The next morning Asya meandered into company class still sipping on her banana breakfast smoothie. She bid a sleepy good morning to her fellow dancers as she made her way to the opposite end of the studio and eased her tutu and ballet bag off her shoulders, setting them down against the wall.
Some morning sunshine warmed her usual spot through the circular skylight in the studio's roof, and she blinked lazily into the light as she stripped off her street clothes, hoping it would help wake her up. Dressed only in a leotard and tights she began warming up her body for the day, starting with her neck and back and gradually moving to the rest of her muscles.
With a lazy yawn she slid into a straddle split, pushing her hipbones into the floor and reaching her arms forward to intensify the stretch. The last three weeks had been a gruelling blur of rehearsals and stage calls for Sleeping Beauty, and a part of her was definitely relieved that opening night was out of the way.
Asya yawned again and folded her arms on the marley floor in front of her to rest her cheek on. She really should have made more of an effort to get in a decent night's sleep. The curtain calls had only finished at around midnight, which was followed by another hour of press photographs and backstage congratulating amongst the cast. At some point Ivan had chased her down, and she'd amused him in his dressing room for a bit before heading home. Needless to say, between three brutal weeks of rehearsal stress and yet another late night, she woke up feeling like dead.
No excuses, she lectured herself, sitting up to wring out her stiff neck muscles. She had a full afternoon in the studio, another show that evening, and she had to keep working hard. The Lilac Fairy was just the start of what she hoped to be a full season, with more big roles. All she had to do was prove she deserved them.
She'd been an apprentice with the company for the final year of her training and ended up graduating top of her class from the Royal Ballet Upper School little over a year ago. At a tender nineteen, she was fighting to be taken seriously and not be dismissed as just an over-eager student with starry eyes. From the start, she'd made sure she stood out in rehearsals and secured herself good spots in the corps within the first few weeks. She snuggled up to the principals, especially the men, and that made sure she had the big dogs in her corner as well. Whether she liked to admit it or not, Ivan had pulled some strings for her along the way. Which she repaid him for, of-course.
Last season she'd gone after a few featured roles, and ended up getting some of the more prolific ones like the Queen of the Dryads and in Don Quixote and the Odalisques in Paquita. They got rave reviews that branded her as 'the one to watch', and soon she had the valuable interest of the powers that be. Within eight exhausting, painful months, she got promoted.
The youngest soloist in the Royal Ballet's history.
There had been flack, of-course there had been bloody flack, people saying she was too young, too inexperienced, hadn't had enough blood, sweat and tears in the corps to actually deserve it. She still heard gossip every now and then about the 'baby ballerina soloist', but she honestly couldn't give a shit.
If they only knew what she'd put herself through to get that stupid title, not to mention that the real work had only just begun for her. She kicked off the new season with the Lilac Fairy, and was still out to prove she was more than just a technically capable soloist, but a stage presence: consistent, reliable, unique, and delivering on company standards every time she performed despite her inexperience.
Inexperience she hoped could be overlooked for her upcoming castings. She had a meeting with her artistic director coming up, and although she'd been trying not to think about it, a part of her hoped she was in the cards for a principal role. There was no way she'd be promoted within the next three years, her age would never allow it, but that didn't mean she couldn't chase after some good roles.
Asya propped up her elbows up on the floor and rolled out her shoulders, hearing some hollow clicks and pops trail down her spine. She glanced around the studio where the rest of the company was starting to arrive to see if Julian had turned up, but knowing her childhood best friend, he was probably running late.
She became aware of a pair of eyes on her, eyes from the other side of the studio, belonging to a dark-haired stranger leaning against the far wall next to the piano.
Eyes on her.
The ballet mistress in charge of company class, Jackie, clapped her hands to begin the lesson and dancers started making their way to the barre. Asya got up and found her usual spot, losing sight of the stranger who had been watching her.
Jackie kicked off with some slower exercises, but before long she was setting the tight, technical combinations she was known for. Asya counted out the music in her head, concentrating on the steps and how they fit into one another. Eleven-o-clock company class was something she tried to use as a meditative process to start the day, even when it chased her out of bed way too early in the morning.
'Keep it right behind you!' Jackie barked shrilly to no one in particular, winding through the studio with a critical eye. 'Hips still, dancers!'
Asya was coming up from a forward bend during the rond de jambés exercise and scanned the class for Julian again, which was when her eye fell on the barre across from her.
Dressed in loose black sweat pants and a faded white shirt, the stranger from before seemed just as immersed in the barre exercise as she was. He must be new. She hadn't seen him around before, although he did look eerily familiar, like she had seen him somewhere.
Sweeping her leg into another rond de jambé, she worked her toes through the floor and took her arm to second position to slip another curious look at the dark-haired dancer.
She won't lie and claim that he wasn't good-looking... No, no, far from it, if not really her type. He had boyish looks, beautifully boned despite the small scowl that rested on his brow. His dark hair was swept lazily out of his icy blue eyes, which reflected luminously under the fluorescent lights as he moved.
Half-distractedly she allowed her gaze to travel down his body, her thoughts drifting away from rond de jambés for a few seconds while she summed him up. Having grown up surrounded by dancers, she was fairly hard to impress as far as physicality went. But he looked like he carried more than just the typical ballet physique under his clothes. He was tall, well over six feet if she were to guess from a distance. He had a set of powerful shoulders, long legs, some delicious veins ribbing his forearms, raw strength seemed to seep out of him even in simple set of rond de jambés...
God, what was she doing? She was supposed to be-
'Square your hips.' a voice startled her, and she felt hands on her sides correcting her placement. Jackie murmured a 'that's it' before setting off again.
Asya scolded herself for getting distracted. She needed to focus, not eye up other dancers.
The barre portion of the class ended and Asya retreated to her corner to change into her pointe shoes for centre work. She'd decided to skip out on them for barre on account of how sensitive her feet were from last night, but wasn't allowing herself any free passes for centre practice.
She finished tying the ribbons and kneeled into the shoes to make sure they fit securely, feeling the welts on her anklebone protest. She noticed a figure towering over her, and thinking it was Julian, she looked up-
'Roman.' he said, extending his hand.
It was the stranger, the one she'd seen at the barre, who'd been looking at her before class; he was introducing himself, but only by a first name? Interesting.
'Asya.' she replied, shaking his hand politely before she resumed tying her shoes.
She couldn't shake the feeling that she'd seen him somewhere. It wouldn't be all that surprising if she had, the classical ballet world was relatively small and the Opera House was known to attract big names. She was probably finding it hard to place him because she was still new to the professional circuit and had yet to learn who all the major players were, much less putting faces to the names.
'I saw you on stage yesterday.' Roman told her, sitting down opposite her and leaning back onto his palms. He had a hint of a foreign accent, thicker on some words more than others, but none too obvious. But she couldn't get rid of the feeling that she knew him from somewhere. Maybe if she kept him talking it would come to her.
'Yeah?'
'You were good.'
Meeting his gaze briefly she offered him a small smile for his compliment. His startling blue eyes drilled into her, unnerving her slightly. She didn't know what it was about him, but the centre of his attention seemed like a strangely daunting place to be, and she wasn't easily intimidated. That alone told her to lower her gaze, and do it quickly.
'You have a partner?' he asked simply, picking some lint off his pants.
'Still rotating.' she replied. 'But usually Ivan.'
She nodded toward the other side of the room where a tall blonde dancer was talking to Jackie.
'How long have you been paired?'
'We're not paired yet, technically. I'm only a soloist.' she explained hesitantly. 'But we've been doing some rehearsals together for two months.'
It was true. They had been rehearsing together for some time, and she'd been hoping to land a lead alongside him. Even if she had to sleep with him to get it. More importantly, though, why were they talking about her? She was trying to pinpoint where she knew him from.
'You're new, yes?' she asked, trying to be polite. He nodded.
'Where are you from?'
'Russia.' he replied. 'Bolshoi Ballet.'
So he's a Bolshoi boy, she mused. Russia's biggest and oldest company, notoriously demanding and equally prestige, the Bolshoi attracted some of the most legendary names in ballet to its historic building in Moscow. Their training school had produced some of the world's finest dancers, and judging by Roman's powerful physique, he was probably one of their prized graduates.
'How long are you in London for?' she asked.
'Depends.'
'On what?'
'On whether I find what I am looking for.' he answered evenly.
Asya opened her mouth to ask what he was looking for, but Jackie clapped her hands to call them to the centre.
Asya sucked in a steadying breath of air as she extended her leg past her shoulder, clenching the muscle in her hip flexor to hold her balance in the tricky extension. She raised her chin to soften her neckline, scanning the long mirrors on the wall in front of her for the Russian dancer she'd met a few minutes ago. She'd lost sight of him when they moved into the center, but had a strange feeling it wasn't the last she would be seeing of him.They finished the first section of center work, and the class split into two groups for jumps and turns to allow for more space on the floor. Still a little out of breath from the développé exercise, Asya retreated to the side of the room to get some water while the first group worked on their turns. She saw Julian approaching her out of the corner of her eye, and shot him a mocking glare as he neared her.
Over the course of the next week Asya had class with Roman on the daily, and the Russian prodigy never ceased to amaze. He turned like a drill bit, defied gravity when he jumped and had mastery over his technique that was nothing short of supernatural.The various resident teachers and instructors had noticed him too. He often stayed after class, and she'd seen him coming out of various studios after hours, although she hadn't noticed him on any castings. The company definitely had plans for him
Asya shut the door behind herself, exhaling heavily and rolling her eyes dramatically.God, he was a pain.After the little episode with Roman, Ivan had been nothing short of bloody childish. Normally she en
Asya fled hastily out of the rehearsal room, hurrying down the busy corridor before she could be cornered by anyone. She honestly wasn't in the mood for either of them. Still stuffing things into her bag she made for the foyer, scanning faces to see if she could find Julian. Him she could tolerate. Maybe they could grab some lunch together in the cafeteria and she could vent a little.Ivan had been a pain during class, as usual. And after last night, Asya found herself unable to look Roman
Asya collapsed gracelessly into the reception hall couch, letting out a dramatic sigh.Finally.Closing her eyes she inhaled the salty scent carried in by a breeze through the open sliding doors and let it settle in her palate.
Clad in a fluffy bathrobe Asya flopped down on the bed and splayed her limbs across the soft covers. She'd taken a long, indulgent shower to rinse the ocean off her, which proved quite the experience in their affluent bathroom.Julian had gone in after her as a result of his catastrophic volleyball skills, which she wasn't allowing him to forget anytime soon. If there was one thing she didn't particularly excel at, it was losing. Anything.
'Chassé forward and look over the hand.' the ballet master corrected Asya's arm, lifting her palm slightly. 'Tendu side and side, close front.'Asya looked dead ahead as she finished the combination, refusing to meet Ivan's gaze where he stood across from her. That man didn't deserve her energy, not today. She'd deal with him later, or never. Whatever she felt like.
Asya turned her from head side to side, inspecting her reflection carefully. No smears, no smudges, no streaks. Taking a calming breath, she applied a final coat of lipstick and took a small sip of her iced coffee.The last three days had passed in a glorious blur of relaxing on the beach with Julian, dinners on the terrace, continental breakfasts and rehearsals. Ivan had played nice, but she still avoided him when she could, which proved fairly easy since Julian was practically allergic to him.
Asya rolled over lazily, tangling in the soft covers as she closed her eyes for another snooze. Her cheeks were warmed with early morning sunshine peeking through a chink in the curtains, casting a thin beam of light over the bed. With a contented sigh she drew the duvet up to her chin and snuggled farther under the blankets to shield herself from the frigid winter air.She couldn't even remember the last time she slept in. Her days always started with some kind of routine, some sort of plan to map out the tasks she needed to get through. But currently, wrapped up in warmth and pillows, she had no idea what time it was, or what the rest of her day would look like.It was a commotion downstairs that eventually prompted her to get up and leave behind the comforts of her bed. She pulled a loose-fitting grey jersey over her pyjamas and set off to see what the rest of the house was up to.Entering the kitchen, she found Roman, still in sweatpants and a hoodie, sittin
Moments after Roman closed the door behind him, Asya started pacing like a caged lion around the room, racking her brain to try and make sense of the last twenty minutes and the utter loop it had thrown her for.It's too much, she told herself. Way too much, he had asister,that was hissister,she met hisfamily, he trusted her to meet his family, let her into his life, his whole life,thatpart of his life.Dropping her bag on the Chesterfield couch at the foot of the bed, she unzipped it and saw that her hands were shaking, a faint tremor passing through her long fingers every few seconds, accompanied by a too-wild hammering in her chest.Oh god.
Asya was still contemplating making a run for it as she got into the passenger seat of Roman's car. There was still a smarter decision that involved bolting back to the life she knew, the life she could control, the life she could predict.With no idea where they were going or what she was getting herself into, and nevermind the fact that she was with the guy she'd promised herself she was going to stay away from, she was still irrationally willing to follow him anywhere.'Ready?' Roman asked, starting the ignition. She gave him a sidelong nod and settled in her seat, drawing her legs into her chest and hugging her knees.They drove out of the parking garage next to the company headquarters and Asya rested her head against the window. The heaviness in her eyes wasn't
Who the bloody hell did he think he was?!Asya stormed downstairs, fuming internally as she made her way to her floor. He couldn'tcontrolher. He couldn't just snap his fingers, click his tongue and she'd come. Who in the bloody hell did he think he was?!No, she'd spent the better part of her life trying to please people, trying to win their approval by doing what they thought was best for her and being controlled bythosevery people. But she'd grown up and grown sick of it. Control over her own life, her own decisions, that was essential. She knew better than anyone else what she needed.And yes, being around the Oper House during the busiest time of the year would probably be a little painful, but she...She could handle it. And she didn'
The next morning Roman was back in Bastian's office.It had been a week since Asya's injury, and unsurprisingly, the company director had called him in for another meeting. Roman had a good feeling what Bastian would be wanting to discuss with him.Who will be Asya's replacement? Who's second-best? Who's the other option? The mere thought was laughable to Roman.'How is she?' Bastian asked, shifting in behind his desk.The artistic director looked tired, Roman remarked, some darker than usual shadows under his eyes and the faint lines on his face more prominent. It was a busy time of year, he supposed.'Coping.' Roman said coldly, not wanting to think too much
It was noon when Asya finally stumbled into the living room, and from where Roman sat on the couch, he almost laughed at the sight. She looked as confused as a chameleon on a rainbow, her hair tangled, clothes creased, eyes sleep-heavy.'What time is it?' she yawned, stumbling into the living room.'Late.' he replied, running his hands distractedly through his hair. 'I was about to make dinner.'She averted her gaze and flopped down on the couch next to him, crossing her legs.'Hungry?' he asked, watching her reaction intently, looking for clues that what had plagued his thoughts for most of the day had any basis in reality. She shook her head forcefully, chewing her bottom lip.
Her internal monologue went absolutely haywire as she lifted her fingers to knock softly on the door, intentionally making it almost inaudible in the hopes that no one would answer, and she'd be forced to turn around and forget this stupid idea.While she shifted her weight restlessly, wringing her hands together and contemplating making a run for it, her mind conjured some distressing scenarios to keep her thoughts occupied.What are the chances he's awake? It's the middle of the freaking night. Dammit, what if he has a girl-The door opened, revealing him, alone, in sweatpants and a sleep-ruffled shirt, rubbing his eyes. Asya gaped like a fish out of water, her mind reeling uncontrollably. She didn't know what to say, what could she bloody say, what had she come here to say?
Asya stepped slowly out of the shower into her steam-filled bathroom, wrapping herself in a towel. She wiped the mirror clear with her palm, and almost reeled when she saw her reflection.Her hair hung in damp tendrils around her sunken expression, her cheeks hollow and eyes spectrally glassy. Her skin was pallid and lifeless, her shoulders limp. She looked like a ghost. Her eyes travelled down the mirror, over the towel, to her legs, and finally her feet.
Asya got wrestled out of his grip eventually. He wanted to yell, scream, just tell them to be bloody careful with her, her body is her livelihood, but instead he just froze.She wasn't there- he couldn't hold her, he couldn't protect her.Julian bu