Chapter 72 : You forgave me?

Samuel

Chrisanna is fast asleep when I come to the balcony to suck in the fresh air. She asked me what she did wrong. And I told her she didn't do anything wrong. It's me. I'm the problem and it was altogether my fault.

Teenagers are stupid.

Teenagers with messed up childhood are the problem.

That day, I left, not because I thought she was betraying me, not because Dad's words had pushed me to think worse about her.

I left because I was scared of how my subconscious started to question her. I was scared to hurt her for the person I was slowly turning into. An insecure one.

She didn't deserve that person. The problematic one.

All these years, I was blaming her because it seemed to be easy to live with it. But deep down, I knew I blamed myself all the way and never thought I was worthy of her.

Every day. Every night. I thought about her.

She was never out of my head. Never once. I would hear her voice in the background when I would talk to Uncle Scott. I would see his pictures on h