Gigi didn't hear from Liz for almost a week and it was driving her crazy. She tried to keep her thoughts away from her ex, but it felt impossible. Even though work and the upcoming semester were keeping her busy, it wasn't enough, nothing was enough when Liz was involved. She tried calling her the first two days but then she felt like she was bothering Liz so she stopped. She was always repeating to herself that the situation was her karma. She felt like that was how Liz must have felt when she left Illinois three years ago. Days were passing slow, she had fun with the kids and was content with her work for college but was always filling a void in her chest as if she was longing for something, or maybe someone. Nights were passing even slower; she couldn't close her eyes without the thought of Liz appearing in her mind. She wasn't being able to sleep more than five hours and felt like if the situation was driving her crazy. And the worst thing was, she couldn't understand why. She h
Chapter 43: I Can Explain ItA couple of steps away, Liz was left with a very confused Delilah. She wanted to split her body in two and let one part run behind Gigi to explain herself and the other part could stay making up excuses to make Delilah buy whatever lie she wanted to sell. But Delilah was her priority that time, or she had to be, and she, unfortunately, couldn't divide her body. So, with a broken heart and a big desire to be with Gigi, Liz decided to stay sitting right where she was. "What is Gigi talking about? Why is she walking away from us?" Delilah almost yelled and Liz, again, wanted to desperately run away from her. Delilah was a natural drama lover, and that situation was like giving candy to a little child, she was going to make all the juice she could from it. The only thing she needed was a good explanation, though. Delilah was more intelligent than she presented herself at. She knew something smelled bad between Gigi and Liz and wanted to know what were they hi
Chapter 44: War It was a cold night in Illinois and she was wearing a light dress but her body didn't care, it was like she wasn't feeling anything, just desire to see Gigi. And that was so scary to Liz. Leaving her girlfriend after being intimate to go to Gigi's place? That didn't sound like her. Her hands were shaky as she drove to her destination and she was nervous. Her car felt smaller and smaller like if she was trapped inside of a box, she was anxious. She wasn't used to doing that kind of crazy things for anyone, and she was less than used to do those things for Gigi. Of course, she had loved her and felt wild while they were dating but they were younger back then, and staying up all night together or escaping from school were the craziest things they would do. Also, what did that mean? Did that mean that she was still into Gigi? Was it only the guilt she was feeling what was driving her to Gigi's house? Liz was so confused and shocked because of what she was doing that she
Chapter 45: Jealous Freak "Gigi, can we please have this conversation outside? I feel like I cannot breathe in here." Gigi didn't want to give Liz the advantage of choosing where, how, and when they were going to talk but still, Liz was her soft spot and she had always been, so she agreed. She turned around and left the room without even checking if Liz was following her, she wasn't giving her any other soft spots of her that night, or so she thought. It was very dark in Gigi's backyard but the city lights, the moon, and the lights coming from Gigi's pool were illuminating the whole place. Liz was expecting Gigi to sit down on the grass but the blonde never did, she was standing with her hands on her hips looking angry. "Come on, Monrae. I'm waiting and I'm really tired, I have very important things to do tomorrow and I don't want to be tired because I spent my precious night talking to you." Cold Gigi appeared once again without previous knowledge. To be honest, Gigi had been woken
Chapter 46: Guess What, Gigi?Liz shot back completely astonished by Gigi's words. She didn't want to admit how jealous she was of seeing Gigi with Kyle but the words were sliding out of her mouth without consulting her brain first. "Who I kiss is none of your business, Liz, and if you came here to insult me then leave. Yes, I was such a slut, maybe I should have cheated on you every time I had the chance." "It is my business when you're kissing that stupid guy who made me feel insecure the whole time we dated!" Gigi knew Liz had a point yet still wasn't going to let her win. After all, she was single and Liz had a girlfriend, who she kissed was none of Liz's business. "How do you think I feel when you kiss Delilah? Do you think I feel happy?" Gigi raised her voice more than she would normally do during a fight with Liz. She was kind of worried about her parents waking out because of all that noise, she didn't want anyone to interrupt them, she was enjoying being able to say whateve
Chapter 47: I Will Never Forget YouLiz took another step closer to Gigi. Even though there weren't many lights on, she could observe Gigi's beautiful face perfectly, her eyes were watery and her lower lip had already started trembling. She didn't care much if Gigi started crying, it was not the thing that was going to make her happy but the fact that she was able to open up, even a little bit, made her feel lighter. Gigi felt like all of the emotions she had been feeling during the last couple of weeks were ready to come out of her mouth, she felt ready to tell Liz how she was feeling but at the same time she wanted to protect herself and control the situation as much as she could. After all, people didn't call her a control freak for anything. She was divided between telling Liz her true feelings and hurting her even more. So she did both. "And maybe I'm jealous of Delilah, and what?" Liz's perfect skin was almost asking for Gigi to touch it, they were too close and they were feeli
Chapter 48: Unspoken WordsAt first, Liz was really surprised and wasn't even moving until she finally understood what was going on and furiously grabbed Gigi's hips and pulled the blonde closer to her. She felt like she was daydreaming, like walking on cloud nine. They started clumsily plodding over the grass until Gigi's back met the tree she was resting her body on a few minutes ago. Gigi tasted like mint toothpaste and Liz tasted like grape gum as they both remembered. Even though they were passionately kissing, Gigi felt like it wasn't enough, she wanted everything with Liz, she wanted to take her to bed, to call her hers, to hold her hand, to daydream about a life with her. Their two bodies were almost glued to one another and Liz's hands started traveling all over Gigi's body, she was desperate to make up for all of those times she couldn't kiss her because Gigi wasn't even in the same city as her. That kiss was full of unspoken words, it meant "I'm sorry", "I still miss you
Chapter 49: Jayla"Have I time-traveled and I didn't know?" Teased Jayla while she delicately touched Gigi's hair. Gigi and she were laying on her bed, staring at the ceiling, surrounded by used tissues (because Gigi had been uncontrollably crying for more than half an hour) and she was trying to comfort her as much as she could. She was her friend and that meant being there for the good times and being there for when Gigi needed a shoulder to cry on. Truth was, Jayla was freaking tired. Not only because it was 3 a.m, but it was also because she had had to comfort Liz for three years too, the drama just never ended between them and as much as she loved Gigi, she was still kind of mad at her for leaving and not talking to her ever again. She played dumb around her for the first couple of weeks but she wanted to talk with her about it, Gigi was not just her friend, it had been her best friend. Gigi and Jayla met when they were fourteen and they were trying to become cheerleaders. They
Chapter 58: Flashback"You seriously need to stop kissing me". Gigi warned with a high-pitched voice while she tried to pull Liz's face away from hers with a big smile on her face. "Why would I do that?" Liz complained and tried to kiss her girlfriend once again.They were sixteen lying on Gigi's bed on a normal Tuesday night. Gigi's mom did not like people staying over during weekdays but always made an exception when it came to Liz. Everything was an exception when it came to Liz. "Because it's late and we need to sleep." Liz was not buying that. She knew Gigi was going through something, and had been going through it for the whole day but was not willing to share it with her. "Gigi, it's me, you can tell me anything, you know?""How do you know me so well?" Gigi half-complained and turned to her left to face Liz. "What if someday you ever stop loving me?" She threw that thought so fast to Liz that the orange-haired had to think if she had heard that correctly. "Is that what got
Chapter 57: FlyingLiz's mom had always made sure her daughter knew that nothing was impossible, every single thing she wanted was achievable if she tried hard enough. And, for a while, Liz believed her. She was always a happy child, the creative one, with her head in the clouds and always having fun, nothing could ever be ruined for her, she always found ways to make every situation she was in like a daydream. Until one day she discovered the one thing that she could not do: flying. She was seven and was looking at the sky with Gigi laying next to her when the idea of flying appeared in her mind. She had run to where her mom was, at the kitchen preparing the most delicious cookies for them, and told her that she had found the one impossible thing she was never going to able to do: flying.Her mom found the situation too adorable to crush her daughter's dreams so she told her that if Liz tried hard enough, one day, she was going to be able to fly. However, she warned, she did not hav
Chapter 56: The SpyDelilah St. Louis could be many things. She was a clever girl, with the most amazing grades and a higher IQ than the average one. Her beauty was undeniable, no one had ever made her feel like she was not cute enough, she even had 'pretty privilege' when she went to parties and social events in comparison to her other friends. She was always offered drinks and let into places for free. She was independent, she had moved away from her house when she was just sixteen and had multiple jobs ever since without anyone's help. Delilah was hardworking, bright, impressive, reliable, punctual, and many other things, but she was not dumb. Yes, she could act as if she was dumb and make people think they could trick her, yet she always knew when something was not right, when something was not true. She could almost smell lies from miles away. Liz and she had started dating many months ago, she could not even count how many months they had been seeing each other with her fingers
Chapter 55: Marco"Why did it take you forever to grab two coffees I was dying of boredom here" Gigi complained and Liz felt even sadder. Leaving Gigi waiting outside was almost nothing compared to what she just got into, but it still made her feel terrible. Gigi was so relieved to see Liz coming out of that place, she was thirsty and also missed her terribly even if she had just left minutes ago. The orange-haired was holding two big drinks in her hands, both had cream on top of them and were iced, so Gigi was intrigued. When she tried the beverage, it tasted better than she had imagined and she felt butterflies in her stomach thinking about how much Liz knew her. "What? You were already missing me?" Liz shot back with a flirty tone, she was determined to forget what had happened and just enjoy her day with Gigi. If she could make her feel happy even for some hours, she was going to do it. Gigi's happiness was her happiness too. "What is this? This tastes great" They started slowly
Chapter 54: Deal"Gigi, you know I hate walking" Liz complained after following Gigi for fifteen minutes. The blonde was walking way too fast for Liz's taste just because of how excited she was. She had never imagined that being around Liz was going to boost her energy that much but it was what she needed to be completely happy. "Liz, you are the most annoying person I've ever met, and I'm not exaggerating" Gigi replied without breaking the smile she had been holding since Liz had agreed to follow her. "Can I at least know where are we going?" Gigi just nodded her head and held Liz's hand even tighter, she was not letting her know where they were going. It was the perfect day for being together and the perfect moment for them to go to that place they were heading to. They both felt like people were vibrating in symphony with them as they all seem happy and Gigi and Liz could only see smiley faces around them. Even if they were walking in complete silence, they were enjoying each
Chapter 53: Are You Mad At Me?It was more than a surprise for Gigi to be wakened up by a noise and that noise being Liz standing right behind her. "Liz? What are you doing here?" Gigi was truly surprised and thought it was getting more common than she would like to admit casually seeing Liz again. "What are you doing here?" Liz shot back and started frenetically touching her hair. She was nervous, especially after what had happened the previous night and how many risks she was taking just for being there. "I needed to clear my mind a little bit and?. I don't know, I really like this place." Gigi looked vulnerable, she was so tired of being a 'bad girl', that day she felt different. "Can we talk?"Without even waiting to say yes, Liz sat down in front of her almost immediately. Yes, she wanted to talk to Gigi. Yes, she needed Gigi around and yes, she wanted to kiss Gigi. Also, the sun looked beautiful on her soft skin so she wanted to admire it from a closer spot. "I wanted to apol
Chapter 52: Millennium ParkGigi woke up the following morning with a bright new thought: she wanted that day to be different. She was not that kind of positive girl who always smiled and hoped for a better day but that single day was different. A big part of why she was so happy that morning was because she had been able to figure things out with Jayla, her best friend. Seeing her sleeping next to her with her messy hair and her makeup still on her face gave Gigi all the good vibes that she needed. However, she knew she had already bothered Jayla a lot with her problems, and maybe she had even drained her brain a little bit, so she decided to spend that day on her own, maybe going to the park to prepare herself for the upcoming semester, that was getting closer each day, or just to listen to some music was the right thing to do. She found those plans mesmerizing and was happy to start that new little adventure. The kids she was babysitting were out of town with their grandma and she
Chapter 51: What Are You Doing Here?Liz didn't know if she was feeling more miserable over the fact that she was Gigi's mom and that meant that she had just broken her daughter's heart just a couple of hours ago or by the fact that she knew something she didn't, that her husband was probably cheating on her and she hadn't been brave enough to tell Gigi nor her about it. "What are you doing here, kiddo?" Was the first thing Gigi's mom said putting her bags on the floor and immediately hugging her. The relationship she had with Gigi's mom was almost like she was a member of her own family, in fact, she always called her 'aunt'. Liz felt so miserable with the fact that she was going to have to lie once again and that time it was directly to her aunt, it sucked since they had a no lies policy between them."I thought Gigi was with you? Now I don't know if she said she was spending the night at your place or Jayla's." "I'm here with Delilah, she wanted to buy a couple of things and drag
Chapter 50: Blonde"Lizzy, do you like this one?" Delilah turned around to show Liz the short dress she was trying. They were shopping in the main city center and Liz couldn't be more bored. Well, maybe bored wasn't the word she would use, she was tired. Her kiss with some blonde girl got her up all night and the bags under her eyes were the living proof of it. She wanted to know how Gigi was doing if she had felt the same amount of happiness as her if she had stayed up all night thinking about her as Liz did if she had felt like she fell in love all over again with Liz and many more things. But, taking the good feelings aside, Liz was sad. The guilt she was feeling was almost consuming her and was damaging her brain, she couldn't even breathe without feeling like the worst person alive. She was a loser for not telling Delilah the truth and a bigger loser for choosing not to talk to Gigi instead of trying to fix things once again. Delilah had called her a couple of hours after that in