CHAPTER 32: All the worst reason are at the door.
VIKTOR.
"Why does this makes you loose your interest in me now? Does this makes you feel that I'm dirty and corrupted? Now maybe you are even feeling disgusted by my sight? Aren't you? " She asked me, as I couldn't believe on my ears. Was what I was hearing actually the truth? Did she really underwent all those things?
"Why are you telling me, this now?" I asked her, when she was waiting for me to reply to her. "You could have just kept it hidden. Must telling me, was important?" I asked her, my eye on the ground. I was not hating on her, but I was rather, shocked.
"You are disgusted?" She asked me, and laughed at me.
"It's not because I am disgusted or something, I just can't understand. Must telling me was important." I tried to be reasonable, but I was not sounding even to myself.
"I thought, you were here again, even after what happen
VIKTOR.Sometimes I don't get what I am doing, I just do things without thinking.I regret them, and get mad at those things later. But at the very moment all I care about is what is said.And I am hundred percent sure, that I will not regret what I said to her right now.Never.Because, whenever I look at her, I want to take her in my arms, and protect her from all the arrows the world left on her. Ever since, I have met her, I have only seen people against, and not once with her.Everytime.From office colleagues to Samuel, my brothers to my parents and grandparents. All I have seen is, everyone treating her. As worst as possible.And not am I much helpful.But at the very moment, I want to embrace her, and tell her. That Hayl, don't worry. I am there.But she is Hayl. She isn't this type of person. She is strong and independent.
VIKTOR.What is family and interrections?As for me I have never had any idea, what these things were.Yes, I have 6 brothers, 2 aunts and 2 a uncle, my own parents and grandparents.Sounds so fulfilled.But not everything is as they say it is. Just as my family.The more perfect it sounds, the more complicated it is.Brothers, who talk and laugh together everytime they meet, are hoping or planing for the other ones death.The grandparents, who are concerned and happy about there childrens and grandchildren are people who takes side in different things, the parents and aunts who show concerns are actually having many hatred inside of them.So even after having everything, my family are the most incomplete people.And, here when I look at Hayl's family. Just three of them are way too full for each other. That they think they can't have someon
VIKTOR.Every coin shows two sides. The more concerned he was for her, here he is hurting her that much. And isn't ever getting bothered.Someone have said it right, there is always the other side of a page.And this was there.In between the number of many peoeple, her brother yelled at her loudly, "She abandoned you. NOT. ME" The little kid revolted back to his sister. From behind the only thing I can feel was her shoulders shrunking, her head down and her body was fumbling little.In the next minute, she was about to collapse and down on the ground, running towards her, I grabbed her first before she can fall. She was looking hurt and dissapointed, her eyes dropped a single tear, while she pressed them tightly. "She threw you away not.me!" He again yelled, as she raised her hands to slap him, but couldn't do it. She took her hands back down, and started to get in her posture, leaving my arms.&nbs
VIKTOR.There are two type of people,One,Those, whom being in a situations you never know what you are feeling. You never know what you are doing.And those,But there are the times in your life where some situations are stucked in your head. With everything intact in your memory too.That feeling of uneasiness or fear, that struggle you put yourself towards with all the work or struggle. Those feelings and those doings. Never escapes us.And for me, I was the second type, who never knows things, I don't even remember the situations I have always been in, I have never been in a situation where all the feelings is still lingering on me or the things I have done matters to me.However, this time everything managed to change.Meeting someone like Hayl, I have more things in my head, than the rivals I have to leave behind. People I have to make fall and my brothers, who I hav
CHAPTER 37: Most important thing in life.VIKTOR.My words left me, and I realised that how much this woman can change me, how much she can change my life.I never thought I can love someone and say it,But she makes the difference in my life.She is a huge difference.And I love this difference. I love it so much. Usually we hesitate to walk out from our comfort zone. But for me she herself was the comfort zone in needed.The embrace, I was in with Hayl's hands wrapped around me, mine in her. Felt completed.I remember, saying dad that I am going to find my perfect other half.Right now I know I have found it.And I will make sure I will never leave her."Viktor. Why did you choose me, despite so many girls in the office?" In her slow soft voice, she asked me. The Silence between us, lasted seconds, as only with her
CHAPTER 38: THE DISTANCE FELT SMALL.VIKTOR.I was looking at Hayl in front of with me huge smile. As she touched my face with her tender hands.My hands went to reach her face, slipping the strands of hair away from her face, when I looked at her with all the love inside of me, and was about to kiss her and!I fell on the ground with a huge thud, appearing on my head, raising the sensation on pain in me. And reality back in my life.What the hell!?Did I slept last night? Here, on couch?And was dreaming about Hayl?I sat again, looking at the phone tightly clenched in my hand.Yes. Hayl. She said I Love you, to me.Reciting her words, I hovered over the couch, thinking about each and every moments I shared with her.I miss her, so much. Already.I was hovering over her number now, wondering should I wish her morning or not. But
VIKTORHave you ever been locked in a dark room, with nothing inside?When you can't see a single thing in the world, in that room?When everything is blinded!That's fear. That is the biggest fear you can ever encounter in your life. The feeling of unknown.You don't fear your enemies, because you know, that they are your enemies. You don't fear your friends because you know them better then anyone.But you fear, knowing nothing.Because you can't make assumptions, you can't make choices on confidence.But the scariness of being clueless is the real fear.And it's not just the dark room we fear. We fear this unknow thing.That what might be in this dark room.And it's not just the dark room and unknown feeling that is bothering us. It's the loneliness in here.That despite you come over the dark room and unknown things. You are still just a
VIKTORHer words were sending agony down somewhere deep in me. Something was hurting me. So much inside. My eyes that were already teary, slipped its drop of pain, while she couldn't help but cry with her crumpled eyes, her tears more unstoppable then mine."I know it's hurting you too! Why then Hayl?" I murmured to her, controlling to hold back my anger.How can she take the decision on her own?And there is no say of mine?Why?This is wrong with me. This is so unfair to me."There is no explanation in this." She said, trying to free her hands away from mine, both our face wet with tears, her nose and cheeks red from all the crying. But before she can snatch my hands away from hers, I grabbed them even tighter."Hayl! Please don't!" I requested her once more, she looked up at me, briefly in my eyes. As she took her hands out of my grip. And I couldn't hold back on her."V
VIKTORI remember the day I first met Heer. I was out to find the person for a time being just to support me to own I wanted.I watched her and followed her as I got to know her.Got to knee her miseries , Her believes, her struggle even her strength. I got to meet the person inside her. And funny thing is not in a simple way but in an epic one.I knew more about her not when we talk but when we fight. Not when she is smiling me her story. When she is frustrated and cries out of pain.I met her as a strong competive girl and I started to like her. But then I saw her naive and hurt side and I ended up loving her.And even now after this seven years. I look at the world we together build.All the things we went through was just what we were awaited for.
VIKTOR.Over year have passed. And in this long time in life, I have learned many things.I was a new born child, who was living like that for all my life. A rotten new born child, with a golden spoon in my mouth silver shoes in my feet. I was living of on money, my days were number. And my nights were number. The only thing I cared about was number.All its all that actually mattered. Until life gave me Hayl.She, my one and only sunshine, she taught me from the very day, when I saw her, that remaining silent sometimes can hold a huge mountain falling back, like she did so, and stopped a huge crash that could have turned the whole situation about revenge and avenge.Later when she taught me, that we don't live for money, but we live for family. You can have pockets full of cash, but the actual fun is in sharing that joy.&
VIKTOR.Looking at the police officer in front of me. I was out of words. What the hell am I looking at? A while ago, he told me that my Hayl was dead. Showed me a dead body, decomposed badly. And here, he is in front of me, with a grin that says, I won."Hello, Mr. Raven. Nice meeting you again." he chucked at making me the fool here, which made me so mad. This is really wrong. How come I was getting fooled like this?I turned to look at the person next to me, Hayl, she is the dead evil woman here. "What? He was with you in this? "Wait. I have seen this man more earlier. Where have I seen him before?I wondered to myself, thinking deeply when I realised, "Wait. You are officer who had her locked in jail. After she hit Ben on head?"I asked when he chucked nodding." You are right Mr. Raven. Thanks to that incident, I got the chance to meet Hayl, who was undergoing another corruption case. This rich people take
VIKTOR.My eyes were plastered open, unbelievable sight in front of me. Even though I know its not that unbelievable. I knew Hayl was doing this everything. And that Hayl was behind all. But the fact of looking at her alive, after that dead body and finding her stiting right there in front of my very eyes. I was bleaming with happiness.Hayl is alive. And this is the proof. She is right in front of me.I can see her. With own eye. And this is not after my death. Its the real life. The Life we are living right now. And there is not a single world that can describe what I am feeling right now. Happiness is just too small for it.After looking at that decomposed body my soul was shattered in million pieces but now it's all joined together.Is this a gift for me?A gift from heaven?No! Hayl is the gift from heaven that I almost lost. I lost her. But now once again I found her.
VIKTORI looked at her sister, who was on the verge of breaking down after she looked at him. She was really hurt. And it was clear on her face that she wanted to tell him that how much she cares about him.But, why is she just not doing it? She should tell him. What she feels before it gets really late for her to do.When I jerked my hands away from Nick, he immediately went to her. Took her hand in his palm and slowly caressed her."Do you not love me anymore Winter? Is really my brother and you up to something?" He asked her gently, unlike the first time. And unlike me.Because I would be throwing tantrum and fits right now. And would have gathered all the hurtful words in my life." What do you think? " She asked him. And took her hands out of his grip. Her eyes slowly rose to look towards me."What if what you are thinking is the truth? And yes something is happening with me and your
VIKTOR.Hayl. I knew you are not dead.There were no words I could describe my happiness in. I was very happy. Very much happy. This is what I wanted. I wanted a little hint from Hayl that she is alive and fine. And here she send me the proof that she is. She never fails to make me happy and laughing and smiling. She understands me. Clearly.I guess this is you gift to me that you are alive.And trust me, I love it here. I should feel sorry and hurt, after looking at my family member's feet hurt like that. But look at me, and see if I care.Because I don't at all.He is a fucking rapist who dared to lay his fingers on Hayl. He is a fucking man who, instead of raping her should have led his hands to help her stand. He is a fucking who only deserves death. And this torture is so small for him. Let me come to you, Samuel, I will put the damn road in that asshole, and shove it back and forth. I will cut that hanging thing
VIKTOR.I guess, we have wrong number here. This is not the right number. Is it?What I heard was a lie. It must be a lie. "Sir, I think you called really wrong person." I replied and I shooked my head continuously but there was no reply back from there side."No sir, I don't believe we are contacting the wrong number. You are Hayl Cain's relative, aren't you?" He asked from that side when I I shaking my head in no. And no.My mind was screaming inside. And once the familiar sweet ache had made it's way in my heart. I was not believing this. I will not believe until I see myself.Her sister's eyes was settled on me. She was shocked. And waiting for me to reply back on the phone or at least tell her. What was happening?But how can I say anything to her. When i don't feel like my voice coming out of me. The last ounce of trust I had that no she must be fine. And that when will be fine was gone? What am I too sa
VIKTOR.That smirk if hers. And all the deserted feelings in my heart. Were overpowering my whole sold. My mind was crashed. And my heart stopped beating. The breath in me had lost its track. Just like that she was gone. She appeared in front if me like that. Just like that. And today she dissapeared in front of my eyes just like that.Even with beautiful flowing river. She was glowing more. She always does.I was broken and shattered when I found about her lie. But now I feel dead inside. Gone.Her smirk. The last thing about her. Her screaming and fights. The last thing about her. Her lies. The last last thing about her.This are ther only last things about her. How can it be? Isn't the last thing of someone suppose to be a hug? A peck? And the confession of love I have and I feel for her?Why did this turn out like that for me?Leaving me all alone here? How can she just go??
CHAPTER 64: BREAKING DOWN.VIKTOR.I never knew what shattered glass feel like. Honestly no one knows. How hurtful it is. How painful it is. Or how sharp and dangerous it is.I have always broken many things in my life and in my house. Many. I have broken my television when I was angry. I have broken my phone when I am messed up. I have broken glass table, glasses and cups and bottles and much more. Partially everything a house contains.But never knew what it felt like breaking down.But I broke down when I found out about Hayl. I was in pain and struggle, I broke down. I honestly loved her. True from my heart. I loved her with everything inside of me. And she broke me.I have the baddest luck in heart. Because everyone keeps breaking it down everyone keeps breaking me down.First Rebecca and Now Hayl.The feelings for Rebecca weren't ever this honest. But feeling with Hayl. Was all true. Was everything was tru