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Chapter 44

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Keira

Did that really just happen?

I would think to myself that I dreamed all of it, but when I woke up feeling a delicious soreness between my legs, and Ethanโ€™s angelic slumbering face right next to mine I decided that I didnโ€™t dream it. It did happen.

Careful not to wake him, I slowly tiptoe to the bathroom to brush my teeth. If I recall correctly, thereโ€™s a pool right outside and I fancy a swim. When I leave the bathroom feeling refreshed, Ethan was still fast asleep. He must be tired from his multiple schedules, he did mention having to overwork himself to earn this vacation. Letting him sleep it off is no big deal.

Padding through the kitchen, thatโ€™s when I notice yet another paper bag on the counter. Itโ€™s from the same brand as where Ethan bought the dress and I was curious to know what else he got.

My eyes grow wide as big as my smile when I see Ethan got me swimsuits as well. There are two in different styles and colors. One is a one-piece beige with the midriff cutout, and th
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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 45

    KeiraAs soon as we were dressedโ€” Ethan in a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt, and me in shorts and one of Ethanโ€™s shirtsโ€” we donโ€™t waste time making breakfast. Based on last nightโ€™s and this morningโ€™s activities, I could confidently say weโ€™re both super hungry.With the pantry fully stocked, we went a little crazy in preparing all sorts of food. While Ethan was making blueberry pancakes, I decided I wanted something more filling. I fry up some bacon and sausages, along with eggs to go with our pancakes.โ€œDo you like your eggs scrambled?โ€ I ask Ethan without looking up from the pan. But when he doesnโ€™t answer, I lift my eyes only to see him staring back at me with a goofy smile on his face.โ€œUhโ€ฆ do I have something on my face?โ€ I ask, with a nervous chuckle before bringing my attention back to the frying sausages.Still smiling, Ethan shakes his head and goes back to his concoction of pancake mix. โ€œNothing,โ€ he says. โ€œI think I just had a glimpse of the future.โ€Any other time I would t

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 46

    KeiraThe world seems to crumble at my feet as I reread the words over and over, trying to make sense of them.โ€˜Good day! This is Tanya from HR.We regret to inform you that your contract with RAZE company has been terminated. Your final payment will be wired to your registered bank with us. Thank you for sharing your talents with us, and good luck in your future endeavors.โ€™Thatโ€™s it, then? Iโ€™m fired? They basically said, โ€˜Hereโ€™s your final pay. Donโ€™t bother coming to work on Monday.โ€™They know about Ethan and me. Thatโ€™s the only explanation. I open Alinaโ€™s messages next and sure enough, it confirms my suspicions.ALINA SCOTT [7:47 AM]Keira, please pick up! Something terrible happened!Where are you?ALINA SCOTT [7:52 AM]Itโ€™s not true, right?You and Ethan are just friends?ALINA SCOTT [7:55 AM]Keira, please pick up so I can tell them that theyโ€™re wrong!ALINA SCOTT [8:00 AM]Theyโ€™re going to fire you, Keira!You need to tell them the truth.ALINA SCOTT [8:12 AM]I saw the picture

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 47

    KeiraIt was a good thing that I always carry facemasks in my bag. Wearing my hair down, I make sure that it covers most of my face. Even though there arenโ€™t many people on the bus home, I still want to make sure I wouldnโ€™t be recognized.Twitter is aflame with burning trends about me and Ethan. A โ€˜gold-digging wenchโ€™ they call me. Some are more creative, while some call me a slut. Iโ€™m not going to lie, it hurts to be called those demeaning words, especially because they come from the people who say they love Ethan. How do people with so much love for an artist, turn around and hold so much contempt for another?Every time I refresh the page, thereโ€™s a new tweet about me and him. Then I see the photo that Alina must have been referring to. Sure enough, itโ€™s a photo of me and Ethan. Heโ€™s opening the door of his car for me. And from our clothes, this is from when he took me to walk around his old neighborhood.Who even took the photo? It looks too grainy to have been taken by a profes

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 48

    Ethanโ€œNo! No, I didnโ€™t!โ€ I yell out, frustrated and dejected from todayโ€™s events. With my phone connected to the car, I can talk to Patrick while driving back. โ€œThe breakup was civil! I donโ€™t understand why Rina is lying, but donโ€™t trust her.โ€I rub a hand over my mouth in frustration. It just goes to show that anything is indeed possible. What I thought would be the happiest day of my life turned out to be a nightmare. One moment I was laughing with the love of my life, tangled in the sheet, and now Iโ€™ve managed to involve her in a dating scandal.Iโ€™m such a loser. I should have immediately gone after Keira. But instead, I wallowed in self-pity for the better half of the morning before I got my shit together and called my manager.I should have expected that the media would twist this into a scandal. And Rinaโ€ฆ that wench. I should have known she was capable of something like this. It must have been her who leaked the photo from my neighborhood. Sheโ€™s the only one who knew about it t

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 49

    EthanWell, this is a fucking mess. When I arrived at Patrickโ€™s office, the other members are waiting too. With Patrick still in his meeting with the president, weโ€™re stuck here until further notice.โ€œWell, itโ€™s nice of you to show up,โ€ Aiden greets me as I take a seat, sandwiched between him and Alexander on the colorful couch. Luke and Liam are on the twin bean bags on the floor playing on their phones.โ€œIโ€™m sorry, I got held upโ€ฆโ€ but I let it hang because when I turn to face Aiden, he doesnโ€™t seem upset like I thought heโ€™d be. In fact, Luke and Liam look indifferent as well. Itโ€™s only Alexander who seems to have a furrow on his brow.Standing up, I address the room. โ€œIโ€™m sorry I got you all in this mess.โ€ I got their attention with that, but I know they deserve more than a half-assed apology. โ€œIโ€™m gonna work with Patrick to clear this up quickly.โ€Liam stands up then claps a hand on my shoulder and offers me a small smile. I return his smile with a grateful one. Among the men her

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 50

    KeiraAs promised, Naomi comes with me to Myth the next day. Feeling pretty much the same as I did yesterday, I had to bury myself in a shit-ton of makeup to hide the puffiness and dark circles.โ€œMaybe if you hadnโ€™t stayed up late watching The Notebook, then youโ€™d have had enough time to sleep.โ€ Yeah, Naomi had scolded me for it earlier too.Speaking of Naomi, I owe her a lot. From promising to cover my rent for this month and for canceling a meeting to come with me today, she has been the best friend anyone could ever ask for.So, as we walk up the steps of the club at nine in the morning, I make a promise to myself that if I manage to convince Jax to let me work extra hours here, I would give something back to Naomi for being such a good friend.But to ask Jax for a favor, I need to be able to see Jax first. The man is illustrious and heโ€™s almost always never accepts a walk-in meeting. But my good friend Chris promised heโ€™d ask on my behalf.โ€œHey boo, how are you holding up?โ€ Chris

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 51

    KeiraI think I made a mistake. Whatever possessed me to think I could face the club owner sober?Jax is intimidating when Iโ€™m drunk, and heโ€™s downright terrifying now that Iโ€™m sober. He stares at me like Iโ€™m prey and heโ€™s a predator waiting for me to make a move before he devours me alive.โ€œSo?โ€ he asks. Shit. He spoke first. Jax spreads his hands out in a welcoming manner. โ€œI have a few minutes, go ahead. Plead your case.โ€โ€œOkay,โ€ I huff out and take a deep breath. โ€œFirst of all, Iโ€™m really sorry about what happened. I didnโ€™t mean for any of this to happen. And believe me, it wasnโ€™t my intentionโ€ฆ Iโ€™d understand if youโ€™d want to fire me if I brought any bad rep to your clubโ€”โ€One of Jaxโ€™s eyebrows quirks up in question. โ€œYouโ€™re asking me to fire you?โ€โ€œNo!โ€ I blurt out, eyes wide in panic. โ€œNo, Iโ€™m sorry. No, quite the opposite. Iโ€™m here to beg you for a job.โ€Phew. Itโ€™s out. I managed to get it out. Great job, Keira.Observing Jax, nothing changed with his demeanor. The same playful

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 52

    EthanThe concert goes on as planned.Alexander huddles us together before the concert starts, like how he does at the beginning of every major event.โ€œEverything that happened tonight, letโ€™s forget about it and give all of our energy back to the fans who came here to see us. We owe all of our success to them and despite everything, theyโ€™re still here to support us. Letโ€™s give them the show of their lives.โ€We all cheer after Alexโ€™s speech and it was moving.As we wait in the wings as the opening VCR starts, Alex pulls me aside and crushes me with a tight hug.โ€œIโ€™m proud of you,โ€ he says into my ear and I canโ€™t help the sigh of relief that leaves my lips. โ€œIโ€™m proud of you, Ethan.โ€He lets me go and Iโ€™m too ashamed to face him.โ€œGod, Iโ€™m sorry, Alexโ€”for everythingโ€”โ€โ€˜Youโ€™Ve apologized enough,โ€ he says with a smile and he claps a hand on my shoulder. โ€œWhatever happens, we got you. Weโ€™re a team, remember? Iโ€™m sorry if I made you feel like you couldnโ€™t rely on me. But you always have my

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  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 56

    KeiraThe whole arena explodes into gasps and whispers. Normally, youโ€™d be able to ignore whispers, but when twenty thousand people start to collectively gossip about you in your presence, then it starts to become bothersome.My eyes meet Ethanโ€™s asking for help, but he offers me a determined look and a reassuring smile.โ€œYouโ€™ve seen her in the news and tabloids, and Iโ€™d like to ask everyone to please leave her alone,โ€ Ethan speaks with a sternness in his voice, that Iโ€™ve only heard him use on me a few times. โ€œShe didnโ€™t ask for thisโ€”to be in the spotlight. It was my fault that this happened. So, any hate toward her should be directed at me instead.โ€The crowd starts to shout comforting words at him, then.โ€œItโ€™s not your fault!โ€โ€œWeโ€™re sorry!โ€Ethan smiles at his fans and Iโ€™m glad that he has those who genuinely support him. โ€œThank you all for your support. I promise not to let you down again in the future. From this moment forth, I promise to always be honest with youโ€ฆ no more surpri

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 55

    KeiraWhen the four members of RAZE came to me with VIP tickets to their concert, I knew they were up to no good.โ€œIโ€™ll take this as collateral,โ€ Alexander tells me as he unclasps the necklace and keeps it in his pocket. I cried about my necklace that night. I missed it the moment Alexander took it from me. It felt like it has always been a part of me, and when they took it, it felt like a part of me was missing.I sat on it, slept on it, and pondered on it for a long time before I decided that I had nothing left to lose except the man that I love.So without finishing my shift at the club, I shoot Jax a message, apologizing for disappearing all of a sudden.JAX [8:42 PM]Hurry up or you wonโ€™t make it.Dumbass.Did Jax know about this? It wasnโ€™t impossible given how Alexander, Ethan, and apparently Luke too were friends with him. I shoot Jax a quick thank you before running up to my uber.โ€œSir, Iโ€™m in a hurry. Please drive fast.โ€ This wasnโ€™t the first time that I had asked an uber dri

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 54

    Ethanโ€œItโ€™s the final day! Letโ€™s give it our best!โ€ Alexander leads the group to cheer again and we scream together to hype each other up.The previous concert days have gone smoothly and Iโ€™m confident that I can give a perfect performance today as well and I have Keira to thank for that.Iโ€™ve received positive responses from the fans telling me how they love my new look. And how they wished they could have seen me in this concept earlier.It makes me smile, but I canโ€™t tell them that this isnโ€™t a concept. This is my real personality, plain and simple.The concert goes well and without a hitch. It wasnโ€™t until Liam pulls me aside during Aidenโ€™s solo song that I notice that the boys are antsy.โ€œHey, are you okay?โ€ I ask curiously. โ€œYouโ€™ve been jumpy since the concert started. Are you nervous about something?โ€Liamโ€™s nervous look transforms into a confused one real quick. โ€œNervous? Iโ€™m not nervous. Maybe youโ€™re nervousโ€”โ€โ€œOkay, Liam, I got this.โ€ Alexander cuts him off and the look of r

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 53

    EthanMaking sure Iโ€™m still safe in my hiding spot, I reread Keiraโ€™s message over and over. This is real, right? Did she message me? This isnโ€™t just some mirage that Iโ€™d imagined because Iโ€™m so deprived of Keira in my life, right?Just as Iโ€™m wondering about the possibility of Keira sending me a message, another one comes in.KEIRA PATEL [10:16 PM]Itโ€™s annoying and Naomiโ€™s starting to hate me.Stop.I didnโ€™t dream it.Holy shit, sheโ€™s talking to me. Iโ€™m overjoyed. Thereโ€™s a part of me that entertained the idea of Keira moving on and leaving me. I was hopeful but I must admit I was starting to think sheโ€™d never be able to forgive me for what happened. This doesnโ€™t mean she has forgiven me, but talking to me is at least a step forward. I feared that she was lost to me forever, but I guess thereโ€™s still hope.Quickly, I type out my reply.ETHAN REED [10:16 PM]You replied!Wait.YOU CAN SEE ME?If she could see me then maybe Keira really is at home. I peer outside the window but I canโ€™

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 52

    EthanThe concert goes on as planned.Alexander huddles us together before the concert starts, like how he does at the beginning of every major event.โ€œEverything that happened tonight, letโ€™s forget about it and give all of our energy back to the fans who came here to see us. We owe all of our success to them and despite everything, theyโ€™re still here to support us. Letโ€™s give them the show of their lives.โ€We all cheer after Alexโ€™s speech and it was moving.As we wait in the wings as the opening VCR starts, Alex pulls me aside and crushes me with a tight hug.โ€œIโ€™m proud of you,โ€ he says into my ear and I canโ€™t help the sigh of relief that leaves my lips. โ€œIโ€™m proud of you, Ethan.โ€He lets me go and Iโ€™m too ashamed to face him.โ€œGod, Iโ€™m sorry, Alexโ€”for everythingโ€”โ€โ€˜Youโ€™Ve apologized enough,โ€ he says with a smile and he claps a hand on my shoulder. โ€œWhatever happens, we got you. Weโ€™re a team, remember? Iโ€™m sorry if I made you feel like you couldnโ€™t rely on me. But you always have my

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 51

    KeiraI think I made a mistake. Whatever possessed me to think I could face the club owner sober?Jax is intimidating when Iโ€™m drunk, and heโ€™s downright terrifying now that Iโ€™m sober. He stares at me like Iโ€™m prey and heโ€™s a predator waiting for me to make a move before he devours me alive.โ€œSo?โ€ he asks. Shit. He spoke first. Jax spreads his hands out in a welcoming manner. โ€œI have a few minutes, go ahead. Plead your case.โ€โ€œOkay,โ€ I huff out and take a deep breath. โ€œFirst of all, Iโ€™m really sorry about what happened. I didnโ€™t mean for any of this to happen. And believe me, it wasnโ€™t my intentionโ€ฆ Iโ€™d understand if youโ€™d want to fire me if I brought any bad rep to your clubโ€”โ€One of Jaxโ€™s eyebrows quirks up in question. โ€œYouโ€™re asking me to fire you?โ€โ€œNo!โ€ I blurt out, eyes wide in panic. โ€œNo, Iโ€™m sorry. No, quite the opposite. Iโ€™m here to beg you for a job.โ€Phew. Itโ€™s out. I managed to get it out. Great job, Keira.Observing Jax, nothing changed with his demeanor. The same playful

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 50

    KeiraAs promised, Naomi comes with me to Myth the next day. Feeling pretty much the same as I did yesterday, I had to bury myself in a shit-ton of makeup to hide the puffiness and dark circles.โ€œMaybe if you hadnโ€™t stayed up late watching The Notebook, then youโ€™d have had enough time to sleep.โ€ Yeah, Naomi had scolded me for it earlier too.Speaking of Naomi, I owe her a lot. From promising to cover my rent for this month and for canceling a meeting to come with me today, she has been the best friend anyone could ever ask for.So, as we walk up the steps of the club at nine in the morning, I make a promise to myself that if I manage to convince Jax to let me work extra hours here, I would give something back to Naomi for being such a good friend.But to ask Jax for a favor, I need to be able to see Jax first. The man is illustrious and heโ€™s almost always never accepts a walk-in meeting. But my good friend Chris promised heโ€™d ask on my behalf.โ€œHey boo, how are you holding up?โ€ Chris

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 49

    EthanWell, this is a fucking mess. When I arrived at Patrickโ€™s office, the other members are waiting too. With Patrick still in his meeting with the president, weโ€™re stuck here until further notice.โ€œWell, itโ€™s nice of you to show up,โ€ Aiden greets me as I take a seat, sandwiched between him and Alexander on the colorful couch. Luke and Liam are on the twin bean bags on the floor playing on their phones.โ€œIโ€™m sorry, I got held upโ€ฆโ€ but I let it hang because when I turn to face Aiden, he doesnโ€™t seem upset like I thought heโ€™d be. In fact, Luke and Liam look indifferent as well. Itโ€™s only Alexander who seems to have a furrow on his brow.Standing up, I address the room. โ€œIโ€™m sorry I got you all in this mess.โ€ I got their attention with that, but I know they deserve more than a half-assed apology. โ€œIโ€™m gonna work with Patrick to clear this up quickly.โ€Liam stands up then claps a hand on my shoulder and offers me a small smile. I return his smile with a grateful one. Among the men her

  • Destroy Me: RAZEย ย ย Chapter 48

    Ethanโ€œNo! No, I didnโ€™t!โ€ I yell out, frustrated and dejected from todayโ€™s events. With my phone connected to the car, I can talk to Patrick while driving back. โ€œThe breakup was civil! I donโ€™t understand why Rina is lying, but donโ€™t trust her.โ€I rub a hand over my mouth in frustration. It just goes to show that anything is indeed possible. What I thought would be the happiest day of my life turned out to be a nightmare. One moment I was laughing with the love of my life, tangled in the sheet, and now Iโ€™ve managed to involve her in a dating scandal.Iโ€™m such a loser. I should have immediately gone after Keira. But instead, I wallowed in self-pity for the better half of the morning before I got my shit together and called my manager.I should have expected that the media would twist this into a scandal. And Rinaโ€ฆ that wench. I should have known she was capable of something like this. It must have been her who leaked the photo from my neighborhood. Sheโ€™s the only one who knew about it t

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