~Genevieve~
You won't know when your life is about to flip upside down. It all happens suddenly. It could be a year
Six months
Days
Minutes
Or even seconds
But mine didn't take any of these. It only took a binding agreement. A "yes I do" and "Till death do us apart" agreement. A marriage.
Then I'm trapped. Maybe If I had known, it wouldn't have ended up this way.
Maybe I would have run away when I had the chance to. Maybe I shouldn't have met him. But the thing about maybe's is that they don't exist. They are useless.
It's only a year more. Just a year and I'll be off to Harvard. Where I'll be free from the wrath of Ryder Saint. Where I'll change my lifestyle and be more of myself. Like the life I envisioned when I just moved into this city. The beautiful and serene life without a Ryder in it. A year more and I'll say goodbye to all of this.
I took in a deep breath when mum pulled into the school driveway. It's a little bit empty but that's expected seeing it's the first day of school after the long summer holidays. Not everyone's boring like me who spent the whole summer inside her bedroom and making occasional trips to the kitchen to make ice cream. Aside from that, I like to be early. Something I inherited from my mum. She would say Early is on time and on time is late.
"You didn't have to drive me mum. I could have taken the bus" I managed to say "You might miss your appointment"
"Family first Genie, family first" she smiled and I did the same. Mum has high cheekbones and a tall, slender, model-like figure that makes my awkward, seventeen-year-old body look like a potato in comparison. I strive to be her when I grow up. Not only in the looks department but also the hard work and the personality.
"Perhaps it's time I get a driving lesson so I could use my car" I say
"Baby, are you sure you're okay with this? You don't have to do this, you know. James totally understands he won't be mad if…"
James the guy mom's currently seeing. Wait, aren't they too old for the girlfriend and boyfriend's title? He got me a car for my seventeenth birthday, while I consider it too much. I mean, who gets a sports car for their girlfriend's daughter's birthday. He's as busy as hell but from the few times we've met I could tell he's a good guy. And from the way my mom looks up at him I can tell he's the one.
"Mum" I interrupted her before she goes on any further
"I won't have you driving me around if I go off to college"
"I could if you choose a school closer" she smiled. " You don't have to do this soon you know"
I nodded. I've been afraid of being behind the wheels since I had that accident ten years back. The details of that day are a bit hazy but I remember that it was raining. I was dressed in my best dress and on our way to Nana's birthday.
"I just think it's time I let go of my fears, it's been ten years"
"Genevieve," She said, then pulled me into a warm hug. When she pulls back her eyes shine with unshed tears.
"You have no idea how happy I am right now"
"It's Genie in school mum. Just Genie" And before she could say anything "That's what everyone calls me" I quickly added.
"I won't want to hurt James dumping his present in the garage for long"
"He will be thrilled to hear this" She smiled again and that's when the tears started falling. She made no effort to wipe them now.
"Speaking of James" She continued "I'll be meeting up with him this night and might be late so don't wait up and lock all the windows"
I nodded. "Tell him I said hi" And for the first time since we've arrived I looked around me. More cars are arriving by now.
"I should probably go in now and get settled" I pull my backpack from the backseat.
"Call me when you get home and don't forget your medications" she called as I stepped out of the car clutching the straps of my backpack.
"Bye" I waved at her as she pulled out and drove off. I watched as her car faded into the distance.
Now, I'm on my own. I resisted the urge to call her back and take me away from here. My fears are coming back to me. Ryder Saint. I stare into the massive building of Evergreen High School before me. Rich influential people sent their children to this school so they could get a good start early in their lives. For all I know my mum is rich enough to afford it. The building which holds one of my greatest fears.
Avoid Ryder Saint
I told myself one last time. I always recite the word each morning like it's some psalm to save me from him. But it never did work. Nothing has ever prevented Ryder from his prey which I unfortunately happen to be one. Since the first day I set my eyes on him he decided to hate me and had my name down in his book. My mere sight infuriates him and he uses every minute to point this out.
"Genevieve, the worst name I'll ever be hearing," he once said. That day, I hated myself and hated my name.
I stride through the huge walls of Evergreen High mimicking other student's confidence. It's hard enough when I already fall out of place. They chat amongst each other like old friends reuniting after the
summer. Like how Zara Thompson and Fred James split after dating each other since elementary class. Once again I'm reminded love doesn't take it all. Or Charlotte Lynch who got pregnant during over the summer.
Yet, I stand out as a loner.
Again.
Usually I would walk these halls with my best friend Lexi beside me but she just came back from Brazil last night with her family. I'm not sure she'll be making it to school today. In the meantime, I'm all on my own surrounded by people who hate me and probably pretend I don't exist. No one wants to go near Ryder's prey. That's the thing there, Once Ryder adds you to his hate list, the whole school goes against you. If not the whole world. He's their god and they play to his tune. The tune he's playing now is a hate campaign against Genevieve McConnell.
I heard their little whispers as I walked past them.
"Thinks she's all pretty now"
"Bet Ryder's pleased to see her" I tried not to let those words get to me. Not today, those words won't get to me. It's a new session and I won't let their little talk ruin the first day for me.
"Can't wait for him to see her" My skin prickles the more their voice sink deep under my skin but I shut it
all out. The voice around me starts blurring into the air and I lift my head high as I put one foot in front of the other.
They are nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G
"Rocks" I froze instantly.
Rocks" I froze instantly.My foot came to a halt on its own accord as the voice registers in my brain. I knew that voice well. I can feel the air on my neck rise. That voice that has been in my life for the past three years. That voice had tormented me for three years. It has been everywhere I go, every step I take, every place I sit. It has been in my fucking head for three good years. That voice, my WorstnightmareMy tormentMy doomMy bullyRyder'sHe has been exactly the person I don't want to run into today. I planned on keeping my distance throughout this year and here he is now, positioned right in my face. No matter how I hide he'll always come finding me but I don't want it to be this soon. I turned and immediately wished I hadn't. His eyes met mine with surprise then followed by immediate displeasure. Yh, I know that look and I'm familiar with it. The getthefuckoutofmyface look. His jaw clenched, and I noticed how his chin lifted slightly. The familiar pounding in my chest
I’m late for my next class. Or more like, I’ll be late by about a minute. That’s the reward of being in the girls’ room after everyone’s settled in.I’m running down the hall when an arm wraps around my shoulder. For a second, I freeze, thinking Ryder has returned for revenge. He’s been ignoring me since the morning, but I know more than anyone that if Ryder Saint ignores you, it’s a disaster disguised as a blessing.I release a breath when I inhale and realise it’s not him. He doesn’t smell this strong or feel this hard – not that I know how he feels.And yes, I know how Ryder smells. It’s only because of my ability to connect to my surroundings, remember? "Nice to see you Genie" I smiled up at Chris Morrison. He's one of the few friends who doesn't pick on me. He's cool and has a boyish charm. His jet black hair is slightly curled at the end. He starred on the football and basketball teams and was one of the bestlooking guys in school. "Let me get the door for you" I stepped asid
You two know each other?" It was my mom who spoke next, breaking the awkward silence I seemed to bring with me since my arrival. I realised I was still standing so I took a seat at the extreme, making sure it's not anywhere near Ryder.A lot is going through my head right now. My mom is engaged to Saint James, father of my bully. Do I just open my mouth now and tell mom? Should I make her call off the engagement because of the rifle between me and Ryder. She waited sixteen years after dad and now that she's got a man do I just ruin it.Is life playing a game with me? Why do I have to always be entwined with Ryder? When I thought I have a year to endure more only to be thrown into a family relationship with him."We're in the same English class, Sophia" he said looking at me meaningfully"She just don't talk to me" The last part holds meaning only both of us understand. "Really, Genie?" I can feel her eyes questioning me."I don't talk to most people mom" I muttered not meeting her g
RyderI still can't believe Genie McConnell is going to be my Stepsister. Out of any other girls with tities and a nice ass, it's going to be her. Since when did dad start seeing another woman. Hell, he's never seen anyone since mom left. All however was just a nice pussy to satisfy his urges. But seeing Genie mom with him, I'm pretty sure it must be serious. It's been a week since my dad and Sophia announced their engagement and I'm still fuming. I don't understand why I'm angry. First, why does he have to throw that news at us without any warning. From the horrified look on Genie's face I'm sure it came as a surprise. Secondly, he hasn't been around ever since. I know he has a busy schedule but fuvk, he's settling down in a few months now with a soon to be Stepsister and a wife for Christ sake. I know he came in late last night anyways. Throughout this week, I did something. Haven't done since the first time I set my eyes on her, I let her be. I avoided and stayed clear of her way
I shut my eyes as soon as I opened them. Wtf! Why is it so bright in here? What happened? My room is usually dark. When my eyes finally get used to the light I realised it's not my room after all. Where am I? Like a flash, I recollect the events of yesterday. Our arrival and then at night, a drunk Ryder. The window, my face went in that direction spontaneously and I realised it's still open. Little wonder it's all bright in here. I stared at the ceiling for a while while I listened to the low…. Coming from Ryder's room. He must really love that band. After a while, I decided to get out of bed and put on some clothes as I was done doing this, I heard my door close behind me and I looked up to see the race of the person I so dread. Arrgggh Will I ever get used to seeing his face each day now that we live together? I don't think so. Stepping away from the mirror, "Have you ever heard the word 'privacy' before?" I studied his face, he looks okay, his hair is a little dishevel
He is leaning against the closed door obviously blocking my way out. How did he get in here? I didn't hear him climb the stairs let alone come in. "What are you doing here?" His voice is calm."No..noth…nothing" I stammered and quickly god the camera behind my back but it was too late as he already saw it."Oh!" His eyes widened In recognition as he took in the scene before him "Give it to me" he extended his palms out towards me. I start to bypass him but it's of no use as he had already shut the door. I stood incredibly close to him as I inhaled the smell of freshness from him. I've never been this close to him. Never. It has always been him intimidating me and me running away. But that had stopped. I made that clear weeks ago that he couldn't triumph over my weakness again. Plus, I've already decided that I'll stop being a victim to his unjust war. I tightened my trip around it "No" I said firmly. He can do what he likes all I care. He takes a step closer and I take one back. "
*****I opened my eyes. My hair sticks to the side of my face with sweat.Heat smothers my body and my breasts tighten against the towel.That’s not all.Oh. God.My hand rests between my legs and I’m… wet.I jerk my hand free as if I was caught stealing.I remember last night after an early dinner with mom, dad and Ryder I came in here to study but I ended up falling asleep. heard a muffled sound coming through the wall from Ryder’s bedroom. It must be what woke me up from while at the brink of getting a good orgasm. I listened carefully and It sounded like someone crying in pain, but as I cocked my ear towards it, I realized it was a woman moaning with pleasure.God, he was such a vulgar man-whore. He's watching the blues. Omg. I tried to picture him stroking himself while watching and insert my fingers where it aches me between my legs. The lady starts moaning faster and I follow the Rhythm with my fingers in an effort to finish what I have been dreaming about but my hands don't s
One fact I disagree with is that I'm obsessed with my stepbrother. Ex bully but now my stepbrother. The transition is overwhelming and unbelievable. The guy who I had vowed to hate and get away from. The one who makes me feel insecure of myself. The one whose voice makes my blood boil. Just like the dew disappears with the morning light, all of this magnimonity was replaced with a feeling I can't place my hands on. Ryder is more than I had earlier pictures of him. Of course he is a badass guy who still pisses me off anytime he wants but beneath him is something more. Ryder and I never spoke of the sexual tension between us even though it ran through my mind each time especially the movie we both shared in his room. I was pretty sure it didn’t mean anything to him, that he was just trying to lose me even though the sensations I experienced were the same as if we were in the movie. The past few weeks have been less dramatic. He's been busy with practice so I see less of him at home.
I'm kissing Finn fucking Anderson.I might have said that out loud amidst the kiss as he chuckles before moving closer that we're not touching chest to chest. My hands moved on their own accord around his neck, pulling him closer like I couldn't get enough of him.Finn threads his fingers through my hair too and tugs me closer, one powerful arm curling around my hip to keep me in place. My breasts are now crushed against his rock-hard chest, and I can feel the wild hammering of his heart. His excitement matches my own. The raw, husky groan he releases tickles my lips and sends my pulse careening.Almost immediately, my mind is flooded with so many thoughts it’s hard to focus on just one. I can feel myself getting lost in the kiss and Finn's hand is working their way up my tights… there's Lexi, I wonder if she's done with Liam and perhaps downstairs searching all around for me, then there's Ryder…Oh my God Ryder.As if struck by a lightning bolt, I broke the kiss abruptly and stood up.
"What's your thing?" He asked out of the blue."My thing?" I repeated. "Yes, I mean if you come to a party and you don't drink, you must have something you like. I've never seen any girl like you" he explained. He's never seen any girl like me?I don't know if that is a compliment or not but I decided to take it as one. "I don't do parties …" I trailed off. For obvious reasons parties aren't my thing but if it means I get to be locked up in a room like this with one of the hottest guys I've laid my eyes on then I think I'll go down for another party. "Tell me, what do you do?" His voice is breathy, almost a whisper but we're close enough for me to hear every word he says. "I like Writing in my diary, being in a world of my own, reveling the fantasy. " I turned to look at him, he's still watching me with those eyes. The eyes that wish he could pull me in and kiss, my eyes flickered to his lips. They have the perfect shape, slightly parted and so hot. Unlike Ryder who has a piercin
"There you are, I've been looking all around for you." Came the familiar voice.My racing heart seemed to calm a bit when I realised who I had bumped into. Finn. He's dressed in the most fashionable way I've ever seen him apart for the school uniform and his work out clothes. His chest seemed broader in the white shirts, the buttons are opened, revealing his firm chest and a part of what I believed six parts. The sleeves are rolleda and I tried not to let my eyes drift to the viens in them.I sighed, happy to see a farmilar face. He's hot no doubt. I wonder what it would be like to be with him. I shook my head, in a an attempt to get those thoughts out my head. I can't be having those thoughts.He chuckled as if he could read the dirty thoughts I'm having about him in my head. I hope he couldn't."Me too. I was trying to get water but I don't think there's any here. The fridge is stocked up with booze and more booze. I was on my way to check upstairs." I explained, hoping he would
GENIE'S POVOne hour later, we're near Kyle's house. Kyle lives IN a nice neighborhood I could tell from the mansions built around here, however it does not beat James Mansion. I've seen many multi-million mansions but nothing beats his. I could tell that we're near as the pounding rhythm of music gets louder. I wonder if it's like this all the time, disturbing the whole neighborhood without them suing him for disturbing. But again, what do I know about parties and the rules behind them? The lane was lined with car after car, displaying themagnitude of the party we were crashing. My hands clenched tightly as I cling to my black clutch like my life depends on it as Liam squeezed into a spot away from the block away from the party. Lexi, who was seated with him at the front, looked back at me and flashed a smile, an indication that we finally made it to our first official party in high school successfully. "Do you think this is a good idea?" I asked again, worriedly. This is the la
I jumped into the shower while Lexi helped pick out my dress. While in the shower, I seized the opportunity to shave my legs. "This will look good on you, you should try it on," See said as soon as I stepped out of the shower with a towel still wrapped firmly around my chest. "Where did you get them from?" I asked, walking further into the room. I don't remember owning dresses like that. "I brought them with me" Lexi is already dressed in a hot pink gown. "Here" she placed them in my hands. "Try them on, let's see which one fits you" With a stack of outfit options in my hands, all black dresses, she leaves me to get ready, and I start by letting my hair down and getting the hot iron to straighten it. Lexi offers to help with my make up. "Is this okay?" I asked to walk to my full-length mirror to check it out. It's a yellow dress with some silver linings that glitters underneath. I turned sideways to check it out. It looks okay to me. "No, try the black one instead" I looked
For the first time since I realised I'm slowly falling in love with my jackass stepbrother, I tried not about him more or less he's in the next room with the last person I ever want to see doing God's knows what. Fury and pain are not a good combination, I could feel my heart shattering into different tiny pieces yet, I want to break the adjoining door and pull both of them apart. After some minutes, I managed to get myself off the floor and prepare to get ready for Kyle's party as that's the only thing I can do without me thinking of what's happening in the next room. It's a good way to meet other people as well. Being a nerd, I mean an all straight A student comes with little responsibilities. Through my school year I've never been to parties, if we aren't counting birthday parties, I mean real highschool parties. We moved states and I changed school before I could get the chance to make new friends. I enjoyed Finn's company earlier and I'm looking forward to spending more time
It was getting late by the time I made it to the school car park. I looked around and Ryder's Audi is no where to be found. I brought out my phone to text him but then kicked against the idea, I haven't forgotten how he treated me this morning. "Shit" I stumbled my left foot hard on the floor in expiration as the realization that he left without me. I have a right to be angry too. My phone chimed and I saw Finn's name popped up.Finn: Just making sure you gave me the correct details.Finn; If you decide to change your mind, wear a red dress. You'll look better in red.I smiled but didn't reply his texts. I kept my phone back in my bag before getting in my car. I was lucky to have driven myself this morning. By the time I got home I saw his Audi already packed in the parking lot, my mom's favourite truck too was there and the only truck James loves taking out too was parked meaning everyone's in.I took a deep breath before going in. Mom and James seem to be having dinner, their hea
Finn gave me one of his shirts and I excused myself to change. Luckily I was wearing a skirt, so it matched the sports shirt perfectly. A part of me wanted to turn back and just go home because I'm agreeing to cheering for Finn just to see Ryder riled up. I'm waiting perfectly for his reaction when he sees Finn's number on me and not his. He has tried various times to get me to wear his number which I refused vehemently. I don't even watch his matches anymore. "Are you done, Genie?" Finn called, knocking on the door of the male's locker room that I had slipped into. I raised my head and tucked the side of the shirt into my skirt's band so that it fit and the shirt appeared to be oversized. "Yes, just a Moment" I called out back, loudly enough for him to hear me. I reached for my purse and pulled out the emergency lip gloss I had there and applied it to my lips hastily. "Sorry, I had to keep you waiting" I pushed the fork open. "It's okay, I just have to make sure I get you a
GENIE POVIt was closing hours yet Ryder is nowhere to be found. I'm starting to get worried, not only because of the way he left angrily earlier but that he's having a match this afternoon and he's still not back from where he ran off too.I know it's not in my place to be worried. He's a jerk who deserves whatever comes his way but…Having lied to Lexi about having research to do in the lab, I got her to go ride home without me. Instead of going to the lab like I had said, I turned back and headed to the football field. I'm only going to look once. I told myself. Once I see him, I'm heading back home. I only need to confirm he made it back on time. "Are you lost?" I heard the vibration of a deep voice on the crook of my neck very near to my back and I turned around only to be met by the pair of a familiar face.Finn Anderson Finn and I haven't really shared a history but I can recognize him on the few times I've sneak in here to watch Ryder play. I can feel my heart beating fast