LILY’S POV
I stood beside Ayla’s bed and noticed how she was breathing with difficulty. The noise of the heart monitor was another way in which it was impossible not to be reminded of just how ill she was. I could barely feel her hand, which was so small and delicate but at the same time her grip felt fragile, as if she is a flower that can easily fade away. I cupped my hand and ran my fingers through the fine curve of her eyebrows, then looking at the curve of her eyelashes, the small button of her nose I felt my heart lapse.
Her face reminded me of him. Her father.
Isaac.My brother’s best friend, the man who had initially made me smile when he first called me ‘Rose. ’ I had to stop myself from thinking of him for some reason but images of him kept coming back into my mind.
5 YEARS BACK
The first time he kissed me, how he snuck up behind me one night, while we were setting up breakfast in the kitchen he leaned forward and whispered softly, threateningly into my ear ‘You know this is wrong, Rose.’ It wasn’t enough, I craved more.
“Isaac,” I replied softly, lifting my eyes to meet him gently. My heart was racing as well as my breath because of the built-up anticipation. “What if I say I want to do all the wrong things with you?”
He laughed, softly, deeply, his eyes flashing with the lust and predatory impulse held in check. “If you cross this line, Rose, I won’t be able to hold back. I’ll have to punish you.” His voice was deep and dark, and his threat filled me with a strange desire that I could not comprehend.
“What if I want you to punish me?” I whispered, my mouth near his, my lips touching his as I said the last words.
He placed his hand at the back of my neck and ever so gently began to run his thumb along the back of my neck. ‘You don’t know what you are getting yourself into, sweetheart. I don’t know how much longer I can stay away from you. But if you continue to provoke me I will take what I desire.’
The first time he kissed me, how he secretly cornered me in the kitchen that night. His lips descended onto my lips roughly, his hands grabbing my hips to lift me up on the kitchen counter. My legs were around his waist and the man nibbling on my neck said, “You belong to me, Rose. Nobody else can touch you. ”
Those were our secret, some stolen touches and pinches, cuddles, and most of all the special and unique way he made me feel like there was no other girl for him in the entire world. He would come to me when people weren’t watching, and I would feel his hand slide between my thighs, I felt his fingers perform magic on me until I was moaning his name and holding on to him as if he were the only person in the world that could prevent me from breaking.
He would always tell me he couldn’t control his attraction towards me but meantime he would ask me to hide our secret relationship.
“We must not tell anyone,” he insisted, “because I was Henry’s little sister.”
I was too young, only eighteen and he was thirty. He attempted not to come close, but the attraction was something he couldn’t resist. Every time he kissed me, it felt like I was the only woman in the entire world he desired. He treated me like a queen like I was the only woman who could bring out the beast in him.
But then I saw him with Susan. Realization hit me hard.
How he grasped her, the tilt of his lips when he looked at her? It was how he had held me, how he smiled at me when he whispered sweet things to my face. I also feel the same way, my heart broke into pieces that day. Every word that was a whisper, every touch that was slipped felt like a lie and a mockery. I wasn’t special. I was just another girl he used and played with.
I needed to erase him out of my life, to numb the pain with the alcohol in me. I Went to the bar, danced with the strangers, let them touch me, when their hands were around my waist, their lips almost touching mine. I didn’t care. I was just trying to fill the void that being dumped for cheating left me with anything other than the pain I was feeling.
It did not take long for Isaac to march into the crowd; his eyes red with anger as he dragged me off the dance floor. “What the hell are you doing, Rose?” He was angry still, but his hands were gentle as he pulled me, forcing me to look at him.
“Why do you care?” I angrily replied, my eyes barely able to focus through the alcohol-induced tears. “You are with her, are you not? Then why can’t I be with someone else?”
“Because you are mine,” he snapped, bringing his face close to mine. His eyes were dark, full of desire that I felt in my chest. That is why nobody can touch you but me. Do you understand?”
I stared at him, furious now. “Why? Why do you get to keep her and me?”
He didn’t answer me, just pulled me into his car. We didn’t speak during the ride to his house and the awkwardness was palpable. It wasn’t until the moment we were inside that he pushed me against the wall and kissed me roughly. I could feel his rage, his desperation in my mouth.
He growled the words against my lips, “Do you really think you can play with me, Rose?” His hands captured my wrists, keeping them above my head. “You want me to punish you? Fine. But remember, you asked for this”.
He dragged me to the bedroom, still staring at me as he fastened my hands to the bed handles. “Just tell me to stop,” he whispered, his hands sliding down to my arm, tickling me.
But I didn’t want him to stop I wanted him to claim me, to make me lose all sense and reason for being there but him. “I don’t want you to stop,” I murmured.
His eyes turned gentle for a brief moment, his thumb rubbing my lower lip gently. “You’re doing magic on me, Rose” Perhaps you can’t even begin to imagine how much I want you.” His voice was tense, full of the desire I felt inside myself.
And then he took me, all the rough, fast, desperate thrusting, the touch and kiss, the demand that left me teetering on the edge and then over it, calling out his name. He made me feel like I was the only thing that existed in this world, like I was everything he needed.
The next morning, when I woke up I felt like I was glowing.
I wrapped myself in the sheet and stepped out of the bedroom, a smile on my face, only to see him and Susan in the living room. They were hugging, laughing about something, and the smile died on my lips.
It felt like I had been punched in the gut. Everything came crashing down around me. I wasn’t special. I was just a fool.
I turned around, my heart breaking all over again as I dressed quickly. Isaac’s voice called out to me as I headed for the door. “Rose, wait!”
But I didn’t. I couldn’t. I stopped and looked at him, my eyes filled with tears. “I can’t do this anymore, Isaac. I’m done being your plaything. Stop this game.”
And with that, I walked out, leaving behind the city, my career, my dreams, and the man who had broken me.
Lily PovBACK TO PRESENTMateo said softly, "Lily," as he leaned in toward me in the chair next to me. “I've been talking with the hospital. They have accepted both of us means I’ll be working there as well. They also assured me to search for a compatible donor for Ayla.”I held my head in a slight curve, as a wave of thankfulness washed over me. “Thank you, Mateo. I don’t know what my life would look like without you.”He said gently , however, I could tell that concern was there in his eyes. Even though his confidence should have calmed me, the dread I felt deep within wouldn’t subside. The chances of finding a match for Ayla were so slim.The harder it became to ignore the reality of what was coming each day. Isaac. His family. The things I had buried for such a long time. The closer we got to Los Angeles, the closer I came to the edge of the truth being revealed.“But there is one thing,” Mateo said slowly, as if measuring his words and trying not to say something incorrectly. “I
ISSAC POVWhen I was struggling with paperwork, and analyzing the contracts, my usually very calm secretary came into my office, and was clear she was in a bad mood. Her presence snapped me out of work mode, and I looked up, slightly scowling.She took a moment and began softly, saying, "Sir, Miss Lily is present to meet Mr. Walker."Her words hit me hard. I stiffened, which crumpled the papers a bit under my suffocating grip. Lily. She was here. After all these years had gone by, she came back. Miss Childs appeared to see Mr. Walker, who is actually my research lab manager.“What did you say?” In a gentle voice and trying not to show how I felt, I questioned.My secretary stated, with careful attention to my expression,"She’s here to discuss a position in the research lab, sir." "Right now, she is standing in Mr. Walker's office."Lily was standing by the window, her back to me. She turned as the door clicked shut behind me, her eyes widening in shock as she recognized me. “Good mor
LILY POVI ran into my apartment, and my shaking hands caused me to fumble with the keys. I felt an increased heartbeat, and a jolt that was similar to seeing a ghost. No, worse than a ghost. Isaac. He was back, and he owned the entire Equinex Company and Equinex Lab was just a part of it. I had walked right into his territory without even realizing it. How could I have been so blind?I could not believe that I had been so naive. I was still standing by the door, trying to catch my breath and my whole body felt weak and ready to crumple on the ground. I felt a shock when I came to know that the person I wanted to approach for helping me in a new beginning in my research was Mr. Walker and he was no more than a manager.Isaac was the owner of the entire lab. The only man I tried to escape for years. And now he knew I was back.I shut my eyes, wanting the fear to disappear, and fell off the door. I needed to see Ayla. I had to remind myself of the reasons I was embarking on this, of wha
LILY’S POVThis time I was in the process of entering new information into the patient’s file when my phone rang. Glancing at the screen idly, I noticed that it was from an unknown number. Many times I remember refusing to answer calls during work periods, especially if I was on shiftI lifted it up thinking that it would be another routine issue to address and then the voice on the other line sounded panicked.“Dr. Jayden?” Ayla’s class-teacher seemed beyond anxious when answering. “It’s about your daughter: Ayla fainted at the school today and she was taken to the hospital.”My blood ran cold.‘what?’ I squeaked, my voice trembling with panic more than I would have wanted. My hands were shaking and I tried to contain myself as I reached out to grab my bag while the rest of the conversation went in one ear and out the other. Fainted? Hospital?“I’m coming right now!” I said before hanging up the phone and rushing towards the car that I own.The ride to the hospital felt like an etern