“No. No, you cannot do that. There's still time to cancel your application.” He was affected by what I told him, but he was proving to be difficult. He held on to the steering wheel, probably trying to ground himself so he doesn't reach out and touch me.
“I told you already, I plan to disobey every single one of your rules.”
“Alec... You don't want to play this game with me.” His voice was lower, had even more vibration beneath it. Inside of my pants, I was hard, really hard. If he touched any part of my body right now, I might explode.
“Really? Because it seems like it is you who should not play this game with me.” I refute sharply.
We were dancing to a new tune, it was never like this between us. And now I was openly daring him. And he liked that I was daring him.
“You have gotten a lot bolder little good Alec.”
He said with raised brow. He used the nickname, a score for me.
“I was raised well.” I say, referring to him. He wanted me to say whatever I wanted, if it had consequences, I could face them later. Because not saying what you have to say was painful.
He smiled, impressed.
“Our world was at the resort. Here, it’s the real world. Go back Alec, for your sake and mine.”
This again?
I raise my chin stubbornly. “No, not unless you’re coming with me, and if you sneak out at night, I will follow you.”
He opens his mouth to argue, but I didn't want any more of that. He was my happiness, and I choose to pursue him.
“Nothing you say will change my mind. I was able to find you here even with a fake name. Imagine what I would do with your real one.” I say with a hand poised to pause his thoughts. I was pushing it now, being a brat.
I pull his phone out of the phone holder in front of him, the one that didn't make an appearance at the resort. The phone was password encrypted and his wallpaper was one of a home. I knew instinctively he designed the home.
“I want to input my phone number, so you can decide when next we meet, or I will keep randomly showing up.”
Silently, he takes the phone from me and inputs his pass-code. All the while I was buzzing with excited energy. Everything was sharper, brighter, even more beautiful.
“Call me.” I whisper, it is laced with the thing he liked so much, me begging.
Just as my hand touched the handle of the car, his voice makes me pause,
“You do know you'll pay for this right?”
Right on cue, my belly exploded with a mixture of feelings, anticipation, longing, excitement.
“I deserve it.” And then just before I leave, I tell him.
“I missed you.”
I wasn't sure I heard him correctly, or I imagined it, because he was gone when I turn around.
“Even more so, more than you know it.”
Maybe I heard it right, maybe it was wishful thinking. But I met him again. It took everything in me not to squeal. I didn't give up, I met him again.
“Christopher.” I try his name out loud.
“Did he say he was going to do it??” A woman asked, startling me. She came from behind me, still lugging a lot of bags around with her.
The woman that might be late for dinner. She made his food. I didn't allow my mind travel that way, because it was obvious it would end badly.
“Do what?”
She frowned, “Weren't you meeting him to design your home?”
Oh. She did think we were having a business meeting. She seemed close to him, she didn't know about me. Was I a secret?
“No, I applied to work here part time.”
Her brows relaxed, “I am in charge of that this time. Caitlyn Holt, everyone calls me Cait.”
She arranged her plenty bags into the other hand, stretching the other to shake me.
I take her hand, it was small in mine but she had a good grip and a firm handshake.
“Alec Sanchez.”
She nods once, retracting her hand and distributing the bags back into the other hand.
“Did you bring your car?”
I nod, pointing towards the beat up truck, I would have been ashamed, but Christopher liked it.
She grinned, “Great, mine is at the mechanic, Lord knows it develops a new fault the longer it stays there.” She walks in the direction of the car and wouldn't let me take some of her bags.
“Instead of that, I need you to drop me off. I got this new inspiration for this condo Chris flipped, and I had to.”
The excitement in her voice is contagious, so I don't mind dropping her off. Even if she got to call him Chris and I was just finding out his real name.
“Did you just move to town?” She asked looking at my stuff at the back.
I nod again, it seemed i only had words when I was talking with Christopher.
“Have you found a place to stay yet??”
There was excitement in the way she asked the question, so I hesitantly answer no.
“You are in luck. One of the apartments Chris flipped is on the market for a renter. I think you are going to love it.”
I already loved it hearing that it had something to do with Christopher. I didn't care if it was a tent, he flipped it, so it was perfect.
She went on and on about how all the apartments flipped by Christopher gets snatched immediately, but he just finished this one this last week, and nobody knew about it yet.
While I sat on his bed feeling like he left me behind, he was busy flipping apartments. It left me feeling sour, but I was here now. I wouldn't be left behind again.
“So, I assume you have your resumé on hand.”
I did, but it was on my phone and inside of my box, it was impressive since I spent my entire life accumulating work experience.
“Why do you want to work with us Alec?” She asked when I slowed down in front of the apartment that he just flipped.
On the tip of my tongue was my practiced speech I gave everyone that asked for it. But this time, something in her eyes stopped me.
I inhaled,
“I want to know how it happens, the magic of it all. What makes people so excited about construction... I want to learn.”
She chuckled breezily at my spiel.
“Well then, I think you are a perfect fit. Still, come in for the interview, it is only a formality.”
My heart swelled, feeling gratitude to the woman who I wanted to dislike, because she might mean something to Christopher. But how could I? She was so nice.
The moment I step into the apartment, it felt like I was transported back to the resort. His room back at the resort, mixed in with bits and pieces of how I decorated my old apartment, and then his touch.
“Wow.” I say softly.
Caitlyn chuckled,
“I still get that same feeling. It always blows me away. He remodeled the entire apartment and did the decorations himself. I would say he poured himself into it. He holed himself in here after he...” She caught herself. But I got it,
After he disappeared for days, without letting anyone know his location.
“Anyway, you'd be getting the best apartment out there.”
I knew that. I paid for two years upfront, surprising Caitlyn. But I couldn't let the apartment slip from my grasp.
Later when I was laying on the bed, looking at the ceiling that looked similar to the same one we stared at together back at the resort. While he listened to me ramble, his hands stroking my hair.
My phone dinged with a notification that pulled me upright, it was from him. It was an unsaved contact but the message...
“Daddy's little good boy? Really?”
I chuckled. That was the only way I could think of saving my number on his phone.
“I saved yours with Daddy.” I send quickly. I did save it that way.
His response doesn’t come until I had nearly bitten my nails to a quick.
“Heard you already got the job...”
They must be close... could they be living together? As what?
No. No. I couldn’t think about it.
During my internal monologue, his second message had come in.
“Too bad... I got work outside the state, and I would be gone for a long, long time.”
With a suppressed huff, I stare at the last of many messages I had sent since last night. A total of ten messages, all of them desperate, begging; just he way he liked it. And all of them went unanswered, he read all of them, pointedly ignoring them. I barely slept last night, and this morning, I almost slept through my alarm. To say I am having a rough morning is a gross understatement. I got to the venue with just a minute to spare, Cait gave me a suspicious glance, with no time to reprimand me, she nods in my direction. When they call my name, I steal a glance at the phone again, expecting and hoping for a response from him, but all I see is my last message, “At least tell me where you are.”He read it, to his credit, he read it few minutes after I sent it.“Mr. Sanchez?” The lady calling the names called out impatiently, no time for one more text, I hurry inside the room. For the first time in a while, I was actually nervous about the interview, the fear of failing and then
Silence.It’s crazy how silence can mean so much and so little at the same time. My mind cannot stop interpreting the silence from his end; maybe he had gotten bored of me, or sick and tired, maybe he was mad at me, I had broken the first rule he gave me after all. The biggest contender of all the maybes, me ignoring him was a step too far. Cradling my phone against my chest, I grind the insides of my cheek to stop myself from chewing on my nails, I had already started to bite them, a bad habit of mine I thought I had long lost. He was bringing out parts of me that were long lost. Or didn’t exist before.“Seriously, you might wear me down with all of that sighing.” Ash whispers quickly, her eyes remain on the man giving the orientation lecture. Since we sat in the conference hall, those of us who succeeded in getting the job, Ash has been laser focused on the lecture, while I couldn’t hear a word being said. I refresh my messages, the last message was the same one he sent and I ign
TEAM FIVE-- ALEC SANCHEZ.The words don’t change no matter how many times I stare at them. Jayce(I heard Ash call him that), had smiled patiently at me when I asked him to cross check the list once more, it could have been a mix up, team five??? “Please check your emails, you must have gotten mails from your team, that should contain everything you need to know. Now, you may return to your teams.”That was at least ten minutes ago, the lucky ones that got picked by team one and two, had hurried in their direction, already looking down on the rest of us. Great. My eyes return to the mail I received, the header was right there, the only person from this batch assigned to the least team, me. I don’t suppress a scoff, this was all his ploy to send me back, but it only made me want to fight against him even more. “I thought I had it worse…” Ash murmurs beside me, she stared at the orange block like it were her nemesis, in a way it was, starting out your career in the almost bottom team
Unique reason. Mr. Statham had a twinkle in his eyes that I could not decipher, when he said the words to me. His head cocked to the side as if sizing me up. I felt self conscious for a while right before I slipped out of the conference hall, embarrassment creeping up on me fast. “He said he had already gotten everyone he needed before it got to my turn.” Ash sighs, slinking beside me. Both of us crane our necks to look at the team one building. The answers to my question just beyond the doors.I knew his excuse, but i still wanted to know what he told Mr. Statham, I shiver just thinking about the way he stared at me. Did he know? I try to decipher what he was thinking when he stared at me. Finally, I shake my head, he couldn’t know. I was still Christopher’s secret. “I never expected his reason for rejecting you would be, not a team player.” Ash mutters, her voice thick with something I didn’t understand.He was right, I had never been a team player, I only knew how to do things my
Tense silence fill the room, everyone seem to be holding their breath, our eyes on this Shepherd that wasn’t mine. Sweat beads rolled down the sides of my head, his words replaying over and over in my head. He wants to kick me out, and he has the power to do so. Heels clicked their way into the room, breaking the silence, I still don’t look away from the Shepherd with hard eyes. “I am so sorry, Mr. Shepherd, he is one of us, and we haven’t had the chance to train him.”At the familiar, panicked voice of Caitlyn Holt, my eyes finally leave the man and find her, she looked distraught, her face pinched into one that was pleading with him. She grabs me by my wrist, pulling me to herself, now she was standing between Mr. Shepherd and myself, not much of shield as both of us tower over her, but the effect was amazing, I had been feeling very alone and very exposed, if she had come any later, I might have run away. Mr. Shepherd tilts his head in the air, Cait’s hold on my wrist tighten,
I press myself against him. The familiar sound of him sucking in through his teeth is sign that he feels me.I want to touch you. He had whispered in my ear at the resort, the first time I had pressed myself against him like this. He sucked in through his teeth then, so he must feel the same way now, I wanted him to say it again, the words drove me crazy. “Chris?”At the sound of Cait’s voice, he jumped away from me. The world spun in my vision, but I still had the wall behind me to support myself, my knees were buttery and my heart would not stop beating. There was a buzzing sound coming from somewhere around me, I didn’t know where. It took a while to realize the buzzing sound was my own whimpering, I work hard to shut myself up. I missed him the moment he withdrew himself away from me. I craved his touch, that much I knew, this was another level. Grinding my heels against the wooden floors was one thing, but I had to press myself against the wall to prevent launching myself to
I continue to stare at him. I watch as his mouth form words, he talks intently, explaining something I don’t hear. My mind churns with questions, reviewing everything I thought I knew about him, and what I knew now. He had looked like a man with a lot of burden when I first saw him, I assumed it was work related, but now I think-- my eyes drifting to Wes, who nods along to whatever it is Christopher is saying. What was it Cait said about him again? He was always working. It was starting to look like he put work before their relationship, maybe that was why he was at the resort. He was heart broken, and he used me to get him out of his system. I felt sick, physically sick. That was why he wanted me to leave so desperately, he didn’t want his boyfriend to know I existed. I press my lips together, tears burning the corner of my eyes. I force myself to stay in the present. I foolishly wanted to be by his side all these while. I had gone ahead of myself, thinking I meant something to hi
“Is it normal to kiss your ex?”Swallowing, I try to keep my face neutral, while my heart thudded forcefully inside my chest. I hope she doesn’t notice anything as her glassy eyes squint at me, trying to get a read on me or something. I clear my throat nosily and adjust my tie. I look away at other tables, the bar was crowded for a work day, I assume, that like Ash, most of them were here for what they called, a workday review. “If I saw any of my ex’s, there is no telling what I would do. Except the one back in high school, he moved away, I might kiss him.” She shrugged, the just refilled beer glass travelling back to her mouth, she sucked on the glass as the liquid poured into her mouth, a little bit of it trickling down the side of her face. “So it depends on what kind of relationship they had?” I ask handing her wet wipes, she takes it clumsily, I wince when she completely misses the mark.“Nope, the way they broke up. You can only kiss an ex if you never found them sucking fac
He moved to shut the door in my face. I hurriedly raise my hands up to eye level, showing him my peace treaty, or treats.“I come bearing presents.”I try and fail not to look at his bulging arms, or the way they glistened, like he had been working up a sweat before I came. Maybe that was why he took so much time in opening the door. He eyes my treaty, I packed it myself. Inside the box contained three mystery novels, two romance ones, a container of cookie and cream, and lastly, a movie I rented for us to see together, it was one of his favorite tear jerker novels made into a film. “Remember Bluebird?”“It might not be so good.” He says but he was taking my offering, I suppress the urge to jump, and settle for a smile instead, and when he let me through the door, I can’t help the small, yes! that slips out. Then I gasp loudly. His house was huge. Everything was in black, white or gray. The staircase spilled into the living room, art pieces filled the space in a way that told yo
Grandma was always particularly in love with her daughter, she never tried to hide it. In the way she would light up during their very rare calls, she never asked to speak with me and grandma never offered, because what if that made her stop calling? It also showed when she allowed her to change her name twice, even when she changed it to a nickname and not the full form, Danny, grandma let her. She was originally named after grandma’s mother, so it must have been at least painful for grandma, but she still did it. When I found out I was given the name Alec without any thought or story behind it, I asked to change my name, and grandma forbade it, strictly. I kept quiet about the different name change documents I had seen when she was out for work, and kept the name. Grandma buzzed with energy and even allowed me choose what to eat for a few days after their call, she beamed, and never fought with any of our neighbors, so maybe in a way, I also benefited from the call. Thinking abo
“I can’t believe I am saying this again, and to someone in a different generation. Stay away from the Shepherds.” Lady Rockbell sighs the second I enter her garden.I wonder what about me screams sexually frustrated, mentally drained, stayed up all night waiting for someone who out rightly told me he was putting an end to our late night rendezvous. Yesterday afternoon, I had followed him everywhere, but the roles were reversed, he made sure we were never alone together, he was always with the constructors, outside when I was inside, and inside when I was out, I ended up looking like a toddler waddling after his parent. He even made me go with another construction worker who smelled like sweat and smoked inside his truck, down to pick up materials, by the time we got back, he was gone. Coward.I knew he wasn’t coming back anytime soon, still I stayed, doodling on my sketchpad, helping out where I could, and finally I went home, hoping, wishing he had been joking, I waited all nig
Something inside me is set free after he uttered those words. I hope out out of the car by myself, even as he took my wrist and pulled me after him, my entire body buzzed with nervous excitement. There’s a little bounce in my steps as I walk, I had thought about this moment for a long time, right after he left, and every time he was around me. Back at Saltwater he always made sure to touch me, squeeze my ass, even in public, it made me feel good, wanted, but since I arrived here, he has been civil towards me, I haven’t complained out loud but it made me worry. The house is scattered with workers, people who had already started to work on both our ideas, a cacophony of different sounds fill the air. A few of the workers greet him as we pass, he greets them too, but doesn’t pause. He was heading straight for the back of the house. The back of the house was a work in progress, his work was still in progress, that meant there was no reason for a worker to be out here, unless they were
As if Lady Rockbell had summoned him when she said his name, I see him first since I am facing the entrance. Lady Rockbell gives me a look that I read as keep your mouth shut and we’ll continue this later. I nod as subtly as I can. “Christopher, are you lost?” She asked as he came to stop by her chair, one hand in his pocket and the other resting on the back of her chair. He keeps his eyes on her but somehow I felt like he was watching me. Why did I react so stronger to this man? What about him made me feel so alive and wide eyed every time? Everything. The answer is quiet at the back of my mind, like a whisper of the truth I have always known.“I came to pick up what belongs to me.”My breath hitches, my eyes on his face, he still doesn’t look at me, no acknowledgement of any kind. I force my eyes to remain on the upper part of his face, if I looked any lower than his nose bridge and I would turn into a tomato. “There’s nothing of that sort here.”“Your time with him is up, old w
I was awake way before my alarm rang, I laid awake unblinking. He had been considerate enough to leave the night lights on as he slipped away. I wonder how he knew I liked to sleep with the night light on. I amazed myself with the thoughts I have right now, i am supposed to hate him, he slipped out whilst I slept, and not the first time either too. “I am inclined to think this is how you look every day.” Lady Rockbell says when I walk into the garden. She is dressed similarly to yesterday’s outfit, and this time there is a desk section among the rows of strawberries. “Couldn’t sleep last night.” I sigh, taking my place at the desk. This time my coffee is in a large flask I carried from my apartment.“Is that an architect thing?” She asks, her hands busy, she doesn’t look at me.I remember what she told Christopher about the similarities between my drawings and his mother’s. The way I paced myself was to not do an internet search about him, I wanted to know him from him, however,
His words leave me gasping for air. He wants me… he wants me… like present tense, like I want him, like I have always wanted him from the second I saw him.“Not Wes?” The words force their way out of my mouth, the need to know that he isn’t using me was far too great to ignore. His mouth graze my earlobe, my body trembled at his touch, I try to keep my eyes open, hear the truth from him, but my body had already fallen under his spell, my limbs were not my own any longer. He drops a line of kisses along my neckline, my nails dig into the skin on his forearms as I hold on to him tighter, I try not to pinch him, he must like the pain because he brings his mouth over mine, claiming it in the softest of kisses. I moan into his mouth, melting against his body as fireworks exploded behind my eyelids. His kiss is warm and soft, he gently caresses my lips, taking his time. His hands cup my head, pulling me even closer to himself. My toes curl as his tongue teases me, licking my lower lip
There’s a knock on the door, I don’t wonder who it could be. Even before opening the door to reveal him standing at the front of it like he didn’t know the pass-code. Looking down at his full hands, I understand why he had to knock. I try to help him with the groceries, but wordlessly, he slipped through the door, I stare out into the inky night for a few seconds before turning around and shutting the door. The entire day I meticulously avoided him, made sure we were never alone together, not just because I was mad at him, but because I was scared I would forget he wasn’t mine, and bend to his every command. Yet the house was clean, the candles were lit in the kitchen, and I haven’t eaten all day, because I knew he would come, maybe I hoped he would come. “Lady Rockbell said you showed her my drawing.” I say before he could ask why I set out the plates even before he said he was coming.He pauses his movements, letting the apron hang in the air for a few seconds before the materia
Gunther’s call comes through the second Lady Rockbell’s driver pulls into the cafe’s parking lot. Not the call or the brother I wanted to hear from, I think about letting it ring till the end, pretend to be busy, but he might call Lady Rockbell, so I swipe accept. “Sanchez. How was the meeting?” He sounded like he was barely restraining himself, his little excited huffs are carried through the speakers.“It went great, she made me do a sample sketch for her.” I say sparing the details, the confidentiality clause binding me.“Did she uh like it?”I could tell he was nervous, this project was really important to him then, the thought that his team might not be doing so well financially crosses my mind, but I shake it off immediately, it couldn’t be. “She said I should return tomorrow, nothing else.”He must have muffled the speakers to do a little celebration of some sort, because I don’t hear from him for a while. I slide into my car and I am immediately hit with the thoughts of h