Cressida
The tension in the classroom didn’t seem to lessen with time. Everyone was whispering about how Savaş chose me over Blake. It felt wrong, but somehow right at the same time.
I ignored him for the rest of the class and even after it ended. I could feel his eyes on me constantly, but I simply kept on ignoring.
No one called me or Talia any names as we walked through the hallways of the school to our lockers. Not one bad word got directed at us. I had to double check to see if Savaş or any of the horsemen were behind us because it would’ve been the only explanation after what happened today.
Savaş insulted Blake in front of everyone, for my sake. Not that I believe he actually helped me for… well, me. There has to be a reason behind that action of his, because there is no way that he just turned into a good person towards us. Not after all this time.
But I wasn’t sure what to feel about this whole thing. I had hated Savaş for a very long time… and I still do, but why exactly did he pull that stunt today? I couldn’t think of any reason to make him do that. Like why?
While I was busy thinking about everything, I clumsily bumped into someone. A girl, judging by the shriek she let out as she fell. Talia and I quickly grabbed her before she hit the floor and helped her stand up straight.
She had black hair, though not as black as mine. Her eyes were brown with a hint of… green in them. She looked like…
“I’m sorry for being clumsy. My name is Ember Monroe.” She extended her hand for me to shake and I couldn’t get rid of the feeling that she looked like someone.
“I’m Cressida Arne, but I’m the one who should be sorry. I also couldn’t help but notice that you look like Jesper Varon?” She was like a copy paste of him, almost like…
“Oh, that’s because we’re twins.” She laughed nervously, but why was she nervous? She was Jesper’s sister, meaning no one could say one word to her, so why did she even apologise to me?
“Ember, what are you doing here? I thought you were studying in France?” Talia sure as hell sounded tense as she asked this question, but I didn’t understand why? Damn it! I couldn’t understand anything because I forgot everything.
I hate this feeling!
“Mom has a few fashion shows here, so she didn’t want to leave me alone in France. I’ll be studying here for a while. I hope that doesn’t bother you?” Ember’s voice turned into a mere whisper in the last sentence. It was official… something had to have happened between these two, and now I need to find out what it was.
“No. No problem at all, but excuse us, we have to go now because Ida needs to refill her water bottle. For medical reasons,” Talia declared coldly. She took my elbow in her hand and started pulling me towards the girls’ bathroom. I was fast enough to catch the hint of disappointment and sadness in Ember’s eyes when she looked at Talia.
What happened between them?
I yelled loud enough for Ember to hear, “See you at lunch, Ember!” In the blink of an eye, she turned around to look at me and gave a grateful smile. I couldn’t return her smile, because Talia pushed me into the bathroom, closed the door, and stood behind it.
“So…” I trailed off when Talia pushed from the door and embraced me tightly. She let out a sob, and I wrapped my arms around her in an instant.
“Talk to me, Talia.” She only shook her head as she let everything bottled inside of her out silently. I couldn’t do anything to help her through whatever it was that happened to her.
After what came to seven minutes of crying, she finally pulled away from me, steading herself on the sink behind her.
“Remember the whole Oliver situation I told you about?” I nodded my head. Talia told me everything about the history she had with Oliver, but that’s a story for another day.
“Ember was the one who… who told him about the thing.” Talia was about to have another breakdown when her phone started ringing.
I watched as she took it out and answered while my brain was still analysing what she just said. Why would Jesper’s twin sister tell on Talia and destroy her relationship with Oliver? It didn’t make sense.
I only sighed. Nothing made sense in this cursed town.
“Ida!” Talia snapped her fingers in front of my face, earning my attention.
“I have to skip what’s left of the day. Dad needs me to sign a few papers that involve our companies.” Right. Sometimes I forget that Talia is her parents’ only heir and that her father is already involving her in the family business.
I nodded my head, giving her a smile as we shared another hug.
“You’ll be fine, my little redhead,” I whispered, which earned me a giggle from Talia before she kissed my cheek and left the bathroom.
I refilled my water bottle and took my blood pressure pills, because I knew I would’ve forgotten them later, then left the bathroom. I went to the cafeteria while searching my bag for my food… which apparently I forgot on the kitchen counter this morning.
I really felt like slapping myself as I headed to the parking lot. I would have to go and buy something that I’m allowed to eat, because the cafeteria sure as hell didn’t have my special food.
I was about to open my car door when someone placed their hand over my mouth, blocking me from screaming. They pushed my head against the top of the car by the nape of my neck.
I quickly tried to back-kick my attacker, but they were faster than me. As… he… it’s a he.
He pushed me further into the car by pressing his chest on my back, blocking all my movements. I was standing there helplessly as I tried screaming, even though his hand was still on my mouth, muffling every sound.
Suddenly, that person leaned down so that his heavy breathing was beside my ear and every alarm in my brain went up. I’d felt that helplessness before. I had.
But nothing could’ve prepared me for the voice I heard beside my ear as my eyes widened.
“Ignoring me wasn’t your smartest move, Güzel…” he trailed off for a split second when he noticed that I’d stopped my attempts to scream, but then continued.
“And now it’s time to pay for your wrong move.”
Cressida Usually In a situation like this my brain goes into a fight or flight mode but I couldn't do either of those. Savaş took both options off the table as he had me trapped against my own car, I couldn't fight, hell I could barely breathe with this position we're in and flight was also out of question. So what the fuck was I supposed to do? He finally removed his hand from my mouth and I didn’t waste my chance to ask any question that came to my mind."What are you talking about?" I asked and had to use all my strength so that my voice wouldn't tremble because I was afraid but that wasn't all, there was something else going on with me because of this situation and I didn’t like it."I don't appreciate it when people pretend that I don't exist, Arne and you of all people don't get to do that." His voice was so low and dangerous that it should have me running the other way as quickly as I could but it felt like I was paralysed. "I didn't do anything to you!" I yelled at him, no
Cressida Why am I even searching about this? Right, because I wanted to know more about Savaş Ewald.Turns out his name means 'War' which suited him greatly.Meanwhile I finally knew what the word he always says to me means. Güzel is a Turkish word that means beautiful but why does he call me that? I mean does he really think I'm beautiful or is he just being flirty? Why the hell would I care if he thought I'm beautiful? I know I am!!Damn it… he's occupying without even being around so how the hell am I supposed to face him tomorrow after what happened today's afternoon in the parking lot, where anyone could have seen us. Shit! I'm only now thinking about that? Why didn't I remember this info when we were in the parking lot? Because I'm an Idiot! A knock on my bedroom door had me sitting up in the bed but no one entered the room which meant it's Dad."Ida? Talia is here, she wants me to see if you're awake." "Yes I'm awake!" I yelled but made no attempt to get up and open the d
Cressida "So he's not taking you out for dinner but to a party and he's inviting me too?" Talia was surprising me, seriously. She was freaking out ever since she heard that Savaş is taking us to a party and I couldn't say anything to him because he had me in his grip by Talia and worse thing about it… is that Talia was happy because someone started to see her as a normal human from the horsemen.So I agreed and told him that I need to get dressed which brought us to now. We were looking for some good party dresses in my closet and we were about the same size already so we wore each other's clothes all the time."How about this one for you?" Talia held out a red halter tight dress with an open bodice that was closed a little but with ties and holy shit it looked hot which meant I should wear it, just to spite that bastard. "Fuck yeah!" I told her as I went to wear it while she found herself a golden glittery dress then she immediately threw a pair of heels at me. They were Silver c
Cressida Neither Of us said a word to one another as Savaş returned to driving to the party.I mean… I don't know what to say. This was so fucking missed up, the whole idea of me and this man in one place is one thing but him taking ownership of me as if I was some kind of object is a whole other thing.And the whole him being my father's enemy's son didn't leave my mind as well because it made me feel like everyone knew everything about my life but my own self and worse is that they refuse to tell me anything. Why are they doing this to me? Do I really look too weak in their eyes to the point where they think I couldn't handle a single truth and if only I was asking for too much, all I'm asking for is my life… the one that I forgot.It's not like I chose to forget everything."You're not going to tell me anything about my past are you? If you know about it." I whispered and for a moment I would think he didn't hear it but the silence in the car was begging to be filled with any sou
Cressida A month and a few weeks passed by and to my surprise, Savaş never bothered me face to face this whole time as if he was really giving me time to make my decision.But I couldn't exactly say that he was decent either because of the texts I kept on receiving from him or more like smutty and dirty texts.And it seemed like he picked all the wrong times to send them, sometimes when I'm eating breakfast, lunch or dinner with Dad and aunt who by the way were pretty much still pissed at me for not telling them that Savaş was my boyfriend. Boyfriend my ass.Anyway and sometimes he would send me those texts when I'm literally in class or talking with a teacher. Savaş Ewald knew no limits which made my case all worse and if only I could at least brainstorm with Talia but I didn't tell her about the whole Savaş 'Rules' or mention anything about my past at all because I knew she would've told Dad and I don't need that, not right now.I was now in the car with Dad and Aunt because even a
Cressida "Oh this one is awesome!" Jack and I said in union as 'Astronaut in the Ocean' by Masked Wolf started playing on the car radio while we started vibing with the song but my brain kept wandering to how was I supposed to cope with Savaş's 'Rules' I mean I still didn't talk to him about me accepting his deal but I sent him a message that we needed to talk but didn't give anymore info but I saw that he sent more of his filthy texts but I had to ignore them to ensure that I wouldn't orgasm on my own fingers because of him.The more I thought about it, the more I realised that there was never a choice for me in the first place. That day when Dante visited my Dad, Jack called him in the middle of the meeting, telling him that he was going to surprise me with his arrival and going back in my memory to that Day, I saw Savaş talk to someone on the phone and I'm willing to bet my life on it that it was his father on the other line.In other words, Savaş knew that Jack was coming to con
Cressida You fucked up… Cressida.Unfortunately that wasn't the last thing Savaş said to me before he disappeared…They won't tell you anything, Güzel. I'm your only key to your past because they all would prefer lying to you because they think… you're too weak.That sentence was roaming around me like a ghost the whole day. Was that what everyone really thought of me? Weak and breakable.No… No, I'm not weak. I'm stronger than they all think I am, they'll see. But I didn't want to think about that now. First, I was with Jack now and didn't need him to sense that something was off. Second, we had to go home and get ready because there was a gala that had something to do with businessmen so as the children of Isaac Arne we had to be there as well.And someone else was going to be there as well…"It looks like someone befriended the little witch." Blake. I took a deep breath but continued walking towards my car where Jack should be waiting since I asked him to go ahead of me.Just ign
Cressida "It's official, you hate me, Ida." Talia groaned in between her vomiting streak before she went back to vomiting."Hangover can be a bitch, right?" I smirked as I said those words while standing beside her with a towel in my hand, waiting for her to finish her session. "It is and so are you." I couldn't stop myself from laughing out loud but had to keep it down a little when Jack entered the room and he too had to stop himself from scowling at Talia because of her drinking habit."Jack, how come I'm the bitch when she is the one who pushes me away every time I tell her to stop drinking?" Jack only shrugged but had to leave when Dad called him and I was more than ready to eavesdrop on them but Talia tugged at my leg so I would give her the towel which I did.But my gut feeling told me that Dad calling Jack wasn't something good… it just wasn't. **********************Everyone And I mean everyone was staring at me as I walked the hallways with Talia by my side and I might or
Cressida Three Years later "Are you okay?" Ember asked, eyeing me suspiciously and who could blame her because I wasn't exactly fine and while she thought that my kidney was acting up… that wasn't the case. "Yes I'm fine, it's just I still want to kill Oliver for this." I told her and that wasn't a complete lie because I did want to kill him for what he did but I lied because that wasn't why I was bouncing my leg up and down or why I had my face turn pink. Despite the fact that knowing I was Talia's and Oliver's wedding after she was forced to marry him still made my blood boil and I'll be sure to make him pay for it but again that wasn't the case for my situation now. The case was that my husband, being the asshole that we both knew he was, decided that he wanted to play a few days before now and I ended up losing a bet. The bet was that the other can do whatever they want with the other for a full day of their choice and he wanted that day to be today… of all days and also h
Cressida"Why are we here?" I questioned the man who was pulling me with him after taking us into this abandoned warehouse. There were tables everywhere full of knives and what looked like torturing tools… what the hell was this place?"You'll see, Güzel." He declared to me before we came to a stop in the middle of the warehouse, like we were waiting for something and deep down, I think I knew why we were here…If I know Savaş which I believe I do then there was no way he let the Queens go which meant he did some unthinkable stuff and maybe it was the Raven's Caw doing something alongside him as well but I didn't think I would even be mad.And I was right because moments later Ace and Oliver came down some stairs in the warehouse, each had one of the two men, pushing them towards us until they were standing right in front of us and hit the back of their knees making them kneel before us."Go on, apologies." Savaş ordered Noah but he was just looking at me, pure hatred covering his fe
CressidaMy muscles felt like they were on fire when I started regaining consciousness, body hurting like a bitch. I started opening my eyes slowly, trying to force myself to adjust to the many lights around me, hospital lights no doubt."Cressida." There it was. I would've been surprised if he wasn't beside me and the first to call out my name once I'm awake.So I looked beside me to take a good look at him. He had dark circles beneath his eyes, telling me that he had quiet sleepless nights because of me and even his green eyes looked tired and who could blame him.Both of us suffered way too much till this moment but that face off with Queens was a last straw for everyone. It revealed secrets and brought back some horrifying memories and apparently almost killed me given that I'm still alive."I'll be right back." Talia's voice came from beside me and I saw her move towards the door but she was a blur when all I could see was Savaş, the man I thought wouldn't see again because deat
Savaş"Cressida, come on baby stay with me." I whispered beside her ear as I was running alongside the nurses and doctors that surrounded us, rushing Cressida to the operation room.My blood ran cold the moment she let out that one small weak smile, the same way my mother did before she… No. No! No it's not the same because Ida won't die, she wouldn’t leave me. I know her, she won't leave me or Jack or anyone who she loves.My Ida wouldn’t want to make us this sad. She loves us, she loves… me. She fucking admitted the she loves me seconds before she collapsed.How dare she? How dare she do that to me? She doesn’t get to do that, not after everything I've done, she doesn't get to make me feel guilty more than I already do!"Ida, I love you too. You know I do, You always knew so come on stay with me and I'll say it as much as you want me to… I'll say it all day and night if you want me to, just… just come back to me, please." Tears blurred my vision. I never cried, barely did at my mot
TW: Organ Trade.Cressida It felt like I was back there, back to those times where I had to be the strongest, where I had to pretend that I wasn't scared shit less of those gaurds.Back to a time where an eight years old had to tell her twin brother that she'll protect him when she knew damn well that if it came down it, she would try to protect him and probably die doing so but that wouldn't have meant she would be the one who saved… if he got saved at all.To look into that man's eyes opened back a part of my memories that I just now realised… I had closed. I did it. I chose to forget rather than facing my fears but what else would eight years old me would have done? No matter how many tough act one can play, there would always be a moment where your heart would be beating so loudly and intensely that you can feel it in your ears, your brain going into overdrive, a part of it wishing to just doze off until the danger is gone, another part only longing for the truth but all of tha
DanteThrough my entire life, I made lots of mistakes and formed way too many enemies but it never crossed my mind that it would affect my only child and wife but it did.My mistakes came back to haunt me the moment Deniz died while trying to protect Savaş -our son- knowing damn well that it would cost her life but she was always that way… it was what made me love her in the first place, her selfless and loving nature had me captured the moment I met her.She and I both knew I wasn't a decent man yet she still let me into her life until I managed to have her love me and there were moments in my life where I thought that I was way too cruel to have her by my side, too cruel for her pure heart but the moment Savaş was born and I saw her holding him and staring him down with unconditional love.The moment she looked away from him and her gaze settled on me, full of love, passion and trust… I just knew it would be impossible for me to let her go but life was never fair to me… ever.One bu
TW: SACressida I shrieked the moment I felt someone bury their fist in my hair and pull me up from the ground harshly. I rapidly started blinking to get rid of the sleeplessness but feeling someone tie my hands behind my back had me remembering where I was again which had me search for Savaş, even though someone besides the person grabbing me placed a tape over my mouth, taking away my ability to speak."For safety measures we had to take him out of here before you, no need to keep on being a little slut for him, Ida." Frozen. That's exactly how I felt.Noah. That voice belonged to Noah. He was my friend and now he… who was he? How could he talk to me that way? How dare he call me that as if I'm nothing. I groaned through the tape while squirming in an attempt to get away from him but he suddenly was in front of me and I barely registered what happened before I felt a sting on the side of my face that had my head turned to the side.He slapped me. That son of a bitch slapped me.
CressidaI was about to leave the nightclub while Savaş was supposed to catch up with me but something didn't feel right, I knew it.While I was trying to shake off that feeling someone pulled me from behind by the waist and before I could scream a hand that was holding a piece of cloth was placed on my mouth and nose.Fear filled my veins as I tried to reach for my gun but someone else came up from the shadows and took it away and only now did I notice the smell of chemicals filling my nose, forcing me to drift out of consciousness until everything turned black.************************When I woke up again I found myself in a basement… that basement. The same one where I was locked with Jack in, the one I met Savaş in.Lifting myself off the ground I looked around me until my eyes stopped at the figure of someone… Savaş.I got up quickly, rushing to his side before I fell down on my knees beside him, my hands cradling his face while shaking him gently.I called out his name. "Savaş?
Cressida "Why should I wear a wig?" I asked, frustration filling my voice because the damn wig just couldn't be placed on my head like I wanted."One, we can't let The Raven's Caw know that you know about them. Two, since your majesty doesn't want to run into Savaş then we have to disguise you." Talia answered while applying on her eyeliner.I didn't know who to ask about the whole Raven's Caw thingy but apparently she knew because her father was in the meeting too but I didn't notice him so she told me some stuff but not everything so we still have to go some sort of underground club that the Raven's Caw own, where fights happen so that we can spy around.But the problem was that the horsemen hung around there a lot and might as well be there tonight so I told her that the last thing I want is running into Savaş there and that is why I'm suffering with a blonde wig now.Once I finally had the wig on, we headed to the club where a bouncer was seated but he got up when he saw Talia be