue and grey, nothing was bright and nothing was lively, he
One week, one whole week of no Liam, no single update from him, nothing at all, it was Saturday and Jordan sat in his room, he couldn't for the life of his figure what he was going to do to bring Liam out of his hiding place, his phone was still turned off, the man knew how to his away and not be found, the past few days haven't been nice to him, he didn't get much sleep neither was he able to eat, he spent most of his time in his head trying to find ways to resolve this whole issue but nothing seems to be working for him, he didn't know what to do to get Liam out of where ever he ran off to neither did he have a solution to the biggest problem of it all, he couldn't watch Liam die, not even if they are not together, he couldn't hear the thought of it.The past few days, he had done a hell lot of research, if he wasn't working, he would doing research on Liam's condition and he has become aware of a lot of things that he didn't know before and in all, the surgery wasn't that risky, wh
"Because I didn't want to disturb you with my problems, I am okay, just a little, no a lot heartbroken but I am fine,"He cried."The fuck do you mean young man? You don't look fine so don't lie to me, or I will spank you, what happened? I thought you guys were in love? Why break up?"She asked wiping tears off his eyes before hugging him again, knowing that Kat was pregnant and the position they were in might be uncomfortable for her, Jordan stood up and held her hand."There is a lot, but Liam broke up with me,"He revealed. She had her mouth wild open, not like he didn't tell her on the phone before, but she looked like she was shocked all over again."Why would he do that? Did you guys fight?""Yes and no, no we didn't fight fight, like fight, yes because we argued,""Why? What did you argue about that he left?""Liam is sick Kat, he is sick,"Jordan revealed covering his face with his hand."Wow, I thought he was going to get surgery,"Katrina said and Jordan stared at her, she k
Liam sat in his car in front of Jordan's apartment, this place used to be his safe haven, the place he wanted to be in the most but right now, he felt like an invader, he should just leave and have his parents pick up his stuff, but that would be rude and insensitive, he has already done a lot of insensitive stuff and he didn't want to continue doing that, he got out of his car and walked towards Jordan's apartment, he already knew he would be home as it is Sunday and he didn't need to be at work, he considered opening the door since he still had his keys but decided to just knock and wait for him to open for him, the door flew open few seconds after he rang the bell."Hi, you are here already, that so f*** oh my God Liam!"Jordan said his eyes opening wild in shock. He missed this man so much and wanted to do nothing more than to hug him close and not let him go, but he couldn't do that, not anymore, Jordan wasn't his anymore, he lost the right to that."Why are you standing there? D
"Well, that didn't go well,"Jordan said defeated, as Liam closed the door and left no matter what he said or do Liam picked an offense even if he didn't mean it that way, it was as if he closed the door on him and everything he said or did doesn't make sense to him anymore."But I am not going to give up, I won't give up on Liam,"He said in self-encouragement, there was no way he was giving up just because Liam told him to, Liam didn't listen to him so why would he listen to him too? He was going to keep trying until the man change his mind, even though he knew it would be hard to do so with the kind of mindset Liam had, the man didn't even know that he isn't caring for himself but caring too much about not letting people decide for him."Just have to get through him somehow,"Jordan said laying on the chair and closing his eyes to calm his nerve, at least he wasn't hiding anymore, it would be much easier to find him and make him see reasons why getting surgery was more for himself
He went to sleep as soon as his mom left his room, coming home gave him some kind of partial peace of mind that he didn't feel when he had been on his own, when the food was ready his mom did come to tell him to eat, he ate as much as he could and said went back to his room, laid on his bed, blocking out all thoughts of Liam, he slept at least and when he woke up the next morning, he went for a walk around his old neighborhood.By afternoon, he was bored so he decided to make a stop at Katrina's parent's house and say hi to them, after making sure that they were home it's been forever since he last saw them even though they lived not too far from his parents, walking into the house that used to be his second home, he rang the doorbell and Kat's mom's voice came from within, he smiled as she opened the door."Oh Jordan, it's been a while, how are you son?"She asked hugging him, this woman was his second mom and she had been there for him too, thinking about it now, he realized that he