“Walls have wars Doors have eyes Trees have voices Beast tell lies Beware the rain Beware the snow Beware the man you think you know.” Songs of sapphiqueSome hells were designed to look like heaven. The moment we turned into the street, I could immediately identify his house. Standing regal at the end of the street, on at least 1,000 acres of land,the 3-storey building looked like a cross between a church and a hotel, with its large pillars and cathedral-like windows, juxtaposed with modern lines and elaborate lighting. It stood out like a sore thumb, not only on its quietstreet but the entire sleepy neighborhood. It was everything I’d read about in books and so much more. From the gate to the house was a full five-minute drive, and I marveled at the sheer expanse of the compound, complete witha small pond and peacocks running around the lush greenery.
“What if I never find love?” “ Don't worry, then. Love will find you”“How?” “ In its mysterious and magical ways” “Why?”“Because souls like you deserves to be loved” By: unknown Later that night, I was already back in the room that was given to me and I was getting ready to sleep when there was a knock on the door. Opening it, I was equally relieved, surprised and frightened to see that it was the minister.“Welcome, Sir,” I said, with a small curtsey.The minister bellowed as he sat on my bed. “Who are you calling Sir? Who is your Sir? I’myour husband, Just like you are my wife.”I had to stop myself from rolling my eyes“Come, sit next to me,” Chief said, his voice soft.My heart dropped, wondering if this was the moment I’d been dreading. I reluctantly took my seat next to him and stared ahead, not knowing what to expect.“You are the most beautiful being I have ever laid eyes on,” he said, stroking my arm, making me stiff
“ Sometimes, everything cries in you expect your eyes” Arabic quotes We were driving into the compound when we sighted a black Toyota Celica parked in front of the house. I recognized it as the car the minister drove when he came to marry me, and my heart skipped a beat. Was he home?.“What brings him here ?” the head maid mumbled under her breath, a deep frown on her face.This confused me, as I knew she had a soft spot for the minister,from the way she fondly spoke of him. If he were the one, she wouldn’t be wondering why he was in the house.“Who is it?” I askedShe said nothing in response, but I was to get my answer very soon. As we disembarked from the car, a tall figure emerged from the doorway. I felt my blood run cold as I recognised who it was. Daniel.“Where have you two been? I’ve been here for at least an hour,” he demanded, his nostrils flared and his jaw set.“Don’t be angry. We had to go and buy a few things,”
“ Only our pillow knows the amount of emotions we hide from thr world” : unknown “I’ve had thousands of women, but that was, without a doubt, the best ever,” he exclaimed. “I’ve even had virgins before, but none of them felt asgood as that!”I lay on the bed, immobile, staring at the ceiling, wishing my life away.He stood and pulled up his jeans. “I don’t have to tell you this stays between the two of us, right? The consequences will be dire if you tellanyone about this.”I shut my eyes, not saying a word, not even caring about what he did or didn’t tell his father. My life was over. A monster had just stolen myvirginity. Nothing worse could happen.Except it could.“I’m not sure you know this, but I’m the one who is handing your brother logistics in India to study medicine,” he continued talking. “I’m the one who’s been liaising with the doctors at the Specialist Hospital over there in Jalandhar.I’m the one who controls the pa
truths are not to be told” Portuguese proverb Chapter 10“That’s okay. I’ll just come to you.” He sat on the bed, the tray on his laps. “Come eat with me.”I glared at him, still crying.“I don’t want to have to force you, zeynep. Don’t let me have to hurt you again. I don’t like seeing what I’ve done to your face. It would be so much easier if you’d just cooperate.”I didn’t move, but instead lowered my head, trying to wish him away.“You seem to think this is optional. You’ve forgotten what I told you about Orion,” he said, humor having left his voice. “I spoke with your father this afternoon. They now have a date for his resumption. It’s in another month. What a shame it would be to have to terminate everything!”That was all it needed to make me do his bidding. I rose to my feet and sat beside him on the bed, watching as he ate.“Madam Maria is undefeated. These eggs are delicious!” he remarked. “Are you sure you don’t want any of it?”I shoo
The tragedy of life is not death but what dies inside of us while we live Norman cousins chapter 11 I made a mental note to make sure to accompany the minister on any of his trips going forward. At no point ever again would I be left alone with his beast of a son. As I was dishing food to the minister bowl, I felt Ibrahim’s all too familiar breath on my neck. “I hope you are dishing some for me.” I tried to shrug out of his hold. “Please stop this. My husband is back.” He chuckled. “Your husband. You don’t know how ridiculous it is hearing you call him that.” I heard the minister's footsteps approaching and proceeded to summon all my strength to wrestle myself away just in time. Or was it? There was a look on Chief’s face I couldn’t quite decipher. His brows were furrowed, and he wasn’t quite as bubbly as he’d been only moments before. “You will love the food, sir. Ire we go again.” “Anyway, we can talk more of that later. For now, I just want to rest. It has
Not yet corpse Still we rot UnknownChapter 12Sleep eluded me.For hours after my return to my bedroom, I just lay there, staring into the night, watching as darkness slowly gave way to light. By the time dawn broke, I’d come to a decision. I’d married the minister as an exchange to my family, and I was determined to see the whole thing through and not to end up like my mother. I was going to fight for it if I had to, but by allah, I wasn’t going to return to india with nothing to show for it. Not after the minister and his son had already had their way with me. I came there to be a wife to the minister, and a wife I was going to be.Armed with my renewed determination, I rose to my feet, had a shower, and dressed up in my finest Salwar Kameez . I took the time to tie my brown head tie to give me a regal, more mature look, one that gave me an air of authority, one that could help me better pas
“I lost control when I was only a child, they world taught me angst when I deserved joy” Author of this storychapter 13“Knock knock”, I heard mimicking a Knocking sound before a head peered inside my room. “I made you some lunch,” she said, setting the tray on the table. From the aroma, I could tell it wasRogan Josh - Aromatic lamb curry with Kashmiri spiceI let out a long hiss, even as the smell of the food seduced me. I don't know where I gathered the courage from because papa would have landed me in the hospital if I hissed at him.I wished I was in a position to refuse the meal, but I was too hungry to.“Is something wrong?” she asked.“You’ve dropped the food, you can leave now,” I retorted. “I’m sure all of you heard the minister's insult me not only yesterday morning, but in the night as well. I’m sure I’m the talk of the kitchen, so don’t come up here pretending.”Madam Maria shook her head. “Zeynep, you became the talk of th
Chapter 41“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” Lao Tzu –But the next day when I got to the hospital, not only were there two additional people there, Jacobi looked even less interested than he had the day before. After a brisk introduction, he left again to conduct interviews. Thankfully, the two new hires, Evelyn, the administrator, and Helen, a nurse, were people I knew from town, so it hadn’t been too awkward. I couldn’t help but mourn the loss of our privacy, though. How were Jacobi and I supposed to fall in love under this kind of circumstance, in full view of an audience?As the days rolled into weeks,our ‘audience’ grew in number, adding two more auxiliary nurses, three qualified nurses, a matron, two doctors, three cleaners, and a janitor. By the start of the fourth week, not only was the place fully staffed, we had opened our doors to the patients. I remained at t
"The course of true love never did run smooth." — William ShakespeareChapter 40I woke up the next morning with a song on my lips and joy in my heart. From the moment I got out of bed, it felt like I was being carried by butterflies; my heart, body, mind, and soul were floating, basking in the euphoria of my newfound feelings for the doctor. Not even for Jason nor yusuf had I felt this kind of overwhelming, all-consuming love.I couldn’t help but replay every single detail of the day before, remembering every feature of his handsome face down to the small birthmark on his left earlobe, the smooth baritone that enveloped his impeccable diction, and his smell that was a potpourri of mint, lemon, and musk. Everything about him was intoxicating, and I was ready to do anything it would take to be with him. Ya Allah, was this love or madness? I had heard of Qadr, divine destiny, and if love was written for me in this way, how could I fight it?As I dressed up
"Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time." — Maya AngelouChapter 39I wouldn’t even have known what to do with a typewriter if it was placed in front of me, talk less of the sleek and modern laptop device. Sensing my apprehension, Jacobi popped it open, showed me how to launch Microsoft Excel, and how to input the required data. Bismillah, I whispered under my breath before placing my fingers on the keyboard. As I tried it for myself, I realized he hadn’t been lying at all. The keyboard was very similar to the typewriters I’d been taught how to use in school, and within the hour, I was comfortably transferring the information from the files to the machine.As I worked, he proceeded to continue organizing the place, which included unpacking books from a box, deliberating additional modifications with some workmen who came at different intervals, and several discussions on his phone. He was clearly determined to get the
Do not be satisfied with the stories that come before you. Unfold your own myth." — RumiChapter 38I Dreamt That I Was Floating—But This Time, Not on WaterI was suspended in the vastness of space, weightless, drifting through a cosmos of endless wonders. Around me, galaxies stretched like glowing rivers, and constellations shimmered like celestial chandeliers. The darkness was not empty but alive, humming with the energy of the stars. I reached out, and my fingertips brushed against the shimmering dust of a nebula, soft as silk.It felt peaceful. Limitless. As if I had become one with the universe itself.Then, I felt a shift—a tug, an unseen force pulling me downward. The weightlessness faded, replaced by the sensation of falling. Stars blurred past me, streaking like comets, as I plummeted through space at an impossible speed. Panic seized me, but there was no ground, no end in sight—just an infinite free fall through the void.Just as the terror reached its peak,
Chapter 37"There is no such thing as coincidence, only the illusion of coincidence." — Alan MooreWe were far more alike than I wanted to accept. However, I knew that, given the chance to humiliate me, he would jump at it, so this made me savour and enjoy his own humiliation. He left the very next day.As for my sleepwalking, not only did it resume after Jason died, it got worse…so much worse. So dead was I to the world that I was now wandering further and further from where I would normally go. Even though the domestic staff were very protective of me and always were sure to see me back to my bedroom without anyone else being privy to what had happened when any of them found me, it soon got to the extent that even they couldn’t hide my worsening condition. It was when the security men guarding the ranch at night mistook me for a thief and shot at me, the bullet missing me by mere inches, that the minister decided enough was enough. He took me to se
Chapter 36"She was not born with a heart of stone, but the world had chiseled it into one." Unknown A robot. A robot is what I became after the Jason incident. After realising that my family’s safety, and even mine, would be in jeopardy if I left the ranch, I resigned myself to my fate. I switched to auto-pilot mode, focusing on my living and breathing moments, never on my tragic past, and most definitely not on any lofty hopes for the future. I had no future outside of these four walls. I stayed. I stayed on as the minister's ornamental wife, good for a show but nothing else. I ignored the stream of concubines he continued to take, and put on a bright smile when I had to be on his arm at public functions. I allowed myself to enjoy the caprices of his renewed desire to ensure I looked the part of a multi-millionaire's wife. I allowed myself to indulge in the expensive clothing and even more expensive skincare, ensuring that, as t
Chapter 35"When tyranny becomes law, rebellion becomes duty." Thomas JeffersonI knew I had to leave…for good.Later that night, when I was sure the minister would have returned, I decided it was time to inform him of my decision to return to India. I was also determined to let him know about all Ibrahim's atrocities. Yes, he might have been aware of some of them, but he needed to know his son was also a cold-blooded murderer.Even though my body was throbbing with pain, I slipped into my sandals and slowly made my way up the flight of stairs that separated his room from mine. Getting to the door, I tapped as hard as my wounded hand could manage.“Come in!” he bellowed.When I walked in, I was relieved to find that he had no female company that night. He gave me a cursory look, his only acknowledgment of my battered appearance a slight arch of an eyebrow. Other than that, he said nothing.“I would like to return to India,” I said, going straight to the point. “I
Chapter 34"Sometimes, the most brutal chains are the ones that exist in the mind, and no matter how far you run, they follow you everywhere.” Unknown I was eating my last piece of toast when I heard his voice…the voice of the devil.Ibrahim.I looked out and saw him strolling into the house, talking on his mobile phone. How dare he show his face after the horrible thing he had done? I walked to the door and watched him as he talked and laughed so casually, not acting like he had the blood of six innocent people on his hands.“zeynep, you look so beautiful this morning,” he remarked as he got off the phone, a coy smile on his face. “I asked after you yesterday but was told you were…indisposed.”I glared at him, hating him with every fibre of my being, wanting to claw out his eyeballs. He knew exactly what had confined me there.“Such a shame about that gardenerboy…Jason. Was that his name?” he asked, his smile mocking.And I saw red.I r
"The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same nor would you want to." — Elisabeth Kübler-RossI looked from madam maria to the others standing around. It was then that I noticed their averted gazes, none of them able to make eye contact with me. They knew. They all knew.I shrugged out of madam maria’s grip and turned around to walk back to the house. All the chatter had ceased, and the only sound was from the birds chirping obliviously in the trees. It was only then that I realised that I was barefoot, my slides having come off my feet in my mad dash to the gate.The hot ground burned me in my walk of shame, and once again in my life, I wished for death. I cursed God for delighting in taking away those I loved, those I