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14. Leaving Him Behind
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I was up already, headed up to the kitchen, and made us a coffee.
What am I doing here?
I felt like I was digging my own hole. I should've been left alone. I was falling already for Brenton. With Collin, it was a puppy love, that grew into marriage over the years. When it all fell apart, I ended up in a loony bin.
God! I should've stayed away from him. I was not sure I could survive if we fell apart.
I looked into his bedroom, and he was still sleeping with his backside up.
Shit! I'm gonna miss him.
I quickly changed, got my purse and my phone. I saw his sketchbook. And start writing my note.
Dearest Brenton,
Please forgive me. But I can't do this, it's too much for me. I fear for my life should anything happen to us. I will cherish the time we had together. I thank you for bein
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