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I Am Okay - Part II
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Paying no heed to it I continue with the meeting. "Of course as you requested. May we start the presentation of our drafts?" Luigi asks and I nod. They immediately fiddle with their computer and head towards the screen preparing for the presentation.
I often feel his eyes on me. Marco's, perhaps curiosity ignites him. I lean my back into the chair, tiredness taking over. I haven't slept for a long time and it's taking a toll on me. My headache worsens with each passing day.
The presentation begins and Luigi takes the lead, I can feel how nervous he is. Well, I can understand his nervousness. It is difficult to speak to someone with the highest authority. Throughout the presentation, I watch keenly and listen to every word the males speak.
I want the best for Giovanni. Even if my pack n
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