Chapter 93Xavier's POV"You have to break an egg to make an omelette," or however that saying went. I was the egg, being broken, but I felt anything but nobility for my sacrifice."You don't seem to want this enough," Riana said, interrupting our kissing. Her voice had a hint of a threat in it. She gave me no choice. The things that went on in my room that day stayed in my room and must never be allowed to get out.Guilt is a powerful emotion. I watched Riana go up and down on me. Her mouth must have gone over every inch of my body. She explored me like a treasure map, looking for a treasure that could never be found, not by her.My mind was locked away from her and so was my heart. I remained unflinching, unable to feel anything. I guess this is what self-sacrifice should feel like.Pleasure was far away from my mind; the only thing I wanted was an assurance that my slate would be wiped clean after I was done with this, that the end would justify the means.Riana moaned on top of me
Chapter 94Zara's POVA week has passed since Alpha Damon made love to me. That night with him was unlike any other experience. His gentleness incited a feeling within me. I liked it.The mansion has been calm since. I have not seen Xavier since nor have I seen Alpha Alken and his terrible daughter, Riana Park. There has been an unusual silence within the walls of the Blood Moon pack house.I like the silence but it also scares me. The moment before a storm is the quietest. Alpha Damon has been quiet. He is barely around but when he is, he seems different, kinder.The truth is, I have been happy. I almost like it here. In a very odd sense, I've felt, even if just a glimpse of it, what being loved could feel like. The oddity of everything is that the love I have received is from both father and son, mostly father in recent times.It was from the same man who locked me up in a dungeon and left me to die for two days, the one who hunted me down and dragged me back to my prison at a very
Chapter 95Riana's POVI held them back as much as I could but the tears had broken past my barriers. Like water breaking past a dam, it all came at once. It hurt.My vision was blurred with all the salty liquid in it. The tears continually rolled down my cheeks but they did not stop forming in my eyes. How could they? I was betrayed by someone I loved.The feeling of emptiness is a painful one. It was not just emptiness I felt. Xavier promised me. We are supposed to be together. We are meant to be together.I found it hard to trace the path to my room while crying. I hate it here. I hate her. I hate Zara Smith.I flung the door open to find my father sitting on my bed. He immediately rose at the sight of my teary face. He was just the person that I needed to see."What's wrong dear?" He asked but I fell into his arms before I could answer. What was wrong? How do I start? As hard as it was to say, I did it eventually. I told him everything, starting with the first time I saw Zara Smit
Chapter 96Zara's POVI don't know what I was thinking when I left Alpha Damon's chambers. Maybe I was not thinking at all. My feet moved on their own and like a girl possessed I walked past the guards at the door without a word.They did not say anything. They made no attempt to stop me. Alpha Damon had not instructed them to lock me up yet. He must have been too angry, too hurt to speak as he rushed out of the room. Screw him. After all he had done.I contemplated knocking as I stood in the empty passageway, right in front of Xavier's room. I wonder now if I should have taken a proper look around the mansion one last time.Alpha Damon's words made me wonder. "The next time you will get to stand under the sun will be the day that I marry you. You belong tome, only me!" I don't think I would be allowed out even after the wedding.A prisoner to Alpha Damon for life. Maybe I preferred the dungeons to this. Okay, I don't.I took in a deep breathe at the door. Nothing. There were two scen
Chapter 97Zara's POVTime existed no more. Seconds, maybe hours, had gone by since I came to Xavier's room. I did not care. Everything was perfect.Xavier lay next to me, quiet and motionless for a while. His fingers had been stroking the side of my cheek very softly and slowly."I love you," he whispered in my ear. Our bodies were mingled under his sheets, just like I had imagined him with Riana.His words sent shivers down my spine. I felt as every syllable travelled from my ear to the rest of my body. Love? Too soon? I barely knew Xavier Elord. There was an undeniable connection between us but that was it. It did not change the fact that I met him a few weeks ago. I did not say it back. Awkwardness and silence lingered in the air, until, like a rotten smell, it dissipated.I looked at him to notice that he was not waiting for a reply, he was not even looking at me. He appeared to be sleeping. His face is peaceful and begging to be left alone."I have a plan to get us out of all t
Chapter 98Zara's POVA jab, loud shuffling through books, clothes, possessions, hasty movements. I immediately get disturbed by these. Unconsciously, my heartbeat quickens and my body is reminded of fear. My father is rushing towards me with his hands raised, it strikes me. I can never escape that fear.Alpha Damon is back in the room. He does not look happy. I did not expect him to be. I am just happy that I made it back to the room before he got back.More movement. He is searching for something, rummaging endlessly through his belongings. I dare not to ask, I dare not disturb his search so I sat quiet, frozen. My mind drifted to earlier in the day, with Xavier.He whispered his plan to me, as though we were not alone and someone could sneak up behind us as he spoke. I liked the feel of his breath against my ear."That's it?" I asked, unsatisfied by what he had told me. "What next? We can't possibly..."He raised his finger to my lips and stopped me from talking. "I'll tell you whe
Chapter 99Xavier's POVI shed the false bravado as soon as she left. The truth is I was even more whimpering that she was. I hate to admit the truth, which is the fact that I cower before my father, the man who had been raised high and mighty by the exaggerated stories, endless tales that Lady Rose told of him, of their past together.She said, "our past," when she referred to her and my father's shared experiences, like there was something more to it.I felt pretentious. I asked Zara to put her faith in me. I asked for her trust when I was not even sure of my plan. How could I expect to help somebody else when I could not even help myself. All these years living under my father's wing, under his watchful eye, I had never defied him.I should blame aunt Rose for my compliant behaviour. I like to believe that she was the one that kept me in check."He has his reasons," she would say, making excuses for his unfatherly actions or, "give it time. He'll come around." Her words barricaded
Chapter 1 ZARA'S POV "Whoosh!!" The sudden sound of cold water rushing all over my body. My mouth involuntarily gaped open to regulate my hyperventilation as I opened my eyes to see my whole body and bed covered in water. In a bid to understand what just happened, I searched around for an explanation, only to see Miriam, my stepmother with an empty bucket dripping water, her hands on her waist and her eyes full of hateful mischief. "M... Mum-" "If it wasn't that you were wet right now and I don't want to stain my palm with the dirt on your skin, I would've given you a dirty slap. How many times have I warned you never to call me your mother anymore? Do I look like a dead witch to you?!", She threw harsh words at my face, but I was trying not to shiver as the early morning attacked my skin. "I... I'm sorry, Miss Miriam", I muttered as I avoided her face. "Were you born into this world to be some sleeping beauty? Do you want to sleep your life away? Don't you have chores that y
Chapter 99Xavier's POVI shed the false bravado as soon as she left. The truth is I was even more whimpering that she was. I hate to admit the truth, which is the fact that I cower before my father, the man who had been raised high and mighty by the exaggerated stories, endless tales that Lady Rose told of him, of their past together.She said, "our past," when she referred to her and my father's shared experiences, like there was something more to it.I felt pretentious. I asked Zara to put her faith in me. I asked for her trust when I was not even sure of my plan. How could I expect to help somebody else when I could not even help myself. All these years living under my father's wing, under his watchful eye, I had never defied him.I should blame aunt Rose for my compliant behaviour. I like to believe that she was the one that kept me in check."He has his reasons," she would say, making excuses for his unfatherly actions or, "give it time. He'll come around." Her words barricaded
Chapter 98Zara's POVA jab, loud shuffling through books, clothes, possessions, hasty movements. I immediately get disturbed by these. Unconsciously, my heartbeat quickens and my body is reminded of fear. My father is rushing towards me with his hands raised, it strikes me. I can never escape that fear.Alpha Damon is back in the room. He does not look happy. I did not expect him to be. I am just happy that I made it back to the room before he got back.More movement. He is searching for something, rummaging endlessly through his belongings. I dare not to ask, I dare not disturb his search so I sat quiet, frozen. My mind drifted to earlier in the day, with Xavier.He whispered his plan to me, as though we were not alone and someone could sneak up behind us as he spoke. I liked the feel of his breath against my ear."That's it?" I asked, unsatisfied by what he had told me. "What next? We can't possibly..."He raised his finger to my lips and stopped me from talking. "I'll tell you whe
Chapter 97Zara's POVTime existed no more. Seconds, maybe hours, had gone by since I came to Xavier's room. I did not care. Everything was perfect.Xavier lay next to me, quiet and motionless for a while. His fingers had been stroking the side of my cheek very softly and slowly."I love you," he whispered in my ear. Our bodies were mingled under his sheets, just like I had imagined him with Riana.His words sent shivers down my spine. I felt as every syllable travelled from my ear to the rest of my body. Love? Too soon? I barely knew Xavier Elord. There was an undeniable connection between us but that was it. It did not change the fact that I met him a few weeks ago. I did not say it back. Awkwardness and silence lingered in the air, until, like a rotten smell, it dissipated.I looked at him to notice that he was not waiting for a reply, he was not even looking at me. He appeared to be sleeping. His face is peaceful and begging to be left alone."I have a plan to get us out of all t
Chapter 96Zara's POVI don't know what I was thinking when I left Alpha Damon's chambers. Maybe I was not thinking at all. My feet moved on their own and like a girl possessed I walked past the guards at the door without a word.They did not say anything. They made no attempt to stop me. Alpha Damon had not instructed them to lock me up yet. He must have been too angry, too hurt to speak as he rushed out of the room. Screw him. After all he had done.I contemplated knocking as I stood in the empty passageway, right in front of Xavier's room. I wonder now if I should have taken a proper look around the mansion one last time.Alpha Damon's words made me wonder. "The next time you will get to stand under the sun will be the day that I marry you. You belong tome, only me!" I don't think I would be allowed out even after the wedding.A prisoner to Alpha Damon for life. Maybe I preferred the dungeons to this. Okay, I don't.I took in a deep breathe at the door. Nothing. There were two scen
Chapter 95Riana's POVI held them back as much as I could but the tears had broken past my barriers. Like water breaking past a dam, it all came at once. It hurt.My vision was blurred with all the salty liquid in it. The tears continually rolled down my cheeks but they did not stop forming in my eyes. How could they? I was betrayed by someone I loved.The feeling of emptiness is a painful one. It was not just emptiness I felt. Xavier promised me. We are supposed to be together. We are meant to be together.I found it hard to trace the path to my room while crying. I hate it here. I hate her. I hate Zara Smith.I flung the door open to find my father sitting on my bed. He immediately rose at the sight of my teary face. He was just the person that I needed to see."What's wrong dear?" He asked but I fell into his arms before I could answer. What was wrong? How do I start? As hard as it was to say, I did it eventually. I told him everything, starting with the first time I saw Zara Smit
Chapter 94Zara's POVA week has passed since Alpha Damon made love to me. That night with him was unlike any other experience. His gentleness incited a feeling within me. I liked it.The mansion has been calm since. I have not seen Xavier since nor have I seen Alpha Alken and his terrible daughter, Riana Park. There has been an unusual silence within the walls of the Blood Moon pack house.I like the silence but it also scares me. The moment before a storm is the quietest. Alpha Damon has been quiet. He is barely around but when he is, he seems different, kinder.The truth is, I have been happy. I almost like it here. In a very odd sense, I've felt, even if just a glimpse of it, what being loved could feel like. The oddity of everything is that the love I have received is from both father and son, mostly father in recent times.It was from the same man who locked me up in a dungeon and left me to die for two days, the one who hunted me down and dragged me back to my prison at a very
Chapter 93Xavier's POV"You have to break an egg to make an omelette," or however that saying went. I was the egg, being broken, but I felt anything but nobility for my sacrifice."You don't seem to want this enough," Riana said, interrupting our kissing. Her voice had a hint of a threat in it. She gave me no choice. The things that went on in my room that day stayed in my room and must never be allowed to get out.Guilt is a powerful emotion. I watched Riana go up and down on me. Her mouth must have gone over every inch of my body. She explored me like a treasure map, looking for a treasure that could never be found, not by her.My mind was locked away from her and so was my heart. I remained unflinching, unable to feel anything. I guess this is what self-sacrifice should feel like.Pleasure was far away from my mind; the only thing I wanted was an assurance that my slate would be wiped clean after I was done with this, that the end would justify the means.Riana moaned on top of me
Chapter 92Riana's POV"Zara Smith. She was brought to the mansion a few weeks ago. She is to be Alpha Damon's bride," the young omega spoke fast like her words were fire, burning her tongue the longer they stayed unreleased. It was almost like she had been waiting to tell me even before I asked."Thank you. That will be all," I responded, dismissing her before walking away myself. I knew her name now. Zara Smith of the Redmoon pack, the abandoned princess. I did not like her. It was more than just dislike.Why did Xavier defend her so? Why did they seem so close even though she had barely been around? I knew where the answers to my questions lay. The door to Alpha Damon's room was guarded, as expected. "'There is someone in there already," one of the guards pointed out, refusing to let me enter. "He is expecting me. You know who I am, don't you?" I said with raised eyebrows. Reputation is everything in the werewolf world.They let me in but I didn't go all the way in. I heard voi
Chapter 91Alpha Damon's POVI watched the two, Xavier and Riana exit my room with their hands clenched. Something was not right. To the best of my knowledge, Xavier did not want to marry Riana. He had his characteristic "angry but unable to speak out for himself" expression whenever I brought her up.He knew did not have a choice. As the future Alpha of the pack, he needed to learn to make sacrifices for the pack but his marriage to Riana Park of the Crescent moon pack was not merely a lesson on that. Riana is a beautiful young girl with excellent features, nothing like her father, Alpha Alken. There was no better bride for Xavier.As much as I wanted to believe him, I could not shake off the gut feeling that something was up with Xavier's sudden acceptance of his bride. Zara walked in while I was lost in thoughts. Memories of the previous night immediately flooded my mind. My actions were not my own that night. It was always like that. The moon had a hold on me, it made me feel di