Chapter 1: married but lonely

I'm awoken from my sleep by the sudden need to quench my thirst. My throat feels parched and rough, almost as if I went to bed screaming, which I didn't. I feel around the other side of the bed with my hand, and I'm not surprised when I find it empty.

I roll my eyes and turn on the bedside lamp "The third night in a row. Nothing new here" I  mutter to myself as I get out of bed. I put on my slippers and make my way to the kitchen. Turning on the lights I contemplate having wine instead of water.

I could blame this on being thirsty but I knew the urge for wine was to forget about the brewing annoyance in me, caused by the fact that my husband, has spent three nights out of his matrimonial home.

I  gulp down a whole glass of wine before going to the sink for a glass of water. I'm too tired for this. I should be used to it by now, the way he always picks work over me, over our marriage. Like I said, nothing new. I place my used glass in the sink and make my way back into the room. I pick up my phone on the table beside the bed and check the time. It's five-thirty in the morning.

I sigh tiredly and collapse onto the bed. I'm tired, not just physically. The whole thing with my husband, Anthony is draining. Our sex life is practically non-existent at this point. I'm tired of talking because it seems like my complaints only fall on deaf ears.

Marriage is supposed to be a partnership, filled with happiness and joy. But here I am,  married and alone. My husband prefers to sleep in his office than to attend to my needs. Sometimes he even forgets to call to let me know he won't be at home, or maybe he just refuses.

Either way, we're drifting apart.

I close my eyes and inhale deeply and then exhaling. I need to sleep, not kill myself by overthinking about my failing marriage.

I lie on my side and draw the covers over my shoulder before turning off the lamp. Even if it's just a couple of minutes of rest, I'd take it.

Minutes later my eyes are wide awake. I groan and accept my defeat. I push the covers away and turn the lamp on again "Ugh!" I express my disappointment audibly.

My eyes travel to the last drawer of my table and I let them linger longer than I intend.

I take my eyes off "No, Felishia!" I mutter to myself. I turn my back to the direction of the table, hoping it helps take my mind away from the idea that was forming in my head.

"Fuck it!" I give in and open the drawer, revealing my treasure trove of sex toys. I dig around for a bit and my eyes finally land on the one I'm searching for. Hopefully, it's charged.

I pick up the toy and then take off my nightwear, leaving me completely naked.

I place the purple toy between my thighs and my other hand on my breast, pinching my nipple. I run the toy across my slit, feeling the vibrations through my body. I tease my opening a few times till I feel myself getting wetter.

"Mmhm" I moan quietly as I increase the vibrations. I place the toy directly at my entrance, slowly teasing myself for a bit and then thrusting the length into me. I moan as the intrusion sends an enticing sensation throughout my body. I pinch my nipples softly and continue to fondle each of them, one after the other.

"Yes!" I lick my lips and increase my pace. My eyes roll back in their sockets and my body shudders. I could feel my climax drawing nearer. "Oh, fuck yes! Just like that!" I exclaim uncontrollably as my entire body is rocked by the intense vibration and repeated thrusting in my pussy.

The sound of my wetness mixed with the movements of the vibrating toy, fill my ears. I increase the vibrations again and I feel the sensation in my lower stomach build up. I pinch my nipples harder and bite onto my lower lip as my orgasm washes over me with full, uncontrollable force.

"Oh fuck! Yes! Yes! Just like that. Ah, Fuck!..." I trail off mumbling a bunch of gibberish as my legs begin to shake and I cum all over the toy. My breathing is heavy, and my body is bucking uncontrollably for a few seconds before it finally stops. I can still feel the tingle between my thighs, and my legs.

"Oh goodness!" I exclaim tiredly as I try to calm my breathing. My thighs are still parted and I can still feel my legs shake from any small movement. I let my hands each fall to my side, I'm too tired to move from this spot. I lie still and ride out the orgasm high

I groan when I hear the sound of my buzzing phone.

I groan audibly as I roll over to pick up the phone, mentally cursing whoever interrupted my post-orgasm high. I pick up my phone and turn the screen to face me. My eyes dilated as I realized it was a message from Baylor   university.

The reply regarding my application for the position of coach at Baylor   should be sent to me today and I'd totally forgotten about it. Well would you blame me? After being rejected countless number of time from all the places I'd applied for football coach, I'd lost hope in getting a job.

When I stumbled on the net news that Baylor  college  is currently looking for a qualified football coach, I didn't want to apply but my friends cajoled me to.

I honestly didn't hope for a positive feedback or even receiving text at all. I mean If common college didn't deem my qualifications fit enough why then would a prominent college   like Baylor? but here goes nothing right?

Today is the day I'd find out if I get the job or not.

I immediately go to my email and the first email is from Baylor  college. I inhale and exhale before clicking on it and then going through the contents of the mail.

I get to the end and I couldn’t believe it.

I got the job! According to the email, I met all the qualifications and I'm fit to start work on Monday which is two days from now.

Yup!!!!!! I screamed excitedly. After years of searching for a job? I couldn't be more happier.

The following day which was Sunday, is the day me and my friend Daniele had planned to do her wedding shopping and she was the first person I broke the news to.

"I was beginning to think you weren't going to show" Daniella hugged me when I got close to where she was waiting for me at a busy bus-station.

"I'm sorry for the delay. I had to reply  to numerous emails." I smile gleefully unable to hold the information for even a minute longer

Daniella notices "Well go on! Spit it out" she chuckles

"I got the job!" I announce happily

Her eyes widen "Oh my goodness! I knew you'd get it" She jumps repeatedly a few times  before pulling me in for a big hug

I smile and pull away "I'm really happy I did. I honestly didn’t expect a positive  response" It was nice to have someone to share this good news with and also have them react positively to it.

"Oh, please! Don't be modest. We both know you're good at what you do. I'm sure Baylor  knows that too" She hugs me again, briefly.

"Thanks, Dani. I appreciate the listening ear" I say truthfully

"We're friends dumbass. I'm always going to listen. Now let us go shopping for my wedding before all the good stuff gets taken" She grabs a hold of my hand and pulls me into the mall.

For a woman with a really small figure, she sure has a lot of energy.

"It's a huge mall, Dani. I doubt they ever run out of even the cheapest clothing"

She huffs but doesn't stop pulling me in the direction she wants to go. "Don't care"

Passerbys would look at this scene and not know what to think of it. With the way Dani intends to drag me from one store to another, I'm just glad I did not wear heels.

We walk into our first store of the day and I notice the way Danielle's eyes glisten when they land on a pair of heels.

She lets out an audible gasp "Oh, heavens" She smiles at the shoes like it was a plate of her favourite food, and she was in love.

I can't help but roll my eyes at her expression "Dani, they're just shoes. You can come back and drool all over them when we're done shopping for the necessary stuff."

"Yeah, you're right. Let us go" She doesn't sound convincing enough. If it's up to her I'm sure we would spend half of today staring at those shoes till she convinced herself to get them.

Even though she doesn't need them at all.

"So, where to?" I ask while we walk out of the shoe store.

"First off," she digs around her bag and produces a long piece of paper "Here's your list" She hands one to me

I stare at the contents of the paper for what seems like minutes.

All this for one wedding!

"Dani, how many days is your wedding for?" I know the answer but I just have to be sure.

Because there's no way in hell all this is just for one day.

She chuckles "A day. Why?"

"This is an entire list for at least, three weddings! What the fuck do you need that much cake for?" She has to be kidding me with this absurd thing she calls a list

Daniella rolls her eyes and she shakes her head "It's just one day, that's why it has to be perfect. And as for the cake, I want varieties" She grins, revealing her pearly whites.

Out of curiosity, I snatch the second paper from her, which is supposedly her list "Dani?" She answers "The contents of the lists are almost the same"

"I know" She replies shortly and walks into a clothing store.

I follow after her and soon after, the sight of different designer clothes, and shoes make me forget about my friend's absurd list.

I'm strolling an aisle with Daniella when the news on the tv catches my attention, it's about this female Actress that recently revealed her relationship to the public. The man she's dating is a singer who’s way younger than her.

I mean the last time I check, Jackson Zd is 27 and Crystal hills is 35.

"Unbelievable" I mutter under my breath before taking my eyes off the tv to continue surfing through the racks of dresses.

"You got something to say?" Dani asks

I knew I could feel her eyes scolding me.

I shake my head "Not at all"

"Spit it out. We both know you want to"

"It's just weird is all" I shrug

"To date a younger guy?" Daniella asks

Of course, she will get defensive!

She's dating a younger guy too. Everyone in my friend group apart from me is doing the same.

I've never been a fan of older women dating younger men how much more  getting married to them.

Yuck!