Asya sucked in a steadying breath of air as she extended her leg past her shoulder, clenching the muscle in her hip flexor to hold her balance in the tricky extension. She raised her chin to soften her neckline, scanning the long mirrors on the wall in front of her for the Russian dancer she'd met a few minutes ago. She'd lost sight of him when they moved into the center, but had a strange feeling it wasn't the last she would be seeing of him.
They finished the first section of center work, and the class split into two groups for jumps and turns to allow for more space on the floor. Still a little out of breath from the développé exercise, Asya retreated to the side of the room to get some water while the first group worked on their turns. She saw Julian approaching her out of the corner of her eye, and shot him a mocking glare as he neared her.
'Overslept again, did we?' she whispered over the piano music, nudging him playfully.
'Hey, I have a busy social life.' he retorted, rubbing his eyes. Julian had been two years above her at White Lodge, and his mother, an old friend of Asya's family, had taken care of her over the holidays when they were away from school. Having both been top of their respective grades with dreams of joining the Royal Ballet, it didn't take long for them to strike up a friendship.
Two years her senior and very much protective over his best friend, Julian had ferociously guarded her back during her apprenticeship with the company. Their natural chemistry and ideal height match made sure they often got casted together, and truthfully, there was nothing Asya enjoyed as much as sharing the stage with Julian. Their hard work paid off, and at the end of last season they'd both been promoted to soloist, and were aiming to climb even further up the company's ranks.
'Speaking of our social lives, were you just talking to him?' her best friend asked, tilting his head to the Russian dancer in the back of the class.
'Nope.' Asya shrugged. 'He was talking to me.'
The last thing she needed was Julian lecturing her about getting involved. At first he'd been watching out for her on his mother's orders, but quickly came to learn that Asya's taste in men was less than impressive and that there was little he could do about it. He hadn't liked any of her past flings, not even in school. She'd always reassured him that it wasn't anything serious, but Julian nearly drew the line when he found out about her and Ivan. Yes, Ridley was a serial womaniser and a cocky asshole at the best of times, but their relationship turned out to be convenient for both of them.
Nevertheless, Asya was anticipating another lecture from Julian about focusing on herself and taking a break from her frequent hookups, but the thinly controlled excitement in her best friend's voice surprised her.
'Alex said he saw him backstage last night but I thought he was kidding.' Julian whispered urgently. 'Tell me you know who that is, Radzevich.'
'I thought he looked familiar. Do you?' Asya asked curiously, adjusting the straps on her lilac leotard.
'That's Roman Zharnov.'
'WHAT-' Asya squeaked, whipping her head around to try and find the dark-haired dancer again.
'Zharnov.' Julian yelped. 'The Bolshoi's very own golden boy turned up in London last night.'
'I knew-'
'He's the living breathing king of the Russian ballet. He had four different companies in a bidding war trying to sign him for this season.' Julian rambled on. 'More importantly, what's he doing talking to you?'
'Introduced himself.' Asya said nonchalantly, knowing getting Julian off her case would be tough. 'Gave me a once over, and got a little tense when I mentioned Ivan. So, if you ask me, he wants a one-night stand from a ballerina with a pretty face.'
Julian rolled his eyes at her, taking a drain from her water bottle.
Roman Zharnov, Asya thought to herself. She knew he looked familiar. She'd heard of him by and by in school. He'd been a rising star at the Bolshoi, and his alleged prowess and brooding good looks quickly turned him into an icon the boys idolised for his talent and girls swooned over on online fan-accounts. Strange, though, she hadn't really heard much of him in the last six months.
Dancers like him could rope in a six-figure contract on reputation alone, and she figured the company must be paying him a fortune to be in London. It's only a matter of time until they pair him with some principal, and he's dancing all the male leads and selling out their shows for them.
Or maybe he gets to choose his partners and roles? Contracts have time periods, have they booked him for a season, a year? Why did she even care?
Asya watched as the Russian dancer stepped into the centre and rolled out his powerful shoulders. God, he was tall. The Bolshoi liked their ballerinas on the taller side, meaning the men that partnered them were usually giants even by male dancer standards, towering at six or seven feet on average. Zharnov certainly wasn't the exception, he must have been well over six feet by her estimate.
She really had no business caring, she lectured herself. Dancers that famous usually had a chip on their shoulder, and she wouldn't be surprised if his handsome face came with an arrogant attitude as well. She had her fair share of male dancer drama already, and really shouldn't be looking for added trouble with her schedule being what it was.
The ballerina watched as he threw himself into the turns, spinning evenly and with backbreaking control, each rotation neat and precise, paced to absolute, Bolshoi-trained perfection. He switched directions and didn't falter for even a second as he assembled yet another impeccable set of pirouettes.
She raised her eyebrows and crossed her arms over her chest. Holy shit, she thought. She didn't mean to gape, but her defence, it was hard not to look. Chilly glares from the other men told Asya she wasn't the only one who had become aware of the talent in the class. Jealous already, she thought.
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By the end of company class Asya's feet were throbbing painfully, and she retreated to her spot next to the wall to take off her pointe shoes. She slipped them into her bag and stepped into a pair of wool shorts, waving goodbye to Julian as he made his way to his morning rehearsals. They were both finishing early that afternoon to prepare for the performance later that evening, and planned to walk home together for dinner and a shower.
She was pulling on an oversized sweatshirt when she heard a familiar voice calling her name. She resisted the urge to roll her eyes as she turned around and found him sauntering in her direction.
'Ivan?' she purred, tucking some loose strands of hair into her bun.
'Going somewhere?' he asked.
'Rehearsals.' Asya replied shortly. 'And then home.'
He nodded and took a step closer to her, running his hands down her arms. She knew what that meant. First of all, he unnecessary politeness didn't fall within his framework, and secondly, he rarely sought out conversation unless it was pillow-talk. No, he wanted something from her, and knowing him, she'd soon find out what it was.
'Why was Zharnov talking to you?' he questioned eventually.
'Who?' Asya asked innocently. She played stupid for no other reason than to annoy him, but was a little surprised that he'd noticed the Russian dancer talking to her. It seemed like everyone knew who he was except her.
'In class.' Ivan continued, crossing his arms over his chest. 'I saw him with you.'
'Oh.' Asya droned. 'He's just being friendly.'
'Well,' he whispered, raking his gaze over her. 'I don't want him getting any ideas.'
'Sure, Ridley.' she sighed, adjusting her bag over her shoulder. 'I have to go.'
She left a quick peck on his jaw and made her exit. Ivan's interest in her social life was a little misplaced. Their relationship was by no means exclusive, she fooled around with a few other men, and suspected that he probably did the same. Their hookups were convenient, nothing but sex and the occasional make-out session on a dressing room couch to keep him amused. She needed him to get her good roles, and he just wanted some fun and the male satisfaction that came with bragging that he was enjoying the company of the pretty soloist. Ivan really didn't have any business looking for her loyalty.
She'd grow bored with him eventually anyway.
Over the course of the next week Asya had class with Roman on the daily, and the Russian prodigy never ceased to amaze. He turned like a drill bit, defied gravity when he jumped and had mastery over his technique that was nothing short of supernatural.The various resident teachers and instructors had noticed him too. He often stayed after class, and she'd seen him coming out of various studios after hours, although she hadn't noticed him on any castings. The company definitely had plans for him
Asya shut the door behind herself, exhaling heavily and rolling her eyes dramatically.God, he was a pain.After the little episode with Roman, Ivan had been nothing short of bloody childish. Normally she en
Asya fled hastily out of the rehearsal room, hurrying down the busy corridor before she could be cornered by anyone. She honestly wasn't in the mood for either of them. Still stuffing things into her bag she made for the foyer, scanning faces to see if she could find Julian. Him she could tolerate. Maybe they could grab some lunch together in the cafeteria and she could vent a little.Ivan had been a pain during class, as usual. And after last night, Asya found herself unable to look Roman
Asya collapsed gracelessly into the reception hall couch, letting out a dramatic sigh.Finally.Closing her eyes she inhaled the salty scent carried in by a breeze through the open sliding doors and let it settle in her palate.
Clad in a fluffy bathrobe Asya flopped down on the bed and splayed her limbs across the soft covers. She'd taken a long, indulgent shower to rinse the ocean off her, which proved quite the experience in their affluent bathroom.Julian had gone in after her as a result of his catastrophic volleyball skills, which she wasn't allowing him to forget anytime soon. If there was one thing she didn't particularly excel at, it was losing. Anything.
'Chassé forward and look over the hand.' the ballet master corrected Asya's arm, lifting her palm slightly. 'Tendu side and side, close front.'Asya looked dead ahead as she finished the combination, refusing to meet Ivan's gaze where he stood across from her. That man didn't deserve her energy, not today. She'd deal with him later, or never. Whatever she felt like.
Asya turned her from head side to side, inspecting her reflection carefully. No smears, no smudges, no streaks. Taking a calming breath, she applied a final coat of lipstick and took a small sip of her iced coffee.The last three days had passed in a glorious blur of relaxing on the beach with Julian, dinners on the terrace, continental breakfasts and rehearsals. Ivan had played nice, but she still avoided him when she could, which proved fairly easy since Julian was practically allergic to him.
Asya stepped daintily onto the dinner table, running her eyes seductively over the crowd. Her heart was thundering in her chest as she wrapped her arms around her torso theatrically, propped her one foot onto pointe and waited for her music to start.This solo had been given to her to prove herself.
Asya rolled over lazily, tangling in the soft covers as she closed her eyes for another snooze. Her cheeks were warmed with early morning sunshine peeking through a chink in the curtains, casting a thin beam of light over the bed. With a contented sigh she drew the duvet up to her chin and snuggled farther under the blankets to shield herself from the frigid winter air.She couldn't even remember the last time she slept in. Her days always started with some kind of routine, some sort of plan to map out the tasks she needed to get through. But currently, wrapped up in warmth and pillows, she had no idea what time it was, or what the rest of her day would look like.It was a commotion downstairs that eventually prompted her to get up and leave behind the comforts of her bed. She pulled a loose-fitting grey jersey over her pyjamas and set off to see what the rest of the house was up to.Entering the kitchen, she found Roman, still in sweatpants and a hoodie, sittin
Moments after Roman closed the door behind him, Asya started pacing like a caged lion around the room, racking her brain to try and make sense of the last twenty minutes and the utter loop it had thrown her for.It's too much, she told herself. Way too much, he had asister,that was hissister,she met hisfamily, he trusted her to meet his family, let her into his life, his whole life,thatpart of his life.Dropping her bag on the Chesterfield couch at the foot of the bed, she unzipped it and saw that her hands were shaking, a faint tremor passing through her long fingers every few seconds, accompanied by a too-wild hammering in her chest.Oh god.
Asya was still contemplating making a run for it as she got into the passenger seat of Roman's car. There was still a smarter decision that involved bolting back to the life she knew, the life she could control, the life she could predict.With no idea where they were going or what she was getting herself into, and nevermind the fact that she was with the guy she'd promised herself she was going to stay away from, she was still irrationally willing to follow him anywhere.'Ready?' Roman asked, starting the ignition. She gave him a sidelong nod and settled in her seat, drawing her legs into her chest and hugging her knees.They drove out of the parking garage next to the company headquarters and Asya rested her head against the window. The heaviness in her eyes wasn't
Who the bloody hell did he think he was?!Asya stormed downstairs, fuming internally as she made her way to her floor. He couldn'tcontrolher. He couldn't just snap his fingers, click his tongue and she'd come. Who in the bloody hell did he think he was?!No, she'd spent the better part of her life trying to please people, trying to win their approval by doing what they thought was best for her and being controlled bythosevery people. But she'd grown up and grown sick of it. Control over her own life, her own decisions, that was essential. She knew better than anyone else what she needed.And yes, being around the Oper House during the busiest time of the year would probably be a little painful, but she...She could handle it. And she didn'
The next morning Roman was back in Bastian's office.It had been a week since Asya's injury, and unsurprisingly, the company director had called him in for another meeting. Roman had a good feeling what Bastian would be wanting to discuss with him.Who will be Asya's replacement? Who's second-best? Who's the other option? The mere thought was laughable to Roman.'How is she?' Bastian asked, shifting in behind his desk.The artistic director looked tired, Roman remarked, some darker than usual shadows under his eyes and the faint lines on his face more prominent. It was a busy time of year, he supposed.'Coping.' Roman said coldly, not wanting to think too much
It was noon when Asya finally stumbled into the living room, and from where Roman sat on the couch, he almost laughed at the sight. She looked as confused as a chameleon on a rainbow, her hair tangled, clothes creased, eyes sleep-heavy.'What time is it?' she yawned, stumbling into the living room.'Late.' he replied, running his hands distractedly through his hair. 'I was about to make dinner.'She averted her gaze and flopped down on the couch next to him, crossing her legs.'Hungry?' he asked, watching her reaction intently, looking for clues that what had plagued his thoughts for most of the day had any basis in reality. She shook her head forcefully, chewing her bottom lip.
Her internal monologue went absolutely haywire as she lifted her fingers to knock softly on the door, intentionally making it almost inaudible in the hopes that no one would answer, and she'd be forced to turn around and forget this stupid idea.While she shifted her weight restlessly, wringing her hands together and contemplating making a run for it, her mind conjured some distressing scenarios to keep her thoughts occupied.What are the chances he's awake? It's the middle of the freaking night. Dammit, what if he has a girl-The door opened, revealing him, alone, in sweatpants and a sleep-ruffled shirt, rubbing his eyes. Asya gaped like a fish out of water, her mind reeling uncontrollably. She didn't know what to say, what could she bloody say, what had she come here to say?
Asya stepped slowly out of the shower into her steam-filled bathroom, wrapping herself in a towel. She wiped the mirror clear with her palm, and almost reeled when she saw her reflection.Her hair hung in damp tendrils around her sunken expression, her cheeks hollow and eyes spectrally glassy. Her skin was pallid and lifeless, her shoulders limp. She looked like a ghost. Her eyes travelled down the mirror, over the towel, to her legs, and finally her feet.
Asya got wrestled out of his grip eventually. He wanted to yell, scream, just tell them to be bloody careful with her, her body is her livelihood, but instead he just froze.She wasn't there- he couldn't hold her, he couldn't protect her.Julian bu