She Who Can See Monster Part 2

Chapter 2

I woke up with a loud knock from our door. I couldn't help but get irritated. However, I still tried to stand up just to make sure what time it was and when I saw that it's 1 in the morning. My forehead immediately frowned.

Who it was? Is this Dad?

I sighed before I decided to go to the living room. Thinking that maybe it was my father, I opened the door. But I was shocked to see it was not Dad who knocked but Uncle Henry.

He's one of my Dad close friends. He was anxious and seemed to run from somewhere up to here. Uncle Henry was panting and it made me wonder why.

“Why is it, Uncle Henry?” He sighed as he looked at me. His eyes also dimmed as if crying. Mercy can also be seen in his eyes. That's when I felt cold. I do not know why I was suddenly nervous.

“Mary, your father ...” as Uncle Henry began to say something. An idea entered my mind. An idea I knew to myself that I did not want to hear. I was immediately taken aback, so by that, I quickly grabbed the doorknob to supported myself not to fall.

No, no, no, please don't. Calm down Mary, that's not it. T-that can't happen. You saw nothing, you don't saw any shadow of death to your dad, so that's impossible. Calm down self!

“U-uncle Henry, my Dad is not here. Just c-come back tomorrow if you want to talk to him.” After that, I plan to close the door but my eyes began to blur. I think I knew what Uncle Henry will say next, and I also knew that I would not accept that.

But when the old man repeated what he had said, I suddenly felt cold again.

“Mary your father got to an accident. Mary your father is dead.” I was stunned to stare at the old man. It seems like I just want to get rid of him and ignored him.

What is he saying? Is this old man crazy?

Uncle Henry immediately supported me when I almost fell, but I rejected it. “Uncle, you're just making a mistake. My father is alive, I know that.” I said it coldly, after that I immediately closed the door.

But as the Princess decided to lock herself into the castle that she thought had a magical power against the monsters. The King of their kingdom, her father, tried his best to fight against those monsters who would try to enter the castle...

My eyes swelled as I just sat on the floor hugging the huge picture of Dad Arman. Yet, I was still able to continue reading the book with tears in the eyed. 

The last three days were hellish and it continues up to this day. I don't know how or when would my tears stop shredding, grieving about my father's unexpected death. This is too much for me, this is too much.

My Dad was buried yesterday. Only a few sympathized because we don't have so many relatives here in Plamour City. I also have no friends, so, I am all alone facing this pain and loneliness.

I flipped the book to read the next page.

What the princess did not know, that the castle wasn't a magical one. It couldn't protect her from the monsters but the King made his daughter believe that it does. Despite the gradual weakening of the body due to the fight for the peace of his beloved daughter. He managed to sing a song so his daughter would hear him for the last time…

There when I remembered what the police told me last time about my Dad's death. They said Dad's taxi was allegedly crashed into a large tree. The taxi leaked and include that one of Dad's passengers was smoking that night, resulted in the taxi explosion. It only made me felt worse when I found out that Albus Wesley and Hailey Perelman were Dad's rides. Those two people whom I chose not to help and interfered with. 

Damn it! They died with my father. It's all my fault, I'm so idiot! Of all things, why did I not notice the plate number? I knew that something like that would happen. But why? Why did I not see a death shadow behind Dad? 

At that point, I almost burst into tears. Blaming myself for my unthinkable decision.

Despite trembling, I was still able to move the page of the book to see what happen next.

The Princess hear the King but refused to look outside in fear of seeing monsters. But when the Princess decided to look where the hymn came from. His father had already been eaten by his monster. In the end, the King dies, and there the princess realized that even she had been eaten by a monster named fear...

What if I helped Albus and Hailey that day? What if I tried my best to talk to them and warned them? Would there be a possibility that Dad wouldn't die? 

What if I did not let myself to be eaten by fear of being judged again by someone. Would anything change? Will this never happen again? 

Why does this have to happen? Is it not enough that I suffered so much in my daily endurance to saw people die without doing anything even though I have an idea. Isn't that enough suffering? Of all people in the world, why me? Why does it have to be me?

I look at the last page. I could not stop my eyes to shed tears.

The End.

Every fairy tales have a moral of the story and for this story, that is 'Be careful in making life decisions' or maybe 'Being a coward is sickening'. And frankly, every story had only two outcomes. It's either happy or sad.

And I think mine is the latter.

After finishing the book I decided to stand upon a chair and hold the rope that I hang from the roof of the house. Without hesitation and fearlessly, I wrapped the rope around my head. I cried as if there was no end to it. For the last time, I glanced at Dad's picture while the book She Who Can See Monster was on it. After that, I closed my eyes while saying the word.

“Let's be t-together again, D-dad. Just w-wait for me there.” With that, I jumped out of the chair while tears welled in my eyes. I felt the pain, I felt how the rope was taking its way to choke me but I just closed eyes and let it be. For a few moments, I could not feel anything else. Everything went blank and I knew nothing. 

All I can think of was, I want to die.