I don't know how long I've been here, but it feels like I've been here for hours and hours. Who knows, maybe even days.
I don't remember how I got here or what happened after those men broke into my apartment. I only remember them putting me in a corner in my living room, and then everything went dark.After I fell asleep, I woke up here. Even though I don't know where this place is. I'm in a room with a small window and a hanging light that looks like it's been there through every single world war. The strange men around me sound like they have Italian accents.The sound of the door opening again pulls me out of my thoughts, and I look over to see the same man walk in again. He has two small cups in each hand and is nodding to the man standing against the wall next to me.
He walks over and picks up a chair, unfolds it so the man can sit on it, and puts it right in front of me.I keep looking at him as he sits down, putting one of the cups on the floor by his foot and holding the other one out in front of me. "Here, it's just water."I look into the cup to see what's inside because I'm not sure I believe him. When I look up at him again, I'm not sure what to think. He sighs and puts the cup on the floor next to the other one.His big legs are almost touching mine as he rests his forearms on them. He rubs his hands together and then plays with one of his gold rings by spinning it around his finger."So, Maria." He begins. "What's your age?""Twenty-two." I tell him.In answer, he slowly nods his head and rolls his lips together. "Why take pictures?"I give a sheepish shrug of the shoulders. "I'm not sure. I guess I've always been a fan."I flick my eyes up to his and watch as he keeps looking at me like he's trying to figure me out while I chew on the inside of my mouth."I just realized that you don't know my name, but you know yours." He says this while sitting up straight in his seat. "I'm Dontae."As he shifts in his seat, my eyes go to his white dress shirt. The muscles under his shirt can be seen straining against the thin fabric. A small chain around his neck is barely noticeable, and he has a small gold hoop in his ear."I don't want to hurt you. I just want to know why you took the photo and why you ran away." Adding.Why are we still talking about this stupid picture?"I've already told you it was a mistake. I wasn't trying to take a picture of you and your scary big friends; you were just in the background." I answer."Then why did you run if you didn't mean to?"His question makes me raise my eyebrows. "Would you run away if two scary guys with guns came after you? Or would you wait to see if they were just going to ask you again?" I disagree.He doesn't say anything, but he takes a deep breath and lifts his brows just a little. "Running made you look guilty.""Well, who knows where I'd be if I hadn't. "For all I know, I could have been dead." I tell him. "Why wouldn't I run if someone was after me?"Again, he doesn't answer. Instead, he just keeps looking at me. His big brown eyes are looking at me closely, as if he's either deep in thought or trying to figure out if what I'm telling him is true.I wiggle my wrists again and feel the rope cut my skin for what seems like the hundredth time. "Can you please untie me? I'm not going to do anything.""No."I frown, still grimacing at the burning feeling, and make a lot of wimpy noises on purpose to see if it will get him to do something.He looks like he's thinking about it before he finally stands up and walks around the back of my chair. He quickly takes the rope out of my hands with his big hands, and it falls to the floor behind me.Ha, too simple.When I finally get my hands free, I move them in front of me and look down at them. There are cuts and burns where I pulled so hard.When he gets back to his seat, he picks up the cup of water again and holds it out to me. "I swear it's just water," he said.I raise my eyebrows when he picks up the other one as well, brings it to his lips, and drinks some as if to show me he's right."Why should I believe what you say?" I ask."You're not." He says. "Don't put your faith in anyone."So, that makes sense, right? Not."I'm not like that." He continues. "Into the whole thing of giving drugs to women. I don't like that."Where does he want to go? He gives me a pat on the back and says, "Here, take it again."I look at the cup and think about whether or not to believe him. I mean, I'm really thirsty, and if it's just water, I'd be crazy not to drink some."Okay," I say hesitantly, and take the cup from him. As I bring it to my mouth and take a small sip, I try to keep my hands from shaking.When I'm done, he puts out his hand for me to give it back to him. I do, and he puts them both back on the floor."Look, Maria, here's the thing. I can't trust you."I furrowed my brows. "You mean what?""You might be telling the truth and have accidentally taken the picture, but I don't know that for sure yet. I can't let you go because I don't want you to talk about what you now know."What do we know? I don't know anything about it. You think that we do things that are against the law that you could easily report to the police. I don't know, but you might have a copy on another hard drive somewhere. You could have more than one copy. "What does this man want to say?"So, because I'm in a giving mood today, I'll make you a deal." He continues.I laugh. "A deal? What's the deal?""Well, I saved your life, for one thing. That means you have to pay me now." When he says it, my eyes get big."I have nothing to pay you!" I snap. "What do you mean you didn't kill me?""I could have killed you right away, but I didn't. Unless you're really ready to die." He says mockingly."No I don't want to die!" I scream. "Please, I just want to go home." "But what about my apartment?! Oh my god, I bet it's a total mess." I yell, and he just shrugs his shoulders, as if my panic doesn't bother him. Then, all of a sudden, I have another thought. "Oh my god, what's going on with Ares?"He raises his eyebrows, and his jaw seems to tighten for some reason. "Who is Ares?""My cat." I answer, and he just stares at me for a while before he gives me a small, very annoying grin."Ares is the name of your cat?" He says something, almost making fun of it, and I narrow my eyes. "Piss on the cat."I laugh at what he says. "Fuck you." I mutter something under my breath, but I don't think I was quiet enough because he tilts his head a little.Just his look makes my skin feel like it's on fire. Still, my hands are pretty cold and my legs keep shaking back and forth because I'm nervous."Fine. Go get the cat, Mattia." He gives an order to one of his men, who just nods and leaves the room. "Ares, stay in your room. I have eight dogs roaming the property, and if they see him, they'll think Christmas has come early.""My room?" I quiz."You have to stay here because of the deal." He just gives an answer. "Once he gets your cat back, Mattia will show you to your new room, and I'll stop by soon to give you some more information."Oh hell no. I'm not staying here. There is no way in hell.When the door opens, another man walks in. He has dirty blonde hair all over his head, and his bright green eyes look right at me. As he stands next to us, Dontae looks up at him."Watch out for her until Mattia returns." As he stands up and adjusts the sleeves of his dress shirt, he tells them what to do.As Dontae walks out of the room, the door shuts behind him. He doesn't even give me a second look."This damned cat! Fuck you!" As the door is kicked in, a loud voice yells.Mattia walks in with Ares in his hands and hissing as Ares tries to get away. Mattia throws him down so hard that he lands on his paws. Ares sees me and runs over to me."Fucking hell, that cat is a devil." Mattia snaps as his hands brush against his black pants, which have small cuts on them.Nice job, Ares.Gianni, the person Dontae asked to keep an eye on me, laughs under his breath but tries to hide it by clearing his throat. I already heard it, so it's too late.Mattia must have heard, too, because he gives him a dirty look and walks over to me while avoiding the cat. "Pick up that thing and come with me, your boss wants you to go to your room."As Ares purrs against my leg, I look down at him. Now I know that people didn't just call him "that thing."Mattia tells me to pick him up, so I stand up and follow him out of the room. I can tell Gianni is following me, but I'm not going to look over my shoulder t
I run down the stairs as fast as I can to get to the subway, where there are a lot of people.New York is a beautiful city, but holy crap, it is so crowded! Whenever."Excuse me!" I yell as I squeeze between people one after the other. I hurry around the corner to the next set of stairs when I get to the end.I just don't have the strength to do all of this nonsense.When I feel a side stitch coming on, I hold my breath and hold on tight to my purse as I walk down the last flight. I skip the last step and press my hand against my hip as I run up to the platform.When I hear a train leave, my eyes get big, and when I see it leave, my eyes get even bigger. Shit.As I stand on the platform and watch my train go down the tracks, I sigh deeply and try to catch my breath.When I feel someone looking at me, I turn around and run my hand through my long blonde hair.Having to always depend on public transportation can be a real pain.When I had the chance, I should have taken driving lessons,
I'm always by myself.At least, that's what it looks like to me.Most of the time, people say that sadness is empty. Nothing but a total and complete absence of everything. They're wrong, though. Grief fills up. It's heavy as hell. It's not a hole you have to fill; it's a load you have to carry.Something you need to bring with you everywhere. A burden that sometimes makes it feel like you can't even breathe.It's hard to get enough air.A constant reminder of what you won't have anymore in the future. How you used to imagine your life would be.People who think things will get better. whoever said "time heals" was right. Everyone is lying. That's not true at all. All that happens is that you have to wait longer between times when you miss them. When you miss them again, it hurts to think about them.It hurts worse than anything. Even so, I haven't been through one.As soon as the pain of missing them goes away, guilt starts to set in. When you realize you haven't missed someone in a
My head hurts a lot. My eyes stinging. It hurts my ears.A strange smell fills my nose and gives me a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. A mix of gasoline and dirt that made me feel sick to my stomach.When I hear a deep laugh that sounds like it came from behind me, I am immediately on high alert and my eyes are wide open. Not until then do I realize I'm no longer at home.I don't really know where I am, to be honest. In front of me is a dark grey wall, and to my right is a small window that lets in a little bit of light.When I look up, I have to squint to see the bright light hanging above my head. What the heck am I doing?When I look down to see my hands, I see that they are tied behind my back. My body is filled with fear and adrenaline, and I pull hard on whatever is holding my hands together, but they won't move."It's high time that you joined us." I turn my head from left to right to see who is talking to me."What did you do to me?" I keep moving around in the chair,
"This damned cat! Fuck you!" As the door is kicked in, a loud voice yells.Mattia walks in with Ares in his hands and hissing as Ares tries to get away. Mattia throws him down so hard that he lands on his paws. Ares sees me and runs over to me."Fucking hell, that cat is a devil." Mattia snaps as his hands brush against his black pants, which have small cuts on them.Nice job, Ares.Gianni, the person Dontae asked to keep an eye on me, laughs under his breath but tries to hide it by clearing his throat. I already heard it, so it's too late.Mattia must have heard, too, because he gives him a dirty look and walks over to me while avoiding the cat. "Pick up that thing and come with me, your boss wants you to go to your room."As Ares purrs against my leg, I look down at him. Now I know that people didn't just call him "that thing."Mattia tells me to pick him up, so I stand up and follow him out of the room. I can tell Gianni is following me, but I'm not going to look over my shoulder t
I don't know how long I've been here, but it feels like I've been here for hours and hours. Who knows, maybe even days.I don't remember how I got here or what happened after those men broke into my apartment. I only remember them putting me in a corner in my living room, and then everything went dark.After I fell asleep, I woke up here. Even though I don't know where this place is. I'm in a room with a small window and a hanging light that looks like it's been there through every single world war. The strange men around me sound like they have Italian accents.The sound of the door opening again pulls me out of my thoughts, and I look over to see the same man walk in again. He has two small cups in each hand and is nodding to the man standing against the wall next to me.He walks over and picks up a chair, unfolds it so the man can sit on it, and puts it right in front of me.I keep looking at him as he sits down, putting one of the cups on the floor by his foot and holding the othe
My head hurts a lot. My eyes stinging. It hurts my ears.A strange smell fills my nose and gives me a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. A mix of gasoline and dirt that made me feel sick to my stomach.When I hear a deep laugh that sounds like it came from behind me, I am immediately on high alert and my eyes are wide open. Not until then do I realize I'm no longer at home.I don't really know where I am, to be honest. In front of me is a dark grey wall, and to my right is a small window that lets in a little bit of light.When I look up, I have to squint to see the bright light hanging above my head. What the heck am I doing?When I look down to see my hands, I see that they are tied behind my back. My body is filled with fear and adrenaline, and I pull hard on whatever is holding my hands together, but they won't move."It's high time that you joined us." I turn my head from left to right to see who is talking to me."What did you do to me?" I keep moving around in the chair,
I'm always by myself.At least, that's what it looks like to me.Most of the time, people say that sadness is empty. Nothing but a total and complete absence of everything. They're wrong, though. Grief fills up. It's heavy as hell. It's not a hole you have to fill; it's a load you have to carry.Something you need to bring with you everywhere. A burden that sometimes makes it feel like you can't even breathe.It's hard to get enough air.A constant reminder of what you won't have anymore in the future. How you used to imagine your life would be.People who think things will get better. whoever said "time heals" was right. Everyone is lying. That's not true at all. All that happens is that you have to wait longer between times when you miss them. When you miss them again, it hurts to think about them.It hurts worse than anything. Even so, I haven't been through one.As soon as the pain of missing them goes away, guilt starts to set in. When you realize you haven't missed someone in a
I run down the stairs as fast as I can to get to the subway, where there are a lot of people.New York is a beautiful city, but holy crap, it is so crowded! Whenever."Excuse me!" I yell as I squeeze between people one after the other. I hurry around the corner to the next set of stairs when I get to the end.I just don't have the strength to do all of this nonsense.When I feel a side stitch coming on, I hold my breath and hold on tight to my purse as I walk down the last flight. I skip the last step and press my hand against my hip as I run up to the platform.When I hear a train leave, my eyes get big, and when I see it leave, my eyes get even bigger. Shit.As I stand on the platform and watch my train go down the tracks, I sigh deeply and try to catch my breath.When I feel someone looking at me, I turn around and run my hand through my long blonde hair.Having to always depend on public transportation can be a real pain.When I had the chance, I should have taken driving lessons,