Over the course of the next week Asya had class with Roman on the daily, and the Russian prodigy never ceased to amaze. He turned like a drill bit, defied gravity when he jumped and had mastery over his technique that was nothing short of supernatural.
The various resident teachers and instructors had noticed him too. He often stayed after class, and she'd seen him coming out of various studios after hours, although she hadn't noticed him on any castings. The company definitely had plans for him though, and they were making sure the best of the best were training him for something big.
Save for a few polite nods Roman hadn't really spoken to her again, but she had a decided feeling that he was watching her, too. During centre practice she could see him in the mirror and at the barre he was always just a few spaces away, slipping her a glance every now and again. Knowing he was looking made her do strange things, really.
Somehow the attention of the king of Russian ballet had her trying to impress him. She worked for his recognition like she'd never worked in company class before.
Appreciative stares from the ballerinas and jealous glares from the men told her she wasn't the only one who was a little starstruck.
But her pride kept her from Googling him, or even seeming remotely interested by mentioning it to Julian. That would definitely end in another lecture about 'being smart'.
Sleeping Beauty was running for another two weeks, but Asya had that evening off to recover after a double show yesterday. It was an effort to drag herself out of bed that morning, but several cups of coffee had assisted her in making it to company class. She could take a long afternoon class and go to bed early, after amusing Ivan, of course.
Castings for next season were coming out soon, and rumours had been circling that there was a tour in the books. A tour on which the company were taking their most elite dancers. Only their most elite dancers.
And Asya wanted it.
But she wasn't even a principal dancer. She knew her chances were slim to say the very least, but that didn't deter her from wanting put in some extra hours.
Asya stepped out of company class and made for the changing rooms to take a shower. She had a meeting with Bastian, a seasonally routine thing where dancers get to discuss personal goals for the upcoming season. Prospects for roles and promotions also usually came up. She was never really nervous about these types of things, just fidgety.
Sure, she knew that at her age soloist was unheard of, but she was just as mature and hardworking as anyone else. Her age hadn't earned her much respect, but her repertoire did. And she had yet to disappoint.
Asya wanted a principal role. Bigger audiences, more attention, and better pay.
She changed into a simple pair of black pants and pulled a faded green jersey over her head. She applied a quick coat of lipgloss, twisted her hair into a bun and set off for Bastian's office, which was situated on the other side of the building.
Bastian Acton had, in his day, been an exceptional dancer himself. After retiring from a wildly successful career in France he'd come to take over the Royal Ballet. For the past eight years he'd won the company plenty of excellencies and choreographed many productions himself. Despite his rigorous demands from both staff and performers, he was fair.
Bastian had been kind to her from the start. He'd approached her at White Lodge after her graduating exams to offer her a contract and checked in with her a few times during her first weeks at the company. Asya had tremendous respect for him.
She took a steadying breath before knocking. Calm, she told herself. Calm, collected, promotable. A faint 'come in' preceded her pushing the oak door open.
For the next hour Bastian mulled over the upcoming season with her, detailing which roles he thought she'd fit, but it was during the last section of the meeting that Bastian really got Asya's attention.
'As you probably know, I'm staging La Bayadère next season.' the artistic director sat back in his chair. 'Now. I have been dangling a principal role in front of your nose almost since you arrived here. Audiences received the Lilac Fairy with staggering positivity, not that I'm at all surprised.'
Asya nodded in understanding. Get to the damn point, Bastian.
'As you know, La Bayadère offers two positions for a leading female. One of those roles would go to a principal dancer.'
There was a moment of deafening silence that felt like it lasted forever.
'But I'd be very grateful if you went after the second, Nastasia. And naturally, I would favour you as a choice when it comes to casting, but that will depend on your performance leading up to the decision.'
Asya. Couldn't. Breathe.
La Bayadère.
Principal role.
She could dance, she could really dance-
'Th-thank you.' she stuttered. Bastian smiled at her.
'Before I send you off, I have had an interesting inquiry about you over the past week. As you probably know by now, we're hosting a guest performer from Russia, Roman Zharnov.'
Asya's attention perked up again.
'He's asked about you on two separate occasions, and if I were you,' Bastian looked gravely serious, 'I'd keep him in my corner. A dancer like that could mean great things for you, Nastasia. And if he had his eye on you, keep it there.'
***
Asya practically soared out of Bastian's office. She could go after a principal role. A principal role.
She would have to train. Harder.
But she was ready.
To compete.
And win.
***
Asya slumped into the floor, sliding down the wall of the studio as she tried to regain her breath. She was pushing herself, she needed to. She had a week off before she started seriously rehearsing again, and she needed to improve her technique, get herself in gear. Taking a long drain from her water bottle, she rested her back against the wall and closed her eyes for a minute.
When she blinked her eyes open again, she noticed a figure towering over her, and upon looking up she was met by a familiar set of brilliant blue eyes. She offered him a friendly smile.
'Hi.' Roman greeted, sitting down opposite her.
'Hey.' she replied. I probably look a mess, she thought, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
He stretched out his long legs, leaning back on his hands and regarding her with a mild, slightly unfazed curiosity. She felt his eyes rake over her bare shoulders and arms, lingering a little on her torso before meeting her gaze again. Asya smirked at him, remarking that it felt good knowing the king of Russian ballet liked what he saw.
Returning the favour she regarded his frame as well, noticing how his shirt hugged his shoulders, a silvery Cuban chain barely visible around his neck. Oh hi, she thought.
'You looked good today.' he said evenly.
'Thanks.' she replied, slipping him an appreciative smile. Bastian had been clear: get his attention, and keep it. Not only that, she supposed.
Roman had a bad-boy look. Watching him dance was exhilarating, sure, but watching him up close was a different ball game. His dark hair had fallen over his arctic blue eyes, he had these faint dimples when he smiled. He'd be interesting to f-
'Asya.' a familiar voice growled from beside her. She looked up to find a none-too-pleased looking Ivan glaring down at her.
'Ivan,' she purred, flitting her gaze purposefully to the Russian marvel beside her, 'you know Roman. He's a guest-'
'I know who he is.' Ivan snapped.
Asya read body language better than most people. And written all over Ivan's tense shoulders, wide stance and poisonous frown was some good old-fashioned, territorial jealousy.
Asya loved it.
'I want to work some lifts with you.' Ivan called bluntly over his shoulder, turning on heel.
'I'll be right there.' she replied sarcastically.
The ballerina flashed an apologetic smile at Roman before setting off after her furious partner.
Asya shut the door behind herself, exhaling heavily and rolling her eyes dramatically.God, he was a pain.After the little episode with Roman, Ivan had been nothing short of bloody childish. Normally she en
Asya fled hastily out of the rehearsal room, hurrying down the busy corridor before she could be cornered by anyone. She honestly wasn't in the mood for either of them. Still stuffing things into her bag she made for the foyer, scanning faces to see if she could find Julian. Him she could tolerate. Maybe they could grab some lunch together in the cafeteria and she could vent a little.Ivan had been a pain during class, as usual. And after last night, Asya found herself unable to look Roman
Asya collapsed gracelessly into the reception hall couch, letting out a dramatic sigh.Finally.Closing her eyes she inhaled the salty scent carried in by a breeze through the open sliding doors and let it settle in her palate.
Clad in a fluffy bathrobe Asya flopped down on the bed and splayed her limbs across the soft covers. She'd taken a long, indulgent shower to rinse the ocean off her, which proved quite the experience in their affluent bathroom.Julian had gone in after her as a result of his catastrophic volleyball skills, which she wasn't allowing him to forget anytime soon. If there was one thing she didn't particularly excel at, it was losing. Anything.
'Chassé forward and look over the hand.' the ballet master corrected Asya's arm, lifting her palm slightly. 'Tendu side and side, close front.'Asya looked dead ahead as she finished the combination, refusing to meet Ivan's gaze where he stood across from her. That man didn't deserve her energy, not today. She'd deal with him later, or never. Whatever she felt like.
Asya turned her from head side to side, inspecting her reflection carefully. No smears, no smudges, no streaks. Taking a calming breath, she applied a final coat of lipstick and took a small sip of her iced coffee.The last three days had passed in a glorious blur of relaxing on the beach with Julian, dinners on the terrace, continental breakfasts and rehearsals. Ivan had played nice, but she still avoided him when she could, which proved fairly easy since Julian was practically allergic to him.
Asya stepped daintily onto the dinner table, running her eyes seductively over the crowd. Her heart was thundering in her chest as she wrapped her arms around her torso theatrically, propped her one foot onto pointe and waited for her music to start.This solo had been given to her to prove herself.
Asya rearranged her breakfast for the umpteenth time with her fork, moving the strawberries to the left, the waffle to the right, and rolling the blueberries between the two sides. Sinking back into her chair she exhaled heavily and wondered if the muesli she'd already had was enough.She'd enjoyed the hotel's continental breakfasts for the last few days, especially the fresh fruit and pastries, but she couldn't keep being so careless with her eating. They were going back today, and she ne
Asya rolled over lazily, tangling in the soft covers as she closed her eyes for another snooze. Her cheeks were warmed with early morning sunshine peeking through a chink in the curtains, casting a thin beam of light over the bed. With a contented sigh she drew the duvet up to her chin and snuggled farther under the blankets to shield herself from the frigid winter air.She couldn't even remember the last time she slept in. Her days always started with some kind of routine, some sort of plan to map out the tasks she needed to get through. But currently, wrapped up in warmth and pillows, she had no idea what time it was, or what the rest of her day would look like.It was a commotion downstairs that eventually prompted her to get up and leave behind the comforts of her bed. She pulled a loose-fitting grey jersey over her pyjamas and set off to see what the rest of the house was up to.Entering the kitchen, she found Roman, still in sweatpants and a hoodie, sittin
Moments after Roman closed the door behind him, Asya started pacing like a caged lion around the room, racking her brain to try and make sense of the last twenty minutes and the utter loop it had thrown her for.It's too much, she told herself. Way too much, he had asister,that was hissister,she met hisfamily, he trusted her to meet his family, let her into his life, his whole life,thatpart of his life.Dropping her bag on the Chesterfield couch at the foot of the bed, she unzipped it and saw that her hands were shaking, a faint tremor passing through her long fingers every few seconds, accompanied by a too-wild hammering in her chest.Oh god.
Asya was still contemplating making a run for it as she got into the passenger seat of Roman's car. There was still a smarter decision that involved bolting back to the life she knew, the life she could control, the life she could predict.With no idea where they were going or what she was getting herself into, and nevermind the fact that she was with the guy she'd promised herself she was going to stay away from, she was still irrationally willing to follow him anywhere.'Ready?' Roman asked, starting the ignition. She gave him a sidelong nod and settled in her seat, drawing her legs into her chest and hugging her knees.They drove out of the parking garage next to the company headquarters and Asya rested her head against the window. The heaviness in her eyes wasn't
Who the bloody hell did he think he was?!Asya stormed downstairs, fuming internally as she made her way to her floor. He couldn'tcontrolher. He couldn't just snap his fingers, click his tongue and she'd come. Who in the bloody hell did he think he was?!No, she'd spent the better part of her life trying to please people, trying to win their approval by doing what they thought was best for her and being controlled bythosevery people. But she'd grown up and grown sick of it. Control over her own life, her own decisions, that was essential. She knew better than anyone else what she needed.And yes, being around the Oper House during the busiest time of the year would probably be a little painful, but she...She could handle it. And she didn'
The next morning Roman was back in Bastian's office.It had been a week since Asya's injury, and unsurprisingly, the company director had called him in for another meeting. Roman had a good feeling what Bastian would be wanting to discuss with him.Who will be Asya's replacement? Who's second-best? Who's the other option? The mere thought was laughable to Roman.'How is she?' Bastian asked, shifting in behind his desk.The artistic director looked tired, Roman remarked, some darker than usual shadows under his eyes and the faint lines on his face more prominent. It was a busy time of year, he supposed.'Coping.' Roman said coldly, not wanting to think too much
It was noon when Asya finally stumbled into the living room, and from where Roman sat on the couch, he almost laughed at the sight. She looked as confused as a chameleon on a rainbow, her hair tangled, clothes creased, eyes sleep-heavy.'What time is it?' she yawned, stumbling into the living room.'Late.' he replied, running his hands distractedly through his hair. 'I was about to make dinner.'She averted her gaze and flopped down on the couch next to him, crossing her legs.'Hungry?' he asked, watching her reaction intently, looking for clues that what had plagued his thoughts for most of the day had any basis in reality. She shook her head forcefully, chewing her bottom lip.
Her internal monologue went absolutely haywire as she lifted her fingers to knock softly on the door, intentionally making it almost inaudible in the hopes that no one would answer, and she'd be forced to turn around and forget this stupid idea.While she shifted her weight restlessly, wringing her hands together and contemplating making a run for it, her mind conjured some distressing scenarios to keep her thoughts occupied.What are the chances he's awake? It's the middle of the freaking night. Dammit, what if he has a girl-The door opened, revealing him, alone, in sweatpants and a sleep-ruffled shirt, rubbing his eyes. Asya gaped like a fish out of water, her mind reeling uncontrollably. She didn't know what to say, what could she bloody say, what had she come here to say?
Asya stepped slowly out of the shower into her steam-filled bathroom, wrapping herself in a towel. She wiped the mirror clear with her palm, and almost reeled when she saw her reflection.Her hair hung in damp tendrils around her sunken expression, her cheeks hollow and eyes spectrally glassy. Her skin was pallid and lifeless, her shoulders limp. She looked like a ghost. Her eyes travelled down the mirror, over the towel, to her legs, and finally her feet.
Asya got wrestled out of his grip eventually. He wanted to yell, scream, just tell them to be bloody careful with her, her body is her livelihood, but instead he just froze.She wasn't there- he couldn't hold her, he couldn't protect her.Julian bu