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Chapter 15

“And she embraced the chaos as it painTed her life with purpose”

JH.HARD

Will I ever be happy? Will I ever be fine?

I lost my hope within this time.

I tried my best to be okay,

But I never felt that anyway.

I was on my way to a new beginning,

Then this depression started getting in.

Today my tears slowed for a moment

And the words began to flow,so I want to talk to you mama about all the things that I think you should know

I miss you,

I feels the pain

Of loss and grief and misery,

Of never seeing you again.

Sometimes l feel quite angry

That you left when you promised to stay,

Sometimes I feel abandoned

Because you chose to go away.

I worry that we failed you,

I'm scared l let you down,

And although you decided to leave me

I wish you were still here now.

I wonder if I could have done more,

Even though I know that we tried,

I understand this is forever,

I feel empty, deep inside.

If only i could have told you

That I love yo
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