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IX. Mrs. Knight
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2021-04-21 16:05:21It's been an hour since I discovered the gigantic cut of diamond sitting on my ring finger and I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I may or may not got married the previous night.
It was the first time I got drunk after seven years. The first time I let myself crumble, yet here I am making a mess again. But this was not like going into a coma for alcohol poisoning all over again. This might be bigger than the mess I made seven years ago.
“Damn, what did I get myself into?” I murmured just as my stomach rumbled in complaint having not eaten since the day before.
Arya, bless her soul had gone down to get us breakfast so I was left with my thoughts. I love Arya to pieces but there are times, such as this that I rather be alone than seeing her patronizing smile.
I was deep in my thoughts, twisting and turning the ring on my finger when an annoyingly consistent knocking pulled me back to real
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