Chapter 4 irritating

I made him sit on the back porch with me to get away from my family for a second to breathe. It was hard enough with nerves to talk to him, let alone having my father and brother breathing down my neck to say the right things. I played with my fingers trying to cough up the courage to speak. I looked over to him trying to figure him out. What does he expect of me? I don’t want to disappoint him to make him regret his decision of accepting me. But that's what I feared not being good enough for him. He must have felt me staring when he turned from looking out to the forest resting his eyes locked onto mine. Her honey brown eyes looked at him as if he was going to burn a hole into my soul. I glitched my jaw as he tilted his head to the left a bit. What is he thinking about? I wonder if he can notice how scared I am.i wiggled in my seat dropping my gaze to the floor. 

“ I want to apologize for how I’ve been acting.” My cheeks warm up as I look at him. He’s full pink lips turned into a half smirk. 

“Oh?’ was all he said not breaking eye contact

“ You heard what I said” I huffed “ I’m not repeating myself.” I growled rolling my eyes at him.

A purr left his chest and I was taken by his reaction, did he just purr?

“ Don’t growl at me little wolf, unless you want to be punished for such disrespect.” he huffed. I looked at him with narrowed eyes, watching his lips twitch a little. He was amused by my outburst? Does he think this is some kind of game?

“ Look, I’m not going to submit to you and be some kind of incubator for your pups and do whatever you say. I have my own opinions and you’re going to hear them all whether you want to or not, I’m not just going to sit and be quiet and take orders.” After I said I knew I would regret it but it felt good to tell him. Punish me? Who does he think he is threatening his own mate like that? Pfft. I  shifted his body wanting to face away from his gaze, I felt uneasy by the way he was just looking at me. 

I jumped when a growl rippled through the air. I shot up looking over at him with my eyes widened. He stocked up on me, placing both his hands on the arms of the chair I was sitting in. I gulped not making eye contact with him. I could feel the anger rushing over him. Don’t need the mate bond to feel that anyone could feel it and see how pissed off I’ve made him. 

“Look at me!” he growled. I hesitated for a moment before doing as he said.

“Why are you so afraid? I know it's not me because no one has ever had the guts to speak to me the way you just did. So I’m only going to ask you this once little wolf.” I watched him as his eyes kept flickering from honey brown to something else. I couldn’t tell what the other color was before they would switch back to his normal brown. It’s like he was fighting his wolf for control.

I didn’t say anything, I just looked at him waiting for him to yell more.

“Alice!” he growled and I jumped at his sudden burst of anger. He must have noticed he was starting to scare me when he closed his eyes really hard and scrunched his eyebrows together. He stayed like that for a moment and I started to worry if he was okay. Slowly I raised my hand reaching for his cheek, it was almost as if I couldn't help but want to comfort him. I placed my hand on his right cheek making circles using my thumb. Taking in a deep breath and holding it till I got a reaction from him. He still didn't open his eyes but I felt him pushing further into my touch. Blinking, I felt something warm pass down my cheek. After a moment his face finally relaxed and he opened his eyes, meeting him with mine. A frown formed his face as he looked at me. 

“Why are you crying?” he asked, searching my face with concern. 

“ I .. Uhh.. I.. I am scared of having a mate. Uh.. of having to go through what my dad did.`` I sniffed looking down, embarrassed at him seeing me cry. 

“ Oh honey it’s okay, your dad told me what happened with your mom.” His voice was so soothing. He placed his hand on my leg rubbing circles on my thigh with his thumb as he kneels down in front of me.

 I looked at him in awe for a moment. I’d have to admit he was the most handsome man I’ve ever laid eyes on. It might just be the bond talking but my wolf seemed to agree as we looked him up and down. He was wearing a blue buttoned up shirt with the sleeve rolled up revealing his tattoos and a pair black jeans. I couldn’t help but notice how his muscles made the shirt look like it was too small as if one movement the shirt would snap into pieces. Slowly moving my gaze back to his face I notice his sharp jawline and hair shorter on the sides and longer on top with his hair pulled back to a messy bun. I’m curious how long his hair really is. His ears are pierced with the tiny diamond earring filling its place. When my eyes finally met his, I noticed he saw me looking. I instantly dropped my gaze and cleared my throat. 

“This lake has always been my favorite place to go when my head goes  stir crazy. It’s peaceful.” 

I said smiling at him hoping to talk about anything else other than the embarrassment shown on my face for getting caught.

“Look at him again” Mia purred in my head  

He pulled his eyebrows together waiting for me to finish talking. I took a deep breath trying to calm my nerves before I spoke. 

“ Look at me mate. Never bow your head to me. We are equal.” he said with gritted teeth.

“ I .. umm” my heart was pounding in my chest as I looked at him. 

“ Okay so I have one condition, we can’t mate right away. I’m not ready just yet for it and to have pups.” I said breathlessly rubbing my hands together, unable to sit still. I know what mating comes with, after we mark each other I’ll go through heat practically giving me no choice but to finish the mate bond.

He laughs at me but I don’t see what’s funny. I was being dead serious. I rolled my eyes and huffed at his amusement.

“ I can handle that condition mate. I won’t mark you but I can’t promise my wolf will behave.” He moved my face so I was looking toward him with his hand. His eyes switched from the honey brown to grey then back again. Grey, the color of his wolves eyes are grey. A smokey grey. Pulling me closer that our lips touch. Mine is so close to his that I can taste his hot breath against mine. He softly pressed his lips against mine as if he was waiting for me to push away. But I couldn't. It was as if someone was holding me there. I tried pulling away but nothing happened. It all happened so fast my arms wrapped around his neck as if they had a mind of their own. My heart was beating so fast in my chest I thought it was going to explode, his skin against mine made me tingle in all different places. My lips part a little against his giving him permission to insert his and getting a  taste. My mind goes blank as I grip his hair on the back of his head. He tasted like mint and coffee. Moving his hand up my inner thigh close enough that my sweet spot became wet. 

“ You’re wet for me aren’t you, mate.” He groaned against my lips. 

“ I can smell how aroused you are and how much I turn you on. There's only so long you can resist me.” he said breathlessly before he backed away from me and I released the breath that I didn’t realize I was holding.

After the very heated make out session with Luca, I go inside to gather my things. My mind was still fuzzy, I’ve never had less self control before. It had to be the stupid mate bond. But for some reason it was hard to resist him. Hard to think of anything else but him placing his hands on me again. 

He tells me I don’t need much because he’s already stocked my stuff in his “ alpha quarters”, whatever that means. So I just packed my favorite bath essentials and some clothes. Before leaving my room with my duffle bag over my shoulder and the suitcase full of shoes, family pictures and my stuffed animals. Yes I said stuffed animals, don’t judge. Taking in one last look of my room that hasn’t seemed to change since I was a kid, I stumble down the stairs with my luggage. My father, brother and Lilly are waiting for me at the front door. With an impatient Luca and another man I’ve yet to meet standing next to me with a grin on his face. Throwing the duffle bag off my shoulder, letting it hit the ground with a thud. I walk over to my family giving them one last hug. My father first, i was surprised when he didn’t shed a tear, has to be the whole alpha thing. Because who wouldn’t cry about their only daughter leaving with some stranger alpha man. Lilly, on the other head, was a blubbering mess. Her makeup was running down her face, as her nose sniffled ;through the tears. Making sure to hug her the longest because honestly I don't know how I’m going to survive without her. Lastly my brother, he had no emotion whatsoever across his face. Geez, just by looking at him and father you would think they aren't going to miss me at all. Once I finish giving  my brother a huge hug,  when all of a sudden Luca throws me over his shoulder stomping out of the house. I gasped at his need to manhandle me. Punching at his back 

“ PUT ME DOWN LUCA!!!!” I screamed. In frustration I continued to place punches as hard as I could to his backside, knowing it probably felt like nothing to him. I still needed to stand my ground.