LOGINShare
I'm not coming back
Last Updated:
2024-10-29 19:42:56Rainn
The next morning I found myself out in the back open garden of the pack house, wearing my fitness tights and sports bra as I stood hammering my fists against the punching bag, which was hanging from the tree closest to the forest border.
I swung at it delivering blow after blow as I kicked up high, the rage of my betrayal was driving me as the hurt of what I had done to Kai was searing right through me.
Training always helped me to center myself somehow, and I needed it now more than anything. The sweat droplets were running down my face and all the way down my cleavage as I delivered blow after blow, all I wanted was to get his face out of my head right now. I wanted to forget about his scent, his touch and everything that drew me right into him.
I wanted to forget about how my heart ached for him in a way I had never experienced before, the feeling that had begun to consume me so badly that all I wanted was for him to come march
Related chapters
Children of Gaia Denial kills the soul
Rainn Kai dropped me off after insisting he buy me that dress for tomorrow, I know I should be happy, ecstatic right… isn’t that what turning eighteen and marking your mate meant to be all about… But as I walked through the front door to the pack house I couldn’t help but feel like my feet had become as heavy as lead, even all the decorations I saw all around me, from a happy birthday banner with my name and Kai’s. To the streamers and decorated tables and crockery and cutlery already set out and awaiting the morning to come, the balloons were already in the process of being strung and the Dj booth was set up and ready for the party we had been anticipating excitedly as we had been planning this event and ceremony since we were fourteen. Everything was coming together as pack members worked around the clock to get things set up for tomorrow, I should be excited but I wasn’t, I just wanted to go upstairs and crawl into bed, throw t
Children of Gaia Best friends tell the truth
Rainn I woke up the next morning to a racket from somewhere downstairs, the commotion was irritating my ears as I finally opened my eyes to wipe the sleep from them. What the hell was going on downstairs, I thought. And as I stumbled out of my bed I stared at the white dress that was gingerly draped over my desk chair, sighing I cringed at the realization that it was indeed the next morning, it was my birthday. I decided to go and have a shower; I felt like someone would feel who had a hangover. Because my eyes hurt, my head was pounding and my body ached. All in all, I felt like I had been run over by a bus, on my eighteenth birthday, cringe. After my shower I decided to get dressed in the white summer dress Kai had bought me, it was absolutely beautiful and hugged my tiny figure beautifully. I dried my hair and allowed it to hand down straight to my shoulders, the brown of it however looked so dull today
Children of Gaia My fated mate
Rainn I looked everywhere I thought he could be, I had asked everyone and no one had seen him all day, which was strange. He was meant to be helping my dad with setting up the speakers today but just never showed up, which was completely unlike him to do. I was starting to get really worried when I checked my watch and it was already 5:35 pm, where the hell was Beau? As I pulled up to the packhouse I could already see a lot of pack members start to arrive, the music was pumping and the lyrics falling to pieces booming in the background. Fitting I thought for a moment before stammering through the front door, “Hi Rainn, um- aren’t you meant to be getting ready for your party? Everyone’s starting to arrive, I’m sure Kai will be along soon,” and my brows furrowed as I looked up at my dad’s Beta, didn’t he know about Kai and me, surely Kai would have told his parents by now that he was fated to Fala wouldn’t he? “Um, Jon, ha
Children of Gaia Chosen to be together
Rainn I heard a soft knock at my door followed by a slightly louder one, the door handle turned but of course, I had locked the door last night, “Rainn, honey… are you awake?” Mum’s voice came through as both concerned and curious. Sighing I yawned as I stretched my arms, “Yes mom, I’m awake now,” I said as a matter of fact. “Oh good, well I’m making pancakes in five minutes. Maple syrup, you’re favorite,” and a small smile spread across my face. She was worried about me, clearly, everyone noticed my absence last night, I would have hoped that Kai might have filled them in on where I had gone, but I couldn’t be sure. So as I stretched out in front of me I soon realized that both my arm and leg were draped across a warm, hard body. As I lifted my head over to the place of this warmth I stared into the most gorgeous green eyes I had ever seen, my smile grew wider with the realization that last night had not been a dream, a
Children of Gaia On heat
Beau and I made our way out the front door of the packhouse, and honestly, it was really difficult not ripping each other’s clothes off. Last night had been incredibly special to us both, Beau had been so gentle and took such care in making love to me, so scared he would hurt me but he never did. It was a moment I would cherish with me forever, but it seemed that right now the thought of being gentle when it came to touching each other was the last thing on our minds. I felt this almost animalistic carnal instinct take over wanting nothing more than to completely become consumed by my mate, I wanted him to take me in a way that would make my mother blush and my father probably want to kill him. But that was what I wanted, I needed him in that way and with all the pressure now surrounding us regarding our coronation into becoming the new alpha and luna of the children of Gaia in two days, it was even more important now for us to become completely absor
Children of Gaia Pressures of a title
Rainn I woke up to find Beau’s arms snaked around my naked form and I couldn’t help but smile a smug sense of contentment as I did so, we didn’t get much sleep last night and how could we, it seemed each and every time my body even slightly moved against Beau it would send sparks flying which would only get us both all excited. By the early hours of the morning I had lost count of how many times we had gone at it, my body was aching but luckily being a shifter meant that our bodies recovered quickly. It was already noon and we were still in my bedroom, tomorrow would signal our coronation ceremony which would mean that all other pack members and those part of Gaia would also attend, looking down at the palm of my hand I gently ran my fingers across the Gaia symbol that was present there, I had been born with it which mother and father said was a great privilege as the only other woman who had been born with this symbol had been my grandmother.
Children of Gaia I hate goodbye's
Rainn I sat back against a tree in the forest after shifting into my human form, I was so pissed off right now because I knew that regardless of what I said or did to protest against becoming queen, the truth was I had very little choice unless I had someone to take my place. And as there weren’t too many Gaian’s born with the symbol, it kind of left me stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Suddenly I felt his presence before he even made it known, Beau came up to me and without speaking went to sit down beside me as he leaned against the same wide tree. He sat there for a while without saying a word, I appreciated that about him, he wasn’t pressing me for anything, he merely allowed me to be. Finally, I couldn’t stand the silence any longer, “You know what this will mean right,” and it wasn’t so much a question to Beau as it was me trying to come to terms with it myself. “You were born with the symbol Rainn,
Children of Gaia This changes things
Kai It was a two-hour drive back to tribe Fianna, the last time I made this drive a few days ago was with Rainn by my side. We had been so sure that we were mates, so sure that we would always be together. We had come to fetch Fala from tribe Fianna to hopefully find her true mate, and here I was bringing her back as her true mate. To say that I was slightly nervous to meet Alpha Burton was an understatement, but with his strange disappearance, my own anxieties were of little worry right now. I could see the deep worry and concern laced all over Fala’s face, my beautiful mate. I still couldn’t believe that she was mine, I missed Rainn, of course, I would, she was my best friend. But Fala I mean come on, she’s my fated mate and I’m already falling head over feet in love with her. What’s not to love, she’s everything I could ever desire in a mate. She’s kind, caring, gentle, sweet, and let’s not forget, she’s fucki
Latest chapter
Children of Gaia He's going to die
RAINN It's the next morning and I haven't seen Beau, he never came home last night after he stormed out of the pack house. I can't remember ever seeing him so upset, and yes, I know I messed up big time. Laying in bed I'm in no mood to even get up, I know I have a lot to do today, there's pack business to attend to, tribe rituals to adhere to, and in the mix of all the chaos, I'm weirding out over some guy I'm connected whom I don't even know. And on top of all of what's already so overwhelming, I had to find Beau's tipping point, kissing Kai... I'm so stupid, why would I even do something like that? I love Beau with all my heart and soul, kissing Kai was a stupid mistake, a moment in which I stumbled. And why? Closure for something I had with him since I was born, something I thought would always be ours. The moment I looked into his eyes and saw the gutwrenching pain in them, I instantly felt guilty for the happiness I had with Beau. I acted and he reacted, the only thing I felt w
Children of Gaia The truth about
Rainn The moment Kai and I barge into the packhouse I'm literally feeling like I can't breathe, I'm clutching on to the drawing we just dug up, a picture I drew when I was just a kid, the most startling part is the name attached to it, Groban. As if sensing my distress, Beau comes rushing out of the kitchen in an instant with Fala right behind him, she looks a mess, her perfect pixie-like complexion tells me that she's been crying, but I can't focus on that right now because it feels like I'm about to have an out of body experience at any second. You know the moment you realize that you've known about something far longer than you thought you had, but that somehow you had just forgotten about it, yeah it's like that except worse. I feel like puking as I fall into Beau's arms, not being able to even get out one single word. It's Kai who ends up speaking because as pissed off as he is right now about the whole Fala situation, I'm the one having the panic attack. "What the fuck is go
Children of Gaia Memories to reality
RainnI find Kai halfway down the dirt road and I start running to catch up to him, I call out to him but he doesn't stop, he's marching off towards his parents' house and I know I have to stop him, he can't go barging in there with his wolf ready to take someone's head off."Kai!" I'm shouting his name now as I pick up the pace, but he's still not stopping or answering me. My wolf feels annoyed and I suddenly start sprinting towards him, and as I'm about to crash into him he swings around to face me which causes me to do just that.My body collides against his hard chest with an oomph as he grips my shoulders to steady me from falling, my eyes fly up to meet his hardened stare on mine."Go home, Rainn, I need to be alone." His voice sounds cold and disconnected and it feels like being punched in the gut to see him in so much pain, "I can't do that, best friends don't leave each other when the other one is hurting." My words come out hopeful, hopeful that he would allow me to be ther
Children of Gaia Blow out
RainnBeau and I made our way downstairs twenty minutes later after we had gone for a quick shower and changed into some fresh clothes, the looks we got from Fala were enough to make me feel completely self-conscious. If not for the fact that my mate was standing right beside me I know I would have completely turned beetroot red."Um, so who wants coffee?"Honestly, I didn't know what else to say, the fact that both Kai and Fala had walked in on Beau and me having sex was more than I could take, not so much Fala but Kai... ah man that was one moment in my life I wanted to erase right there and then."So you guys ready to discuss the reason we're here?" Kai seemed slightly annoyed, more than he was before."Of course, let's get something to drink, coffee, tea?" Beau asked before I even could.It felt really strange having Beau waiting on anyone in the packhouse, but especially his own brother. How things had cha
Children of Gaia A second mark
RainnMy eyes flew up to meet Kai's as my mouth went completely slack, I was trying to read him right now but he seemed so calm, what did he mean that he knows, and are we even talking about the same thing right now. We surely couldn't be talking about the same thing because if we were then he wouldn't be this calm. He would be shouting and screaming at Fala, surely right?"What do you mean, you know?"Kai looked down at me as he smirked, wiping stray tears from my cheek he gently placed a peck against my nose,"Your face goes all puffy when you cry, but you're still the most beautiful girl, you know that?""Stop changing the subject, Kai, what do you know?" My brows furrowed as I pulled my face back to show my point of irritation, sighing he furrowed his brow in response,"I know about the deal Fala made, I know what her mom did, I overheard them talking about it just the other day.""And yet you'
Children of Gaia I know
Rainn The moment we got back to the packhouse, as we laughed and jokingly made our way in through the front doors we were instantly met with curious eyes, the eyes of- "Kai, Fala... what are you two doing here, aren't you meant to be looking for..." My eyes immediately widened in horror as I stared at Fala wide-eyed, "You're dad, he isn't... is he?" Grimacing she shook her head, "No, I mean we still haven't found him, not even a trace. It's like he just vanished somehow." Sensing her anguish I nodded as I gestured for us all to go in toward the kitchen, "Come on, I'll make us all some coffee and tea." Everyone including Beau followed behind me as I led the way, and the moment that I reached up to get the cups off the shelf Beau was right there leaning up further to reach them for me. Huffing I shook my head as I smirked, "Sucks to be short, I swear I keep wanting to move
Children of Gaia Wolves now mated
Rainn It was ridiculous to feel nervous about something like this, I mean Beau and I were already mated right, we had already given ourselves to one another right. So then why did I have a hundred butterflies swirling around in my belly at the very thought of us allowing our wolves to mate with one another, was it because of their animalistic attributes that I suddenly had reservations about the whole thing. Again that was just daft right? So Beau had told me to go ahead into the woods, he wanted his wolf River to come and find Kala because River was all hunter when it came to tracking something down that he really wanted. I decided to not make it easy on River, so I masked my scent splashing droplets of scented lavender and citrus all around the area before finally making my way further and much deeper into the thickest part of the woods. If River was going to find me I wanted it to be based on him working
Children of Gaia Lusting for the damned
Rainn I woke up to find Beau missing from my bed, furrowing my brow I sit upbringing the blanket up to cover my breasts. Wiping the sleep from my eyes I wonder where he could be, I must have passed out cold after last night. The thought of how amazing he was and how connected I felt with him instantly heated up the clenching knot of excitement deep within my core, I love everything about Beau... His smell. His scent. His eyes, nose, lips... his body, tattoos... I felt the fluttering of excitement dance across my skin and immediately needed him, but where was he? At that very moment, the door slowly opened and the man of my dreams suddenly appeared holding a tray with what smelt like- "Pancakes," I breathed as shimmers of gold began floating across the irises of my eyes. A massive grin spread across his face as he took in my form on the bed, "Hey, sleepyhead, I thought I'
Children of Gaia A well of lies
Beau My eyes shoot open to the loud panting beside me in bed, still feeling slightly disorientated I sit up with a start as my eyes land on Rainn, she's sitting upright in bed with her hands wrapped around herself, her eyes wide open and gazing ahead as if she's left the present and replaced it with a reality I can't see. Protectively I stretch out my hand to touch her shoulder, but the moment that she flinches away from me my brows furrow with concern. "Baby, what's wrong?" I exclaim as I stare at the faraway look in her eyes. She isn't there, not really. As her face turns away from me she stretches her hands out in front of her as she begins to mumble something in a language I can't place, not until I lean in closer and realize that the language she's mumbling is Gaian. Immediately grabbing for my phone beside me I begin to record what she's saying, she keeps repeating this one sentence over and over again as she seems t
