LILY’S POV
This time I was in the process of entering new information into the patient’s file when my phone rang. Glancing at the screen idly, I noticed that it was from an unknown number. Many times I remember refusing to answer calls during work periods, especially if I was on shift
I lifted it up thinking that it would be another routine issue to address and then the voice on the other line sounded panicked.
“Dr. Jayden?” Ayla’s class-teacher seemed beyond anxious when answering. “It’s about your daughter: Ayla fainted at the school today and she was taken to the hospital.”
My blood ran cold.
‘what?’ I squeaked, my voice trembling with panic more than I would have wanted. My hands were shaking and I tried to contain myself as I reached out to grab my bag while the rest of the conversation went in one ear and out the other. Fainted? Hospital?
“I’m coming right now!” I said before hanging up the phone and rushing towards the car that I own.
The ride to the hospital felt like an eternity. Every red light, every slow car, it was torture for me. My mind was spinning, going over all sorts of worst-case scenarios in my head at that point. Ayla. My baby. I could hardly catch my breath from the tension that welled up in my throat. I had to be strong, but how could I? Each second seemed as if it was pulling me into a nightmare.
After getting to the hospital, I quickly rushed through the various corridors I used to work in before finding Mateo with a stern look on his face. When I came to Melbourne, he was my first and only friend and we studied medicine together in college. Now, he works as a Pediatrician. Seeing him didn’t bring the comfort it usually did. Instead, it made my stomach drop even more.
“Lily,” Mateo’s voice sounded like he was truly sorry for what he was about to say. He immediately wrapped me in a brief embrace. “She’s inside. ”
I shoved him aside and entered the room where Ayla was lying, on the hospital bed, as fragile as a baby. It pained me to see her like that, with tubes running through her body, the sound of the monitors, only at low tones. I sit down beside her, pushing the hair off her face and swallowing the lump in my throat.
The doctor arrived shortly after, and his facial look was stern. It was written all over his face and in his eyes – the burden of what he is about to utter. Being a doctor, I know that it is never easy to give such a blow to a patient, but receiving it about my own kid was devastating.
“Lily…”. The doctor seemed to choose his words carefully, look at Mateo and then at me. “We have done the tests. I regret to inform you that your daughter has leukemia.”
For a second there the room froze. It felt as if the earth had opened its mouth and swallowed me whole – and I was falling. Leukemia. The word remained in my head as cold and as horrifying as ever. I knew what it meant. I knew the implications. I had witnessed it in other patients, but this… this was Ayla. My daughter. My world.
“Leukemia?” I asked softly. I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t allow myself to cry. Not now.
The doctor nodded gently. “We have to do something fast. Ayla has leukemia and she needs a bone marrow transplant, we need to look for a compatible donor.”
I try to shift my concentration desperately, to come out of this trance, so I took a deep breath to do so. There was a need for something like this. Anything. “Test me. I want to be tested right now,” I asked him, my tone much more confident than I was inside.
He looked at me with a very serious expression. “Of course, we’ll do the test immediately.”
It was then that the time started to elude me; I was holding Ayla’s hand and she was lying still next to me while her face looked so serene and she didn’t know of the storm brewing around her. Part of me wanted to shield her from all of this to just take her in my arms and fix everything as I always did. But this… this was something I couldn’t fix on my own.
Mateo sat quietly next to me and his mere existence was soothing to me though I could scarcely utter any word. The burden of the moment practically held me down and all that was left to do was to hope and hope hard that my bone marrow would be the compatible one she required. Let it be me, please.
The doctor returned and, by the expression on his face, I was able to guess the outcome before he said a word.
“I’m sorry, Lily. Your bone marrow is not a match.”
I felt the air had been taken out of the room. I wasn’t a match. I couldn’t help her. I felt a sensation in the head and my hands were shaking as I grabbed the armrest of the chair. How could this be happening? How could you not be able to save your own daughter?
“No,” I crooked my head in astonishment. “No, it cannot be possible there must be some error. Test me again. Test me again!” I could hear the desperation in my voice and I was finally able to cry.
Mateo laid a hand on my shoulder and his voice calmed down to a whisper. “Lily… we’ll find a donor. We’ll do everything we can.”
I couldn’t breathe. The combination of everything proved to be overwhelming. I wasn’t a match. What now? How do I save her? The words danced around in my head, echoing the relentless and the cruel. This was something I always used to do; fix things. I was the doctor. It was my role to know how to repair it, how to protect her. But now, I was helpless.
I sank back into the chair beside Ayla’s bed and my heart broke into pieces. I stared at her, my beautiful, my warrior, and I was a man without a weapon. She was just 5 years old.
I should have protected her. I should have known that something is wrong long before that happened. How did I miss it? She had appeared to be a very healthy woman, very full of life. Now, it seemed as if everything was falling apart or rather coming apart. With every breath I felt as if I was fighting for it, my chest constricted with panic. The very earth seemed too vast, too much and I was such a tiny speck in the design of things.
I considered all the people I had held and all the families I had helped during their most difficult moments. Now it was my turn to sit in that god-awful chair and wait for the impossible to happen. It was not just a patient though. It was Ayla. My Ayla.
“Ayla, baby… “I’m sorry,” I said, wiping her hand gently as my sobs came out. “I’m going to fix this. I promise you. I’ll find a way.”
But inside, I was crumbling. How? How could I fix this when I wasn’t the match?
LILY’S POVI stood beside Ayla’s bed and noticed how she was breathing with difficulty. The noise of the heart monitor was another way in which it was impossible not to be reminded of just how ill she was. I could barely feel her hand, which was so small and delicate but at the same time her grip felt fragile, as if she is a flower that can easily fade away. I cupped my hand and ran my fingers through the fine curve of her eyebrows, then looking at the curve of her eyelashes, the small button of her nose I felt my heart lapse.Her face reminded me of him. Her father.Isaac.My brother’s best friend, the man who had initially made me smile when he first called me ‘Rose. ’ I had to stop myself from thinking of him for some reason but images of him kept coming back into my mind. 5 YEARS BACKThe first time he kissed me, how he snuck up behind me one night, while we were setting up breakfast in the kitchen he leaned forward and whispered softly, threateningly into my ear ‘You know this is
Lily PovBACK TO PRESENTMateo said softly, "Lily," as he leaned in toward me in the chair next to me. “I've been talking with the hospital. They have accepted both of us means I’ll be working there as well. They also assured me to search for a compatible donor for Ayla.”I held my head in a slight curve, as a wave of thankfulness washed over me. “Thank you, Mateo. I don’t know what my life would look like without you.”He said gently , however, I could tell that concern was there in his eyes. Even though his confidence should have calmed me, the dread I felt deep within wouldn’t subside. The chances of finding a match for Ayla were so slim.The harder it became to ignore the reality of what was coming each day. Isaac. His family. The things I had buried for such a long time. The closer we got to Los Angeles, the closer I came to the edge of the truth being revealed.“But there is one thing,” Mateo said slowly, as if measuring his words and trying not to say something incorrectly. “I
ISSAC POVWhen I was struggling with paperwork, and analyzing the contracts, my usually very calm secretary came into my office, and was clear she was in a bad mood. Her presence snapped me out of work mode, and I looked up, slightly scowling.She took a moment and began softly, saying, "Sir, Miss Lily is present to meet Mr. Walker."Her words hit me hard. I stiffened, which crumpled the papers a bit under my suffocating grip. Lily. She was here. After all these years had gone by, she came back. Miss Childs appeared to see Mr. Walker, who is actually my research lab manager.“What did you say?” In a gentle voice and trying not to show how I felt, I questioned.My secretary stated, with careful attention to my expression,"She’s here to discuss a position in the research lab, sir." "Right now, she is standing in Mr. Walker's office."Lily was standing by the window, her back to me. She turned as the door clicked shut behind me, her eyes widening in shock as she recognized me. “Good mor
LILY POVI ran into my apartment, and my shaking hands caused me to fumble with the keys. I felt an increased heartbeat, and a jolt that was similar to seeing a ghost. No, worse than a ghost. Isaac. He was back, and he owned the entire Equinex Company and Equinex Lab was just a part of it. I had walked right into his territory without even realizing it. How could I have been so blind?I could not believe that I had been so naive. I was still standing by the door, trying to catch my breath and my whole body felt weak and ready to crumple on the ground. I felt a shock when I came to know that the person I wanted to approach for helping me in a new beginning in my research was Mr. Walker and he was no more than a manager.Isaac was the owner of the entire lab. The only man I tried to escape for years. And now he knew I was back.I shut my eyes, wanting the fear to disappear, and fell off the door. I needed to see Ayla. I had to remind myself of the reasons I was embarking on this, of wha