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My Past Continues To Haunt Me…
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It’s the day I get to meet Audrey’s family. I don’t know how they’re going to like me after seeing their daughter come home with a red left cheek because of my ex-girlfriend. I don’t even know how they’re going to react when I tell them that I have kids to begin with.Audrey and I headed out for our usual after-shift date. The sun was shining and the atmosphere felt great, but I couldn’t stop worrying about our lunch with Audrey’s family later. At McDonald’s, “One Call Away” was playing when we came in.Audrey ordered her usual 2-piece pancakes, and I ordered a sausage McMuffin with egg and iced coffee. “So, are you ready for later?” Audrey asked. “Not really. I’m really worried. I don’t think that they’re going to like me,” I answered. “Relax. My dad is a bit opinionated, but he’s a good person,” she reassured me. “Okay, okay. I won’t think much about it. Should we bring a cake for later?” I asked. “Sure, they’d love a simple chocolate cake,” she answered.Audrey
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Our First Anniversary…
The Baguio trip was taking place. I was sure that this would relieve us from the “Poison Ivy incident” and just let us continue on with what we have. I still feel that we still have that connection. And although our relationship was not perfect, it was working – or so I thought back then.At this point, she had been promoted for the first time, and I was really amazed and proud of her success. The people who came with us were her teammates who apparently became my friends as well. “We’re here!” Liana screamed. Everybody else in the van was startled because Liana had this very distinct high-pitched voice. “What in the world?” I said in surprise, but I immediately laughed afterwards. “Love, wake up. We’re already here,” I gently whispered to Audrey’s ear.Her eyebrows twitched, and her eyes slightly opened when she said, “Five more minutes, please…”That was one of her catchphrases. “Five more minutes.” That’s how Audrey was. When she sleeps – she freaking sleeps. No a
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Audrey’s Driving School
Audrey is the kind of partner that you’d also like to be your best friend. She loves to share the things that are happening to her, share stories about what she wants to achieve, laugh easily at your jokes, and help you learn things that you never thought you’d needed.One night, for some reason, we were driving around Fairview. I don’t really remember why we were there in the first place, but I think we were just out for a date. We had a nice dinner.Out of the blue, she said, “Paul, would you like to learn how to drive?” “Whoa… I’m not sure if I can learn, but I’d love to,” I said while putting my hands together. “Okay. The first thing to remember when driving is to relax. Also, I’d really like for you to learn because I can’t always be the one driving us. You have to do your share as well. I’m the lady! HAHA!” “Of course you are. I’d be willing to face my fears for you. I always think that if you jump a cliff, I’ll be right next to you – without hesitation,” I said w
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Lucky Me...
Some time had passed since our anniversary trip. The continuous driving lessons, nice dinners and we were still having a good but sometimes toxic relationship. I think I have a huge role to play regarding the latter. I slipped into depression through the course of what happened between me and my ex. There’s more into it that I can put into words. And I know, Audrey was deeply affected by it too, but we still tried to make things work. I decided to move out of Limefy to take a break. I was exhausted. The reason is that I’m always getting into unwarranted altercations with people due to my frustration on how my career has been.Through it all, Audrey was still supportive.I took a month off to plan a business with a couple of friends. Everything was set in motion. Audrey, being the very encouraging partner that she is, continued to support this venture. She even took the time to go with me on meetings and all the stuff that came along with it. “Hey, love. Good morning! Can
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Volcanic Adventures...
As mentioned in an earlier entry, she taught me how to drive. She was eager to make sure that I am formidable as she didn’t want me to get into trouble should we get to have our own car. But that urge to teach didn’t end with just me. She also wanted to bring our friends on board the wagon. Which brings us to a special time when they dragged me to Tagaytay. “I’m excited!” she said in a jolly tone. “For what? Wait. Do you have any plans on Sunday?” “For Saturday! I don’t have any moolah though, but still! I hope we don’t get to spend much in Tagaytay! And no, I don’t think I have any plans this Sunday. Although we might go home Sunday morning. Why?” “Oh. You’d be spending all night there? Because I was planning to get a haircut on Sunday.” “Really? We’ll leave in the afternoon. The original plan was just to go to U.P., but they decided to go further. So definitely, we’ll take until the morning before being able to go home.” “Who’s going to drive?” “Me and Ian. We’l
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist A Memorable Concert…
It wasn’t always sunshine and rainbows, but there we were – still trying to patch things up. It was still a great deal of challenge since, in a sense, we couldn’t reveal that we were together because of her parents.She did always find a way to see me. I always looked forward to seeing her as I loved cooking for her. I immersed myself in watching cooking videos and always asked what she wanted to eat. 9 times out of 10, she would say “Sinigang, bruh!”Aside from being foodies, the love for music was another thing we had in common – which takes us to the time when we saw LANY’s concert. That day started a bit odd, though. It seemed like I woke up on the wrong side of bed. “Good morning! What a nice day,” was Audrey's wonderful greeting. “Hello, Audrey. I forced myself to wake up. I had a bad dream.” “What happened?” She worriedly asked. “I was working in a different, but familiar place. I saw you, but couldn’t get to you. Can you guess why?” “I dunno.” “It still hu
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Surprising Each Other…
We always try to outdo each other when it comes to creating surprises during each other’s birthdays. Because we were both creative, we do our best to make those days extra special.She hates it when I surprise her because she knows my tell. She knows when I laugh internally. I always blow my cover and end up prematurely telling what the surprise is all about. Regardless, I still manage to make her smile.But nothing beats the time when she surprised me at work.It was a normal day. I noticed that one of my friends, Russ, was acting strange. And missing in action was Pinky. I could smell that something was off. I just couldn’t quite put my finger on it. “So Russ, where’s Pinky? Isn’t she supposed to be with us?” I wondered. “Uhm… She told me a while ago that she… Uhm… Needed to check something out in the mall,” he nervously but happily responded. “Okay. You done smoking?” “Yes. But can we like light another one? I just felt the need to do so.” “You know I’ll never s
Last Updated : 2021-07-12Cranberry Playlist Overcoming My Episodes…Or Not?
We continued to move forward even with a lot of things happening in between regardless if things became exhausting. I have to admit that everything was always out of control. There was too much to remember to do, too much to remember not to do, and none of it really made sense.It was, at times, hard, uncomfortable, and unpleasant. We spent the rest of our relationship doing unnatural things to make each other happy without any idea if the other was still happy. It started to turn into a disaster.But I still believed in us. The way she told me that she believed in me back then.We celebrated what would be our last anniversary with her friends in Zambales. We surely were having fun. But as things went, I had a panic attack. Then, we had a conversation that I wish I could go back to and rectify. “How are you doing, love? You don’t look so good,” she worriedly asked. “I’m okay. Although, I was still thinking about how to resolve my problems all day. But yes, I’m okay,” I a
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About the AuthorJong Snow is a part-time content creator and a full-time employee. While he does not have relative experience in writing a book, his goal is to share stories that people could possibly relate to. The first novel he finished was a project he decided to work on during a very difficult time in his life.
Cranberry Playlist Epilogue
We now jump into the now, I just remembered having set up a blog from a while ago. I started working on it again when I found an old comment for one of my old playlists.It made things worse realizing that the same “A” who suggested the song for my playlist was Audrey. My Audrey. The woman who gave me everything and used to love me.Shortly after that, I pulled up Facebook only to find a shocker. A clip of Audrey. Out and about. But she’s with someone else. They were having breakfast. And you can go on guessing as to who she was with. I also found out about other things that I would no longer would want to write about seeing as it’s f*cking tearing me down to pieces just thinking about it. Thinking maybe they were just stories made up. I still think that she wouldn’t do me like that.In spite of how long it’s been, I constantly have to remind myself that she’s no longer coming home. And that I May never get to see her again in this lifetime.Going back to the first time I
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I tried doing other things to let the tension subside. I started going out. I went to see friends. I did virtually anything possible to keep myself together.Then one day, I decided to give it one last shot. To convince her to come home – to us.I went on and asked Ludi to send her a message and let her know that I was in the lobby of her office. My old office. She was kind enough to see me. But the air wasn’t the same as it was before. “Hello, Audrey.” I said nervously. “Hello, Paul. How’ve you been?” she replied. “I can’t say that I’m okay. But I’m glad to see you. So… I dropped by to ask if you’d like to get breakfast and talk about things?” “Oh… Uhm… Sorry… I can’t. I still have a lot of work to do.” “Come on, now. For old time’s sake?” “I really can’t.” “Come on, I can wait for you. I think we can have a decent conversation and go through things like we’re supposed to.” “Paul, I can’t. I have a lot of work to do. Have you been eating? I heard you were wit
Cranberry Playlist The Endgame…
I was determined to win her back. I knew it was taking a lot from both of us. I was trying my best to make something on my end. I took interviews for offshore locations in our office. Anything I could do to be better. I wanted to show her that I could be the person she could spend the rest of her life with. I think I was just looking at the issues from a different vantage point at that time.It took several days before we started talking again.But I managed to royally screw up everything – as expected. “I think you should just block me. So that I can no longer reach out to you.” “All I’m asking is a little time, Paul.” “That ‘little time’ will actually be longer. And it won’t be long, you’ll already forget about me.” “Just give me a bit of time to figure this out on my own. And stop implying that you didn’t break up with me. You broke my heart.” “I’m sorry, Audrey. I just want the pain to stop.” “And you think this isn’t hurting me? Knowing that I’m the one who h
Cranberry Playlist Overcoming My Episodes…Or Not?
We continued to move forward even with a lot of things happening in between regardless if things became exhausting. I have to admit that everything was always out of control. There was too much to remember to do, too much to remember not to do, and none of it really made sense.It was, at times, hard, uncomfortable, and unpleasant. We spent the rest of our relationship doing unnatural things to make each other happy without any idea if the other was still happy. It started to turn into a disaster.But I still believed in us. The way she told me that she believed in me back then.We celebrated what would be our last anniversary with her friends in Zambales. We surely were having fun. But as things went, I had a panic attack. Then, we had a conversation that I wish I could go back to and rectify. “How are you doing, love? You don’t look so good,” she worriedly asked. “I’m okay. Although, I was still thinking about how to resolve my problems all day. But yes, I’m okay,” I a
Cranberry Playlist Surprising Each Other…
We always try to outdo each other when it comes to creating surprises during each other’s birthdays. Because we were both creative, we do our best to make those days extra special.She hates it when I surprise her because she knows my tell. She knows when I laugh internally. I always blow my cover and end up prematurely telling what the surprise is all about. Regardless, I still manage to make her smile.But nothing beats the time when she surprised me at work.It was a normal day. I noticed that one of my friends, Russ, was acting strange. And missing in action was Pinky. I could smell that something was off. I just couldn’t quite put my finger on it. “So Russ, where’s Pinky? Isn’t she supposed to be with us?” I wondered. “Uhm… She told me a while ago that she… Uhm… Needed to check something out in the mall,” he nervously but happily responded. “Okay. You done smoking?” “Yes. But can we like light another one? I just felt the need to do so.” “You know I’ll never s
Cranberry Playlist A Memorable Concert…
It wasn’t always sunshine and rainbows, but there we were – still trying to patch things up. It was still a great deal of challenge since, in a sense, we couldn’t reveal that we were together because of her parents.She did always find a way to see me. I always looked forward to seeing her as I loved cooking for her. I immersed myself in watching cooking videos and always asked what she wanted to eat. 9 times out of 10, she would say “Sinigang, bruh!”Aside from being foodies, the love for music was another thing we had in common – which takes us to the time when we saw LANY’s concert. That day started a bit odd, though. It seemed like I woke up on the wrong side of bed. “Good morning! What a nice day,” was Audrey's wonderful greeting. “Hello, Audrey. I forced myself to wake up. I had a bad dream.” “What happened?” She worriedly asked. “I was working in a different, but familiar place. I saw you, but couldn’t get to you. Can you guess why?” “I dunno.” “It still hu
Cranberry Playlist Volcanic Adventures...
As mentioned in an earlier entry, she taught me how to drive. She was eager to make sure that I am formidable as she didn’t want me to get into trouble should we get to have our own car. But that urge to teach didn’t end with just me. She also wanted to bring our friends on board the wagon. Which brings us to a special time when they dragged me to Tagaytay. “I’m excited!” she said in a jolly tone. “For what? Wait. Do you have any plans on Sunday?” “For Saturday! I don’t have any moolah though, but still! I hope we don’t get to spend much in Tagaytay! And no, I don’t think I have any plans this Sunday. Although we might go home Sunday morning. Why?” “Oh. You’d be spending all night there? Because I was planning to get a haircut on Sunday.” “Really? We’ll leave in the afternoon. The original plan was just to go to U.P., but they decided to go further. So definitely, we’ll take until the morning before being able to go home.” “Who’s going to drive?” “Me and Ian. We’l
Cranberry Playlist Lucky Me...
Some time had passed since our anniversary trip. The continuous driving lessons, nice dinners and we were still having a good but sometimes toxic relationship. I think I have a huge role to play regarding the latter. I slipped into depression through the course of what happened between me and my ex. There’s more into it that I can put into words. And I know, Audrey was deeply affected by it too, but we still tried to make things work. I decided to move out of Limefy to take a break. I was exhausted. The reason is that I’m always getting into unwarranted altercations with people due to my frustration on how my career has been.Through it all, Audrey was still supportive.I took a month off to plan a business with a couple of friends. Everything was set in motion. Audrey, being the very encouraging partner that she is, continued to support this venture. She even took the time to go with me on meetings and all the stuff that came along with it. “Hey, love. Good morning! Can
