My head feels as if it has collided with a bus. Why did I drink so much, when did I drink so much? I am just going to lay here for another five minutes; then I will go hunt for some painkillers
"The painkillers are next to you."
"What the fuck."
Is sit up straight; since this was the first night I stayed with Luke, I am not sure if this is my bed or not. I am leaning towards no.
"Did I say that out loud?"
"Yes, you did."
"Fuck."
"Do you make a habit of it?"
"A habit of what?"
"Saying things out loud?"
"Yes, it can be a bit awkward at times."
I try to sum up the situation. I have definitely got no clothes on; I look at Luke, he is naked from his waist up, I wonder what is happening from the waist down.
"If you ar
...Tyler POV..."You just missed them, Tyler.""Was it her?""Yes, she was with Luke.""For fuck sakes.""Do you know where they were off too?""Something about her meeting her mother in town.""Her mother is dead."Just as I pull onto the main road into town, I see them in the rearview mirror going out of town from the linin sho."Where are they?""You just missed them.""Where are they going?""They are going to Luke’s house.""For fuck sakes. He is dead."I met this woman; in fact, woman is not enough to describe how exquisite she is. I found her in her car on the side of a deserted road in a wedding dress, listening to Brittney with no gas in her tank.
I have been back for a month now. My relationship with Tyler is going absolutely nowhere. Although he has attempted it a couple of times, he can still not say it. He phones regularly to have phone sex, but otherwise, I do not really see him. I wish he would just come around now.My perfect life is not turning out to be so perfect after all. I am still staying with Luke, whom I have grown quite fond of, a friendship fond of way. I must admit it has been really hard not to lose myself in him.Work has not so great either, I have lost inspiration, and I have no actual sexual experience to write about. There is only so much phone sex and kissing you can have before it becomes boringThere is a town fare thing happening in Tyler's town today, and we have been invited. I think it is Tyler's excuse to check up on me and see what my relationship with Luke is like"You have no idea how that thing is making my
So I have just landed my ass into jail, and I do not regret it the least bit. Given the chance, I would do it again; the next time, I will break something more permanent. The only thing I do regret is sitting next to me, Luke. He did not want me to spend the night here alone, so he punched Tyler; I must say there is a part of me that enjoyed it."Jenna, please lay down on my lap and get some rest.""But what about you, Luke?""I am fine. I am worried about you.""I am sorry.""Don't be; she had it coming.""But now you stuck in here with me.""I was not going to leave you in here alone.""What is going to happen to us?""We will find out in the morning. Now lay down."I lay my head down on Luke's lap. His one hand is resting on my side; the other is caressing my cheek. His hand is soft and gentle; it is sending a warm feeling throughout my body, it is not the warmth you get from a blanket but the warmth you get fr
When I wake up, I am alone in Luke's bed. I lied to Tyler yesterday; I never did have sex with Luke; last night was the first time. We should not have, but we did. The hardest part now is not to face each other; it is me having to face Tyler. I have broken the trust that Tyler has in me; even though we are apart, it has never really sunk into my head yet.Making my way downstairs, I get to the kitchen; Luke is not here either. He has left a note; even before I read it, my head goes into a flat spin. Has he left me, is he running away from me, is he avoiding me, can he really not face me? Then it hits me hard in my chest; I can almost not breathe, he regrets it.I prepare myself for the worst and open the note."If you are reading this, it is means I am not here."I do not want to read the rest of it; I crumple it up and toss it to the bin. The part of me that cares about Luke rips apart from my heart and shatters. I drop to the cold kitchen floor and curl
I wake up with a pounding headache; it feels like my head is about to explode. I try to push my body off the bed, but everything is spinning. Exploding and spinning, I definitely had too much wine to drink. Most of the night is a total blur to me; I do not even want to know what Luke and I got up to, emphasis on up, we definitely had sex. I am pretty sure he is going to make me remember.Luke is lying next to me; he looks so peaceful in his sleep; there is nothing like having a sexy man in your bed. He probably does not feel half as bad as I do. I am not going to wake him up just yet; instead, I cuddle up next to him, with my head resting on his chest. Why am I cuddling with him; he should not be in my bed to start with. But I do it anyway; it does not take .long for me to fall asleep again.Then I have the most awful nightmare, almost like it is real. It sends fear and panic throughout my body; a cold sweat settles over me. In my dream, Tyler walks in on Luke and me,
It's is eleven in the morning, three bottles down, and I am still going. I am well on my way down a road of self-destruction, self-pity, a lot of feeling sorry for myself, playing the victim. One word sums me up perfectly, both physically and mentally, fuckedAnd do I learn my lesson?No!"Hey, gorgeous.""Luke! Are you having a drink with me?""Yes."I watch him and I can see the hurt still in his eyes."Luke.""Yes?""I am sorry I threw you out. I was just pissed off at the both of you.""Forget about it, just as long as you are okay.""Not really, but the wine is working. Best you catch up; it's no fun being drunk by yourself."I hand Luke the bottle of wine, and he pours a glass for himself, then he turns to me, "Jenna.""Yes?""Tyler was wrong when he said I have no feelings for you.""I know."Without hesitation, his hands come up to frame my face, by my jaw, tilting
It's nighttime when I wake up; Tyler insisted that I sleep for a bit; it seems that a bit has turned into the entire afternoon. Only when I turn around to lay on my back is when I notice that he is curled up next to me. My heart drops; I have missed this; I have forgotten how peaceful and irresistible he looks while he is sleeping. There is so much that I have missed out on; why did I ever doubt this man. I need to stop this thing with Luke. I must fix us, Tyler and me. I must make his heart whole again. I lean over and give him a peck on his cheek. He looks at me with a sneaky smile, "Is that all I get?" "What else did you want?" "Maybe just a little bit of tongue." "Is this your attempt to talk dirty?" "Yes." "You suck at it." "I can think of something else you can suck." "Tyler!" He lets out a rather nervous laugh and looks me straight in the eyes, Just messing with you. I think we got
For the next hour, I fight this internal battle with myself, trying to come to terms with what it is that I want. By the time we reach the city, I have come to my decision."I will give you time to say bye to Luke; a hug is fine, but kissing and touching, then I kill him. I am sorry if you think that I am telling you what to do and that I am too hard on you; you have a lot of fixing to do, that is, if you want to stay with me.""I want to stay with you.""Let's go get your stuffWhen we pull into the driveway, we are faced with Luke standing outside by his car. At first, he smiles when he sees me; as soon as he sees Tyler, his smile fades."I will go inside and fetch your things. I don't want any fucking funny stuff.""Okay."When I get up out of the car, Luke walks up to me; he briefly faces Tyler, "Morning, Tyler.""Yes, Luke. I will break your fucking hands if you don't keep them to yourself."Luke turns away from Tyl
Today is my day. Today is the day that fairytales are made of. Today is the day that dreams are made of. I have been planning for this day for months. I have dreamt of this day for weeks. Today is a new beginning. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life Today is my wedding day. My name is Jenna Davis. Today I am marrying the love of my life. Tyler Moore. Standing at the edge of the carpet that leads to the alter, I am gripped with the same feelings I felt when I decided to abandon my husband to be a year and a half ago. I have before experienced excitement and yet been more terrified at the same time as I do now This time I am sure, this time I want to marry the man waiting at the altar for me. Everything else except Tyler and me has now seized to exist, for, in less than a few minutes, my fairy tale will come true.
Back at the station, I find Tyler waiting for me with a big smile on his face."What are you smiling at?""Nothing.""I know that smile.""I'm just happy.""You are more than just happy.""I don't have a deputy anymore.""So you have told me.""It is only us here.""So I have noticed.""Since you going to be my new deputy, you need to be sworn in.""I told you I know that smile.""I will lock the door.""We both know you are lying.""And I have a bed in my office now,""Why the fuck do you have a bed in your office.""There were some nights I could not drive home.""Yes, so I have been told.""Fuck. Sandra needs
For almost a year, I have been stuck in moments. Most of these moments were moments that changed my life. All because I decided to become a runaway bride.I got stuck on the side of a godforsaken road.I got rescued by an incredibly hot as fuck stranger.I kissed the incredibly hot as fuck stranger.I fucked the incredibly hot as fuck stranger.I had sex with the incredibly hot as fuck stranger.I made love to the incredibly hot as fuck as a stranger.And then he was not the stranger anymore; he was Tyler.Tyler, the man I fell in love with.Tyler, the man I shared a bed with.Tyler, my lover.Tyler, my p
Long after the sun has set, we sit in silence. There are so many thoughts that are going through my mind. How so many things could have been different if I did not start my thing with Luke. I should have known better, but yet I was foolish and immature.I have not only ruined my own life but this man that is sitting next to me. Sandra is right, he is still a mess. He has always been bad at hiding things."When are you leaving again?""Tomorrow morning once everything is loaded.""Your car has been towed to town.""Thanks. I will let the truck drop me off there once we on the road.""I can drop you off, but then it means I am going to have to stay here tonight.""There is a problem with that.""What is that?""There is only one bed. The other one is on the truck.""I will sleep on the couch.""The couch is on the truck.""For fuck sakes.There was a time in our relationship that we would jump t
With that, I climb into the truck before I start pissing my eyes out. Tyler follows, and we get back on the road"So you really have not been speaking to Luke?""The last time I spoke to him was the day I left.""Why did you not go to him?""He
It is nearly six months since the day that I had to leave Tyler. Luke still has not stopped phoning me. I want to answer just to tell him to stop, but that would be like giving into him. I do have another problem, in any case."Hey, girl.""Hey Sandra""How are you doing?""I am nervous.""I promise you that I will make sure that you do not bump into either one of them.""But Luke is going to see the truck.""Don't worry; I will make something up.""Okay, then. I am leaving in a few minutes.""Fantastic; I can't wait to see you again."I really hope that I won't regret this.I sold my place by Luke; I want all the furniture that Tyler made for me, and only I know what needs to be loaded on that truck that is coming to my ranch. So I am once again making my
It's been a month now that I am in my own place. It is not in the city; it is outside in the country, far away from all the craziness. My closest neighbor is miles away. The only time I get in contact with another person is when I go to the grocery store every week. I prefer being all by myself in nature every day. Guess that is Tyler that made me crave life this wayI still speak to Sandra every day. Guess it's my way to catch up on the gossip around town. It is not like anything is interesting going on around here"Hey, Sandra.""Hey, girl. How is life on the ranch?""I finally learned how to ride a horse.""I know of someone that would be proud of you.""How are things there?""Michael left town yesterday.""Shit, I am sorry.""I am glad he did. That whore is already circling her next prey."
...Tyler POV...Jenna is tormenting my dreams. I cannot stop thinking about her, I know that I should be so mad at her but she still captivates me. The desire to have her in my arms and ease the pain away lays so deep within me.So as with so of these endless nights now I fall asleep with tears drying out my now red eyes. As I close my eyes I see, her. I see her step through my bedroom door.The moment she step through the bedroom door, it is as if passion and lust collide. Without any urging, she removes every part of cloth that is covering the parts of my body that she so desires. I make absolute haste in ripping her clothes off, which hinders me from what I am going to take.I reach my hand to her chin and look into her eyes. Her tender blue eyes are like bottomless pools, pleading and hesitant. Her eyes telling me all I need to know, she wants me, and she will have me in any way that she can."I have missed you," I softly whisper in her ear.
...Tyler POV...As I see her drive out the driveway, the tears that have been threatening to consume my eyes and edge their way down my face come rolling with such great force. The raging anger that is suffocating every corner of my body lets loose like a beast. As far as my feet take me into the room, every single object that finds itself in my path shatters in pure brute force against the wall. The very bed that we made love on is torn to shreds until there is nothing but small pieces of fabric scattered over the floor. The chair she sat on where she so elegantly took those red stilettos off, finds its way through the window, glass shattering into fragments of nothing. I ram my fist with a hatred so raw in the mirror where she watched her reflection, hundreds of pieces cutting at the skin of my hand.I lay complete destruction to everything that is and was a part of her until I can say that for now, for this minute, I shall be rid of any thought of her. And when she