Chapter 6

The last time I cried this much was when I failed an exam in school.

"No way! You? To the countryside? You wanna die?" Asher screamed.

I shut my eyes,before opening them.

"Just..."I turned to her,and gave a melancholic smile.

"...so I wouldn't die. I need time away from here."

Alexis picked up a short gown ,and glanced back at me.

"Will your parents allow that?"

"I don't care about what they say anymore. The decisions they made for me has always been a disaster."I scoffed.

"Will you get revenge?"Alexis asked again in a whisper.

Both Asher and I glanced at him.

Hun?

He's always been a quiet and easy going guy.

I wasn't expecting such statement from him.

"Will you? I will happily help you."his jaw clenched and his eyes turned crimson.

I sighed heavily, thanking holy Mary for giving me such a caring family.

"I can't waste my time on such person."I shook my head.

I won't stoop that low for a revenge,never!

"Wow. What was that just now?"Asher creased her brows.

I smiled. 

Alexis might be quiet but he certainly wouldn't be a walk over.

I batted my lashes,when I felt something rising up in my stomach.

I clamped my right hand over my mouth,feeling the strong urge to puke.

I rushed to the restroom and released my bladder in the toilet.

I felt empty,like total empty.

I could barely manage to stand without finding something to hold for suport.

I stared at my paled face in the mirror.

My eyes were out of life,and my lips was white,pale white.

I washed my hands and my face before stepping out of the room.

Alexis and Asher were leaning on the wall as if waiting for their enemy to come out then they pounce on her.

I flinched back in surprise.

"Look at her eyes,one second."Asher poked his arm,with an expression I couldn't wrap my fingers around.

I furrowed my brows.

Why would he need to do that?

Alexis stepped closer to me, examining my eyes.

"What do you feel?"he questioned and I felt perplexed the more.

I explained to him about what I felt nonetheless and he asked the last time I saw my period.

I give it a thought,and my eyes rolled to the back of my head when I realized I hadn't seen it for three months!

My stomach churned in inexplicable feelings.

"No, right?!"I let out sharply,tears pooling in my eyes.

"I can't...be right?"my voice shook, searching all over their faces for a negative response.

Asher shook her head,before hugging me.

"I will...abort it. I don't want a baby,not with that prick!"I screamed. 

My lungs was dry and I was out of breath.

I was terrified. I know nothing about what it means to be a mother!

I'm not ready to make sacrifices for a so - called baby!

My nose got runny as I cried river.

My heart was racing in my chest that I fear if it decides to slow down,it might stop beating instead and I'll just die.

"I can't be pregnant!"I bewailed.

I can't be! I must not be.

I felt like I was going crazy. 

Too many things were happening consecutively.

Bad luck leading to another bad luck!

What have I done to deserve such cruel fate?!

Child may be a precious gift to others, but to me, it's nothing but a burden!

My vision blurred.

I haven't been this scared before.

The room seems to be spinning around,as Asher words cuts through the air,

"I know. I know you don't want it. 

How about we don't tell the family for now?"

I'm so dead! So unlucky!

Asher and Alexis were still trying to console me when my aunt entered the room. 

I quickly hid my face from her just to wipe away my tears. 

“Asher, wouldn't you find something edible for Helena? I am sure she hadn't eaten” 

“No aunt, am not hungry” I managed to say while I pretended to be looking for something inside my handbag. 

Heaven knows when I will have an appetite again. I got divorced and thought I would get over it with the help of my cousins but the fact that I am carrying a child makes matters worse. 

“Helena is pregnant,” Asher broke the news to my aunt. 

I felt thunder in my ears. I gave her a sharp look with my eyes building out. “What…” I closed my lips. 

Asher isn't someone that can hide secrets, especially when it involves that id**t . 

“Preg what?” I saw the shock on my aunt's face. She was disappointed at the same time. 

I couldn't control the tears anymore. I broke down, slipping off from the bed to the ground. 

She walked up to me and squated. “Helena dear, when did you find out?” 

I was still about to talk when Alexis told her how it started. 

“Ouch! So, what do we do now?” my aunt asked. 

Asher shrugged. I had cried enough because I was having a serious headache. “It's okay, I will have to abort it” 

“No!” My aunt retorted. “We will have to see your parents before any action can be taken” 

I detest hearing anything about my parents but I have to respect my aunt. 

“Are we going tonight?” Alexis asked. 

I checked the time, even though it was late but I wanted everything to end that. 

“Let's go, I want to start tomorrow with a new fate” 

Thank goodness my aunt understands me better. 

*****

Someone opened the door for us and I realised that my parents had gotten another maid. My mother is used to changing them every six months. 

My parents came down from their room and saw us. They were shocked and the way their eyes looked at us one after the other shows the numerous questions they had. 

“What's the time? Why come this late? Can someone explain this?” My father asked with a cracked voice. 

“Hmmm, I thought as much,” that was what my mother said. 

“It's been a year already and it didn't work. He gave me the divorce papers as my anniversary gift” I managed to speak up.

“Shit!” My father spatted out. 

Hell broke loose when my aunt broke the news. “Helena is pregnant,”