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Keira“So, on a scale of one to ten, how happy are you that I’m here?” Ethan asks, popping another jelly bean into his mouth.We’ve settled on spending the night here in my apartment. Here being less conspicuous and less likely for anyone to suspect anything. Ethan has spent the better half of the hour he’s been here chowing down on our snacks though than focusing on the movie playing on my laptop.“I would have said eleven, but you keep talking so I bump it down to nine.” Ignoring his mock expression of offense, I reach over and grab the bowl of popcorn.For a student dorm, Naomi and mine’s shared apartment is a pretty decent size. It allows for a common area outside, and a big enough bedroom to fit a double-sized bed. But what I used to view as a blessing, now seems like a curse, because with Ethan’s unbelievably long legs and muscular body, the bed I used to roll around in seems too small to fit us both.But Ethan doesn’t seem to mind, even if his feet dangle off the foot of the be
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EthanI’ve always looked forward to game nights with the guys. There’s usually nothing that could beat hanging out in Luke’s insanely large game room with free-flowing drinks and round after round of Mortal Kombat. But since Keira, I find myself dreading leaving her apartment to go to Luke’s.“What took you so long, dude?” Luke asks the moment I enter the door to his penthouse. “You with Keira again?”“Huh?”“Are you dating her?” This time it was Alexander who asks. He claps a hand on my shoulder leading me into the game room where the two other members are waiting.“Dating who?” I ask, trying to feign ignorance. It hasn’t even been an hour since I left Keira’s apartment and promised her I would keep our relationship a secret until she was ready to go public, yet here I am being interrogated by my groupmates.Luke’s game room is the size of a small public arcade. Equipped with the latest gaming consoles on one side of the room and retro gaming machines on the other, stepping in here a
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KeiraEthan sprawled across my bed, reading a romance book he’d fished out of my little bookshelf. He has been lazily scrolling through the pages for the better half of the hour arguing with me about how elves shouldn’t be little and meek, but buff and strong like Legolas in The Lord of the Rings.But my mind is not stable enough to discuss science fiction with him. It’s still busy processing a message I received twelve hours prior.“Hey are you okay?” he asks abruptly cutting off my train of thought.Okay, how do I tell him, ‘No, I’m not okay, It’s been twelve hours and I’m still reeling over the that you called me baby over text?’“Baby?”“No!” I scream unintentionally, jumping from where I’m seated at the foot of the bed. “You can’t just do that! It’s not good for my heart.”Ethan suddenly looks concerned. He lowers the book onto the bed and gives me his full attention. “What are you talking about?”Biting my lip, I dread having to vocalize my dilemma to him. Why is this happening?
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KeiraComeback season is the busiest time for the staff of the company, but there are certainly perks to it, especially for us on the music production team.With RAZE’s album’s release, it means our jobs are done! And if I may identify one good thing about being on the production team, it’s the weeklong break that we’re given after the release.“God, you guys are so lucky. When will us managers catch a break?” Alina whines into her sandwich as I pack my bag, getting ready to go home at two in the afternoon.“You’ll catch one soon, I’m sure,” I try to reassure her. “Aren’t the boys going to Europe soon? If you’re not on the team to go with them, then you’d have roughly a month of a stress-free job. That’s practically a vacation, Alina.”We both giggle at the notion. “As much as I enjoy being your alibi, Alina, I have to go.” Alina pouts all the way to the door.“I’ll text you later, I promise!” I assure her, pushing past her to exit the room. “I know following the boys all over for the
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Keira“I did mean it when I said you should use this time to take a break,” I tell Ethan as he unloads my overnight bag out of his car, giggling. “Not with you driving us to God-knows-where on a Friday afternoon.”Ethan laughs as he closes the trunk. “Spending time with you is the only kind of rest I need.”I shake my head to distract myself from the cheesiness because I will admit that made me blush and smile more than it had to. So, I take in the beautiful rest house Ethan drove us to.With a modern minimalist motif, I’ve never seen a lovelier house.“Go on inside, I won’t be long.”And the inside is much more beautiful. I can’t believe I get to stay here even for just a day. I explore each floor thoroughly. The first thing that caught my eye is the beautiful view of the beach from the second floor. With the sun almost gone, the waters are tinted orange and red as the sun retreats on the horizon.“It’s beautiful, is it not?” I don’t need to turn my head to know it was Ethan who spok
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KeiraDinner with Ethan in a fancy restaurant is everything I’d ever imagined. At first, I was intimidated, terrified, even of being in such a place but Ethan’s warm touch at the small of my back eased all of my concerns. His touch seems to say, ‘I’m here.’And that at any moment that I feel uncomfortable, I’m sure Ethan would be more than happy to take me away.We were ushered through a private entrance, and then to a private room where the ambiance was romantic, to say the least.“I hope everything is to your liking?” Ethan asks as he sips his red wine.“I did! Thank you, Ethan,” I say as I dap a napkin on the corner of my mouth to make sure none of the delicious pasta sauce was clinging on. “When did you even have time to prepare all of this? I mean the reservations? The dress and shoes?” I let out an impressed huff as I shake my head in disbelief. I never thought that Ethan would be capable of something like this.I’ve seen interviews and paparazzi photos of him and previous fling
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KeiraEthan doesn’t waste any time, after the words left my lips, he’s onto me like a man starved. His lips ravish mine in passionate caresses and I take everything he’s willing to give. Ethan’s tongue juts out, licking my lower lip, asking for access that I grant immediately.Our tongues meet and suddenly the kisses turn fevered and urgent. My hands are everywhere on his body, touching whatever I can reach as Ethan leads us to the bed.Before I knew it, Ethan’s toying with the string that holds my dress together, one tug and the whole top half droops bunching at my waist.“Fuck, Keira.” Ethan inhales sharply when his hands cup my breasts and he’s met with bare skin. “Did you go out commando too?” he murmurs in between languid strokes of his tongue.Snickering, I bite my lip as I pull away from him, just enough to murmur, “I wasn’t’ that brave. Wanna see?”Ethan nods slowly and I had to rip my eyes away from his hooded ones. I make a show of turning around before slowly caressing my h
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KeiraDid that really just happen?I would think to myself that I dreamed all of it, but when I woke up feeling a delicious soreness between my legs, and Ethan’s angelic slumbering face right next to mine I decided that I didn’t dream it. It did happen.Careful not to wake him, I slowly tiptoe to the bathroom to brush my teeth. If I recall correctly, there’s a pool right outside and I fancy a swim. When I leave the bathroom feeling refreshed, Ethan was still fast asleep. He must be tired from his multiple schedules, he did mention having to overwork himself to earn this vacation. Letting him sleep it off is no big deal.Padding through the kitchen, that’s when I notice yet another paper bag on the counter. It’s from the same brand as where Ethan bought the dress and I was curious to know what else he got.My eyes grow wide as big as my smile when I see Ethan got me swimsuits as well. There are two in different styles and colors. One is a one-piece beige with the midriff cutout, and th
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KeiraThe whole arena explodes into gasps and whispers. Normally, you’d be able to ignore whispers, but when twenty thousand people start to collectively gossip about you in your presence, then it starts to become bothersome.My eyes meet Ethan’s asking for help, but he offers me a determined look and a reassuring smile.“You’ve seen her in the news and tabloids, and I’d like to ask everyone to please leave her alone,” Ethan speaks with a sternness in his voice, that I’ve only heard him use on me a few times. “She didn’t ask for this—to be in the spotlight. It was my fault that this happened. So, any hate toward her should be directed at me instead.”The crowd starts to shout comforting words at him, then.“It’s not your fault!”“We’re sorry!”Ethan smiles at his fans and I’m glad that he has those who genuinely support him. “Thank you all for your support. I promise not to let you down again in the future. From this moment forth, I promise to always be honest with you… no more surpri
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KeiraWhen the four members of RAZE came to me with VIP tickets to their concert, I knew they were up to no good.“I’ll take this as collateral,” Alexander tells me as he unclasps the necklace and keeps it in his pocket. I cried about my necklace that night. I missed it the moment Alexander took it from me. It felt like it has always been a part of me, and when they took it, it felt like a part of me was missing.I sat on it, slept on it, and pondered on it for a long time before I decided that I had nothing left to lose except the man that I love.So without finishing my shift at the club, I shoot Jax a message, apologizing for disappearing all of a sudden.JAX [8:42 PM]Hurry up or you won’t make it.Dumbass.Did Jax know about this? It wasn’t impossible given how Alexander, Ethan, and apparently Luke too were friends with him. I shoot Jax a quick thank you before running up to my uber.“Sir, I’m in a hurry. Please drive fast.” This wasn’t the first time that I had asked an uber dri
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Ethan“It’s the final day! Let’s give it our best!” Alexander leads the group to cheer again and we scream together to hype each other up.The previous concert days have gone smoothly and I’m confident that I can give a perfect performance today as well and I have Keira to thank for that.I’ve received positive responses from the fans telling me how they love my new look. And how they wished they could have seen me in this concept earlier.It makes me smile, but I can’t tell them that this isn’t a concept. This is my real personality, plain and simple.The concert goes well and without a hitch. It wasn’t until Liam pulls me aside during Aiden’s solo song that I notice that the boys are antsy.“Hey, are you okay?” I ask curiously. “You’ve been jumpy since the concert started. Are you nervous about something?”Liam’s nervous look transforms into a confused one real quick. “Nervous? I’m not nervous. Maybe you’re nervous—”“Okay, Liam, I got this.” Alexander cuts him off and the look of r
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EthanMaking sure I’m still safe in my hiding spot, I reread Keira’s message over and over. This is real, right? Did she message me? This isn’t just some mirage that I’d imagined because I’m so deprived of Keira in my life, right?Just as I’m wondering about the possibility of Keira sending me a message, another one comes in.KEIRA PATEL [10:16 PM]It’s annoying and Naomi’s starting to hate me.Stop.I didn’t dream it.Holy shit, she’s talking to me. I’m overjoyed. There’s a part of me that entertained the idea of Keira moving on and leaving me. I was hopeful but I must admit I was starting to think she’d never be able to forgive me for what happened. This doesn’t mean she has forgiven me, but talking to me is at least a step forward. I feared that she was lost to me forever, but I guess there’s still hope.Quickly, I type out my reply.ETHAN REED [10:16 PM]You replied!Wait.YOU CAN SEE ME?If she could see me then maybe Keira really is at home. I peer outside the window but I can’
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EthanThe concert goes on as planned.Alexander huddles us together before the concert starts, like how he does at the beginning of every major event.“Everything that happened tonight, let’s forget about it and give all of our energy back to the fans who came here to see us. We owe all of our success to them and despite everything, they’re still here to support us. Let’s give them the show of their lives.”We all cheer after Alex’s speech and it was moving.As we wait in the wings as the opening VCR starts, Alex pulls me aside and crushes me with a tight hug.“I’m proud of you,” he says into my ear and I can’t help the sigh of relief that leaves my lips. “I’m proud of you, Ethan.”He lets me go and I’m too ashamed to face him.“God, I’m sorry, Alex—for everything—”‘You’Ve apologized enough,” he says with a smile and he claps a hand on my shoulder. “Whatever happens, we got you. We’re a team, remember? I’m sorry if I made you feel like you couldn’t rely on me. But you always have my
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KeiraI think I made a mistake. Whatever possessed me to think I could face the club owner sober?Jax is intimidating when I’m drunk, and he’s downright terrifying now that I’m sober. He stares at me like I’m prey and he’s a predator waiting for me to make a move before he devours me alive.“So?” he asks. Shit. He spoke first. Jax spreads his hands out in a welcoming manner. “I have a few minutes, go ahead. Plead your case.”“Okay,” I huff out and take a deep breath. “First of all, I’m really sorry about what happened. I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. And believe me, it wasn’t my intention… I’d understand if you’d want to fire me if I brought any bad rep to your club—”One of Jax’s eyebrows quirks up in question. “You’re asking me to fire you?”“No!” I blurt out, eyes wide in panic. “No, I’m sorry. No, quite the opposite. I’m here to beg you for a job.”Phew. It’s out. I managed to get it out. Great job, Keira.Observing Jax, nothing changed with his demeanor. The same playful
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KeiraAs promised, Naomi comes with me to Myth the next day. Feeling pretty much the same as I did yesterday, I had to bury myself in a shit-ton of makeup to hide the puffiness and dark circles.“Maybe if you hadn’t stayed up late watching The Notebook, then you’d have had enough time to sleep.” Yeah, Naomi had scolded me for it earlier too.Speaking of Naomi, I owe her a lot. From promising to cover my rent for this month and for canceling a meeting to come with me today, she has been the best friend anyone could ever ask for.So, as we walk up the steps of the club at nine in the morning, I make a promise to myself that if I manage to convince Jax to let me work extra hours here, I would give something back to Naomi for being such a good friend.But to ask Jax for a favor, I need to be able to see Jax first. The man is illustrious and he’s almost always never accepts a walk-in meeting. But my good friend Chris promised he’d ask on my behalf.“Hey boo, how are you holding up?” Chris
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EthanWell, this is a fucking mess. When I arrived at Patrick’s office, the other members are waiting too. With Patrick still in his meeting with the president, we’re stuck here until further notice.“Well, it’s nice of you to show up,” Aiden greets me as I take a seat, sandwiched between him and Alexander on the colorful couch. Luke and Liam are on the twin bean bags on the floor playing on their phones.“I’m sorry, I got held up…” but I let it hang because when I turn to face Aiden, he doesn’t seem upset like I thought he’d be. In fact, Luke and Liam look indifferent as well. It’s only Alexander who seems to have a furrow on his brow.Standing up, I address the room. “I’m sorry I got you all in this mess.” I got their attention with that, but I know they deserve more than a half-assed apology. “I’m gonna work with Patrick to clear this up quickly.”Liam stands up then claps a hand on my shoulder and offers me a small smile. I return his smile with a grateful one. Among the men her
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Ethan“No! No, I didn’t!” I yell out, frustrated and dejected from today’s events. With my phone connected to the car, I can talk to Patrick while driving back. “The breakup was civil! I don’t understand why Rina is lying, but don’t trust her.”I rub a hand over my mouth in frustration. It just goes to show that anything is indeed possible. What I thought would be the happiest day of my life turned out to be a nightmare. One moment I was laughing with the love of my life, tangled in the sheet, and now I’ve managed to involve her in a dating scandal.I’m such a loser. I should have immediately gone after Keira. But instead, I wallowed in self-pity for the better half of the morning before I got my shit together and called my manager.I should have expected that the media would twist this into a scandal. And Rina… that wench. I should have known she was capable of something like this. It must have been her who leaked the photo from my neighborhood. She’s the only one who knew about it t
