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We Are Not Ready - Part I
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Sunlight seeps through the windows, a new day has risen after rain pounded the whole night. Well, I could gladly say the rain wasn't the only thing that pounded last night. I tear my eyes open squinting to the flash of light that strikes in.
Stretching my sore limbs I sleepily twist myself to the left putting the lowest of pressure possible. My eyes widen to see my male's eyes on me. He was watching me.
"Good afternoon." He whispers with a lazy smile, elbow laid upon his pillow. Head slanted, palm carrying the weight.
"Good... afternoon?" I ask quickly shifting my gaze to the clock. We slept for a long time. Rather our bodies demanded it.
We stare at each other not saying another word. Just indulging in the new feel
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