#CollisionKab18
Tahimik ako habang nagfi-fitting. Medyo sumikip na sa akin ang pinili kong gown. Ina-adjust ng tailor ang aking damit sa pamamagitan ng paglagay ng pins. Natutusok ako ng kaunti ngunit hindi ko madama ang sakit.
Austin's words keep playing like a broken record at the back of my mind.
"Because the girl I love is getting married."
Did Nic invite him?
I decided to text our wedding planner about it.
Rosie: Hi! Can you send me the list of guests for the wedding?
Tumunog ang phone ko at nakitang may PDF file na sinend. Agad kong binuksan
#CollisionKab19"Austin..." I unconsciously slurred. I woke up, feeling dizzy. Medyo umaalon pa ang paningin ko."Rosie! Thank God!" sabi ni Nic. Worry filled his eyes as he held my hand. He looked at me, a flash of misery reflected on his eyes. Medyo namumula ang mga mata niya ngayon.What...what happened?Kita ko'y nakahiga ako sa isang kama, nakasuot ng hospital gown. Nasa ospital ba talaga ako? Anong nangyari? Pagtingin ko sa aking kamay, may naka-kabit na wiring of some sort. Pati sa ilong ko. I scrunched up my nose, feeling uncomfortable. There's something attached on my index finger too."What happened?" I choked out. Napapaos pa ang boses ko. Kumuha si Nic ng
#CollisionWakas"Where have you been?" Ian asked, the tip of his cigarette was lit.Amoy ko angbahongsigarilyoatngumuso. Sabi ko nangtumigilsiya sapaninigarilyoe.Masamasa baga.Mackydoesn't allow me to smoke because my voice will be affected, and it's bad publicity. Either way, bad publicity is still publicity. There will be potential profit from the attention people will give me.I didn't answer Ian's question. All I know is that I want to see Rosie. She's been busy lately. Ang hirap na law student siya at artista ako. It's
#CollisionSimulaWalking around the fields of San Ignacio University has always been my favorite thing to do. It gives me some sort of relief from all the pressure.Hindi naman ito 'yong hiniling ko na buhay.I'm grateful, but this is not the life I want. Sometimes, I just want to escape it. Start anew. I just don't want to live up to the pressure everyone is surrounding me with. All of my brothers have graduated. At lahat ay Business Administration, katulad ko. Sino naman ang hindi mapre-pressure kung lahat ng kapatid ay successful na businessman?I also want to be successful. Build an empire using my own blood, sweat and tears. Hindi 'yong bine-baby pa ng mga magulang dahil ako ang nag-iisang babae sa aming magkakapatid. While walking, I heard two girls talking quite loudly, and annoyingly. Kumunot ang noo ko."Tingin mo magla-Laude talaga 'yon?"
#CollisionKab1It's been a week since I started law school and I have to say, I'm starting to smell coffee everywhere! Puro na lang kape ang naaamoy ko kahit wala namang kape sa paligid! Maybe it's because of my frequent study sessions, which won't be possible without coffee. Akala ko nung college 'yung pinakamarami kong in-take ng kape. But I was wrong.Law school is really changing my life.I haven't seen any of my brothers in two weeks. Hindi ko sila natye-tyempohan kapag bumibisita ako sa bahay. Tapos once a week ko lang nakikita ang magulang ko. But I'm grateful for that already. I'm lucky enough to visit my family every week. Not everyone has that opportunity. And I salute those people who stay abroad just to provide for their family. Not everyone has the courage to do that.Speaking about that, I applied for a job. Multiple jobs. People say that I don't need one, pero gusto kong kum
#CollisionKab2Pagpasok ko sa room, nakaupo na halos ang lahat. May mga lalaki pang nasa corridor at nag-uusap about their frat or about girls. Lagi namang ganon. Kahit nasa law school na, fling parin ang hinahanap ng iba, but I don't judge. Sila bahala sa buhay nila. Buti na lang at hindi pa dumadating ang prof...at thank God! Pinapasok parin ako ng guard kahit wala akong ID! Medyo kilala na kasi ako ng naka-duty na lady guard kanina kahit mag-iisang month palang ako dito sa law school. Ang daming readings. Ang daming din na groupwork. Akala ko medyo malaya na ako sa mga pabuhat na tao, pero hindi parin.Umupo ako sa tabi ni Nicolas. Isa siya sa mga unang kaibigan ko dito sa school. At first, akala ko medyo masungit siya at seryoso, pero mabait naman pala. He once offered to drop me off sa condo ko when my car ran out of gas. Nagsesend din siya ng reviewer minsan. Minsan lang, kasi pinaghihirapan niya 'yun. Over all, he's c
#CollisionKab3"Ms. Mercado, answer me! Nag-aral ka ba?" tanong ni Atty. Sanchez, mala-dragon ang tunog ng boses.Nakatayo ako ngayon at halatang nahihiya na. Nakakahiya. It took all the strength in my body to not cry. Nag-aral naman ako, e. Nabasa ko 'yung case na tinanong sa akin. But I guess I didn't read enough. Ganon talaga ang buhay.Everyone in the room was looking at me with pity. Well, 'yung iba parang nag-eenjoy kasi kilala nila ang pamilya ko. They're probably thinking I deserve this. And particular situation is exactly what I am trying to avoid. Ayaw kong nakikishare sa success ng pamilya ko. Ayaw kong isipin nila na nakakaraos lang ako dahil sa apilyedo ko. Pero ito nga, ginawa ko ang best ko ngunit hindi parin sapat."If you don't study harder, you don't deserve to cross the bar. Each case carries its own weight, Ms. Mercado. If hindi mo napanalo ang kaso, may inosenteng ma
#CollisionKab4I woke up early the next day. Usually, one hour lang ang naco-consume ko sa paghahanda. I showered for 20 minutes and dried my hair. Nagsuot ako ng white long-sleeve na may ruffles sa gilid. Nag-black skinny jeans na lang ako. I also wore nude heels pero hindi din siya masyadong mataas.Pinainit ko na lang 'yung pagkain ko kahapon at inilagay sa tupperware. Sa headquarters na lang ako kakain ng breakfast. Dadalhin ko rin 'yung Consti ko at ibang materials para sa class mamayang gabi. Kaunti na lang naman ang gagawin ko sa trabaho ngayon, I hope Macky doesn't mind me studying during work hours. I put all my personal stuff sa black backpack ko. Pati na rin ang laptop ko. 'Yung mga reviewer at codal ko naman, nilagay ko sa isang tote bag. I was about to head out nang may nagdoor bell sa unit ko.
#CollisionKab5"Ms. Mercado! You are being incompetent! Get out of my class!" My professor was heaving in anger.Wala na akong ginawa kundi sundin ang utos niya. I'm on the verge of tears and my classmates were looking at me with pity. I looked at Nic and tried to smile, to tell him I'm okay. But I failed. I carried my bag and went out. I kept walking until I got out of the building.I need fresh air.Hindi ko namalayang tumutulo na pala ang mga luha ko.I'm fucking weak.I wasn't raised like this.I'm not born to be a quitter.
#CollisionWakas"Where have you been?" Ian asked, the tip of his cigarette was lit.Amoy ko angbahongsigarilyoatngumuso. Sabi ko nangtumigilsiya sapaninigarilyoe.Masamasa baga.Mackydoesn't allow me to smoke because my voice will be affected, and it's bad publicity. Either way, bad publicity is still publicity. There will be potential profit from the attention people will give me.I didn't answer Ian's question. All I know is that I want to see Rosie. She's been busy lately. Ang hirap na law student siya at artista ako. It's
#CollisionKab19"Austin..." I unconsciously slurred. I woke up, feeling dizzy. Medyo umaalon pa ang paningin ko."Rosie! Thank God!" sabi ni Nic. Worry filled his eyes as he held my hand. He looked at me, a flash of misery reflected on his eyes. Medyo namumula ang mga mata niya ngayon.What...what happened?Kita ko'y nakahiga ako sa isang kama, nakasuot ng hospital gown. Nasa ospital ba talaga ako? Anong nangyari? Pagtingin ko sa aking kamay, may naka-kabit na wiring of some sort. Pati sa ilong ko. I scrunched up my nose, feeling uncomfortable. There's something attached on my index finger too."What happened?" I choked out. Napapaos pa ang boses ko. Kumuha si Nic ng
#CollisionKab18Tahimik ako habang nagfi-fitting. Medyo sumikip na sa akin ang pinili kong gown. Ina-adjust ng tailor ang aking damit sa pamamagitan ng paglagay ng pins. Natutusok ako ng kaunti ngunit hindi ko madama ang sakit.Austin's words keep playing like a broken record at the back of my mind."Because the girl I love is getting married."Did Nic invite him?I decided to text our wedding planner about it.Rosie: Hi! Can you send me the list of guests for the wedding?Tumunog ang phone ko at nakitang may PDF file na sinend. Agad kong binuksan
#CollisionKab17"Ro-I mean, Atty. Mercado," Macky choked out, eyes slightly widening as my heels clicked the floor. I tried to keep my face void of any emotion.Ipakita mong matapang ka, Rosie."I suggest you make an appointment first, Mr. Andrada." sabi ko sa kanya. Sinulyapan ko si Austin na bahagyang nakatitig sa kaliwang kamay ko. That's where my engagement ring is placed. Agad siyang nag-iwas ng tingin. His jaw clenched, fists resting on his forehead while sitting on a chair. Nagtagis-bagang ako.Tanaw kong nakatayo malapit sa kanya si Johnson at Ian. Naka-krus ang braso ni Ian habang tumitig sa akin at nakapamaywang naman si Johnson habang may tinitingnan sa cellphone. Ilang beses kaming na-orient sa da
#CollisionKab16"Are you happy?"Nic wrapped his arms around me as we sat in a bench near the Eiffel Tower. He held my hands and looked at our engagement rings.It's been 4 years. I'm already 26, already a lawyer. I have a fiancé who loves me more than I love myself. I'm about to settle down. Something that Austin could never let me have.He never explained himself.He just kept on saying sorry.And I hated that.I hated him so much.We were walking around the streets of Paris, the cold weather made me shiv
#CollisionKab15Nakakunot ang noo ko habang tinitingnan ang showbiz article mula sa isang magazine site.Ausnee: The COMEBACK you've been waiting for!Yesterday, the power couple was spotted at Ayala Triangle, Public Display of Affection clearly evident!The pictures below seem to make us speechless!Source: Retromag PHParang pinipiga ang puso ko habang tiningnan ang mga litrato sa aking cellphone screen. Magkahawak ang kamay nila. They look happy.But I know this is all fake.
#CollisionKab14"Who's Renee?"I was scrolling through my phone when I remembered the article I read last time. Naisipan kong mag-Google ulit tungkol kay Renee at Austin. A few articles popped up, dating two years ago."Renee? Renee Saragosa?" his brows quirked up. Tumango ako at niliitan siya ng mata.Austin and I were waiting for our order in an Italian restaurant here in Makati. Lunch break ko at tinext ko siya upang magkita kami. Gusto sana namin sa BGC kaso malayo at baka ma-late pa si Austin sa kanyang interview. Medyo marami kasi siyang fans na nagpapapicture 'pag lumalabas kami sa dito sa Makati. Lumalayo na lang ako 'pag may lalapit sa kanya. Ayokong makaabala.
#CollisionKab13Austin and I flew back to Manila the night on our third day. We just ate and enjoyed the waters. Nag sight-seeing din kami kasama ang isang tour guide. Ayaw kong magka-misunderstanding ulit si Macky at Austin kaya pinilit ko siyang huwag magpost ng pictures. He hesitated at first, pero bumigay rin sa gusto ko. Para na rin iyon sa ikabubuti niya kasi.Napapasyahan kong dalhin siya sa bahay sa araw pagkatapos ng aming pagbalik. Gusto ko muna siyang ipakilala kay Manang bago tuluyang ipakilala kay Mom and Dad. Alam kong wala pa sila sa bahay kaya ngayong week ko siya ipapasyal doon."Are you sure?" nag-aalangang tanong ni Austin. Gamit niya ang dalawang kamay sa pagmamaneho habang diretsahang nakatingin sa daan.
#CollisionKab12Warning: R-18 - Mature Content"Did you know, love..." Austin lazily trailed off while analyzing the chess board.We were playing chess in a couch near a pool. The beach is just right in front us, waves slowly retreating from the sand. So far, maganda naman ang laro namin. I always play chess with Anthony when we were younger. Sobra niyang galing dito eh, lagi akong talo. Pero nahawa naman siguro ako sa kagalingan niya. King at bishop na lang ang natira kay Austin, habang queen, king, isang rook at pawn ang sa akin."...A queen is much stronger than his king." pagpapatuloy niya. He licked his lips and looked at me. I smirked. Na-trap ang bishop niya sa rook at pawn ko. I moved