A dream about Parker woke me from the most restful sleep I’ve gotten in a while. Being wrapped in Wyatt's arms feels safe, but guilt settles in my chest as my fingers run up and down his arm. I frowned, suddenly feeling hesitant about moving forward with Wyatt so quickly. I knew that we had been building a relationship long before Parker passed, but it’s still so fresh. In my dream, Parker was still alive. I felt him. Not just physically, but his presence. It felt more than a regular dream, but not immersive like my future telling dreams. I watched from afar while he played with Helena in the yard of the house that we built together. She was a toddler. Parker chased her around while she ran screaming happily. I felt a stray tear roll down my cheek thinking about the dream. Helena will never have those moments with her father. She never even got to know him. That chance was stolen from the both of them. It makes my heart hurt to think about everything that we lost. I
The two of us agreed and quickly headed out to the car that was waiting out front of the packhouse. As we were driving out of the pack lands, we passed by the Blue Lake. “Can we stop really quickly?” Wyatt nodded, pulling the car off to the side of the road. I rushed out, looking down over the edge of the hill. The lake was truly beautiful. Something that you would buy a photograph of and put it above your couch in your living room. The way the sun glistened off of the deep, blue water was breathtaking and so peaceful. Large birds dipped low, their wings nearly touching the top of the water as they flew. A family of turtles sat on the shore line basking in the sun. I pulled out my phone, snapping a picture of the lake, but I didn’t like the angle. I sat down, leaning back, and turning the phone sideways. Looking at the new photo, it was perfect. I bit my bottom lip, “Would you..... take a picture with me?” Wyatt tilted his head and a wide smile spread acro
I watched as Kai carried Felicity away, my heart shredding into pieces. The burning pain in my soul was unimaginable. Ash howled in pain, making my head throb. I knew I was dying. It’s such an interesting feeling. The pain from the arrow was nothing compared to the feeling of knowing that my life was over. That I would never see my daughter grow up. That I would never hold Felicity again. The rain had long stopped and I’d gathered enough strength to drag myself behind a fallen tree, hoping that at least I could die in peace. I silently prayed to the Moon Goddess to take care of Helena and Felicity in my absence. I felt dampness on my cheeks, but I don’t have the energy to wipe it away. I lay back in the mud, staring down at the hole in my chest. Black spidering veins crawled from the wound. My skin had grown ashen and it was getting harder and harder to breathe. Each breath felt like someone lit a torch in my lungs. ‘I’m sorry, Ash. I wish you could have had more
I’ve been trying to think of a plan to find the imprisoned wolves, but my mind does not want to work with me. I’m supposed to be the Beta, second in command, and my stupid brain won’t cooperate. ‘At least we both agree that your brain is stupid,’ Dex muttered. I rolled my eyes. He’d become increasingly annoying lately. It’s been difficult on both of us giving Felicity the space that she needs to move on. The second that the bond snapped into place, Dex wanted to take her and mark her. Holding back has taken a new level of restraint that I didn’t know I had. I ran my hands through my hair in frustration. I wanted to help her. I wanted to help free the wolves. I just didn’t know how to do that safely. Elenore has her place of business locked down in every way imaginable. It doesn’t help that Felicity left for her “date” with Vincent about twenty minutes ago. I’ve thought about crashing it, but I know how important it is to her to have Blue Lake as an ally. Bu
Maleigha nodded, sniffling again. “Felicity and I are fated mates. She had a dream, about the future, where we were getting intimate," I exhaled a heavy breath, "and Vincent was taking pictures of us.” I watched the blood drain from her face. She stood in front of us pale and wide eyed. “Oh. My. Goddess. I am so ashamed. I came in here the other night, in front of Felicity, and tried to come on to you," she gasped, shaking her head and pacing, "You guys are mates. What have I done? I’m so sorry for being so disrespectful....” Maleigha rambled on. “Felicity is an amazing she-wolf. She understands that our situation is less than conventional, and I’m sure she will hold no ill will." Maleigha nodded, sniffling, but looking unconvinced. The door to the suite swung open, “Wyatt, I need.....” Felicity stopped, seeing everyone gathered around the television. I rushed over, pulling her in for a tight hug and kissing her on the top of her head. Every moment that she'd spent
I woke up early this morning, tangled in Wyatt’s arms. The weight of what happened last night hit me like a ton of bricks. I love Wyatt. I’m in love with this perfect man, who accepts me as I am. Flaws and all. But grief is a funny thing. One moment, I’m able to smile, remembering the life that I got to share with Parker, and the next moment, my heart aches, missing him deeply. I chose to give myself to Wyatt last night, out of pure love. I wanted him. I wanted to share that part of me with him. But before last night, Parker was the only man who I’d shared myself with wholly. I don’t regret it. Not even in the slightest. I just hope that Wyatt doesn’t look down on me for moving on so fast. I guess it’s not even really moving on. It’s moving forward, because a piece of my heart will always remain with Parker. I almost asked him to mark me last night. I feel my cheeks heat, thinking about it. ‘When are you going to let me out to get a piece of Dex?’ Iris whi
A huge smile spread across his face, “And I am madly, deeply, and unequivocally in love with you, Felicity Donovan.” He grabbed my hand, lacing our fingers together as we walked through the trees quietly. “So, what’s your favorite color?” he turned his head, studying me. “That’s a tough choice. Probably green. But not just a plain green, a deep, emerald green. I don’t think I’ve seen much of it in person, but there are forests with some of the most beautiful greens. What is yours?” “Noted. I know you’re probably going to think this is cliché, but blue, like the color of your eyes. You have this deeper blue on the outer parts, and then ocean-like blue specks throughout, creating the most interesting blue color I’ve ever seen,” he explained, running his hand through his hair and looking at the ground. I was left speechless at his attention to detail. “They sound so much more beautiful through your eyes.” He stopped turning towards me and tipping my chin to look up at hi
I haven’t seen Elenore since she visited me after I woke up. A guard has delivered food three times a day for the last six days. Ryzen has become a fast friend in here, not that I can particularly speak to anyone else, but he seems like a good guy. From what he’s told me, he left his pack after his mate rejected him for being different. She was the Alpha’s daughter and not interested in a “freak”. He was a peaceful rogue for two years before Elenore found him. He was passing through the area and was stopped by warriors at Blue Lake before being captured and brought here. I found it incredibly suspicious that he was captured after passing near Blue Lake Territory. He told me that Elenore sometimes uses a female to lure her victims, which is what happened to him. Sitting in this room has been isolating. Outside of the occasional conversation with Ryzen, I’ve spent most of my time in my head, thinking about Felicity and Helena. My heart ached for them. I wanted to
The night was finally here and the room was full. People from all walks of life sat at small round tables together. “You look beautiful,” Wyatt whispered in my ear. I decided to wear an all-black sun dress and just enough eye makeup to accentuate my eyes. We opted to keep things fairly casual for the evening. That way, there was no pressure on our new members. Many came here with next to nothing, and didn't want a free handout. Wyatt’s father was sitting at a table chatting with a beautiful vampire. He had a broad smile and she was laughing at whatever it was he was saying. He held Dex in his arms and kept glancing down at him while speaking with the woman.“I think that your father might be smitten.”Wyatt followed my gaze, “Oh yeah, he’s in trouble. Or maybe she’s in trouble.”Kiera joined us, “There are far more people here than I thought,” she whispered, nervously wringing her hands. “You have nothing to worry about. You’re a natural.”She took one final deep breath before taki
“Do we have all of the food prepared for the evening?” Two of the kitchen staff stood before me with clipboards. We were going over everything needed for our welcoming party. We had an overwhelming response once we began sending out invitations for the Safe Haven. At first, it was like a shockwave to the supernatural community. Unheard of in a way. A lot of packs returned our letter, accusing us of trying to steal their members. Some packs asked to come in and see what it was exactly that we were working so diligently on. We had five Alpha’s meeting Kai in total confusion on why we would welcome those of different supernatural races into our pack. ‘Werewolves are supposed to run packs for werewolves!’ they’d say. But in the end, they weren’t why we were making the program anyways and we held no room for their outdated ways. Once we had a few wolves show up, it was like the domino effect. It quickly became apparent that we were not prepared for the task ahead of us. “I believe so
I’ve been trembling with excitement since we arrived. Felicity was sitting on a small bed with a towel on her lap, fidgeting her fingers since the nurse brought us in here. They’d taken a small vile of her blood and we were patiently waiting for the ultrasound tech to come and start looking at our pup. “I hope they hurry up. I’m going to burst here in a moment.”Felicity giggled, leaning down and capturing my lips in a sloppy kiss. A soft knock at the door had her pulling away and in came a young nurse. “Are you two ready to see your fledgling?” she asked with a warm smile. I’ve been calling my pup a kin, or pup, but the correct term is fledgling. The more you know...Felicity leaned back on the table as the nurse squirted jelly on her exposed belly. I grasped Felicity’s hand, squeezing it tightly. My eyes never left the little screen as she placed the wand into the sticky substance. A wiggly bean appeared on the screen causing my eyes to instantly well with tears. That little t
I decided to walk back home slowly, thinking about everything that had happened. I don’t want to believe that Parker is still in love with me. The thought makes me feel dirtied, like I'm betraying Kiera. She deserves his whole heart just as I've given mine to Wyatt.‘Can I come to you?’ Wyatt’s voice floated in my head.‘Sure, I’m walking home from the lake.’Less than thirty seconds later, Wyatt appeared in front of me. I could feel his guilt as he stood there wringing his hands.Closing the distance between us, I wrapped my arms tightly around his body and angled my face to look up at him. “Are you okay?”His arms snaked around my back, pulling me flush to him. One hand rested on the back of my head and the other squeezed my midsection. His chin rested against my hair, “I feel awful for how I acted earlier. Kiera didn’t deserve that."“I’m sure she will forgive you.”His head fell onto my shoulder, “Did you talk with Parker?”“I did.”He pulled away from me, “That’s all I get?”I s
She nodded and he leaned forward, crashing our lips into hers. His hands went into her hair, gripping it tightly. He pulled her closer to us, snaking a hand behind her back. The sparks from their contact were electrifying. ‘You taste like heaven,’ he growled, ‘Better than heaven.’ I typically wouldn’t have given Ash full control but I felt like they needed this moment. She climbed onto his lap and from where I was in his mind, it was like watching a show. Almost like seeing my mate with myself but from the outside, which was an interesting twist. He gripped her sides, positioning her directly on his lap. She leaned forward, capturing his lips in a dominant kiss. He plunged our tongue deep in her mouth and she let out a muffled moan. ‘Will you let me explore you, Kiera? I want to show you just how much you mean to me.’ “Please,” she moaned out. He stood, her legs wrapped around our middle and he carried her to the room. ‘Don’t be too rough,’ I warned. ‘Go away,’
As we ran through the thick foliage, Felicity’s voice was on repeat in my mind. I needed to forgive myself. Let go of the need for control. How does one do that when it is the only thing that they know? ‘The Goddess made Kiera for us. She doesn’t make mistakes,’ Ash muttered. That was only one piece to my puzzle. How do I forgive myself for not being there when my parents needed me? When Felicity needed me? When..... I needed me? Ash followed Kiera’s scent back to our house and I silently thanked the goddess that she still came home after I had embarrassed her today. He shifted, giving me control. I quickly threw on a pair of shorts and rushed inside. Kiera was sitting on the couch with a packed suitcase. The sight broke my heart. “Are.... are you leaving?” Her gaze met mine and I saw her puffy, bloodshot eyes. She probably hasn’t quit crying since I left the pack house. The thought that I caused that was a suckerpunch to the gut.“I think that would be what’s bes
I found Parker sitting by the same lake that I’d taken him to the first time we talked after he came home. The whole run over here, I tried to think of what I was going to say, but in all honesty, the shock hadn’t worn off. There was never a moment where I would have considered Parker still harboring such deep feelings for me. The air coming off of the lake was bitter, even for myself. I walked over, sitting down next to him on the embankment. We sat in silence for what felt like forever before Parker spoke up, “I come here sometimes to think. It’s peaceful,” he chuckled sadly, "Just like you'd said before. Who would of thought you were always right?"I smiled, looking over the dark expanse of water, “It’s my favorite place within the pack lands.” “Why did you come to find me?” he questioned, sparing me a sideways glance. “It sounds like we need to talk,” I whispered. Part of me still didn’t know how to approach this situation. I didn’t want to hurt Parker. That was never
When I heard all of the crashing coming from down the hall, I never imagined we’d be walking in on this. Parker being held back by Kai. Wyatt was leaned against the wall spitting blood. Wyatt shook his head with a smirk, his eyebrows raised, “Are you really going to make me tell her?” “Fill me in here. What is going on?” Wyatt chuckled, looking directly at Parker, “He’s still in love with you and is pissed that you turned.” A snort escaped his throat as he spit blood again, swiping the drips that had slid down from his nose, "What a fucking joke."My gaze fell on Parker and he looked absolutely devastated. I thought that we had been through this. We talked by the lake. He had given me a small ounce of doubt, but I was under the impression that we had worked through it. “Is this some kind of joke?” Kiera whispered. Tears filled her bright green eyes as she stared at Parker waiting for him to contradict what Wyatt was saying. I could hear her heart rate increase. She was hol
I slammed my fist into the opposite wall, “What’s my problem?" I seethed, "I don’t know, Wyatt. Ever since you walked into Felicity’s life, you have fucked things up.” He looked at me, a mix of anger, hurt, and confusion in his features, “What the fuck is that supposed to mean?” “You destroyed my relationship with Felicity. We were mates, that was supposed to be sacred, but you used your mate bond to destroy what we had. You play daddy to my daughter," I slammed my finger into my chest feeling the emotions inside tryng to explode, "You continuously put my family in danger. Time and time again. You’re not even a werewolf anymore for Goddess' sake and now... now you’ve managed to turn Felicity. You stole her identity. She was perfect. A beautiful she-wolf and now she’s a filthy bloodsucker.... just like you.” Kai’s eyes were wide when I finished my rant but Wyatt just stood there, smirking. “Are you still in love with Felicity?” was the only thing that came out of his mouth.