Am i still alive? Do i still really want to be alive? I don't think so.
I opened my eyes slowly. The first thing that i feel is pain. Pain everywhere. My head, my legs, my stomach.
I turned my head slightly to the side and that small movement shocked everyone in this room like they were expecting me to not wake up anytime soon.
"Bambi..." a familiar voice called me. I blinked my eyes again for a couple time. My visions are blurry and i can't see clearly just yet. But then, that person held my hand and moved his head closer to me. Our forehead touched. "Ah... You're finally awake."
"W-what happened?" I asked. My voice cracked and sounded rugged. Then i looked around, Elle and Shane are also here, in the corner of the room, watching me and Greyson, but they decided to give us our own space. Elle looked sad and happy at the same time that it seems weird.
Then, a memory, or what seems more
Is this all?Life. That is such a meaningful word isn't it? When you hear that word, it feels so meaningful. Turned out, this is all.My life is nothing but sadness. Problem comes one after another.I stayed at the hospital for 4 weeks since one of my rib got injured pretty bad as well. But now i am being treated at Greyson's penthouse. Greyson got some doctors and nurses here in the building to treat me. I don't even want to know if i ever gonna heal or not.I sleep in another room now cause clearly sleeping next to Greyson is the last thing i want to do.This morning, a nurse opened the door and placed food on the bed side table. She was doing some basic check up when i saw the door opened quietly from the corner of my eyes. I don't have to turn my head to know who that is. Greyson comes to my r
"Bambi." I heard a woman's voice. Someone familiar. Someone i truly loved. Mom.She caresses my cheek as i lay on her lap."Mom?" I whispered. I blinked a couple of time. I know this is just a dream. "Mom, i miss you.""Honey..." she smiled softly, now stroking my hair. "I truly miss you too.""Mom," i paused as i started to cry and sat up. "I hate my life. I don't like who i've become." I looked at her with my teary eyes.Her expression doesn't change. She still has that soft smile on her face. "Honey... you should be grateful cause you're still alive."It just seems very eerie. She is still smiling as blood started to appear through her white dress."N-no no no..." i pushed my hands to her now bleeding chest, trying to stop the bleeding. Nothing could've saved her from this gunshot. "No no no! Please no!"
I woke up to the sound of people in my room. I could tell it was early in the morning. The sun is still low on the horizon. I blinked my eyes to adjust my vision to the lights. There were some maids going through the wardrobe and putting my stuff to a trolley."Hai?" I broke the silence. There are three woman in my room and now they are all looking at me."Oh, sorry ma'am, did we wake you up?" One of them replied."W-what are you guys doing with my stuff?" I sound very sleepy cause maybe i am."Mr. Greyson told us to move your stuff to the master bedroom.""What?" I asked still half awake. "No.. please just leave my stuff where they belong." I asked nicely."No..." A voice said. Greyson is leaning on the door frame with his arms crossed. "You don't get to tell them what to do."Seems like the helpers have collected all my stuff and now they are walking out of the room quietly, leaving me and G
All my stuff are packed. That morning, someone had prepared me a sleeveless dress to wear. It's a beautiful silk white dress and white cardigan.We head to the airport in no time and stopped at the private jet departure area. We got on the place and i truly wished Elle and Tina would be there as well in the same flight but they're not.I could tell anyone would see how disappointed i was cause i literally ran up the stairs to get into the jet. I took a seat and Greyson took the seat right across me.He is wearing a buttoned up black polo and khaki pants. Proper, but not business trip proper."Where are we going?" I asked him as i watch the people outside load up our stuff from the car to the jet."Bali island." He said.What? Bali is a "paradise" island. It used to be a very popular holiday destination i heard but after the crash half a decade ago, it became an exclusive d
The sun is setting at the moment. It's one of the most beautiful view i have ever seen in my life truly. After getting distracted so many times by the view, I successfully got ready for the "girl's night out".I have a bit of make up on, i'm not very good at it bit i'd say it's decent. Then i have my hair braided at the back. Now i'm just looking at my luggage at the walk in closet, trying to find something to wear.I'm not sure how many days we're gonna be staying here and i don't really bother to ask Greyson but they packed more clothes than i need.I finally found a white short beach dress with a long white ribbon to tie on to my neck. It looks simple but it really is my style. So i put it on and struggled to tie the ribbon.Just right on time, Greyson had to walk pass the walk-in closet and saw my struggle. He looked at me for a second through the mirror reflection infront of me and walked straig
It was the 15th spin of the game or something. I got pointed twice already and had to drink twice. First Brian dared me to take my dress off and jump to the pool, so i drink to that and then Elle got me but obviously she was so nice and just dared me to have a shot with her.I gagged whenever i take a shot. But i kinda feel the tip of my fingers start to tingle now. Everyone here had drank so much more than me. Elle is swaying from side to side but still considered looking good after the amount of alcohol she had drank.Half of the group is already too drunk to actually play the game now and everyone is just drinking cause they want to.Abbie keeps giving me a nasty look from time to time. But then she finally decided to lean forward to talk to me. Tina is listening as well, half drunk, but listening."Bambi, i want the truth, how did you end up with Greyson?" She smirked with squinted eyes."
One: The TakingI was watching my mom sewing a brand new dress for me. It was another white dress because we only got white fabric here since colored fabrics cost very expensive and almost impossible to find. There was a small smile formed on her face. She looks so peaceful when she's doing what she loves. She used to make dresses for girls all over Tonko who couldn't afford expansive dresses. But that changed when girls started to be taken by force to be sold as slaves.There are 2 sides of the city. The Southside is called "The Signature" where all the rich and powerful live. I heard, everything can be found there and any disease can be cured in a blink of an eye. There was even a rumor saying that they have found a medicine to make people able to live longer than 100 years. I've al
Two: The auctionI opened my eyes and i was in a white room, laying in a white bed, covered with my mom's handmade dress. Then the door suddenly opened and a woman comes in with a tablet on her hand that I've never actually seen in real life before."Oh, you've woken up. Good." She smiled at me. She has purple hair and dark skin. She wears a white jumpsuit that made her look so slender. Maybe she's in her mid-30s. "My name is Sohee and I will be asking you some questions. Do you understand what I'm saying?" She asked me slowly like I was a kid. I nodded and she pressed some buttons on th
It was the 15th spin of the game or something. I got pointed twice already and had to drink twice. First Brian dared me to take my dress off and jump to the pool, so i drink to that and then Elle got me but obviously she was so nice and just dared me to have a shot with her.I gagged whenever i take a shot. But i kinda feel the tip of my fingers start to tingle now. Everyone here had drank so much more than me. Elle is swaying from side to side but still considered looking good after the amount of alcohol she had drank.Half of the group is already too drunk to actually play the game now and everyone is just drinking cause they want to.Abbie keeps giving me a nasty look from time to time. But then she finally decided to lean forward to talk to me. Tina is listening as well, half drunk, but listening."Bambi, i want the truth, how did you end up with Greyson?" She smirked with squinted eyes."
The sun is setting at the moment. It's one of the most beautiful view i have ever seen in my life truly. After getting distracted so many times by the view, I successfully got ready for the "girl's night out".I have a bit of make up on, i'm not very good at it bit i'd say it's decent. Then i have my hair braided at the back. Now i'm just looking at my luggage at the walk in closet, trying to find something to wear.I'm not sure how many days we're gonna be staying here and i don't really bother to ask Greyson but they packed more clothes than i need.I finally found a white short beach dress with a long white ribbon to tie on to my neck. It looks simple but it really is my style. So i put it on and struggled to tie the ribbon.Just right on time, Greyson had to walk pass the walk-in closet and saw my struggle. He looked at me for a second through the mirror reflection infront of me and walked straig
All my stuff are packed. That morning, someone had prepared me a sleeveless dress to wear. It's a beautiful silk white dress and white cardigan.We head to the airport in no time and stopped at the private jet departure area. We got on the place and i truly wished Elle and Tina would be there as well in the same flight but they're not.I could tell anyone would see how disappointed i was cause i literally ran up the stairs to get into the jet. I took a seat and Greyson took the seat right across me.He is wearing a buttoned up black polo and khaki pants. Proper, but not business trip proper."Where are we going?" I asked him as i watch the people outside load up our stuff from the car to the jet."Bali island." He said.What? Bali is a "paradise" island. It used to be a very popular holiday destination i heard but after the crash half a decade ago, it became an exclusive d
I woke up to the sound of people in my room. I could tell it was early in the morning. The sun is still low on the horizon. I blinked my eyes to adjust my vision to the lights. There were some maids going through the wardrobe and putting my stuff to a trolley."Hai?" I broke the silence. There are three woman in my room and now they are all looking at me."Oh, sorry ma'am, did we wake you up?" One of them replied."W-what are you guys doing with my stuff?" I sound very sleepy cause maybe i am."Mr. Greyson told us to move your stuff to the master bedroom.""What?" I asked still half awake. "No.. please just leave my stuff where they belong." I asked nicely."No..." A voice said. Greyson is leaning on the door frame with his arms crossed. "You don't get to tell them what to do."Seems like the helpers have collected all my stuff and now they are walking out of the room quietly, leaving me and G
"Bambi." I heard a woman's voice. Someone familiar. Someone i truly loved. Mom.She caresses my cheek as i lay on her lap."Mom?" I whispered. I blinked a couple of time. I know this is just a dream. "Mom, i miss you.""Honey..." she smiled softly, now stroking my hair. "I truly miss you too.""Mom," i paused as i started to cry and sat up. "I hate my life. I don't like who i've become." I looked at her with my teary eyes.Her expression doesn't change. She still has that soft smile on her face. "Honey... you should be grateful cause you're still alive."It just seems very eerie. She is still smiling as blood started to appear through her white dress."N-no no no..." i pushed my hands to her now bleeding chest, trying to stop the bleeding. Nothing could've saved her from this gunshot. "No no no! Please no!"
Is this all?Life. That is such a meaningful word isn't it? When you hear that word, it feels so meaningful. Turned out, this is all.My life is nothing but sadness. Problem comes one after another.I stayed at the hospital for 4 weeks since one of my rib got injured pretty bad as well. But now i am being treated at Greyson's penthouse. Greyson got some doctors and nurses here in the building to treat me. I don't even want to know if i ever gonna heal or not.I sleep in another room now cause clearly sleeping next to Greyson is the last thing i want to do.This morning, a nurse opened the door and placed food on the bed side table. She was doing some basic check up when i saw the door opened quietly from the corner of my eyes. I don't have to turn my head to know who that is. Greyson comes to my r
Am i still alive? Do i still really want to be alive? I don't think so.I opened my eyes slowly. The first thing that i feel is pain. Pain everywhere. My head, my legs, my stomach.I turned my head slightly to the side and that small movement shocked everyone in this room like they were expecting me to not wake up anytime soon."Bambi..." a familiar voice called me. I blinked my eyes again for a couple time. My visions are blurry and i can't see clearly just yet. But then, that person held my hand and moved his head closer to me. Our forehead touched. "Ah... You're finally awake.""W-what happened?" I asked. My voice cracked and sounded rugged. Then i looked around, Elle and Shane are also here, in the corner of the room, watching me and Greyson, but they decided to give us our own space. Elle looked sad and happy at the same time that it seems weird.Then, a memory, or what seems more
6 weeks passed since i moved back in with Greyson. We're still staying at the lake house and Greyson usually go to work only twice a week. I told him billion times that it's okay for him to just take care of his work and leave me here but he refused. I'm happy that he is being so caring and all but i kinda feel bad that he has to sacrifice his works.We're sitting in the dining room waiting for the food to be served. And yes, Greyson hired a chef to come all the way here to just cook for us. I'm not a good cook myself so i can't say much about this special treatment. The chef, Manny, finally served our breakfast. "Enjoy, sir, ma'am." he said."Thank you." i replied."You may excuse yourself." Greyson said and manny nodded and left the room.I was just about to dig in when Greyson said, "you know... I was thinking, maybe we could build a house, a big one. For us...and our children. Our family."I was taken b
3 months passed. The baby bump started to get bigger and bigger. and i'm still staying with Elle. And she is still doing whatever she can to protect me.These days, i can't swallow anything. I've been losing alot of weight and Elle keeps forcing me to go to the doctor but i don't want to. Elle doesn't know about my weak body condition and i'd like to keep it that way. But i know that she's been very concern about my condition.Greyson comes almost every single day. One day, he looks fine with his tux and all, and another day, he looks like he just drank 3 bottles of vodka. What scares me the most that he can get violent when he is drunk. I'm afraid that Elle might get hurt and she always deals with Greyson on her own. She doesn't just tell her guards to kick him out and all.The sky is dark now and i heard Greyson's voice. I thought i was dreaming at first, but now my eyes