CHAPTER 32: All the worst reason are at the door.
VIKTOR.
"Why does this makes you loose your interest in me now? Does this makes you feel that I'm dirty and corrupted? Now maybe you are even feeling disgusted by my sight? Aren't you? " She asked me, as I couldn't believe on my ears. Was what I was hearing actually the truth? Did she really underwent all those things?
"Why are you telling me, this now?" I asked her, when she was waiting for me to reply to her. "You could have just kept it hidden. Must telling me, was important?" I asked her, my eye on the ground. I was not hating on her, but I was rather, shocked.
"You are disgusted?" She asked me, and laughed at me.
"It's not because I am disgusted or something, I just can't understand. Must telling me was important." I tried to be reasonable, but I was not sounding even to myself.
"I thought, you were here again, even after what happen
VIKTOR.Sometimes I don't get what I am doing, I just do things without thinking.I regret them, and get mad at those things later. But at the very moment all I care about is what is said.And I am hundred percent sure, that I will not regret what I said to her right now.Never.Because, whenever I look at her, I want to take her in my arms, and protect her from all the arrows the world left on her. Ever since, I have met her, I have only seen people against, and not once with her.Everytime.From office colleagues to Samuel, my brothers to my parents and grandparents. All I have seen is, everyone treating her. As worst as possible.And not am I much helpful.But at the very moment, I want to embrace her, and tell her. That Hayl, don't worry. I am there.But she is Hayl. She isn't this type of person. She is strong and independent.
VIKTOR.What is family and interrections?As for me I have never had any idea, what these things were.Yes, I have 6 brothers, 2 aunts and 2 a uncle, my own parents and grandparents.Sounds so fulfilled.But not everything is as they say it is. Just as my family.The more perfect it sounds, the more complicated it is.Brothers, who talk and laugh together everytime they meet, are hoping or planing for the other ones death.The grandparents, who are concerned and happy about there childrens and grandchildren are people who takes side in different things, the parents and aunts who show concerns are actually having many hatred inside of them.So even after having everything, my family are the most incomplete people.And, here when I look at Hayl's family. Just three of them are way too full for each other. That they think they can't have someon
VIKTOR.Every coin shows two sides. The more concerned he was for her, here he is hurting her that much. And isn't ever getting bothered.Someone have said it right, there is always the other side of a page.And this was there.In between the number of many peoeple, her brother yelled at her loudly, "She abandoned you. NOT. ME" The little kid revolted back to his sister. From behind the only thing I can feel was her shoulders shrunking, her head down and her body was fumbling little.In the next minute, she was about to collapse and down on the ground, running towards her, I grabbed her first before she can fall. She was looking hurt and dissapointed, her eyes dropped a single tear, while she pressed them tightly. "She threw you away not.me!" He again yelled, as she raised her hands to slap him, but couldn't do it. She took her hands back down, and started to get in her posture, leaving my arms.&nbs
VIKTOR.There are two type of people,One,Those, whom being in a situations you never know what you are feeling. You never know what you are doing.And those,But there are the times in your life where some situations are stucked in your head. With everything intact in your memory too.That feeling of uneasiness or fear, that struggle you put yourself towards with all the work or struggle. Those feelings and those doings. Never escapes us.And for me, I was the second type, who never knows things, I don't even remember the situations I have always been in, I have never been in a situation where all the feelings is still lingering on me or the things I have done matters to me.However, this time everything managed to change.Meeting someone like Hayl, I have more things in my head, than the rivals I have to leave behind. People I have to make fall and my brothers, who I hav
CHAPTER 37: Most important thing in life.VIKTOR.My words left me, and I realised that how much this woman can change me, how much she can change my life.I never thought I can love someone and say it,But she makes the difference in my life.She is a huge difference.And I love this difference. I love it so much. Usually we hesitate to walk out from our comfort zone. But for me she herself was the comfort zone in needed.The embrace, I was in with Hayl's hands wrapped around me, mine in her. Felt completed.I remember, saying dad that I am going to find my perfect other half.Right now I know I have found it.And I will make sure I will never leave her."Viktor. Why did you choose me, despite so many girls in the office?" In her slow soft voice, she asked me. The Silence between us, lasted seconds, as only with her
CHAPTER 38: THE DISTANCE FELT SMALL.VIKTOR.I was looking at Hayl in front of with me huge smile. As she touched my face with her tender hands.My hands went to reach her face, slipping the strands of hair away from her face, when I looked at her with all the love inside of me, and was about to kiss her and!I fell on the ground with a huge thud, appearing on my head, raising the sensation on pain in me. And reality back in my life.What the hell!?Did I slept last night? Here, on couch?And was dreaming about Hayl?I sat again, looking at the phone tightly clenched in my hand.Yes. Hayl. She said I Love you, to me.Reciting her words, I hovered over the couch, thinking about each and every moments I shared with her.I miss her, so much. Already.I was hovering over her number now, wondering should I wish her morning or not. But
VIKTORHave you ever been locked in a dark room, with nothing inside?When you can't see a single thing in the world, in that room?When everything is blinded!That's fear. That is the biggest fear you can ever encounter in your life. The feeling of unknown.You don't fear your enemies, because you know, that they are your enemies. You don't fear your friends because you know them better then anyone.But you fear, knowing nothing.Because you can't make assumptions, you can't make choices on confidence.But the scariness of being clueless is the real fear.And it's not just the dark room we fear. We fear this unknow thing.That what might be in this dark room.And it's not just the dark room and unknown feeling that is bothering us. It's the loneliness in here.That despite you come over the dark room and unknown things. You are still just a
VIKTORHer words were sending agony down somewhere deep in me. Something was hurting me. So much inside. My eyes that were already teary, slipped its drop of pain, while she couldn't help but cry with her crumpled eyes, her tears more unstoppable then mine."I know it's hurting you too! Why then Hayl?" I murmured to her, controlling to hold back my anger.How can she take the decision on her own?And there is no say of mine?Why?This is wrong with me. This is so unfair to me."There is no explanation in this." She said, trying to free her hands away from mine, both our face wet with tears, her nose and cheeks red from all the crying. But before she can snatch my hands away from hers, I grabbed them even tighter."Hayl! Please don't!" I requested her once more, she looked up at me, briefly in my eyes. As she took her hands out of my grip. And I couldn't hold back on her."V