SEKANI: Once he was gone, I broke into a bout of tears. I hadn't shed a tear in a long time. These memories hadn't returned since I could last remember. I remembered only crying over Sean and what he had done to me a few times while I was pregnant and while Mya was a baby. After that, I was soon over it, not even getting emotional over Sean and what he did. All it was was pure and unbridled anger. Pure anger seething through me. But right now, it was pain, heartache and shame. Pure contempt and aloneness. Desolation. Once again, I was starting to feel the weight of aloneness over my head. I could barely control it as I cried and cried and cried. Nothing could stop me from feeling this way. Nothing at all. So I remained in my office, cradling my body in my arms, rocking from side to side as I let the sobs rack through my body. And by the time I was done, I pushed to my feet with great resolve. Sean? I was going to move in with him. He was right when he talked ab
SEAN: "Oh, what a mundane world this is!" Jake cried over the phone. I leaned against the pillar close to the front door, my cell phone in my ear as I listened to him speak. I had been rubbing my fingers over my forehead for the past ten minutes, listening to Jake yell about a woman who had dumped gin right after their one-night stand. "It's a man's thing to dump a woman. Why the hell did she dump me after our one-night stand, Sean?" "She was probably running away from any future problems," I shrugged even if I knew he wasn't going to see me do that. "No strings attached, remember? You were probably being too attached on the first night. Who knows? That must have thrown her off." "No! I wasn't! I only asked if we were going to see each other again. I also asked for her contact information and what she was going to be doing next week." "Definitely sounds like you were seeing a future with her." "I only wanted to have sex! Sex!" He snapped and tossed something. I hea
SEAN: "Mya?" I repeated, giving the little girl who had just jumped into the bed a long look. I blinked a few times to be sure I wasn't dreaming and hell, I wasn't. Not at all. I turned to Sekani who looked quite horrified at the sight. Surely, she was also surprised like I was. "Mya?" I repeated again, looking at Sekani this time. She snatched the little girl in her arms, smiling at her and kissing her before taking her out of the bed and leading her out of the room. I followed immediately, tossing the bed covers to the side and jumping out before rushing out of the room. There was something oddly familiar about the little girl scuttling before Sekani and blabbing her cute mouth off. Dirty blond hair, amber eyes, aquiline nose, and a lip fuller than usual. That was me. She looked exactly like me. The beat of my heart against my chest intensified as I kept following after them both. "Sekani!" I called out but she was more concerned about speaking to the little gir
SEKANI: Nothing could have prepared me for this morning. Nothing at all. Last night, I'd been lamenting and mad over the fact that I had to move into Sean's house with him and find a way to still keep Mya a secret, and this morning, I'd woken up to her in our bed. His bed. How did she even find her way into his room? "Missy Juliet," I called out as soon as I got back to the living room. Mya jumped off her and rushed towards me and I held her by the hand, tight enough so she didn't wander off in search of Sean. "I understand how hard things are for you and I profusely apologize for the inconvenience. I would be paying you double of what I usually do if you can either go overseas with my daughter or ask someone else who does the same thing as you to take over. What do you say?" "Mya is going nowhere," Sean spoke behind me with a tone of finality. I turned to see him standing a few steps away from us with both of his hands in his pocket. I'd never seen his jaw set that way
SEAN: Sekani had been moving from side to side the whole time on our ride. She had opted to sit at the back after Mya had taken the front seat, right beside me. I was the happiest man on earth even if I knew fully well that Sekani wasn't. Mya had accepted me immediately! She was a lovely little kid and the awkwardness wasn't even there. It was our first time meeting each other and she was all over me. Not everyone experienced that. I'd expected her to either hate me or just stare at me whilst avoiding me. I'd expected her to get used to me in a few weeks' time as that was what usually happened. But this case was entirely different. She was all over me. She had even asked me to show her a few things on my computer before we set out for this date. "Playground too, Dad?!" She asked in a chirpy voice, looking up at me with my cell phone clutched in her hand. My heart melted into puddles. She was really addressing me as her father. Damn. I wasn't sure I could s
SEKANI: I fiddled with my purse, looking from side to side and trying to remain comfortable. I don't know but all of these made me more uncomfortable. Having a good time with Sean wasn't what I signed up for. Hell, I didn't sign up for anything other than business. It was chilly outside tonight and I checked on Mya to see if she had her sweats on. Thankfully, I hadn't forgotten. I decided I needed the chilliness in my skin for a while before wearing my jacket. I leaned back into the stone chair, feeling the cold seep through the tiny holes of my top and into my skin. Shivering slightly, I laughed to myself before picking my jacket up and slipping into it. Today had been nothing much of a chaotic event. I mean, just for me alone. Mya and Sean seemed to be enjoying every bit of the fun. I wasn't. There was nothing fun in your baby daddy finding out he was a baby daddy to your oblivious five-year-old daughter on the first morning after your contract marriage.
SEKANI: "I told you I could take care of her," Sean spoke from where he stood behind me, close to the door. I'd just tucked Mya into her bed, sitting at the edge and watching her sleep peacefully. Yeah, she had no problem in this world so she had the right to sleep as much as she wanted. It was one thing I envied so much, to be like a child. To sleep without a care in the world, to sleep without my problems at the back of my mind. I softly brushed her hair back before kissing her on the cheek and pushing to my feet. Sean was at the door and he didn't look pleased at all. His scowl deepened and he leaned away from the door. "Can we talk outside for a moment?" "We're going in the same direction. We can talk on our way to the room," I replied in a chirpy tone. I knew very well that he was mad about what I did tonight but I didn't care the least. He couldn't hog Mya for the whole of today, having all her attention directed at him and welcomed into her heart so easily. Wa
SEKANI: I woke up to the sound of giggles and plates clanging in the kitchen. I leaned back, stretching my body like a feline cat while turning away from the saturated morning sunlight that poured into the window. In my anger last night, I'd forgotten that rooms had windows with drapes that were meant to be closed at night, jumping right into bed and now, I was bearing the brunt of it. I leaned back into the bed, waiting for my brain to boot in ten minutes like I usually did every morning, especially when Mya didn't have to wake me first. Memories from yesterday came rushing back. Mya and Sean had gotten along really easily. It made me really uncomfortable. Angry even. How could he be gone for several years, only to be back and snatching the attention of my daughter from me? I knew Mya was his daughter too but I couldn't help logicality right now. I didn't want to be logical. Not at all. Something crashed and I jumped, flying out of the bed and rushing out of the room I
SEAN: I paced from one side of my office to the other, impatiently waiting for a response from the delivery guy I had specially paid to send the package to Sekani. An hour had passed and I was yet to hear from him. At the sound of a knock on the door, I hurried towards it, disappointed to see Jake standing in front of me when I opened the door. "Why do you look at me like I am the last person you want to see today?" "Because you are," I flopped into one of the seats. "What are you doing here?" "I've not seen my best friend in a week. His calls haven't been picked and then I am told that he's here today so I head over to his office to see him, only to be told that I am the last person who wants to see," He clutched his heart in pain. "That hurts really bad, I have to tell you." "How are you doing?" "Good," He took a seat beside me. "With you not around, things have quite been okay, I guess. Everyone respects me when you're not around." "You're being dramatic as
SEKANI: The next morning, I woke up in a daze. I was in torment and that torment was the memories from last night. How did it happen? What had driven me to his study, one I had never stepped foot into since I could last remember? Sean was snoring softly beside me and I wore just panties and nothing on top. I tried not to move for the sake of not waking him up and having to spend the next few moments awkwardly. How could I get his fucking arm off me? It was almost the crack of dawn and the skies were starting to turn into a lighter shade of Ultramarine. Birds were starting to sing and music played softly in the background from Sean's phone. Yes, while we were having several rounds of sex and waking at intervals to his hard crotch between my buttocks, he had stopped to play music to spice up the moment. And it had done the work. After he did that, it was all me instigating it all, ignoring the warnings my brain sent to me. At that moment, nothing made sense. Only having Sean th
SEAN:Mya was fast asleep on the couch when I got to the living room. I picked her up and took her back to her room, placing her on the bed and tucking her in before kissing her forehead goodnight. I stood there at the head of her bed for a while, watching her sleep peacefully. Mya was the reason any of this made sense because I knew I'd have taken my L and found my way. I couldn't deal with the guilt and all of these anymore but how could I just leave when I had a daughter who loved me so much? Knowing that sleep was going to be hard for me to find, I made my way to my study and decided to complete a few tasks. Thankfully, by the time I was going to be done, maybe Sekani would be fast asleep. I didn't want to get into a conversation with her and even if it was going to take just one night of not speaking to each other again, I could survive it. I was ten minutes into finishing up a few documents when I heard the sound of the door clicking open. I looked up to see Sekan
SEAN: Spending the whole day with Mya had been nice, but worrying over Sekani and her whereabouts didn't allow me enjoy it to the fullest. I tried to be the most playful around Mya but I could tell she didn't believe I was. She constantly asks if I was sad until I forced myself to be overly happy. Things you did for the women you loved. I was going to do anything to make Sure Mya was happy. I kept checking Sekani's twitter page to see if she was going to make any post. I was already used to anticipating her posts as I had spent the last five days stalking her page and following whatever was going on in her life. And now that she was out, I found myself doing the same thing. It wasn't until eight o'clock she called me, sounding a little bit drunk. Her words slurred and I got more worried. She was probably calling me because she got lost. I was sure Sekani would never call me now matter what the hell was happening and now that she did, I was kind of happy that she actual
SEKANI: I dressed casually today. It was Sunday and also a beautiful day. And thankfully, I had started my morning on a good note. There was something about going to that cliff that made me realize life could be beautiful and enjoyed. Something about it that reminded me we only lived once. So I decided within myself to spend my weekends doing nothing but having the time of my life. But now, how could I have the time of my life with Sean in it? How could I enjoy it with the reminder that someone who had wronged me in the past was also enjoying it with me? It felt like I was going round and round in circles because hell, I shared Sean to suffer and somehow, I hadn't even achieved a thing that made me proud of the fact that I actually did. Nothing I had planned seemed to work. It was either irrelevant or just something I didn't do. And as I drove out of the gates of the house, I made a mental note to harden my heart. I made a mental note not to look at Mya and decided agains
SEKANI: Sean was quick to catch and stabilize me and when I tried pulling away, he held me from moving and shut the door behind me. Even in the dimly lit room, I could see how his eyes dropped intensely onto mine. I could see how they swirled with so much intensity. "Sekani," He muttered under his breath. "Can we talk now?" "There are several places to talk and you choose this place?" I asked, raising my brows in askance. "Why choose here of all places?" "Let's not act like we don't know you've been avoiding me since my return. This was the only place I could get you," He pulled away from me and folded one arm over the other before turning towards the door. "I haven't been avoiding you," I replied. "I have only been on my own. Doing my own things like I usually do. We have never done anything together and you could have simply told me you wanted to speak to me." He scoffed and raked his fingers through his hair. "Really? When have you ever given me the c
SEAN: "My name is Mya Salvador," Mya spoke slowly and politely. I'd never seen such an active child mellow to my mother and this was the first since she greatly disliked kids. I could tell my grandmother was already in love with her. From the way she smiled and spoke, they both enjoyed a wonderful conversation. So I decided to leave the kitchen in search of Sekani. I made my way over to the living room but it was void of her presence. Whistling, I made my way to the room in a way to alert her that I was coming to see her. But then, I got to her room and didn't see her there. Frowning, I stopped by the door and stared into the room, void of her presence. None of her clothes hung around. No sign of her at all. I walked into the room and took a seat on the side of her bed. I ran my hands on the sheets, imagining she was there and I was caressing her body. I slept beside her last night and yet, she felt so far. So distant. I couldn't reach out to her as I was very scared of b
SEKANI: By the time I arrived home, it was almost dusk and I could already tell that Sean was in the kitchen making dinner once again. Mya was also in the kitchen and as I walked into the house, I heard her chirpy voice in the kitchen, asking Sean all sorts of annoying questions he kept answering her. It was finally nice to have him back. Now, Mya could disturb someone else that wasn't me. Without going into the kitchen as I was avoiding Sean at all costs, I made my way into the room, took off my clothes, and decided that the food I had shared with the girls was enough. And tomorrow was Sunday so there was really nothing to do. I checked the time to see it was a few minutes after seven o'clock. Watching movies on Netflix wasn't a bad idea so I did just that, opening up my laptop and logging in before spending over thirty minutes looking for a suitable movie to watch. Well, I found one. It was a historical romance movie set in France and it was something I could
SEKANI: After what happened last night with me losing my guard, I promised myself not to let it happen again. For a man who had disappeared all of a sudden a week ago, I shouldn't have even let him touch my skin. It was a mistake and I wasn't going to let it repeat itself. After breakfast, I went back to the room we shared, got cleaned up, and slipped into a sundress. I had a day out with Yuri, Amelia, and Toni. It had been months since we last hung out and now that our schedules finally aligned with no one sick or tired, as snatched up the opportunity and decided to hang out. We were going to be having a picnic at the beach and Toni had taken that upon herself, asking me to come along with bottles of wine. I took my toke today, applying skincare and light makeup before putting on my jewelry and snatching my handbag from the shelves in the walk-in closet built into Sean's room. When I got to the living room, Mya was seated on the beanbag with Sean on the floor besid