Chapter 14This world is too quick to judge and too late to understand Margaret Atwood I froze in my tracks, my pulse hammering in my ears. Seeing my father standing in the foyer of the minister's house was like watching the gates of hell swing open. His smile, the one that used to bring me comfort as a little girl, now sent cold dread spiraling down my spine. I instinctively shrank back, my steps faltering as my mind raced to make sense of his sudden presence.Why was he here? Did he know?"Zeynep, my daughter," he called out warmly, spreading his arms as if expecting me to run into them.I wanted to run, all right. Just not toward him.Every memory of his fury surged forward, unbidden: the sting of his belt against my skin, his booming voice tearing through the house, the way my mother cowered in silence whenever his anger flared. And now, standing here, I was no longer the little girl who had sobbed into her pillow at night. I was
Chapter 15“And she embraced the chaos as it painTed her life with purpose” JH.HARDWill I ever be happy? Will I ever be fine?I lost my hope within this time.I tried my best to be okay,But I never felt that anyway.I was on my way to a new beginning,Then this depression started getting in.Today my tears slowed for a momentAnd the words began to flow,so I want to talk to you mama about all the things that I think you should knowI miss you,I feels the painOf loss and grief and misery,Of never seeing you again.Sometimes l feel quite angryThat you left when you promised to stay,Sometimes I feel abandonedBecause you chose to go away.I worry that we failed you,I'm scared l let you down,And although you decided to leave meI wish you were still here now.I wonder if I could have done more,Even though I know that we tried,I understand this is forever,I feel empty, deep inside.If only i could have told youThat I love yo
Chapter 16 “Death is so strange, why is her room still intact like she would return” Unknown We rode in silence, with him reading his newspaper the whole time. Looking at him, I was certain he knew of my ongoing affair with his son. The same way he knew I was all too aware of his own numerous trysts. But apparently, putting up a show with a beautiful wife at his side was more important to him. I knew better than to try to make any conversation, so I just kept my mouth shut.It was only a 30-minute drive, but on getting to the venue, I immediately regretted wasting my beautiful outfit on such a local affair. Apparently, one of the minister's office workers was marrying off his daughter, and had made him the chairman of the occasion. We stood out like a sore thumb, with the locals captivated by the glamorous Mercedes Benz, but even more so by the beautiful wife.“Is that a human being or a spirit?”“You've got an eye for good things at
Chapter 17 “No lover leaves a rose garden without blood on their hands” Mitch Nihilist “zeynep!” it was a noun, a verb, and an exclamation all at once. I looked away, unable to face him, unable to look at the pained expression on Yusuf's Face. “And there you were planning to drive all the way to India to see her,” Ibrahim chuckled. “Looks like you've saved a trip!” “You’re my dad’s wife?” yusuf’s voice conveyed every emotion he must have been feeling; shock, pain, disappointment, and confusion. “You’re the one who married my father?” He glared at Ibrahim before turning back to look at me. “And you’re sleeping with him?” “Let me leave you two lovebirds to catch up,” Ibrahim sniggered, putting on his shirt. “I’m sure you have a lot to ‘talk’ about. And apologies, dear brother. I couldn’t deliver all those letters you sent to her, for obvious reasons.” “Was this why you had me come home before dad ? So I would see you with her?” “Like I said
“This is not a mere story, this is the Story of how I lived and I want you to read it, don't cry for me, don't be sad at least I survived. Maybe” By meChapter 18“yusuf!” I exclaimed, glaring at him. “What’s the meaning of this?”“And you’re here sauntering around the house like you own it,” he sneered, his grip on my arm tightening. “Look how your skin is shining. You really are enjoying my father’s money. Who would have ever thought you were such a viper? A money-hungry viper!”I tugged at my arm, desperate to break free, but he held on tighter.“You didn’t struggle with my brother, but instead gave him a free pass to the honeypot between your legs.”I tried to wrestle my hand away, but he only just held on tighter.“To think I had you right there before me but chose to be the perfect gentleman,” he said, pulling me closer to him. “I could have slept with you in that dump you call your house, but I was there thinking you wer
“And she embraced the chaos and it painted her life with purpose” . JH.HARDI am the daughter of a woman who was never allowed to love herself. My mother was a giver—never a taker. I watched her shrink, piece by piece, until there was nothing left of her but exhaustion and silence. She would serve, she would sacrifice, she would swallow her needs whole just to make space for everyone else. I saw it in the way she only ate half a plate of food, in the way she never spoke up when she was hurting, in the way she poured every ounce of herself into us—until she was empty.I tried. Allah, I tried to teach her that she was allowed to love herself, even though I couldn't love myself. That she was allowed to be more than just a mother, more than just a caregiver, more than just a body built for service. I begged her to rest, to take up space, to demand more. But she would only smile, tired and worn, and whisper, “This is what mothers do.”I told h
Chapter 20There are days my pain is so elaborate...that the salt of my tears tastes not of my ownbut like that of my ancestors —and the women who dealtwith this sorrow before me. — Segovia AmilMy Sleepwalking started eighteen months after my child was killed.The first time it happened, I’d fallen asleep in the minister's bedroom and woken on the staircase landing, between his floor and mine. It wasn’t yet dawn when I woke up, so I’d quickly made my way to my bedroom, to make it look like I’d decided to leave him early. The next time I wasn’t as lucky, and I’d been woken by the minister's kick. I’d fallen asleep on the staircase landing again, and he’d found me on his way downstairs.“ Have you finally gone mad or something?” he’d barked. “My friend, get off the floor before the servants start to gossip. you are mad?”I immediately scurried back to my room, where I spent the better part of the morning thinking of what could have
Chapter 21 "Regret is insight that comes a moment too late." — UnknownMy biggest regret was never returning to finish school. After all the drama of the first few years, I’d been too frightened to bring it up with the minister,and he’d never suggested it either. And with each passing year, I felt less and less inclined. The thought of peering with people growing progressively younger than me had no appeal whatsoever.Generally, I had grown accustomed to my life. It wasn’t the best, but I had become comfortable with it. I wasn’t losing out on anything.Or so I thought.It was Christmas of 2003, the year I turned 23. As was our habit, I accompanied the minister for a high society wedding in france. The son of Dr. Steven, the owner of the only hospital in Boston, was marrying a girl from another esteemed medical family in the UK. It had been just like any other high society political wedding, but the moment I clapped eyes on the b
"The right person, the wrong time, the right script, the wrong line. The right poem, the wrong rhyme. And a piece of you that was never mine.” Unknown chapter 50I had drifted off to sleep when I felt a light tap on my arm. I opened my eyes, and there he was, the man Has been making my heart beat non-stop, impeccably dressed in a white Oxford shirt and black dress pants. I glanced at the wall clock and saw that it was almost midnight, way too late for him to look as perfect as he did.“Come with me,” he said, stretching out his arm, a smile on his face.I sat up, confused, wondering what he was up to. Taking his arm, I got out of bed and allowed him to lead me out of the room and down the corridor, thankful I was clothed in one of my better nightgowns. Once out of the building, he opened the gate that led to the old doctors’ quarters his father had called home in the latter years of his life after his beloved wife had died, a
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right—for you’ll be criticized anyway." — Eleanor RooseveltChapter 49How could I explain the deep and intense fear the minister elicited from anyone who came near him? How could I explain the fear I had of the minister doing to my family what he had done to Jason’s? How could I explain believing that enduring it was much easier than running away from it?Jacobi shut his eyes and rubbed his temples vigorously, clearly agitated. “I have to go,” he finally said, rising to his feet. “Call me if you need anything.”And with that, he left the room.I stared at the shut door, crestfallen. Even though I knew he was only doors away in his office, his unceremonious departure signalled to me his repulsion by my story, confirmation that I was indeed damaged. And even though it was a realisation I had lived with for years, this time it hurt. It truly hurt.The next day, after weeks of trying, madam maria was finally given access to me.“
"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." — Maya AngelouChapter 48I didn’t regain consciousness for several days. I had suffered a subarachnoid haemorrhage from my head injury which, left untreated, could have led to paralysis or death. Thankfully, Jacobi and his team were able to control and reduce the swelling, and there had been no damage to my brain. They were also able to tackle the internal bleeding from my abdominal trauma. I was lucky to have escaped with no permanent damage to not only my brain and internal organs, but also my face, save for some lacerations on my brow and lips.Regardless, it was clear I had a long road to recovery.Jacobi took complete charge of my care, handling things himself even the nurses should have. It was he who changed the dressing on my wounds, inserted my IV lines, checked my vitals, and topped up my medication, all in addition to closely monitoring my injuries. In the early da
Blood and SilenceFalling, fading, lost in pain, Crimson spills like endless rain. Hands that hurt now drag me near, Whispers laced with cruel fear. A voice, a name—a light, a plea, But darkness claims the rest of me.Chapter 47Somewhere in my subconscious, I knew I was falling, falling to the ground. I heard screams from people running to me, the loudest of which was madam maria's. I felt myself being draped with someone’s blanket and lifted from the ground. I heard madam maria screaming at the extent of my injuries, especially the deep one on my head, as I was carried back into the house. I heard it all…but I honestly wished I didn’t. I wished I was dead.“She is losing too much blood,” madam maria was crying now, holding a piece of cloth over the wound on my head that was fast soaking. “We have to take her to the hospital.”“Get her dressed,” came the voice I dreaded the most. “I’ll take her myself.”I forced m
Some wounds do not bleed; they burn deep into the soul, leaving scars only the heart can see. And sometimes, the cruelest prison is not made of walls, but of shame, silence, and the hands that should have held us with love." “Unknown”Chapter 46Looking at him, he was like the devil himself.As the men dragged me out of the van, his scowl slowly morphed into a sardonic smile.“Hey, be careful with her. She’s very important cargo,” he said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. “You guys can go. I’ll see you later today.”I stood with my head bowed, as the thugs got back into their van and drove off.“Zeynep, Zeynep, the party girl,” Ibrahim remarked, his smile now a full-on grin. “You can’t imagine my surprise when they told me that my Zeynep, my own baby, was seen gyrating in a nightclub. I told them, ‘No! Not my zeynep!’” He whipped out his phone. “It wasn’t until they sent me these that I realised they were actually telling the truth.”I couldn’t
I ran in silence, hope held tight, But shadows found me in the light. Glass shattered, hands like steel, A fate too cruel, a pain too real. No cries, no plea, just whispered prayer, As darkness led me back to where A ghost from past and fire untamedStood waiting there—he spoke my name. *By unknown*Chapter 45"You look better today," Madam Maria remarked as I struggled with breakfast. "Make sure you finish your food and get plenty of rest. In time, everything will blow over, and things will be back to normal."I offered a strained smile, my spoon hovering over the half-eaten plate of eggs and toast. She meant well, but her words felt empty. Nothing would ever be normal again—not after everything that had happened.I glanced at the clock. Catherine and I had agreed to leave the house by 10 a.m., and it was already a few minutes past. My fingers drummed against the table. Had she
It takes strength to leave, but it takes even more strength to stay gone.” Unknown chapter 44 There they were again, the averted gazes. Walking back from the hospital, and even upon getting to the ranch, where there weren’t scornful looks, there were averted gazes. Just like I had been twelve years before, I was the reason another young man was now fighting for his life. “AWhat were you thinking?” Madam Maria lamented later that morning. She’d come to my bedroom where I was still sitting like an effigy, over an hour after my return home. I hadn’t even taken off my shoes. “Blaze of all people? Someone even Catherine is older than! And you allowed him to be rubbing your body in the full glare of everyone in that God-forsaken place? Do you know how many people saw you? Do you know how many people are dishing first-hand news ?” A lone tear rolled down my face as I looked at the distraught madam mariai, and I didn’t have to be a genie to know why she was so distressed. She
Chapter 43"The choices we make echo through the lives of others, sometimes in whispers, sometimes in screams.” Unknown So, I continued to dance, rolling my hips the way I saw the other women do, smiling as I made eye contact with each and everyone of the men looking at me, showing them what they desired…but would never have.“You’re a real naughty one, aren’t you?” Blaze said, grabbing my buttocks and pulling me close enough to feel his erection.That was the wakeup call I needed.I wriggled out of his grasp, but he wasn’t prepared to let go. His hands were roving around my whole body, and when he reached for my breasts, I slapped him hard across the face.“Are you crazy?” I yelled.He put his hands up. “My bad. Forgive me. I guess I got too excited.”Almost as if doused by a bucket of cold water, I looked around, at the gyrating people around me, and I suddenly wondered what on earth I was doing there.“Take me home,” I said. “I want
Chapter 42"Desperation makes the heart reckless, and a broken soul will seek solace in the strangest of places." UNKNOWN In a single stride, I closed the gap between us, wrapped my arms around his neck, and kissed him.At first, I felt him tense in surprise, and then softened as his own hands seemed to rest on my side, but then suddenly, he pushed me away.“What was that, Zeynep?!” he exclaimed in horror.“What did you do that for?”I looked at him, shocked by his reaction. “This is what we both wanted, Jacobi. Tell me you haven’t wanted this from the very first day we met?”“Wanted what? Christ!” he exclaimed. “You’re a married woman, Zeynep. What is this heck?”By now, I was beyond mortified. “jacobi…”“Please leave!” he shouted. “Just go, I beg you.”Tears pooled in my eyes, my heart broken by his rejection. If I’d been asked to imagine a million different ways that would have played out, him rejecting me would never have been one of