CHAPTER 37: Most important thing in life.
VIKTOR. My words left me, and I realised that how much this woman can change me, how much she can change my life. I never thought I can love someone and say it, But she makes the difference in my life. She is a huge difference. And I love this difference. I love it so much. Usually we hesitate to walk out from our comfort zone. But for me she herself was the comfort zone in needed. The embrace, I was in with Hayl's hands wrapped around me, mine in her. Felt completed. I remember, saying dad that I am going to find my perfect other half. Right now I know I have found it. And I will make sure I will never leave her. "Viktor. Why did you choose me, despite so many girls in the office?" In her slow soft voice, she asked me. The Silence between us, lasted seconds, as only with herCHAPTER 38: THE DISTANCE FELT SMALL.VIKTOR.I was looking at Hayl in front of with me huge smile. As she touched my face with her tender hands.My hands went to reach her face, slipping the strands of hair away from her face, when I looked at her with all the love inside of me, and was about to kiss her and!I fell on the ground with a huge thud, appearing on my head, raising the sensation on pain in me. And reality back in my life.What the hell!?Did I slept last night? Here, on couch?And was dreaming about Hayl?I sat again, looking at the phone tightly clenched in my hand.Yes. Hayl. She said I Love you, to me.Reciting her words, I hovered over the couch, thinking about each and every moments I shared with her.I miss her, so much. Already.I was hovering over her number now, wondering should I wish her morning or not. But
VIKTORHave you ever been locked in a dark room, with nothing inside?When you can't see a single thing in the world, in that room?When everything is blinded!That's fear. That is the biggest fear you can ever encounter in your life. The feeling of unknown.You don't fear your enemies, because you know, that they are your enemies. You don't fear your friends because you know them better then anyone.But you fear, knowing nothing.Because you can't make assumptions, you can't make choices on confidence.But the scariness of being clueless is the real fear.And it's not just the dark room we fear. We fear this unknow thing.That what might be in this dark room.And it's not just the dark room and unknown feeling that is bothering us. It's the loneliness in here.That despite you come over the dark room and unknown things. You are still just a
VIKTORHer words were sending agony down somewhere deep in me. Something was hurting me. So much inside. My eyes that were already teary, slipped its drop of pain, while she couldn't help but cry with her crumpled eyes, her tears more unstoppable then mine."I know it's hurting you too! Why then Hayl?" I murmured to her, controlling to hold back my anger.How can she take the decision on her own?And there is no say of mine?Why?This is wrong with me. This is so unfair to me."There is no explanation in this." She said, trying to free her hands away from mine, both our face wet with tears, her nose and cheeks red from all the crying. But before she can snatch my hands away from hers, I grabbed them even tighter."Hayl! Please don't!" I requested her once more, she looked up at me, briefly in my eyes. As she took her hands out of my grip. And I couldn't hold back on her."V
VIKTOR.The person my eyes saw made my head dizzy, as I felt the whole surrounding revolve for a brief seconds.Clarifying the visions, I again saw the person, clear this time. And was happy with all my might.But then I remembered that I am not in the very well position right now.I had a stripper upon me, her hands were inside my shirt, over my body while she was playing with my ears, with her tongue.While my eyes were settled in Hayl's eyes. I can see her hurtful stare. I instantly pushed the stripper away from me, and she was on the ground, shocked at me, I stood, buttoning my shirts that were opened by the stripper."Hayl?" I was happy to look at her, but she was clearly not."I thought we needed a closure. But you seem so busy." She said, disappointed."It's not like that." I said stepping towards her, but she took her steps back."You need to bath." Sh
VIKTOR.His words were annoying me. How in the hell he said something like that?Who gave him the permission to a mere worker?"Be careful of your words." I warned him, as he laughed."Should I be the one, who must be careful?" He asked me, making me confused."Who else should be then!?" I tried to dig the conversation when he started to laugh more"Of course you should be. And Hayl should be. Being in a jail won't be easy.""What does this means!?""It means your oh so good girlfriend is in jail and getting sued for attacking your brother."Fuck!What the hell! And how the hell in the world is this happening? I grabbed his collar, "How can you even think about hurting Hayl?" I screamed at him, while he was laughing.Bastard."It was not me." He chuckled , an
VIKTOR.What will you do if you get lost in desert?You have nothing and no one around you, all alone. You can see many things but, you can't see what you actually want to see.When the whole world seems apart and unbothered. You are lacking breathe.When the heat and pressure is making you crazy. And you are searching your saviour.That's what's I am feeling for all this month now.I am lost again in this business world.I have nothing and no one around me, I am all alone. I can see many things but i can't see what I actually want to see.When everyone is unbothered. I can't feel without looking at someone.All the pain in my heart is making me want to meet her once again. But its impossible.I miss her.So much. We only had one day relationship. I don't have her single photo.And I am dying to see her.Hayl.How can I ever forg
VIKTOR.One summer I was lying on the grass, when I was just a child. And was looking at the sky. When I saw the bird flying. Wondering to myself what it must felt like to fly like that.When you are loaded with no weight on your shoulders and you are as free, like that bird. When you have no directions to follow and the whole sky is your world. How must it felt like to be your own boss. And live in freedom. With no obligations to follow someone.Is that what we called freedom?I am foreign to the concept of freedom. Because I never had one. Doing this with no weight on my shoulders, is something that makes me chuckled. Having no directions to follow? Is a joke to me. And I don't have a world of my own.So, I envy the birds. Those little creatures, who die as easily as twitching a matchsticks. How can they have everything? How can they have, the thing Viktor Raven wants?Its funny, but yes. I am a crazy man. Who env
VIKTOR.I thought I promised myself that I will not think about Hayl again.But Samuel's car is making it impossible for me. Why was the car there? What was Hayl hiding from me? This questions kept revolving around my head for long. What possibly can be the reason. And much more.I thought I will forget her. But apart from this questions. She herself is clouding me.Even when I am on my way to my own engagement. All I care is about her.Am I being rude the girl I am getting engaged too."Hello! Viktor." She said, hoping for some attention when I was clearly ignoring her. Her brown eyes looking at me with affection in them , her lips curved in an burdening smile. As her head was tilted at the side, waiting for me to reply her something. But all I was capable of doing right now was a nod. I have a her a greeting nod, sunk in guilt."I never thought I will ever get chance to see you in person.