Zara.
There is a saying that it doesn’t take long for your life to get flipped upside down.
One wrong choice.
One mistake.
And it’s over.
If I had known what cost I have to pay for my foolishness, I would have done things differently.
But the thing is no one can predict the future.
Time passed in snail pace as I tried to stay calm and wait for her to open this door. The same door which is nothing less than the entrance door of my cage.
Cage.
My doom.
Since last one month I’m held confined in this room. Like some captive.
I’m treated worse than an animal.
She entered inside halting my thoughts closing the door behind her back and I kept my facial expression neutral.
My heartbeat began escalating with each step she was taking towards my bed. My chest constricted while gathering all the courage in the world to do what I intended to do. This is do or die for me. I can't breathe under the same roof. Inhale and exhale the same air. With him.
I can survive with the physical pain he inflicted on my body but the hatred in his eyes suffocates my soul. Had he ever looked at me the way he did to HER, then things would have been different. But I was never his choice and it took my everything to realize it. The ache in my heart resurfaces like some evil spirit.
I dossed down my depressive thoughts and keenly observed her movement to execute my fully weaved plan. This time I cannot let any mistake sabotage my plan. Our eyes met. She looked at me with pity. Yes, I'm a sight to feel pity. What she doesn’t know was soon I’m going to changer her view toward me.
She stepped closer and kept the tray of food on the corner table near the bed as she does every day. Everything is going perfectly until. She turned her steps back to leave when I blinked several times, cleared my throat and normalizing my tone and said, “I need to use the washroom."
She looked at me for some time and then reached near my body to remove the shackle from my ankle. My eyes keenly observed her movement as she unfastens the iron bangle.
That’s it. Once done I jumped down on the floor and pushed her which made her land on the bed. Before she could react or do anything I sealed the same iron shackle around her ankle.
She screamed but to her utter dismay the room was soundproof. She got up and tried to get hold on me but I raced towards the door.
Closing the door my heart was wary as I scanned the area and ran towards the corridor. Reaching his study room, I started hunting for the one thing. I looked down on his table to pull out the wooden drawer. Here it goes, the gun. Clutching my fingers around the metallic gun, my legs strides to leave the room when I saw the bunch of keys hanging on the hook.
I stopped and pulled one of it. I tucked it inside my three-quarter jeans pocket and griped the metallic pistol tightly. My eyes quickly scanned the area.
The entire hall appeared vacant. I took a step near the window and through the narrow space between the curtains I peek a glance outside. Most of the guards were patrolling in the front lawn.
As I descended down the stairs approaching the back door, one of the guards saw me and tried to stop my action when I quick fired against his calf to halt him approaching near me. The man wailed to which the other one stood raising both his hand in surrender. He got the hint that I won’t stop after witnessing his injured partner. After that I rushed towards the car parking slot.
The sound of the siren started ringing around the whole area in high alert. The sound heightens terrifying the shit out of me. My heart will leap out of my throat any moment. The fear escalates
Yet I choose to do what I intended to do.
I have accomplished half of my plan now I stand unlocking the door of the car. Hastily I entered my body inside and ignited the engine. Taking a reverse gear l raced speedily towards the metallic security coded gate.
I rolled down the glass of my car and aimed my gun at the security guard who was dumbstruck looking at me.
Flicking twice the metal at his way, I indicated him to open the gate. "Fast." He shuddered under my command and immediately press the unique code. It opened and I looked at the rare view mirror to find some of the guards of my husband speeding towards my direction.
The gate of freedom was open and now nothing can stop me leaving this hell. Yes, it’s a mansion of hell with him as devil. He built this cage where every night he traumatized my heart and body.
"THERE IS NO WAY I'M LETTING YOU GO WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT."
His menacing voice echoed inside my brain.
My eyes determinedly stared at the way outside the gate. Without wasting any minute, I roared the car engine taking the highway route. My one hand clutching the steering wheel and the other gripped the gun which turned my knuckles pale.
A lone tear slides down my left cheek and I have no attempt to rub it.
This is all because of the insanity of my love.
The love for him has no boundaries. That day I was ready to give up my life for him and today I just want to escape from his paws. What an irony? I did what I shouldn't have done.
Flashback –
I threw my heels below to make him realise the depth of my seriousness. It landed directly on the ground with a thud sound. But he remains unfazed as he stood with folded arms across his chest.
"I love you. Say that you love me...." The only reaction I got from him was his cold face and emotionless stares directed at me.
"Beti(daughter) don't do this " my father's terror filled voice echoed from below. No reaction. "Look, if you don't love me, I will leap down." I tried again.
" Beti(daughter) don't do this. Your every wish will be fulfilled. You will marry him. Just don't do anything. We will do as you say.” My mother was scared. I tamed the lioness. See, it worked with them. But... not with him.
Each side of my fingers rolled into a fist to control my disappointment for this man. Yet I refuse to give up easily.
"He is not saying anything dad .... He doesn't love me...then why should I live ...let me die ... bye dad... Bye mom...I will miss you in heaven."
I looked up at the sky back and glared, “...oh God!!! We are going to meet soon. Just one request .... I want a seat reserved for this man in hell...keep burning iron rod ... Hot oil in pan ready for him." I said pointing at the heartless man who was still gawking as if I'm doing the most absurd thing. The thing is I never mattered to him.
--End –
I took a deep breath recalling my foolishness.
Two hours passed like a blink and it was afternoon time. I tossed aside the gun on the seat. Again, I checked the mirror for any sign of danger. Road was crystal clear behind.
A slip of a moment can results into an accident as now I circled the steering wheel to avoid the lorry which passed my blackish car. And the worst happened. Misbalancing it hit the tough trunk of a tree. My head jerked forward hitting the steering wheel. Blood started oozing out from my forehead.
The smoke from the engine filled the air.
Out of suffocation I opened the door but the sudden jerk from the accident drained my body. Somehow sliding in my seat I pulled myself out and rested my head out of the door panting heavily.
I tried to stay alert but the blood loss wasn't helping. My whole body started aching mostly my lower abdomen. My heart that beats normally and, in his presence, runs marathon a second, now beating slowly. Something crawling down my ankle but my head was way heavy to lift up.
I spread my trembling fingers on one of the thighs. Blood. I think any moment the angel of death might be descending down from the sky.
I looked at the endless road. A broken smile escaped my lips recalling my life. A painful one. And his face.
My half-opened eyes stared at the road again. How long I was lying I had no idea. Suddenly, I heard some steps approaching near me.
The tall man with his bulky figure looked at my face with hard expression and eyes hurtful.
Rihan!
Helplessness.
Humiliation.
That’s what I feel now. Tears rolled down through the sideway of my eyes feeling his strong arms wrapped around my body. They feel big but instead of trapping me, they’re holding me up with warmth.
My lower abdomen hurts like bitch as he picked up my body. He encircled my fame in a protective manner. Slowly my eyes started blacking in the darkness as my whole life stared playing in front of my eyes like a reel of some movie.
Mostly, its him. Still? Yes... Because he runs in my vein like blood. Don't curse....
What I like the most of him?
Don’t ask...Ahhhhhh ...long story...
Infelicitous love story.
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Aslan I stared through the opaque glass window at the beautiful night. The lights from the houses appeared as if stars descended down the sky and spread on the floor of the earth. I like to pass my handful time staring out of the window. This gives me a delusion that some stars can even land on the earth. But it's only my delusion. I told you. Such things can never happen in reality. And those lights are just cheap bulbs like my life which could be replaced anytime. There’s a saying that - Behind every successful man there is a woman. In my case it’s no different. Today I'm one of the top ten businessman. The credit behind my success only goes to her. She is the star in my darkness. The star whom I watched every night afar from that bench. My Zara. My star. People in the society gossips that she was born fortunate. The fate of her parents changed when she was born and mine the day, I met her. This sumptuous cabin, giant office, deluxe hotels, extravagant resorts and clubs , l
Whatever amount of milk you feed a snake; it never leaves its habit of biting.---------- Zara--------- "I WILL GO TO HIM. YOU CAN'T STOP ME. " " IN THAT CASE, LET ME SHOW YOU WHOM YOU BELONG TO. " "DON'T TOUCH ME WITH YOUR FILTHY HAND. ""LEAVE ME... YOU ARE A MAN-WHORE... A BASTARD ... I HATE YOU ...LEAVE... WHAT ARE YOU DOING? " "I'M DOING WHICH WILL REMIND YOU WHO IS YOUR HUSBAND."Beep... Beep... beep... My eyes flew wide open as if I had relived the scene just few second back. I started taking large gulp of air through the mask attached on my mouth. "Doctor, she regained conscious... She is conscious... " My ears filled with someone's desperate scream. Then I heard some footsteps approaching near me. I was staring at the ceiling fan which was moving rapidly. My eyes wide open as if I had a worst nightmare. My surroundings slowly come into focus. The white walls, the smell of antiseptic and the familiar smell of lavender mixed with bodily scent… my mother. Where a
Zara. "She doesn't want to meet you, " my mother snarled at him. "She is my wife. My legally wedded wife. Do you get it. Nobody can stop me from meeting her. Zara.... Zara... " He kept on growling. His distinctive manly voice echoed outside the cabin. He was behaving like an unhinged animal. In the past I never got to witness this kind of unrestrained behaviour from him. He was sweet and caring until he got me completely in his mercy and only then he showed me his true colours. His ugly face. "I will stop you. Wait, let me call the police commissioner. Two days in the lock will teach you a good lesson." My mother retorted to which he scoffed. "Do you think he can stop me?” My heartbeat increased drastically hearing him. “No power in this world can stop me.” My whole body shivered in fear. I refuse to get dragged into that hell. His voice and the way he declared war felt like whips against my ears. I don't want to hear these voices. Mostly I don't want to hear him. I
*Meeting *It's been two weeks after my discharge from the hospital. I didn’t return back to him as per my mother’s decision. It wasn’t only her decision but mine too, but she is been more vocalized in this matter when I was in emotions and pain. I was like take me anywhere but nowhere near him.Since then, I’m living with my parents. Both of them were taking good care of me. More than my dad it was mom who would run to attend me not waiting for the nurse whenever she heard a single sound of pain from my mouth. It was like her whole earth revolves around me.They tried their best to make me feel comfortable and I put an act to smile when I can feel the sense of void inside me. I can’t talk about it to anyone, not even to my parents. They will be in pain to know that I’m broken beyond repair.I stuck in a deep breath.With god’s grace my health has recovered speedily. Now I can freely move around the house without any assistance of my dad and mom. But still, I keep my movement slow.A
"How are you? " His fake caring voice echoed after some time and my eyes lifts on its own accord. After everything he did to me, he has the audacity to enquire about my wellbeing. "She is fine." Before I answer him, my mother did rather sternly. She has always lacked kindness for him. He clenches his jaw squeezing his eyes shut for some seconds and I know how hard he’s trying to stay calm. The moment he opened his eyes they measured me from head to toe and then back to my face meeting my eyes. His burning stare heating my skin. How much he hates to see me with Rihan. But I tried to remain unaffected. I looked at the lying papers on the table. The one side of the blank space holds my signature which I did two days back. The other side is still empty. I kept staring at the empty space. "Zara, come back home," he said with longingness. Home? Which home? That hell of a kind. Why? To punish me Force himself on me. Tie me up. My mind recalled all the bitter moment spend with him. “I’
*Secret talk *Zara Five more days passed after meeting him. These days I kept myself confined mostly inside the bedroom. Even this room reminds me of his essence. Sometimes dad use to visit me in the evening and recite some verse from the Holy book. He never inquired about what happened between us. Mayhap he wants me to heal my wounded heart without scraping. I want to flee away from all the memories which I have with him. Those bitter-sweet moments we shared in our childhood days.Whenever he saw me with Rihan, he goes insane whereas he is the one who has been cheating me. He can do whatever he wants and I have no right even to befriend with my childhood best friend. Double standard mentality. My trance of thought halted when I heard the knock on the door.“Come inside.”" Madam, dinner is ready, " the maid spoke after she closed the door behind her back. Nervously she walked towards my bed. I noticed how she was fidgeting holding her cell phone in her hands. "Madam, here is a ca
Aslan. My eyes travelled through the interior of the A-segment car. In my 11 years of age, I had never travelled in cars with my parents. We were not rich. We led a middle-class life until my mother felt sick. All the income of my father were mostly spent on her treatment. Although I had huge interest in cars but our condition didn’t permit us to afford a simple car. And today I’m sitting inside a lavish Mercedes Benz car. My body was stiff and my mind waited with an air of expectancy. The desire to own such cars buzzed inside my body. Maybe one day.The girl behind me who is sitting with her father was constantly chatting something. From her conversation it was clear that she was apple of her parents. Which is why her father agreed at her persuasion to bring me.Though I had agreed to live with them but my mind was anxious. Actually, it was difficult to manage the basic requirement of daily life. My days passed with only a one-time meal mostly which I get to eat in the hotel. So,
Aslan.I combed my hair placing them neatly. With the amount of coconut oil I put on my hair, it looks shiny and properly tucked. From the mirror, I saw Abdul chacha (uncle )wearing his cap. "Abdul chacha (uncle), is Zara ready? " I asked through the mirror. "Not yet... Big madam is asking for you. Hurry up." He took the car keys from the table and left. Looking at the mirror for the last time, I took my school bag and quit the quarter.On the way my mind was repeating the mugged-up answers from chemistry as today we are going to have a minor exam. Baba (dad) use to say that a man can only progress if he is learned. It’s been a day stepping in this mansion and seeing everything luxury and wealth I was thrilled and want to own such a lavish lifestyle. And that can only be possible if I study well. It was like I was in a pond for years and now exposed to the sea. That's all I knew with my age. As I entered the mansion, I saw Zara’s father engrossed in reading newspaper in the
Author 1 year later. " Do you think Zeshan and Zaid will be okay?" Aslan asked getting up from the bed and taking Zeshan who was crying for attention. And once he was on his father's lap a happy sound left from him. Aslan was also uttering some incoherent words. His eyes shone with love and adoration for his son. Zara chuckled at both father and son. Aslan was walking around the bed cooing his one son. Zeshan was five minutes elder to Zaid. Aslan was wearing only his trouser which hung low almost showing the tempting v line. His full-toned muscles were on a show for her to fantasize about. Zara diverted her gaze to stop her mind run back to their morning session when the kids were fast asleep. Though it was a quicky round her husband made it worthy. When it comes to stamina Aslan can beat anyone. The energy of a beast!! A caring beast!!! She got tired but Aslan still had the energy to take care of the twins. If he wasn't with her then she couldn't imagine what she would have do
Aslan's p.o.v.My body trembled with anxiety. " But what doctor..." I saw two ward boys sliding the stretcher with Zara out of the OT room and transferred to the VIP cabin. " I'm sorry.... Your wife ...has...low heartbeat...if she doesn't gain conscious within 24 hours then...we fear survival is... L..." Before the doctor end her sentence, I rushed towards the cabin. My heart dreaded to hear the remaining words. " Sir....sir...Mr.Wali ... Mr. Wali..." "Aslan ... Bhai.......bhai...." Nobody can stop me. On the way I stumbled but my legs kept on moving towards that closed door. My hands clawed the handle of the door and I let myself inside. There she was on the bed with I V attached on her hand. My chest felt like someone dug a knife cutting through deeper and deeper inflicting pain without any sympathy. My lungs gulped a deep breath as I stood rooted on the threshold. The environment inside was utterly calm. The smell of medicine hit my nostrils. The distance from the threshold
Aslan's p.o.v"Congratulations. Now you are the proud owner of another casino. How do you feel?" Eshan asked and sat down opposite to me. Fahad also laid his butt on the next chair beside him. " What's new in that!” I said shrugging.Today this happiness has no effect on me. My face had a clouded look and Eshan didn't miss it. I want to stay with her. Every time I was away not in the proximity to touch her, feel her, watch her smiling it felt like a tug inside my heart. And these days the need to be close to her only increased. Whatever feeling inside my heart for her is not plain love, it’s more than that. She is my obsession.“You need to get laid. Haven't been getting it lately? I thought pregnant women want it all the time. Here I thought Zara would have tired you out.” Eshan tsked mocking at me. “You are pissing me off now,” I growled glaring at him. My one hand dropped the pen I was holding so long after signing the contract. He shrugged, “tell me when I don’t do that.” Faha
Zara p.o.v.6 months later...Aslan left early this morning with Eshan and Fahad. I was very happy when I saw Eshan walking inside the hall few weeks back. He had gone under physiotherapy for almost six months. The poor man had suffered a lot for Aslan. In fact, when I saw him, I couldn't believe my eyes and almost sobbed out in happiness. After Aslan left, I slowly moved out of my new bedroom. When I was in my sixth month, Aslan shifted me downstairs, the room next to the kitchen. I caressed my belly and approached the dining table. Mumma was having her morning tea. The moment she saw me approaching she instructed the maid to pull the chair. I sat down and took a toast from the quarter plate.Though I wasn't hungry but I decided to stuff my belly. And the toast with honey dipped tempted my appetite. I noticed that dad was also nowhere to be seen. Both the man of my life were busy I guess. Work. Business. Whenever Aslan was late or had to stay a night away from me, I never asked fo
Zara p.o.v. 4 months later. My fingers moving around his face, tracing his every features. It's too irresistible. Slowly he opened his eyes and a smile stretched on his lips as soon as my face came in his view. His eyes were connected with mine. A look of unbelieving. As if I'm a dream. Sometimes it's even hard for me to believe that I got the man I always wanted because some aren't as lucky as me. "Good morning, baby." He murmured in a gentle voice taking a deep breath. My heart almost skipped a beat hearing his deep sexy voice. Ah.. This pregnancy hormone!! I tell you. His eyes were reading my facial expressions and I was unable to give up the wanton need inside my core. His eyes had glint of mischief and without wasting time he captured my petite body in his strong embrace.With slow movement his hand traced my waist traveling down my bare back. He leaned and engaged his lips into mine. A moan erupted and taking the golden opportunity he sides his tongue inside promoting my
Zara p.o.v.He placed his palm on my flat belly. His fingers tracing pattern over my skin. His nose nuzzling the crook of my neck. Nothing could be more blissful than this. Even though the pregnancy was surprise and the words of the doctor got us worried but I welcomed the tiny life growing inside me. I know I'm taking risk but I want this baby. Desperately. His baby inside my belly. My heart in his hand. What else one needs in life to be happy. I sighed in relief. Without asking he has given me so much. I also want to give him. A family. I know how lonely he is without me. He doesn't have to say. I can feel it. I want to make him happy. He will have his own kids. Two, three or may be more. Blood and flesh of his own. And I won't deprive him from this happiness. Though the risk is high and it would be lie if I say that I wasn't afraid from inside but I have faith upon my almighty. The creator of all. "How are you feeling?" This is for the fifth time Aslan repeated the same questi
Zara p.o.v.Once the doctor examined, I got up from the bed and took a seat beside Aslan."You are PREGNANT". The doctor concluded studying the report. Oh my God!! Oh my God!!! I covered my mouth with both the palm of my hands. My head snapped at the person sitting beside me. He was also shocked like me. After registering those words his eyes shined for a second and then he masked it."Doctor, is there any problem." Aslan asked with a concern look. I turned to face the doctor now. She was staring at both of us like a principal of the school. A serious look like we did something we shouldn't. She sighed and closed the file report. Giving a thoughtful look she stared at me then at him and continued," Mr. Wali, on her last visit I insisted your presence but you remain unavailable. I had strictly advised to refrain from any physical relation." She then peered at me with a serious look and continued," Your uterus is weak to carry a baby. You should have consult me once before planning.
Aslan p.o.v. My fingers ran in-between her thick hair locks. She is sleeping cocooned on my chest the whole night. I just lifted my head to take a slight glimpse of my sleeping beauty. How calmly she is napping. She slightly snuggled near my neck which lead my skin around my neck warm up with her hot breath. My hands protectively wrapped around her back inhaling her. Her body smells is so fucking intoxicating. After all the sweat still, she manages to smell so good. So divine. Yesterday night events start roaming inside my head. I was always an asshole when it comes to her. My heart broke a thousand times when I thought what had I done to her. She gave me her everything and asked for so little in return. My love. And I messed up. We human beings are greedy. We never remain satisfied with whatever we get. Always crave for more. And I'm no less in this matter. She loves me more than I do. I knew it. Yet, my hunger for her love never sedates easily and I kept on dying for more. And i
Zara p.o.v. "Don’t." He ordered and immediately a foul smell hit my nostrils. I turned my face to the left side and my knuckles protected my nose from inhaling that smell further. " You are drunk!!!!" I scowled glaring back at him. He first stared and then softly chuckled mocking. Suddenly his facial expressions changed."Are you ashamed that you choose to marry with me?" Saying he got up from the bed. I was gaping at him who balanced himself when he was about to fall."Aslan!!” My voice hurt and Immediately I stood up and was about to hold his arm when he rose his one hand indicating he don't need my help.Unwillingly I halted my hands back defeated. Slowly with unsteady step he reached near the table and turned to face me."Tell me…are you repenting your mistake." "Mistake?""Yes...yes...you married an orphan...no class...no family. But Rihan has everything... He isn't an orphan.... He is rich…he has a big family. That's why you cling with him every time.” My eyes fixed on him