Chapter 5: Pain of Rejection

Brake:

My body was numb with pain, I fought so hard to control the pain in my system but nothing was working for me, I felt so useless and weak, everyone left me, and my wolf and demon didn’t even give me a helping hand.

Yeah, I caused it, I should carry my burden alone, I was still on the floor helpless when the door of the room cracked open for a second I thought she had come back for me. “Fuck Brake,” Caldwell screamed as he crouch beside me. The look on his face is enough to tell that he knows what happened here, I was a loser, “What happened to you? You look like a dying rat.” I force myself to stand from the floor but my body isn’t responding. So I remained still and didn’t attempt to stand on the floor.

“I rejected Stacy,” I blurted out, no need to hide.

“I know that already, I saw her but you are in a mess how the heck did you end up in this mess?” Caldwell had so many questions.

“I took all the pain, it’s bad enough that I forced her to reject me, taking all the pain was the least I could do,”

“Aren’t you a demon? You could have surged your energy back in a blink. And why the heck did you ask for rejection when I know you wanted her, I saw it in your eyes, you couldn’t even bear to see Alpha Bellini anywhere close to her and now she is yours, you rejected her and did she accept?” I averted my gaze, I didn’t want to tell Caldwell the things I did to make Stacy accept my rejection, she wasn’t going to accept it, I felt she wanted me, she loved me and was stubborn but my actions broke her and she gave in. I know he is going to get mad at me, if I tell him, the things I did for her to accept my rejection. “She accepted, what the fuck is wrong with the both of you? I don’t know which among you is more stupid or should I say pride is what brought you two here?”

“Just help me up…” I said not answering the question.

“Fine, I will take you home,” his hand was outstretched to me, I took his hand as he pulled me on my forearm before I could clash back on the floor because my knees were buckling already.

In all my life, I have never felt such pain, nothing was working for me and my body was reacting differently, I couldn’t feel any part of my body, it was so painful and my heart hurt. “I will bring you to the Packhouse,”

“Is Jamie and Brittany there?” he looks at me.

“I don’t know but you have to rest don’t tell me, you don’t want to go to the Packhouse because I am not letting you out of my side.”

“I just want to run on my wolf form?” he gawked at me like I was delusional.

“And you think Rage, your wolf will let you shift and run after rejecting his mate?” his questions make sense, my wolf wouldn’t let me, he wasn’t in agreement with my actions, he wanted Stacy right from the beginning and his heart fluttered whenever he sees her and now he had a complete hold on her, I blow our chances of being with Stacy.

Maybe Caldwell was right, my pride got in the way.

I know I was never going to claim her because she wanted an alpha, I didn’t want to terminate her dreams, so it’s best this way.

That was a lie, I wanted Stacy. My whole body craved her, right from the moment I set eyes on her. I love her and I wanted her beside me but I have nothing to offer. I am nothing but a beta.

I have loved my beta position and I was contented with it until Stacy came into my life I felt incompetent not good enough because she wanted an alpha and now I felt like some lowlife Omega that most wolves wouldn’t want to mingle with.

My name is Brake Rex, the beta of shadow Moon Pack, I am a half Demon and wolf.

I am what humans call a Casanova, I could be with so many girls but I felt nothing for them, until I met this female, Stacy, even though I didn’t have carnal knowledge about her, my entire being longed for her.

I love her, I wanted her all to myself, I could do anything to get her, I could give her the world if she asked me to. I could even burn every soul if she wanted to be the only one existing but she wanted something I couldn’t give her, she wanted to become a Luna. That I couldn’t give her, I felt worthless and it hurt.

Knowing that, the one thing I couldn’t give was what she wanted to be desperate, and the only way I thought I could give her that was to reject her, so she could be with the alpha.

I hurt her, it’s never my thing to hurt a female, I could be a half-demon but women had never been my victim, I could never hurt them, that was a promise I made to my dad, I should not hurt any female, be it physically or mentally but I did it to my Stacy, I hurt her when I buried myself inside that female for hours, her pain was unbearable to me, so I had to stop.

I returned here to tell her that I am sorry, that we don’t need the rejection anymore but it was too late because she had made up her mind and she was already too broken and when she asked for it, I didn’t blink.

Yet again, I could say I was a fucking coward or a peacock whose thoughts it’s crowded with pride, I gave her the rejection and now I am broken.

I was all quiet throughout the walk back to the Packhouse, Caldwell wanted to teleport us back to the house but I didn’t want to get there fast, I didn’t want to meet Brittany, the Luna and Alpha Jamie's mate, she is going to kill me, if ever she finds out that I rejected her friend that is more like her sister.

When my eyes met the packhouse I felt so empty, I should have been here with my mate and celebrating as well as the alpha but I tossed it to the wind.

“Who the fuck are you mind linking?” I asked Caldwell whose eyes were changing color.

“I have to tell the alpha, you need strength, you might die.” I pushed him off me as I staggered towards the staircase. I couldn’t even hold my body for a minute.

“do you have to tell him? I could handle myself?” I growl at him holding the rail.

“I don’t see it that way, let him help, he could share his…”

“I don’t need help, he is not going to help but lash out at me,” I said with gritted teeth.

“Pride is the downfall of Everyman,”

“Don’t preach about humility when you have no single one in your system, you are a demon and all demons have pride.” He rolled his eyes at my outbursts.

“I might have one but I will not…” the heavy footsteps of Jamie, made his words stop and I looked up to him.

“What the fuck happened to him?” Jamie asked Caldwell, I was too flushed to answer.

“he rejected his mate…”

“I could speak for myself stop meddling,” I growl from the floor, the only thing I think I have right now is my voice and nothing else.

“I don’t think so, you look so fucking weak,” Jamie said, moving closer to me as he grabbed my hand wanting to share some energy with me.

“So you rejected your mate, because of Stacy?” Jamie asked before my eyes bulged, staring at Caldwell, I thought he already told the alpha that my mate was Stacy and I rejected her. I twitched my lips not wanting to say the opposite of what he thought, “so who is the female that you rejected?” he asked I tried to stand, hoping the little energy he shared with me could work but Rage had sap it from me almost immediately leaving me weaker than before. “Can’t you talk?” he growled, Jamie could be everything nice but he lacked patience.

“It's Stacy…” Caldwell speaks again and Jamie’s hand flies from me, his eyes darkened and his aura becomes bloody.

“What did you say?” this time his anger was raging and he was glaring at Caldwell like Caldwell was the one who rejected Stacy.

“I rejected her because I am not an Alpha,” I chuckled before the tears that I was holding all nightfall, even when I fuck that female, I was still thinking about Stacy. 

“what the fuck were you thinking, you couldn’t fucking ask her if she wanted you, not an alpha?” he aimed at my face wanting to throw a punch at me while I shut my eyes and was waiting for it.