Chapter 4: Rejected

Stacy:

For two hours, I couldn’t feel my body, it was as if it belonged to someone else, I hated myself, and the pain I couldn’t stop it.

I cried as I tried to touch myself hoping the pain would stop but no, it was not coming to an end very soon, if this was the plan he had to force me into accepting his rejection then he was doing it perfectly, he was going to get it, anytime he shows up here.

I have never hated anyone, but this act of Brake made me hate him and he was the first on my blacklist, I was going to hurt him down that is a promise I will fulfill in my lifetime.

My name is Stacy Harrington, the daughter of the former beta of Ark Moon Pack and the sister to the present beta of the pack.

I have dreams, as a growing child, I love power and I wanted to be respected, I always wanted to be on top of my game and to command such power, I know I needed to be the mate of an Alpha, so I was working toward it, at first I was crushing on my present alpha, Callaghan, I wanted him to be mine, so I could be Luna but I know I do not have that spot in his heart because his heart was occupied by one of my best friend, and I am not a bitch that is desperate to take what is made for my best friend, so I kill the feelings the same way I nourish it.

There are other Alphas around, and I thought of picking for them instead of forcing myself on someone whose heart doesn’t belong to me.

 Yes, I knew where my heart belonged, and what I always wanted, was to be a Luna and live beside my Alpha and nothing less. All I wanted was to be a Luna, I kept telling myself and my wolf that we couldn't settle for anything less, the end goal was to become a Luna even if we had to reject our fated mate if he turned out less than an Alpha.

Silly, I even said I would reject my mate if he was not an alpha.

But what I didn't see coming was my stupid heart longing for something else, Brake Rex the beta of Shadow Moon Pack.

When I met him, he changed my perspective about power and love, and that love is greater than power, I swear, I love him and I was ready to forfeit the quest for power and follow love.

I love Brake but I didn’t think he loved me, or maybe, he still thinks shallowly of me, that I wanted an alpha and now I only wanted him because he is my fated mate and the bond was what was confusing me, it wasn’t the bond, I swear I love him and I wanted him with or without the bound.

I thought he loved me too and would never ask for rejection but yes, the perfect beta did and now, all I felt for him was hatred.

When the pain finally subsided, I felt weak and was lying on the dirty floor, I didn’t even have strength in me, the night seemed too long and it refused to bring forth a new dawn.

Judging from my calculations of the time, Brake stopped doing whatever he was doing with that female, I guess it’s up to an hour plus. I was just lying there crying out my eyes when I heard the cracking sound of the door, I didn’t move, I just laid there, I know it’s Brake and I am glad he came before the sky bright.

“Stacy…” he called out, his voice was cold and I didn’t wait for what he wanted to say.

“Go on with the rejection…” I told him but he didn’t say a word, I could feel his emotions between the bond, he was feeling sorry for me, but I didn’t want pity, I didn’t want him to pity me.

“I, Beta Brake Rex, of the shadow moon pack, reject you, lady Stacy Harrington of the Ark Moon Pack…” his voice was husky and cleared

“I, Lady Stacy Harrington, of the Ark Moon Pack…” My body was numb with more pain, but I know I don’t want to stay here anymore, I don’t want to wake up in this territory and found out that I am still here, breathing the same air as the male that hurt me, “…accept your rejection…”  my heart clenched when I saw that he wasn’t stopping me, what fucking reason will make him stop me when he is the one clamoring for the rejection all through the night, he probably wants to be with a female that he got pleasure. I swallowed hard but I knew the rejection process wasn’t over but his voice came up.

“I, beta Brake, take all the hurt and pain that comes from the rejection, may the goddess grant you, your heart desires and give you what you deserve, and may he not hold you accountable for these actions.” I move my gaze towards him, I felt light like all the pains disappeared only for me to see his hands and lips were trembling and his knees had buckled and now he is on the floor, I reach my hand to hold him but there I was nothing there, no bond, the bond is broken and he is free, that is what he wanted.

I felt sorry for him and I got the urge to hold him and console him, and tell him we could start all over again that maybe without the bond, we could see that it’s him and no one else, not even the position of a Luna and that crown on my head but it was too late, he hurt me, and I don’t want anything to do with him, I struggle from the floor that I have been laying all this time.

“Stacy…” he called out to me, I didn’t look at him as I took two big strides and walked towards the door of the room, I could still hear the agonizing cry from him when I pulled the door, I tilted my head to him, his gaze met mine before I run out of the room.

I was weak and my heart was bleeding but I wasn’t stopping, I didn’t want the guilt feeling my heart when I was almost at the border, I felt my energy snap off and I was no longer able to carry my legs, I fall on my face flat, the pain in my heart was much and I wish I was the one carrying the pain, Brake was carrying sparing my heart from this pain.

“Stacy, you got me fucking worried, what happened to you?” Bellini asked, crouching beside me, I raised my head to him.

“Brake rejected me, he forced me to, I didn’t want to…”

“Brake, did what?” that was when I noticed Bellini was not the only one there, Gamma Caldwell was standing beside him, I felt ashamed of myself seeing those other warriors' eyes on me.

In the werewolf world, being rejected by your mate is like having some contagious disease, wolves hardly reject their mate, they feel it’s a gift, and the bond is too strong to even feel hate towards the other but my mate hates me, he doesn’t want me.

“he hate me, he rejected me…” I take the words again, there is no need to hide it, I guess they already know, I am not good enough for their beta. I love privacy but there is no privacy anymore.

“C'mon, let’s go…” Alpha Bellini pulled me from the floor into his embrace.

“where is he?” Gamma Caldwell asked.

“why the fuck are you asking her, go look for your coward of a Beta,” he growled at the Gamma, “let me bring you home…”

“I don’t want to, there is no one there, all my friends are gone, no one loves me, even the goddess doesn't love me.”